kate
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2005 17 January :: 7.10pm
:: Music: The Hives - Knock Knock

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suspensionrings
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2005 17 January :: 6.07pm
trying to let go of all my old obsessions. funny how the one lets the other melt away. & jim? i dunno. something about eating apples under a tree.
getit?
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bleedingsun
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2005 17 January :: 12.05pm
:: Music: straylight run - the tension and the terror
I think I might finally be getting my hair cut today. I've been waiting for a month, and my mom is now willing to take me.
*sigh*
I bruised my knee last night, and now it hurts pretty bad. At Joshs house we had his skateboard and it didn't have wheels or anything on it, and we were sliding on the ice covered driveway. I wiped out. It was fun though. But, I learned I would make a terrible snowboarder.
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suspensionrings
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2005 16 January :: 6.30pm
i turn you are a perfect drug offto try to regain some emotional stability
and it comes up with head over feet
YES. THANK YOU. SO GODDAMN HELPFUL.
knowing what the problem is re:corwin doesn't make it automatically go away
starting to deal.
still pretty messed up, though. it's been a long fucking day and all i want to is to fall asleep in jim's arms . . . closest i get is a fucking webcam and text message.
angstsighweepsadfaceaargh.
hff. good as it'll get. for now if not for ever.
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suspensionrings
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2005 16 January :: 8.26am
The Beatles --- In My Life.
Oh.
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sherriffsteve
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2005 15 January :: 9.46pm
theres nothing more than this...
I am the only one to blame for this; somehow it all ends up the same. Soaring on the wings of selfish pride, I flew too high and like Icarus I collide. With a world I try so hard to leave behind, to rid myself of all but love, to give and die. To turn away and not become another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves; More deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tears of a world embracing every heartache. Can I be the one to sacrifice? Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow. Take my world apart. I am on my knees. Take my world apart. I’m broken on my knees.
All said and done I stand alone amongst remains of a life I should not own. It takes all I am to believe in the mercy that covers me. Did you really have to die for me? All I am for all you are because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart. And I pray.
I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost. I wipe away the crimson stains and dull the nails that still remain. More and more I need you now, I owe you more each passing hour. The battles between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago. So steal my heart and take the pain and wash my feet and cleanse my pride. Take the selfish, take the weak and all the things I cannot hide.
Take my beauty, take my tears and my sinful soiled heart and make it pure. Take my world, it all is yours take it now, take it now. To serve the ones that I despise, speak the words I can't deny. Take my world apart. And watch the world I used to know fall to dust and blow away. I am on my knees. I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost. Take my world apart. So wipe away the crimson stains and all the nails that still remain. I’m broken on my knees.
Steal my heart and take the pain. Take the selfish, take the weak and all the things I cannot hide. Take the beauty, take my tears, and take my world apart. I am on my knees. Take my world apart. And I do pray, and I pray, and I pray. Take my world apart. I am on my knees. I’m worlds apart.
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reddevil666
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2005 15 January :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: accomplished
dedication
To all those who hate their nose:
Everybody grows a nose.
I see a nose on every face. I see noses every place!
A nose between each pair of eyes. Noses! Noses! Every size.
They grow on every kind of head. They come in blue...and pink...and red.
Some are very, very long. Some are very, very strong.
Everywhere a fellow goes, he sees some new, new kind of nose.
A nose is useful. After all...
some play horns...and some play ball.
A nose is good for making holes...in trees...and roofs...and barber poles.
But sometimes noses aren't much fun. They sniffle. They get burned by the sun.
A nose gets punched...and bumped on doors...and bumped on walls...and bumped on floors!
Sometimes your nose will make you sad. Sometimes your nose will make you mad.
BUT...
Just suppose you had no nose!
Then you could never smell a rose...or pie...or chicken a la king. You'd never smell a single thing!
And one thing more. Suppose...no nose...
Where would all our glasses sit? They'd all fall off! Just THINK of it!
And that's why everybody grows, between his eyes, some kind of nose!
BY:AL PERKINS
**Now if this my friends doesnt change your mind about noses-i dont know what will.
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holiday
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2005 15 January :: 3.52pm
Hmmm. I am so stressed out. Just go.
I feel like my stomach is turning inside out and double-knotting. So?
Blah. Bye.
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onceagainistandalone
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2005 15 January :: 12.05pm
im running out of money.
damn.
the tables will turn back eventually.
i miss all of you.
more than you even know.
check out this, its pretty sweet, if you like space like i do.
http://www.nasa.gov/mission_pages/cassini/main/index.html
sorry, i forgot how to make a link work so you will have to copy and paste, but its cool. so do it.
i have to go.
i love you.
love,
matthew james hinton
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holiday
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2005 14 January :: 12.01pm
20 more minutes... I think I will take a survey and bore you all!!!! Bwahahaha.
[randomosity] | Created by thetoasternetwork and taken 5551 times on bzoink! | What's a weird fear you have that no one else probably does? | Crashing a car in a lake and drowning in it. | Is not Jon Stewart great? | Is Jon Stewart not great, well, he is great. | What song are you listening to? | nothing. everyone's loud in the library | Best face wash/acne fighting product? | mary kay 3-in-1 cleanser | How loud do you sneeze? | not too loud | Do you like your handwriting? | not when i'm in a hurry | Ugliest color you've ever seen? | puke greenish/yellow | Does having matching socks matter to you? | most of the time, yeah | If you were in band, what would you call it? | Enemies Like These | Last time you were on a plane? | when I was 7, alaska | Have a digital camera? | nope | How big is your TV? | mine isn't too big. | Have you ever heard of Mystery Science Theater 3000? | nope | How many pillows do you sleep with? | 5 | sXe.. good or bad? | GOOD of course | Most annoying commercail ever? | there are a lot. i think the carrot top/mr. t commercials are soooo annoying! | Lamest pick-up line ever? | haha aren't they all? isn't that what makes them funny? | Dumbest song ever? | the macarena | Worst way to die? | burning | Who's the funniest comedian? | | Ever been in a car accident? | not really | Ever had braces? | twice | Do you know HTML? | nope | What's the most useless class in school? | hahaha | Best Jones Soda flavor? | green apple/fufu berry | Something you collect? | everything! | Something you're allergic to? | now...latex | Something you wish would die? | annoying people | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
now I have 5 minutes left.
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holiday
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2005 14 January :: 11.56am
Competition=tiring. Blah.
V=mean
School=dumb.
Work=painful.
Back=hurting bad.
Next hour= pizza
Me= happy.
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stinko
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2005 14 January :: 9.17am
pretty soon we'll all be gone
who will miss the safety of these times
who will long for their old friends
who will move on and forget everyone they cared about so long ago
who will do something grand
who will truly change the world
who will we be?
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suspensionrings
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2005 14 January :: 1.19am
you know. i never thought it'd bother me.
i never thought i would be so
"jealous"
but then i realized why
[i guess i always figured i'd be on top]
sucks being second. third. whatever.
it just sucks.
what the hell am i doing to myself?
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bleedingsun
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2005 14 January :: 1.17am
:: Mood: extremely tired
:: Music: A Perfect Circle
It's finally finished.
So here it is, what I'll be handing her tomorrow afternoon.
I need sleep.
Enjoy.
Read more..
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suspensionrings
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2005 14 January :: 12.37am
"McCormic's Vodka is the taste
of my love life falling apart"
someone else's words. someone else's world.
hits like a cement mixer, even so.
[uvblue]
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kate
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2005 13 January :: 4.29pm
:: Mood: intolerant
:: Music: Bright Eyes - The Big Picture
I.. am trembling. Partly from being cold, but mostly from frustration. *takes breath* Our school is run by unorganized unreliable morons.
My yearbook spread is a month overdue. Why? No, not because I don't do my work. Because the teachers running these organizations (whose pictures I need,) do not care that I need them. I have talked to every teacher at least twice and I finally, FINALLY have all of the pictures that I need except one. Tuesday of this week, Mr. Annerino had scheduled that I leave first hour early to take a group picture of the band. From there I would go to Martino's, hold her first hour back to take a group picture of the 1st and 2nd hour, then go to second hour a little late and be done. Tuesday I leave, go to Robuck's, and he tells me Annerino never said anything to him about it and he'd have to do it Wednesday. I then go to Martino's, who isn't there. Instead Mrs. Bitch, some sub, is. She says Mr. Annerino never said anything to her about it and she refused to call him and confirm I was telling the truth. So, wasted day.
Wednesday, snow day. Nothing gets done.
Thursday I leave class early again (which Dolbee gets upset about me leaving twice this week,) take the band picture, and then take the tv pro pic as was planned for Tuesday. After that was all done, I go to second hour about.. 10 minutes late. My 2nd hour is Spanish II with Ryan. I, don't know where to begin. She tells me to sit down, by myself. Talks for about 10 more minutes about shit on the test we were going to take. Then fucking tells me that she has been calling around every teacher looking for me. That she wasted the time looking for me that the class could have been using to take the test. I told her I had to do yearbook stuff, but she said it was no excuse. Apparently spanish is much more important.
Everyone got partners on this test, and I didn't.
I said, "So I don't get a partner?"
She said, "No, you weren't here, you lost your chance."
I said, "Well.. that's not very fair."
She said, "Too bad, you should've been here."
A few times, (yes, more than once,) she'd throw in things like, when talking to another student, "you'd have more time to work on this if I didn't have to call around looking for Margarita," or "I'll just have to grade what you have done since Margarita took our time away." Then to me she said, "If I didn't have to call around, you'd have more time Margarita."
I said, "..You didn't have to call around."
She said all sternlike, "We had a test today. You should be here." Then walked away quickly before I could explain anything. Finally the class ended and my shitty day commenced. One thing that pisses me off about that, besides the fact that it happened, is when she called Mr. Stark, he said he had no idea where I was. I came into his class this morning and he gave me the camera! Also, Mr. Annerino didn't tell her where I was. I'm not sure she got a hold of him specifically, though. The office bitch knew where I was, regardless. She issued me the fucking pass.
Anyway, what the fuck was Mrs.Ryan doing calling around? She said she had heard that I was at school so, what, it's her job to know exactly why I'm not there? For all she knew, I could've gotten sick and gone home after 1st hour. Or my mom could have signed me out for some reason. Or I could have an appointment with Mr. Walker. Or ANYTHING! Why would she call around! I honestly think she did it purely to get me in trouble. That sounds so unreasonable, but why would she even waste her time on something like that? On exam day, when her class honestly does need to take this test? It's not like me coming in late affected anyone else. The most it would do is maybe I wouldn't finish the test, and that's my problem. She had no reason to do what she did. And then to blatantly blame me openly to the class.. what the fuck. I did nothing wrong and she just doesn't have the fucking right to criticize me for anything. I have an A, a 97%, in that class. I don't disrupt. I don't do anything. I sit there and listen to her fucking ramble, and do my work, and she hates me.
Now I've gone off a little bit. My story's not done yet. I came home about a half an hour ago and my mom plays the answering machine. You know what the fuck's on there? Mrs. Ryan's voice telling my parents all of the problems I caused in class today. Oh my god.. I can't take this. I can't take her. I'm going to go listen to the message again and type it word for word on here so you know I'm not exaggerating.
Message:
Hi, this is Mr. Ryan, the spanish teacher for Kate Shelton. And, I, you can call me, or I just wanted to let you know that I ran into a problem with her today. Uh. Uh, she had a yearbook pass that apparently Mr. Annerino approved, but it was dated yesterday, and today was a test that would've taken a whole hour in our classroom for spanish and she didn't come up prior to the class and ask if she could be gone for yearbook time today and it caused a problem for my class and her because I had to call around and ask where she was because the students said she was in school. She needs to know that she has to come up to my class first and see if she can take pictures. Ahh, I appreciate you helping me out with that, and her understanding that. Thank you so much. She's a great student-most of the time-it's just getting her to sometimes follow the rules. She learns fast, that's for sure. Thank you, buhbye
okay.. of course it was dated for yesterday.. WE HAD A SNOW DAY. Meaning, anything I was supposed to do yesterday, got moved to today. And what? Come up to your class and ask you first? I have never done that for any other teacher, or her, ever. And no one, not even her, has ever complained. You come into class a little late, you give them your pass, and you go the fuck on with life. Now I have to ask? Her ruling is greater than Mr. Annerino's now? And then she calls my parents? WHAT? Not only did she start her class late by her own fault, then blames it on me, but I did not talk back at all when she accused me. The most I said was what I previously typed. Why would she call my parents? I haven't done anything. I just don't understand. I'm talking to her tomorrow. I'm not going to just, sit there, and pretend like any of it should be happening, or that it's okay. I wonder if she'll even look me in the eye tomorrow when I confront her. She won't.
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holiday
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2005 13 January :: 12.32pm
Oh my goshhhhh. I don't know....today is going crazy but cool. I am actually not stressed but excited. But I am worried about something else. Casey call me!
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stinko
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2005 13 January :: 8.37am
totally having no school yesterday was supposed to be exciting, but really i just slept until nine and then i played x box.
even so, i want another snow day tomorrow.
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bleedingsun
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2005 12 January :: 11.14pm
:: Music: a perfect circle - the nurse who loved me
The Hunger
This is a story I have to write for english. It's not finished yet, but I have to stop writing for tonight.
Think it's too gory for school?
Read more..
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suspensionrings
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2005 12 January :: 9.50pm
&
it really did sound like it was about me.
[emokidemokid.cliche.]
but it never was, really. i can do nothing to or for. alas alas.
&
it's all just denoum[i can't spell it. the story's over, i mean. this is epilogue. i'm hanging on to what no longer exists.]
&
the part that hurts the most [sometimes. others at other times. whatever]
is the whole "life goes on" thing. i can't tell him to sod off. not strong enough for that. so he'll keep calling me every other day or so. and i'll keep falling into this fucking spiral. again and again and again
and
i really fucking hate being in love
and
i just want to be loved back for once
and
fuck it fuck it fuck it.
i don't cry, per se. but this is breaking me in two. as it always has been. and as it always will.
"give it a year," i keep telling myself, and i will in theory be over him.
just like i got over corwin.
just like i got over alicia.
just like i can't get over anything at all.
even if i never talk to him again. if one or other of us drops off the face of the earth. he'll still be there. back of my mind, memories, imaginary voices. dreams. still there.
and in a year i can learn to choke it down.
and in a year i can learn to accept my defeat.
and in a year i can be. "over." him.
99% of the time.
i'm losing by attrition.
my whole world is falling in love with you.
i'd thought i had it this time, you know? someone i could trust. with everything.
& he's fucking me over just as wonderfully as they both did. he doesn't mean to, no one does. but still.
"cock it", i'm bitter. & stupid. & & &.
fool-child. shhh.
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bleedingsun
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2005 12 January :: 11.13am
TunaTaco
I hate to update so much, but damn, there isn't much else to do in my current state.
I feel like I was hit by a few trucks. I probably look like it too. I also feel like I was gang raped by eighteen crazy mexican whores.
Yeah, my mouth tastes disgusting.
Ever had fish at a Mexican restaraunt? I don't suggest you try it.
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bleedingsun
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2005 12 January :: 6.09am
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World.Pain
I would go back to bed, but, I can't sleep. I've been up since four. I'm so lucky school is closed. I don't know if I would have been able to go today, I don't feel any better.
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Kate
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2005 11 January :: 7.28pm
:: Music: Radiohead - Sulk
I know my entries are never exciting, but I have a few questions for anyone who can answer them.
1. Is the Chemistry exam with Vree over chapters 6 & 10?
2. Does anyone know the answers to the list Mr. stark gave us for yearbook?
3. When is the Algebra 2 exam for Babbitt?
4. Is Mrs. Ryan going to die soon? That would be great.
Thank yoou.
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sherriffsteve
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2005 11 January :: 4.09pm
I've been thinking a lot about marriage lately. I hope I get married. That would be cool. There is a lot of growing up I have to do though. Like responsibility. Speaking of which. Within the next few months, I might be out on my own. Well, technically. Richelle's brother and sister-in-law and their two kids are moving out to California,(which makes me sad), but they think that they are coming back so their letting Richelle rent it out, there's four bedrooms and I get one of them. I'm so excited. I finally get to be out on my own. I want to say that no one has any idea how bad I want to get out of here, but I'm sure you all probably know, you all have the same dream, so I'm just gonna hope that you share in my joy of escaping. I still haven't found a job yet but I have found a few things that have opened up. Like Mr. Pizza. Well, Things are starting to look up again, and I know He told me they would. Just to those who doubted me, I hope you see the glory behind God now. He doesn't lie. well, until next time.
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holiday
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2005 11 January :: 12.51pm
If there was just some way I could be around you all the time and never have to work that would just be great. You know?
And I would cook, too.
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holiday
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2005 11 January :: 12.27pm
Hmmm. So. Saw a dead body last night.
In other news...side still hurts. Weird.
Feeling odd.
Work tonight. Tiring.
Must
Stop
Typing
Fragments.
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stinko
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2005 11 January :: 9.09am
Next tuesday means Norkus!!!
How can one possibly contain the excitement?
In other news, i really don't have any other news, why even pretend.
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bleedingsun
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2005 11 January :: 6.33am
Ah, I'm sorry Kate. I said I'd be there, but I woke up this morning and it was clear that I would not be going to school. I'm horribly sick.
Now I'm going to bed.
I wish I could be there.
Really.
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sherriffsteve
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2005 10 January :: 6.18pm
This was a very unproductive day.
If anyone knows where I can find a car for $30 or less, please let me know. I am in desperate need of a job. Not alone for money, but also my sanity. Thank you.
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bleedingsun
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2005 10 January :: 4.19pm
That'll do it.
I'm sick again. Maybe I just never got over the sickness, and it just decided to take a day off yesterday. But either way, I'm shivering and it's no cold at all in here.
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