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:: 2005 28 December :: 8.21pm

Chillin' w/my boyyyyyyy. haha
I love Charlie
<3 hehe
I love CHARLIEEEEEE
<3 hehe
maybe i just wrote a song...
HEHE

:: 2005 28 December :: 8.21pm

Sararrrrr this is for you!

Your French Name is:

Agn�s Vaillant

What's Your French Name?

:: 2005 28 December :: 7.55pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack - Love Heals

Big Nasty rocks my world.
Well, I just got done hanging out with Devin. There's just something about that kid. He's really...I don't even know. Just interesting and different. And I like it. Don't get me wrong now kittens. We're just friends and nothing's going to be rushed. I just think he's cool and I'm glad I'm getting to know him.

I have still yet to sleep and I won't be sleeping until probably tomorrow 'cause I'm hanging out with Jess, Erika, Heather, and Brandi tonight. But, I don't mind.. I love those bitches.

Ashley: I need to talk to you! It's nothing important so don't get exctied. I just have to ask you a question. Ok, little spears? Hehe.

Anyway, life is good right now. Really good and I am so happy.

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:: 2005 28 December :: 10.57am
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack

Last night was so much fun. I love you Ashley, Dani, Mishy, and Brittani. Oh, and Devin & Ben (BIG NASTY) as well, haha. We just stayed out all night driving around, going to coffee shops, and just hanging out. It was so great. I'm running on about an hour of sleep (or less), but I don't care. I'll be leaving to hang out downtown in about two hours anyway. I don't know why I'm talking about this. It's just.. I was really happy last night. Everything was just nice and we all had so much fun and got along instantly. I didn't really like Devin the first time I met him, well more of how he was online, but he's actually a really cool kid. And what Mishy and I talked about is true. He's a junior, give him a year and a lot of things will change.

I need to learn to give people a chance.
And I will.

We all need to hang out again, soon.

Now I'm sad that break will be over in like a week.. :(
Let's all just pretend we had no idea and never go back to school. Sound good? Hey, if we all do it, it could just work. Just gotta have faith!

Anyway, yeah.. shower..food..~~sleep~~.

:: 2005 27 December :: 9.58am

I think I'm actually happy. Honestly.

Of course I'm gonna have my bad moments where I feel lonely, but being single right now is good.

Highschool relationships are usually bullshit anyway. Even if people say they aren't, they are. I only know of two couples that I think are actually good.

I like that I can do what I want. I can go to a party if I want to. I can hang out with guys. I can ask for a guys numbers if I think he's cool. I can call guys and talk. I can just do what I want without asking if it's ok and that feels so good.

I want to date at the age when it will be a mature, adult relationship and the goal will be marriage, not getting laid. It seems pointless to me to date when the goal isn't being together forever. Sometimes it's just a time kill for people. Or just so they won't be alone. Maybe they're in love with someone else, so they trick themselves into thinking the new person is great, which he may be.. but, you're still thinking about the other guy. Whatever it is...it's bullshit.

And I can say right now I have not had one mature relationship in my life. In one we fought too much about stupid shit that didn't matter at all. The other he quit on me because I "couldn't see him enough" the other one.. he had no back bone, another one.. well he was just a moron. Etc. But, everything was just weak and no one tried to fix a problem that was barely even a problem at all.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not bashing people who date in highschool. I'm just saying for me, it's not right, right now. And it shouldn't be the focus of my life. I can be happy without a meaningless guy by my side.

I can't believe I begged for him to stay. What the hell? Right now, I've never felt so good to get rid of someone so bad.

:: 2005 26 December :: 6.33pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack - Seasons of Love

Ya know what? I don't feel bad for Naomi Watts. I would gladly accept being chased by like 8 dinosaurs, having giant bugs on my face, and being swung in a gorillas hand for an hour if I could end up being with Adrien Brody. She's lucky. Stop crying, bitch.. you have Adrien. Who cares about the God damn gorilla?!

Juuust kidding. It was a really sad movie, but good. Very good actors/actresses in it.

Oh, and when I said, "Juuuust kidding." I didn't mean I wouldn't do anything to be with Adrien. I would. :)

I returned my Mp3 player, it sucked. But, it's all good because my mom just let me spend the money and she's going to buy me a nice one later on. :) I got the Rent Soundtrack, Blow [DVD], The Pianist [DVD], The Dukes of Hazzard [DVD], Bob Dylan Chronicles VI [Book], and a Bob Dylan 1956-1966 Scrapbook.

Today was good. How was your day?

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:: 2005 26 December :: 11.09am
:: Music: Ashlee Simpson - Burning Up

Q: What's better than seeing Adrien Brody?

A: Seeing Adrien Brody on a giant screen for three hours.

:: 2005 25 December :: 7.41pm

Crash.
If you haven't seen the movie Crash see it. Now.

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I don't even want to let anyone borrow it. Buy it. You'll end up buying it if you rent/borrow it anyway. I promise. :)

Thanks for telling me about it Erika. I know I've all ready seen it, but this time it really sank in.

It's the sense of touch. Any real city, you walk, you know? You brush past people. People bump into you. In L.A., nobody touches you. We're always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much that we crash into each other just so we can feel something.

:: 2005 25 December :: 4.27pm
:: Music: Kanye West - Hey Mama

I love Kanye.
Well, I got..
-Pink Floyd Hoodie (It's sweeet)
-2 Zip up sweaters
-2 Shirts
-Underwear
-Makeup, nail polish
-Lotion, bodywash, and junk like that
-Like 18 pairs of socks
-$100
-$50 Gift Card to Best Buy
-$15 Gift Card to Target
-Argyle purse (It's so cute!)
-Did I mention LOTS OF SOCKS?!
-Crash [DVD]
-Bewitched [DVD]
-Ashlee Simpson - I am me [CD]
-Mp3 Player
-Some jewerly
-Lucky perfume
-Adidas perfume
-Candy!

I think that's about it. It was cool, my mom put $20 bills in random presents. Those were kinda fun to find. (That's where the $100 came from). After I return some of the stuff I got that didn't fit I'll have more money, so that's cool. And I think I'll be returning my mp3 player to get one that will hold more songs. I don't know though.

Oh, look at that. I'm rambling on and on about presents. It's about Jesus, silly me! Go Jesus. Even though I'm Agnostic, yeah!

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:: 2005 25 December :: 11.53am
:: Music: Ashlee Simpson - Eyes Wide Open

Candy...mmm.
I thought and thought of ways to make Christmas better for the guys and this is all I came up with. I think she's pretty hot.

Read more..

Anyway..have a wonderful, delicious, magical Christmas everyone.

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:: 2005 24 December :: 9.57am

Senior Pictures.
I want you to choose your favorite picture. I do realize these pictures aren't that great. I am not paying $400 for senior pictures and I don't really care as long as it's not another one of those fucking school pictures on our ID's.

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1. I do realize that I look pissed off in the first one, no need to point that out.
2. I am also aware I only have one eye in the second one.
3. I did notice that you can't really see my face too well in the third one, I just like the picture.

Tell me your favorite photo, don't be an ass. That's all. Thanks.

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:: 2005 24 December :: 1.05am

I am so tired. Tonight we had an in-house wedding, 325 people. Then I got to see Charlie <3 That made my day. Oooo Almost Christmas!

:: 2005 21 December :: 10.03pm

Oh man I love my job.
I absolutely love where I work! It's so exciting and awesome. I never thought I'd find a job I'd love so much. I'm always learning something new. And I'm usually always traveling. I feel like I'm going somewhere. I probably sound dumb but I don't care. This is what happened today:
I was sent on a party for 14 w/Jackie and Wendy. We went to Alticor in GR. (They are the world headquarters for Amway and Quixstar). We thought it was only a board meeting but it was a Christmas party. When we got there we were sent to the Main office. It said "World Headquarters" on the door. And everything inside was SOOOOO nice. Holy crap. So we got all our stuff and went into the elevator. Inside there were buttons for the 1st and 2nd floor, and we need a special code for the 3rd floor. It was the executive board room. We got to work in a little kitchen and the whole floor was extravagant. Everything was nice. The board room looked really cool. And guess who showed up!? Mr. DeVos and Mr. VanAndel!!! They told us "Wonderful job on the luncheon!" and they said thank you a lot. They were pleased. It was really cool.
Applause caters to their houses too. And oh man, is it awesome. I guess they've done a party there before w/9 staff and everyone got $100 tips. Another guy I work with did a party last week and left w/ a $200 tip.
I probably sound like a dork but it's okay. I just am really excited to be where I am right now.
Anyway, not a whole lot happening besides doin' parties at work and hangin' out with Char. I still need to wrap all the Christmas presents! It came so fast this year.

Brad

:: 2005 21 December :: 3.31pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: Fo tha Shorties - Sir Loin

Christmas time is here!
After a long day of yard work, i'm finally done. Tony and I have been doing lots of yard work. We worked from morning till night yesterday, looks pretty good though. Anyway, I'm having fun here, for the most part. Chad's giving me his laptop, my mom gave me their video camera and i'm taking my moms little doggy home for a little while, until I move. I guess they're moving as well, accross Florida, so that's where i'm going. It's in St. Pierce, which is a very good location. We're already going to start working on the bar in a couple weeks. It all sounds pretty fun, getting to design the place and all. I'm doing all of the art for t-shirts and logos and all that jazz.

I hope that most of you, whoever actually reads this journal still, will come to my New Years party.

I have to start packing once I get home. I'll leave enough stuff for the party and that's all. I'm heading back tomorrow, so if anyone wants to hang out before I go, let me know soon and we'll make plans.

I'm going to go see my sister today, catch up with her and see what she's up to. I sure hope that she's making plans for her future with all the shit she's got herself into. But soon enough, she'll need my help. In a few months or so, i'm going to save up some money and buy a new car and give ashley my truck, because i'm such a nice brother. And there's not much need for a truck in Florida, I wan't a nice car. Soon enough everything will work out nicely.

Well i'll talk to ya'll later. chao.

Bradley

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:: 2005 20 December :: 2.46pm
:: Music: Rise Against

The minute hand is too slow

I just bought Amanda's gift. I cannot disclose what it is because someone could tell her, and that wouldn't be fun.

I really think she'll like it. She said she wanted one a long time ago, but hasn't said anything about it recently. I hope the desire hasn't faded. Either way, it'll still be a surprise.

Oh, and, I got a sweet coat. I saw it and tried it on, and it was the only one left. So, my mom was like, "well, I guess you know one of your Christmas presents now." So I wore it to the other stores we went to.

On the way to Meijer on Plainfield today, there was this guy lying in the street with two cops over him, and at first we thought the guy had gotten hit by a car, so we were all like, sad for the guy. Then I noticed the cop putting handcuffs on him and pulling him up by them. I wasn't as sad after that.

I'm updating too much lately. I've got to stop.

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:: 2005 20 December :: 12.34am
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Funeral for a Friend - Hours

12:34

I just beat Devil May Cry on Normal Mode for the first time. I got it about 3 years ago. I cannot express the feeling of ecstacy that I recieved when I saw Dante and Trish flying away from the island. Ahhh...

And within that feeling, I started thinking about the rest of my life. Everything is going amazingly well. I have the best grades I've ever had during high school, an awesome girlfriend, and Christmas is in less than a week.

What more could a guy ask for?

It took a video game to put it all in perspective.

brad

:: 2005 19 December :: 10.09pm

So I'm back from Key West. It was fun, did some shopping and walking around. saw some crazy fish and the disney cruise ship, which was huge. I didnt get much video because the battery has been dead most of the time. But anyway, everything was nice, the hotel, the food, the ocean, all that good stuff. Tomorrow I get to go to work doing demolitions and construction. Tony and I are heading back to Michigan Thursday night. We'll be back by Friday night. I get to go to my dads for christmas eve and the rest of my family on Christmas.

NEW YEARS PARTY at my apartment. I want to see everyone for the last time before I leave, which will be sooner that I thought. This party will not be a drunkin bum party. I want a nice party with some wine maybe and just a good time to kick off the new year. So if you want to, and you can make it, please come. Call me for details whenever. STACY, I do want you to be there, if you decide not to go, then I will respect your decision.

Well, I think that's all for now. Talk to you all later.

Bradley

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:: 2005 19 December :: 8.58am
:: Music: the Arcade Fire

an alternative route

Today is our first official day of vacation, since you can't technically count the weekend, or Friday because that was just a snow day.

Hopefully I can go to Josh's house. I just need a ride. My mom hates driving during the winter, (even if it isn't snowing and the roads are clear) so I doubt she'll take me.

Though Christmas is approaching fast, I don't find myself getting very excited. I'm sort of dreading Christmas day actually, because I have to go to a party at my Aunt's house, which I think is stupid. Christmas should be spent with your immediate family, not all of your relatives. Save that for another day, there is no reason to ruin Christmas.

:: 2005 18 December :: 11.22am

A tribute, to my dad!
Holy crap I love my dad!!!

"I think...every 100 staples I pull out, I get one sip of beer!..........

I'm gonna be fallen down drunk by the end of the day!"

"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire..." (continues to sing)

Yeah, they're being loud and my dad is hilaryous. Carpet is a hassle.

:: 2005 18 December :: 11.12am

It's been a really crazy week. I got in an accident on Wednesday night, that was scary. I had to sit in the back of a state's car. We're replacing our carpet right now. It's a major hassle. hahaha. I worked on Thursday. A party at Fredrick Meijer for 300. Plated salads and desserts. It was fun. Except I had to drive back to Applause to grab something and the weather was bad, and it was the night after the accident so I was scared. Friday I went to Char's work's Christmas party. It was fun! We ate then went bowling. Last night Char and I made cookies and watched March of the Penguins and stuff. We're getting closer to being finished decorating our tree. Eh I better go help.

What Will Be In Your Christmas Stocking?

:: 2005 18 December :: 11.12am

Hahaha. Oh no.
To get in the Christmas spirit!

Your Christmas Stocking Will Be Filled With Little Wrapped Presents

You've made Santa a very happy fellow this year.
Don't worry - what happens at the North Pole stays at the North Pole!

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brad

:: 2005 16 December :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: Pondering

The times, they are a changin'
Well, Tony and I are in Florida. The trip was long, tiring, but well worth it. But right now, we're on another vacation, on..vacation. We're on our way to Key West. Chad(uncle) just decided today that we should just lvea tonight and head to key west. We're staying in a hotel right now, its pretty nice. We're going there for two days then heading back to clearwater and doing much more then, this vacation is going to be the best. My uncle was talking to me and I feel that somethings might be changing. He said that he'll send me to school to be a bar tender because Jason and him are starting up a bar and all that. The only thing is.. I'll be moving here. I know that it kind of prevents any particular events from happening. I cant stop thinking about how much that would change my life. But then I was thinking about my future and it seems that if I take this on, I will never hurt for money, work, happiness, or new things. There are things that make me hesitate, one of them is my cousin, Mike. I really dont want to leave him, but I have a solution in the works. I plan to fly to Michigan once every two months to see everyone and all that. I know this is a pretty heavy change in my life, but I feel that I need this. Nothing is official, I'm thinking about this option right now. If I do it, it'll probably happen within the next month or so.

Anyway, while I'm here, I am going to be earning money, golfing, riding jetskies, fishing, touring the ocean in the new boat with the local dolphins, fuckin around in the Keys, and and filling in the gaps with as much as I can. I want to make this little vacation the best. Starting tomorrow, the rest of our adventure will be video taped on Chads camera. He's going to make dvd copies for us, so that's pretty cool.

I hope ya'll are enjoying your snowy weather, I'll enjoy the white sand beaches and nice weather here :D

Well, I'm sorry if this hurts anyone to read..I'm not out to hurt anyone, just trying to make a real difference in my life.

Later

Bradley

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:: 2005 16 December :: 5.33am

Snow drifts

Vacation starts one day early.

I bet Modisher is pissed.
That just makes me laugh. No Unit test, WOOH!
I bet Dolbee is mad, too. She probably planned on giving us a shitload of homework to do over break. Now what, biatch!?

Have I ever mentioned how much I love snow?

The only bad thing about this is, that none of you will get to see me and Amanda's really cool hawk talk.
Oh well. I can edit it and just play it another time.

Now, I'm going back to sleep.

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:: 2005 14 December :: 6.56pm
:: Music: At the Drive-In

Peripheral

I just WHOOSHed.
Now it's time to do my homework.

Just in case.

[Edit]
This just in:

A freezing weather advisory is in effect until 7 AM.

Whoosh does it again.
Hopefully.

WHOOSH has failed me.

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stinko

:: 2005 14 December :: 2.36pm
:: Music: some guy talking about derivitives

how does time fuck everyone over like this?

i feel like i am running after a train and it keeps picking up speed.

you can't stop a fucking train.
or catch one either apparently.

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:: 2005 13 December :: 3.41pm

Oh my! I am so excited. I just had a really good idea. I'm hanging out w/Becca after class tonight. I am going to get something stupendous. I just finished my menu project and it was kind of nerve-racking. I really am excited about getting a new phone. Even though I don't need one. And I just got one a little while ago... Maybe I won't get a new phone. I'll have to look at Randi's a little more. I'm gonna see my boy tomorrow! YAY!
AND
I saw JENNA!!! hehehe :-)
Some guy is playing Usher on his phone down the hall...... uhhhh.
Well I'm gonna go get some subway because I'm just standin here in the hall. I have my Bus. Eng. Final tonight!!!!! AHHH

:: 2005 13 December :: 3.12pm

Mesicitic

I do not understand math. My brains exploded today while taking a quiz. I got an 8% on it. It dropped my grade from a 98 to an 81. Now I have to do homework that I don't understand. If I can just get a good grade on the homework, then I'll be fine. But I can hardly ever get good grades on the homework, even when I understand it.

On a good note, this weeks hawk talk will be awesome thanks to Amanda and me. Our segment "Fun in the Snow" is pretty funny, and not just same old boring thing. It will be on during seminar on Thursday.

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:: 2005 12 December :: 10.53pm

Forget it then.
Just forget it.
You liar.

:: 2005 11 December :: 9.57am
:: Music: Chiodos

Drawings in the margins

Today will be fun. I'm excited for chinese and Chiodos. (A band that sounds a lot like the Mars Volta. I finally discovered one!)

Now if I could just find the lyrics...