go away

:: 2005 11 June :: 1.02pm

I dreamt that I made out with Spiderman to save my life.
With the mask on and everything.

:: 2005 9 June :: 10.35pm
:: Music: Tiger Army - Wander Alone

Shards of glass, in the palms of our hands

I love getting lost, and then miraculously finding our way home. Who ever heard of Coral, anyway? It's a creepy town. I suggest you don't go there, everyone just looks at you funny. We knew we didn't belong, and it made us stay longer.

Oh, so, anyway. Mark's ex wife is out to kill my family. Seriously. She came here with the cops today, asking for a bunch of stuff we didn't even have, nor knew existed. Mark is in Canada until Saturday, so even if we did have it, we wouldn't know where it was or anything. And she was being really rude to my mom, so the cops told her to calm down and that she couldn't talk like that, then made her leave. She threatened to come back at night and do something. So I think I'll sleep with one eye open tonight.

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:: 2005 8 June :: 8.31pm
:: Music: Mars Volta - Televators

Stalk the ground

I have a new favorite song. Well, I think it's my first favorite song. Ever. I've never been able to choose before this, but now it's clear. I suggest you download it, upload it, buy it, steal it, whatever you have to do. Just get it.

:: 2005 7 June :: 9.00pm

Well, gave my notice tonight. They said I was always welcome there. But I can't believe I cried! Blah. It was a hard decision. Hmph.
So I will be working at Two Sisters Cafe at Champion Fitness Center. That is about it for now.

:: 2005 7 June :: 11.32am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Nine Inch Nails - The Becoming

Regeneration

My computer is amazing. I don't even know where to start. The guy took everything off of it and started fresh. He tripled our memory and gave us anti-virus and anti-spyware for free. I was so used to have a 400x640 screen resolution that everything just seems so big now that I have a normal one again. My color is now 32 bit instead of the crappy 16 I was stuck with. I have sound again. Oh god...it's awesome.

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I'm thinking about downloading BearShare or Kazaa now that I have anti-virus software. I'm still not sure about it though. I'd love to be able to download music again, but I'd hate to risk getting more viruses. Hmm...tough decision. Ah, fuck it.

Ok, I tried it. It said that I had to have this 'Save!' thing downloaded too, and it would show me great deals on websites. No thanks.

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:: 2005 6 June :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Theory of a Deadman

Numb from the shock

I still can't believe it happened. I am still amazed. The reality of it all hasn't even hit me yet. I'm sore.

We're taking the computer in to be looked at today, finally. I don't know when I'll get it back, or even if it'll have to stay there for awhile or not. So, if anyone needs to reach me, you can call my home or cell phones. 696.8751 and 799.2701.

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:: 2005 5 June :: 11.22am

Happy Birthday Erika.. yesterday. I love you.

:: 2005 3 June :: 12.06pm

Remember.
These are some pictures from freshmen year to present. And my most recent quotes. Remember and enjoy.

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Quotes
I'll shit on your chest! -Jay Ruster

I am the Lincoln log master! -Bradley Blair

What kind of cat is it? -Liz Artecki
Dead. -Jay Ruster

I can hear you refusing to put pants on to your mom. -Lisa Leonard

I swallowed my poo. -Kate Shelton

Little poos in your mouth, what's not to love? -Liz Thornington

I'm all like, "Awwe." Then I see their face and I'm like, "Dear God!" -Stacy

I don't even know if dinosaurs exist! -Lisa Leonard

Think above your belt buckle! -Mr.Hazel

I love rubbing shit on my face. -Sydney

I shit and piss at the same time. -Jay Ruster

What's going down? -Ben Birk
Your mom! -Stacy

You have to call her in! (Her as in the dog) -Mom
Come on, dumbshit! -Dad

I abuse drugs! If Tylenol starts giving me shit I pour it down the drain! -Jay Ruster

I am gonna fuck you in the ass with my black mumba! -Jay Ruster

How hard is your dick, Brad? -Jay Ruster

You're putting on a licked shoe. -Lisa Leonard

If that whole hand theory is true about penises I think my penis would be all right. -Stacy

Do you think you're going to have sex with James? -Stacy
Probably.. -Jordan Porter
-pause-
Did you all ready have sex with James? -Stacy
Yes. -Jordan

It smells like sex in here! -Nate
How do you know what sex smells like? Are you fixing to fornicate? -Bradley Blair

I don't like guy porn. -Stacy
Oh, I forgot you don't like penises. -Bradley Blair

Hey, could you take me home? Oh, and a blowjob would be nice too. -Ron
There ya go. Just be casual, throw it in there. Be like, "Road head is fine too."-Stacy
That doesn't really work when she's the one driving. -Ron Wheaton

I used to look at porn all the time. Back when I found out the internet held infinite amounts of it I was like, 'I'm gonna see ALL of it!' -Ron Wheaton

Let's have a barbecue and invite everyone!! -Will
I'm going. -Mark
You're not going! -Will

I've tried to be nice, I can't. -My Dad

Vaginas have always confused me. -Stacy

You didn't expcet that did you, huh huh?! -Stacy
Ok, no Stacy I didn't expect to get jabbed in the eye with Chewbacca, ok? -Matt

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:: 2005 3 June :: 12.02am

Ugh. Not feeling so well.
I do have a new job. It is so hard to decide whether or not to take it though. They pay a lot less than Carino's. I'm making $8 there, but at the cafe I would be making $6 (more in the fall though). I just went in to hand in my application and she was excited and we talked for an hour an now I have a job there. It'd be good because it'd be a more relaxed atmosphere, which is what I need right now. It's just so hard right now. I love working with the people I work with now. I don't want to leave yet! Ugh.
I really am having a hard time with this.
Tummy hurts going to bed now.

:: 2005 2 June :: 3.10pm
:: Music: Nine Inch Nails - Reptile

05/31/2005 Exam 2 final exam 81/80 101.25 A

I am...utterly amazed. I have no idea how I pulled that off. Well, yeah I do. Thank you again, Allison.

Went shopping today. Got 2 shirts, 2 pairs of pants, 3 cds and a Spicy Chicken Burrito.

This has been an awesome day, ~~and the best part is yet to come~~.

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:: 2005 1 June :: 9.06pm

I'm not so scared anymore. Still scared about my parents. Still thinking about it. Not so sure yet. I am so stupid. We'll be fine. We will be fine.
P.S.- I may have a new job @ Champion. The cafe there. Going to drop off my application tomorrow. Who knows. I'm sad about Johnny's though. There are so many people there that I have grown to know and I am so comfortable there w/everything. I know a lot there.
I think that's the problem, I know everything I can about what I do there, so there isn't challenge anymore. But I love working there sometimes and that doesn't help me make my decision.

Gah. That's about it right now.

:: 2005 1 June :: 3.24pm
:: Music: Sevendust - Xmas Day

Correlate brain and mouth

So...what do we do now?
It really doesn't seem like we're on summer vacation already. A lot of you probably feel the same way. I'm pretty sure this is the earliest we've ever gotten out, so, it will also be the longest summer we've ever had. I'm excited. It should prove to be a great summer.

I've really learned a lot this year. Not so much in school either, but more in life. I've gotten to know a lot of new people, had a lot of different experiences. Gotten drunk for the first time. Gotten high for the first time. Those may not be the best things to do, but they were fun. Saw my first concert, which was awesome. Gotten introduced to a lot of new music, which I love most of.

I've really changed on a whole, too. I'd like to think I am smarter. A little stronger. Maybe funnier, to some people anyway, who can understand my humor. I think all of this mixed with having friends who can drive, and me on my way to getting my own license, and me getting a job so I actually have money, will make this a pretty good summer.

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Kate

:: 2005 31 May :: 10.29pm

hm.. you're all changing so much.
"Things do not change, we change." - H.D. Thoreau
I don't like Thoreau, but I like that quote. Change isn't always a bad thing, so I'm glad most of you are. Congratulations on graduating, my former senior friends. Even for those who didn't graduate, it's like they've entered a new life or way of thinking. So congratulations to those as well. I can't forget any of you.. and if there's a memory you have with me but you think I probably don't remember it.. I probably do, and it was probably special to me. All of my memories are, even if they mean close to nothing now. I know I'm not close to.. any of you.. anymore, but I'm glad I knew you. Don't forget me, please. Good luck in college, or sitting at home if you're done with school.
hm.. well.. goodbye, God bless..

*hug*

:: 2005 30 May :: 9.03pm

It just feels like a vacation. I'm watching Hell's Kitchen right now. I am getting kind of scared...of everything. I want to make sure this is what career I want to do. I've been cooking for a while now it feels too late to back out. I just want to get to the top the fastest way I can. It's really hard. About something entirely different,
I am scared it is too late. I'm calm but scared. I keep messing up. These dreams are strange. I keep dreaming the same thing.
But Charlie keeps me strong. Ahhh have to go.

:: 2005 30 May :: 4.35pm

Two days.

two.fucking.days.

:: 2005 29 May :: 5.41pm
:: Music: Breaking Benjamin

Crumble

I'm not getting my hopes up.
Or anything else.

I will take what comes to me, seeing as how I don't have much say, or control in what happens.

That really should have had a happy ambiance to it than it did, since I'm actually in a great mood.

My hands and back are sore. My legs are also. Ok, my whole body is sore. I can't say that I don't like it though. I love this feeling. My hands are raw. My blisters have turned to callouses. I've dug at least fifty feets worth of trenches that are one foot deep. I don't really understand why, but I did it anyway. I think it's for the gutters, or sprinkler system. It is nice work though.

:: 2005 27 May :: 9.30pm
:: Music: The Shins - Young Pilgrims

~~Get some~~

Once again, a perfect night is blown to shit.

:: 2005 26 May :: 11.04pm
:: Music: System of a Down - Violent Pornography

Apathetic and willing

Two exams down, one to go. I'm not sure how well I did on either of the ones I took today. I hope I did all right. What am I saying? I don't fucking care. Even if I fail the exams, I'll still pass the classes.

Apathy is a good thing to have, it really takes the stress out of life. I'm pretty sure it's the only thing that lets me sleep at night.

:: 2005 25 May :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: Tool

Eat.Donut.Off.Member.

I just threw that essay together in less than an hour. My writing skills mixed with my extreme apathy should get me about a B. I'm happy with a C, even. I'm just so sick of school and everything, I don't even care anymore.

Three days of school left, just three days. It seems like we were just saying, "only four more weeks!" Each year seems to go by faster and faster. I like it.

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:: 2005 24 May :: 5.48pm
:: Music: Chevelle - Get Some

Quite strange

I just realized I haven't played hacky sack since I've lived here. I better start playing more.

I have a shitload of homework to do. It's all for english, too. I have to ~~finish To Kill a Mockingbird (retarded book) and then do some pre-writing~~, and make an outline. I finished the crossed out stuff. I just realized I should probably write my first draft, since we only have about 30 minutes to write the whole essay. Grr..

Exams...not too scared about them. The only one I'm sort of scared of is the math one, but it's multiple choice so I should be good. Government will be a piece of cake, once I fill out that sheet he gave us. Science will be easy, since we get to use everything we've done the whole year, and being the smart guy I am, I've kept everything. I just have to sort through it and find what is and isn't important.

:: 2005 24 May :: 12.06pm

It feels great to be out of school. I feel lazy though. I slept in till 11 this morning. This is going to be one busy week. We'll see what's new probably Friday.

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sherriffsteve

:: 2005 23 May :: 5.23pm

Uh, yup. haven't said much for a while, but I guess I've not had much to say. It's kind of funny reading everyone else's journals. wondering what you guys were thinking when you wrote what you wrote. It's kind of weird to say that I know what your saying, and really understand what you were saying. I can't believe the seniors are graduating in 4 days that makes me happy for them. I remember when I graduated, which was last year. It was so exhilerating and exciting, I had no idea what to expect. But then a year passed and here I am, sitting at a computer trying to tell the rest of you to enjoy it while you can. It really is an adventure. Life I mean. Just to look back at all the things I been through, all the places I've been and all the people that has walked across my path is just amazing. I would not change this life for anything. And I'm not saying this because I've gotten everything I've wanted. Most of you know that I am on the way other side of the spectrum when it comes to that. I just chose to except life the way that it was. and I could not be more happy. You only get one life, so live it to the fullest. I love working at a daycare and for that very reason. I have a chance to impact kids life. Not just with sharing with them the love of Jesus. But being there for them when they get hurt or when the cry being able to comfort them. Being in highschool, I spent so much time trying to find that comfort for myself. Trying to crawl into someone's lap and feel loved. now that I think about it, everyone one else is looking for the same thing. But life really started to take it's drastic turn when I realized that there is nothing that God wants more than to hear us call Him daddy and to crawl up into His lap. If only more of us could realize this.

:: 2005 23 May :: 5.14pm
:: Music: Midtown

Peek-a-boo

I've just returned the optomotrist, or whatever the hell it is. I got my glasses. They're pretty kick ass. I also went to Taco Bell. I've had it three times in the past week. I'm in heaven.

My subtle-ness is amazingly successful.

:: 2005 22 May :: 4.42pm
:: Music: System of a Down - Revenga

See that satellite? It's a star.

I'm home alone, everyone went shopping for bedding. I hate gloomy, gray days like this. They make me feel tired. I know if it was nice out, I would be bursting with energry. But when it's like this...blah.

I think next weekend could end up being an early start to one of the best summers of all time. Lets just hope everything works out.

:: 2005 21 May :: 9.39am
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

Dodge this

I went with Josh and his brother last night to see Episode III, and it was better than I expected. Lots of light saber battles, which are the only good parts of any of the movies. I just hate how they ruin half the movie by talking about the Republic and the Senate and all that shit. Who cares about democracy? Just show me someone getting their limbs chopped off, that's all I want.

Yoda is badass.

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:: 2005 20 May :: 3.42pm
:: Music: Tool

Let go

I just realized how I feel about you.
You make me sick.

:: 2005 19 May :: 4.42pm
:: Music: Tool

Oh fuck..

So the hair cut was a disaster.
Oh well, hair grows. I just hate how it curls out at the end. I'm going back to get it fixed tomorrow.

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I took a nap around 6:30, I just woke up and it's 11 o'clock. Great, now I won't be able to fall asleep.

:: 2005 18 May :: 6.08pm
:: Music: Clutch - Rock and Roll Outlaw

Get up in ma bit-nass

I got my eyes checked today. It seems they've gotten better since I last got glasses, which was about three years ago. I figured they were worse, since I haven't worn them in about two years because I tried my glasses on a few weeks ago and it was sort of blurry, but the guy said they were better. I'm not getting contacts, I decided on glasses because I found a pair that I actually like this time. I forgot how bad my eyes are, but when I looked through that little thing that they have, it was amazing how much clearer everything became. It'll be a lot better driving once I can actually see more than twenty feet ahead of me.

The lady who talked to us about insurance and what pair of glasses I wanted was this really cool black lady with dreds. She was making jokes, that were actually funny unlike most doctor people's jokes, and my mom just couldn't stop laughing.

Oh, and I got Taco Bell on the way home. Mmm...I love it. Spicy Chicken Burritos are the best.

:: 2005 18 May :: 5.48pm
:: Music: Eisley

Chop ya in yo dome, fool.
Got cable today and it's hella cool.
Almost as cool as me.
And that's saying a lot.

Today was good.
5 months, my Bradely! I loove youuu.

Shit yeah.

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:: 2005 17 May :: 9.16pm
:: Music: Eisley

Slowly growing up.
I had some things I had to get over.

I did today.
It feels good.
Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be pissed off about petty shit.

Sleep well, kids.