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2005 10 October :: 3.36am
GAHHH
Tonight has sucked. Well, after I left Charlie's that is. Parents are gone for awhile. So when Charlie had to go to work I went home and took care of the puppies. But I'm supposed to pull an all-nighter so when he comes here after work we can just sleep all day. He'll be here in about 5 1/2 hours. I need to sleep!
Guess what!? It's really crappy. I told my mom earlier that I really need a new bed. I'm sick of my futon. And I want a real mattress. But really I'm okay with my futon, it'll do. So I decided to clean my room today. Just totally rearrange everything and mess everything up. And I have this HUGE dresser that I had to move by myself, and I wanted to move my bed to the other wall. Long story short: I BROKE MY FUTON! BOO HOO. What luck. And the worst part was, it was about 1:30 am and I really wanted to just finish cleaning my room and sleep. But I had to move EVERYTHING around and then I didn't know what to do w/my bed frame so I put it in the yard. hahaha.
CRAPPY. So now we have to sleep on my big futon mattress on the floor. Eh. I'm tired it doesn't matter. I am so rambling right now. I'm exhausted. I went shopping today for a long time. GBAKHJANJAdahKDJ
G'night. Oh yeah, next saturday lissa, char and i are going for tattoos! mine shall be on my foot. awesome. it's going to hurt though. good thing i bought new shoes today!
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2005 9 October :: 7.31am
The dance was cool.
I had fun.
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2005 8 October :: 12.44pm
Glint and gleam
Tomorrow might just be the most awkward day of my life. I'm going out to dinner with Amanda, her mom, dad, and grandma, and my mom and Mark. Her grandma wanted to meet my parents, and she also wanted my parents and Amanda's to get to know each other.
At least it's at Pizza Hut.
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2005 7 October :: 6.35am
:: Music: BOB DYLAN
Well, the 40 days of purpose res life group meetings started last night. As you can tell, I have no idea what to call it. Anyway..it went very well. There are 7 groups of couples, Brad and I are the youngest. Not by much though, all of them are in their early 20's. It was nice because I was expecting it to be really dull and everyone to be uber churchy, but they weren't like that at all. We all just talked and laughed the entire time. I guess it's every Monday for the next six weeks. It was supposed to be Thursday, but people had problems with that I guess. So, sorry Erika and especially Keegan. ;) Laguna night must be rescheduled!
Today is black day and I'm having fun with it. Even though my stinky boyfriend is being a shmuck. =) Hehehe..
I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be!
You'd be non-conforming too if you look just like me!
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2005 5 October :: 6.34am
:: Music: BOB DYLAN
Things are good in the hood.
Who's all going to Homecoming? I'm just wondering..
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2005 3 October :: 4.40pm
:: Music: Still Remains- White Walls
Yipppeeee finally 18.
hooray.
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2005 2 October :: 11.03pm
So are the yearbooks out yet?
And does anyone know if I can pick up the senior dvd at school?
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2005 2 October :: 10.42pm
:: Music: Grey's Anatomy
Holy fuck'n crap. That was a fun birthday. Even though it's not truly my birthday until tomorrow. Only now am I getting excited. Even though it's not a huge deal or anything.
We went to Sand's tonight and played pool and stuff and it was fun. I got a really....well....that gift was CRAZY ! ! ! hm...and funny.
Tonight has been fun. Woo.
I'm going to apply at Sam's Club. Probably on Thursday. I'm really hoping I can work there. Robby said I could get a raise already just for having food experience. That's cool. And Becca works there too! And it's close to el apartmento. :-) home. That's also cool.
Anyway. goodnight. tomorrow i have to work on a crappy english test. blahhhh.
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2005 2 October :: 12.45pm
Gahhhh. 18 tomorrow. I'm buyin lottery tickets. bahahaha. whatever. This weekend i'm getting tattoos. I have to go w/my friends and w/Char and his family so I suppose that means I get a couple. hehehe. ooooh welll. His mommy made me birthday dinner and his dad brought him into a room and shook his hand and told him congratulations. It's really cool. I have to leave in a second if Charlie will ever get here. I may be going to the Bayside concert tonight at el intersecto. We'll see. GAHHH Where is he?!?
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2005 1 October :: 4.26pm
puck...
Working at Star now. Is that any better?
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2005 1 October :: 9.26am
I am in the play. I get to be a Citizen of Oz. I know, I know.. it's a very minor part and I probably have no lines that I say individually, but I'm just excited to be a part of the play. I didn't try hard at auditions and my heart was never really into this play, but I'll put my all into it now.
Red flannel day is today. How exciting. I get to do fucking everything because everyone in yearbook is a lazy ass. No one can just offer to do anything if they don't benefit from it. It drives me crazy how everyone can take that class and yet not want to do anything for it. Whatever.
Hopefully today goes well. I need to shower, later.
Edit>>
I got my Homecoming dress, it's brown. And brown is the best, so I am happy. Erika and Keegan your couple is back!
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2005 30 September :: 4.57pm
Search and rescue found the clothing but cannibals found the body first
I'm excited about the play. Practice sounds like it's going to be a lot of fun.
Go flying monkeys!
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2005 30 September :: 6.22am
He made me smile.
I need to just stop caring, worrying, getting so worked up, etc.
Last night was perfect. We argued a little, but it didn't end in us yelling, storming off, or me crying. It ended in him saying, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." And that was that.
Then we talked about a lot of things for an hour or so.
And I just want this all to last, because if I had this huge part of my life good and fixed again I don't know what could bring me down.
I love you. And always remember every word you said last night.
You can go.
I trust you.
And you know me saying that is a huge step.
Just don't make me regret these words.
Tony's a good friend.
Continue in the good direction you are going in now.
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2005 29 September :: 11.36pm
:: Music: Senses Fail- You're Cute When You Scream
"All I know is revenge is sweet when you know that you are worthless..."
And all I know is you're cute when you scream...
I'll take you
Up to the top
Of this building and just push you off...
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AHHHHH
Charlie got a ring the other night!!!! It's on layaway right now.
I'm just excited to get our married lives started. Even though it won't happen for a little while and what not.
I'm sitting here curled up in my comforter because it is soooo cold in here. Lalalala. I don't really have much else to say I just felt like posting. I had my nutrition presentation today. I think it went okay. . . eh.
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2005 29 September :: 10.08pm
:: Music: Breaking Benjamin
Advances in technology have given me super powers previously unknown and unthought-of by man
As of right now, I have a four point fucking oh.
4.00.
If only I can keep it up, I might just get accepted to college or something.
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2005 29 September :: 4.20pm
I am so pissed right now.
Here I am, sitting alone.. once again.
Every day I either sleep or watch tv. What a fucking life.
Auditions went terrible. If I do get a part I don't even deserve it, even though I know for sure it'll be a small role with no lines, if I get one at all. I'm just not a good actress. Bah.
Anyway, you'd think after we don't talk for a day, and fight the ones before he'd want to spend time with me, but nooo. I'm not someone to miss. I'm just a bitch who's always pissed off. Someone he can't have fun with or be himself around. I just have to accept that I can't make him happy and let him be happy somewhere else.
I don't have a car, all my friends have jobs and lifes!
But do I? Of course not.
My whole family is STUPID. Seriously.. what I am dealing with at home right now is bullshit. Complete bullshit.
I know I've said this a million times and over and over, but..
I. Just. Want. To. Be. Happy.
Is that ever going to happen?
I doubt it.
Not here, not now.
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2005 29 September :: 6.21am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
Perfect fit.
Holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it's so hard to have someone to love,
and keeping quiet is hard
'cause you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now we're throwing the fights.
I just want to believe...I just want to believe..I just want to believe..in us.
You're holding on to your grudge,
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love.
Brand New - Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't
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2005 28 September :: 6.42am
Give me one good day before I disappear.
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2005 27 September :: 10.48pm
Man, I am doing pretty damn well in my classes, I must say. Today went kind of fast for being a longer day... I guess....if that makes sense. I'm going to try to get a new job...somewhere...
We'll see.
I'll tell you what I do know though... There are a lot of ellipses in this entry, and I love Charlie.
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2005 27 September :: 3.55pm
Why do I even fucking bother?
It's always about you.
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2005 27 September :: 12.27am
:: Music: Still Remains- Stare and Wonder
whoop whoop
I'm on my lil bitty computer. it's fun. it's the first time i've gotten on the internet on it. hehe.
Sooo... WE FOUND A HOUSE!!!!! Yipppeeeee
It's near John Ball and Millenium Park. It's got 4 bedrooms and a huge yard. But we'll see, we're going to try to check it out on Sunday. Yay. I'm excited.
I totally forgot about my own birthday. It's next monday but I forgot!
Anyway, I'm going to check out the Heritage tomorrow. Long day. At least I finished my BA 101 paper. yuck.
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2005 26 September :: 6.18am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
I have the most insane boyfriend in the world..
but, I love him.
I know he's made a lot of mistakes and I hope I can say there will be no more (big ones at least) and actually be right this time.
He has a huge heart and I need it to be mine.
We got our rings. They are nice and simple.
They simply signify we won't do anything to hurt one another in a big way.
Sorry, I'm just rambling about things none of you care to hear.
I hate school.
But, I love hot chocolate. Mmmm.
>>Edit
Oh, and if you're a BOB DYLAN fan like I and have been waiting pathetically the 'No Direction Home' movie is on tonight at 9pm on PBS.
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2005 25 September :: 2.55pm
Hey here it is...
This is the band, the diamond will probably be princess cut on a compass angle. <> <--- kind of like that I suppose. But it looks so cool.
Here's a picture I painted of a vacation we went on. I painted it last year I think.
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2005 25 September :: 2.29pm
:: Music: Social D
wooo. This weekend has gone pretty fast. Friday I didn't end up going to the unemployment office. We'll see how it goes tomorrow.
Char and I went to Jared later on to look at rings. It was so much fun. I seriously love that store. We got drinks and Char picked out the perfect ring. I may post what the band looks like on here. They knew exactly what I wanted. I told them I liked princess cut and they brought out this gorgeous diamond. It was 3/4 carat and $4,600 by itself! hahaha. Along with the band we picked it would have been almost $6000. $1,000 more than my car! But it was so beautiful. So yeah, surprises surprises I love surprises.
Yesterday I had class and got out an hour and a half early. Yippee. All I wanted to do was sleep.
I may be working at the Heritage at CC. Either that or I'd like to try to work at Maly's w/Lissa. Or Charlie. :-)
We went to Rivertown afterwards and looked at Helzburg but I did NOT like that store at all! Jared is definitely superior. :-)
But I love Charlie and the ring doesn't matter.
Today I am baking cookies and some apple pie cheesecake. yummy.
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2005 24 September :: 10.31am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
Most of you don't need to read this so fuck off.
Oh my God. The new Death Cab for Cutie CD is so amazing.
You were right Matt, it's very close to Transatlanticism. I don't know which is better. Never thought I'd say that..
New layout!
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2005 24 September :: 9.10am
Who is going to the pageant tonight?
I need to shower somewhere, haha. My dad is working on the shower and failed to tell me I can't take one until this morning. Laaaame.
Oh and Mishy..Tomato! Pickle! Apple! Let's play that little crackle!
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2005 23 September :: 8.16pm
And every quiz tells the truth
It's finally the weekend. Hopefully this one is great as the last two have been.
I got bored inbetween tastes of ink.
Read more..
I could never look that good in what she's wearing.
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2005 23 September :: 1.48pm
oh I really should be going now...
I have to go to the unemployment office thingy crap. I drove the TRUCK today!!! It was awesome! It sits up so high.
I may be working at Maly's which would be really really cool. But who the heck knows. Woohu distracts me. I need to go now. haha.
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2005 23 September :: 6.25am
I'm sick.
I think I am allergic to school.. no wait ECON!
Burn in hell you bitch.
This sums it up..
So sick, so sick of being tired and oh, so tired of being sick.-TBS
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2005 22 September :: 10.07pm
:: Music: cartel lucky street
i going to be 18!!!!
so cool!!!!
i am going to be all grown up!!!!
yeah!!!!
so old!!!!
what up 18 year olds!!!!
wowsers!!!!
wtc!!!!
oct 7th!!!!
yes sir!!!!
you don't even know!!!!
party down!!!!
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