Tattoos!!!!

I have made the ultimate choice.

I want a freakin' tattoo.

The only problem is, I have no idea what I want.

Any suggestions??????



I'm in such a mood today. I have no idea what's up. Perhaps it's from my lack of classes for the rest of the week...who knows. I feel like doing awsome dances and getting tipsy at Jillian's and then kissing random boys. That's what kind of mood I'm in. I get to go home this weekend and I'm super excited about it. Well, I kinda get to go home every weekend...but I'm still always super excited. Nothing works out in Carrollton...not even my hair.

Do you ever get the feeling that something amazing is about to happen to you?

Tipsy is a fun word

Last night we went to Waffle House...yes. What happened in there stays there. Tonight I went to Jillian's. I got such a buzz. I don't really have anything to say. You know what...I think I'm gonna let somebody else write this one...yeah. Here's Melissa. Yay!!

What's up guys?!? This is Melissa. I have taken over to give an account of our wonderful evening. Ok it is actually pretty simple. We went to Jillian's and hung out and it was great fun. We had yummy food and Bekie flirted with Brent. It was much fun. lol. He is the cool Homestar Runner voice. He is so adorable. LOL. anyways, so bekie, in her hot ass pants and rockin' shoes started to drink. Well she drank about 1/3 of Jess's drink. It was a Liberty witch is pretty basicily a pina colada with blue curacao, bacardi vanila, coconut rum, and grenedine. Anyways it is a very yummy drink. She got tipsy and it was funny and Brent called here an alcamaholic. *grin* Then we left and went to feed Pippin @ Nick's house which turned into quite an ordeal. Bekie got her ass smacked and it was hilarious. then we came back to my house and we here now so like I said.. it was pretty simple. I will pass you guys back to the bekster now! G'night all and ROCK ON!!

did not flirt with brent
am not an "alcamaholic"
my ass hurts ouch

My great/horrible weekend

I went home this weekend! *does completly awsomly hot geek dance*

Friday

Emily took me home. We had an awsome drive and talked about many super cool things. She's a rockin' chick. I then headed off with Melissa and Nick. We went into Atalanta so they could go to their classes at good ol' GSU (kicks major bootay.) After that Melissa and I went to Taco Bell and ate lunch with a bum. He was an artist and he said I was "fine." I didn't talk with him much because Melissa seemed to be giving me the "don't talk to that bum, Bekie" look. After that we wander around Atlanta and had smoothies which were super good. I then met some people that I don't remember the names of, but they were interesting. For dinner we headed to Jillina's. I had a little emotional moment where I had to go into the bathroom and cry, but Melissa and I talked about it, so in the end it was all good. By the time the night was over Nick had his job back, which was also good. After Jillian's we went to Melissa's place and I watched Back To The Future. Ha! That movie is so good! I screamed at the screen a lot and nick laughed. I also did this awsome dance at the end, it was so cool.

Saturday

I woke up at like 8, which was like a freakin' wonder when it comes to me. At 1 I went to my sister's shop and got like 4 inches of my hair wacked off. It's in this chuncky cut and I dyed it brown/red. I didn't like it too well but I didn't cry, which was a good sign. That night I went back to Jillian's (of course) with Sam and Melissa. We were gonna sit with Nick, but Brent had an open table so we sat with him instead in the game room which was rather loud and filled with chaos. Sam, Melissa, and Brent all liked my hair while I chose to remain indecisive about the issue. I ate a Philly Cheese Steak which was too big to fit into my mouth. It was crazy. Sam let me put makeup on him...he looked hot. We then went to see Big Fish. I laughed...I cried...It was good. When we got out of the theater it was raining and cold, so of course Melissa and I, being the brilliant minds we are, decided to stand outside and wait for the car. I screamed a lot because I hate cold wind.

Sunday

My daddy went out of town so I didn't get to go to church. As a result of this, I slept in until like 2 in the afternoon. That night I went out with Melissa again and I got to meet Jess, Sam's girlfriend. She's from Florida and she's tons of fun. We headed for the Mall of Georgia...but then we realized it was Sunday and the mall was closed. We went to Jillian's instead. I decided that since it was the night before I had to return to Carrollton, I wanted something different. Melissa ordered for me...I'm not too sure what I ate, but it was much tastey. Brent was our server...again. I'm supposing they weren't too busy or something because all the servers came and sat down at least once at our table. It made me feel very loved and such. While sitting I happend to say outloud, "I've had a horrible weekend." Brent was like, "No you haven't" or something like that because I then went on to explain how my weeked was horrible. I started off with "Well first off I got a bad haircut" (by this point I had made up my mind that I hated it.) Brent of course came back with, "Well I like your hair...and my opinion is better than yours." I think I called him a bitch or something to that nature. After I ate my meal of whatever it was, Melissa was like "I bet you if I order you cake, you can't eat the whole thing." I was like "Oh yes I can!" Yeah...that was really stupid. So they brought cake....I don't think I've ever seen so much cake on one plate before in my entire life. I got a few bites into it and then though I was gonna spew. About half way into the cake, evidently I was lookin' pretty damn sad...like my grandma died sad. This is the only reason I can come up with that would posses Brent to have the longing to come over and shake me and say "Cheer up!" As soon as he started that Melissa screamed, "Don't shake her! She's gonna throw up!" I had to take a break from the cake....but I did finish that bad boy. I never want cake again...in my life. Before we left Josh gave me a whole $5 to leave for a tip...he's so super cool. We then went to Nick's place and sat around...then to Melissa's place and sat around some more...then I went home.

Monday

I got up super early so Jess, Melissa and I could go to the mall. I bought the hottest shoes ever. They're pink and glittery and the laces are white with pink stars on them. They're converses....oh they are so hot. Then I went button shopping. They say "Kiss me, I'm a rock star!" "this snowflake tastes like fishsticks" and "No, my powers can only be used for good." After that I had to head back to Carrollton...so sad.



So pretty much, I learned these things over the weekend:

No matter where we plan on going...we always end up at Jillian's

I own the hottest shoes in the world

My hair is super cute

I should never eat cake again in my life

Brent enjoys singing "Cheer up Charlie" when he thinks people are sad

Jess is a super cool person

I like to put makeup on boys

Happiness overflows from within me

I have a ride home for this weekend! *Screams and does geek dance* I've missed everyone amazingly, even though I've only been gone for a week. Yes...I am a MAJOR dork face.

This week of classes has been pretty good though. I feel more socail...and I've made some super cool friends in Carrollton. It's just that most of my life long amazing friends are back in Lawrenceville. I also miss all the people I met over Christmas break. I'm such a geek.

Last night our neighbors played their radio really loud, so Alyssa and I played 80s music even louder. We sang along and danced around the room. We also redid our answering machine. Only bad things happen when we try and redo that evil thing. After about 50 tries we just left the message and went to bed.

I want letters. Everyone should write to me. Ask me for my address...I'll give it to you. Just don't send me icky things...like parts of dead bodies and such.

My computer is still broken. I'll get it fixed...one of these days.

Maybe.

Survery I stole from Melissa

== The Basics ==

Full name: Rebekah Marie Hogsed
Nickname: Bekie
Do you like your full name? gag
Age: 19 in a little over a month
Location: Carrollton, GA...wishing I was in Gwinnett
Family: depends on my mood
Pets: Puffy the Cat!

== The current state of... =

Your house: very clean...as though nobody lives there
Your room: at home....empty. here...i'm a slob!
Your job: none
Your family: okay
Your reading habits: Yay for reading. It's super cool
Your eating habits: Food = much love
Your hair: brown with my icky blond roots
Your nails: short and painted. they need a new job though
Your makeup: never ah!
Your love life: sucks
Your school: West Georgia

== Do you have... ==

Piercings: yeah, one in each ear. i'm gonna get another one done if i don't chicken out
Unusual Hair color: nope. it's brown it's blond. sounds normal to me
Tattoo: nah
Favorite movie: Right now the LOTR movies. <3
Favorite Book: I can't choose
Favorite TV show: I don't really have one
Favorite Comic Book: none
Favorite Band(s): Ummm....I dunno

== The best of...the worst of ==

Best Movie, why? I can't choose this either. geeze
Worst Movie, why? The old version of Oklahoma. much unlove
Best TV show, why? I don't know
Worst TV show, why? Boring stuff...like that station with the nuns
Best Concert, why? You know...all my concerts are crap so far. somebody take me out
Worst Concert,why? Alan Jackson...icky
Best CD, why? Anything that's a musical i love
Worst CD, why? Britney Spears. please put me out of my misery
Best resturaunt, why? Wendy's, that's some good eatin'. And Jillian's because it's just all around fun
Worst resturaunt, why? I'm not too fond of Krystal
Best relationship, why? Haven't had one yet. sigh
Worst relationship, why? Yeah...still haven't had one...dork face
Best thing you ever did, why? I've done a lot of good things recently. Stop talking to certain people.
Worst thing you ever did, why? Eh, I really don't know
Best Quote, why? "It was so hard, he could crack a nut with it!" Trashy Romance Novel. it makes me laugh every time
Worst Quote, why? "Bekie's a dork face" Nikie...so not true

First day of classes...again

Last night I pulled my first real "all nighter" for no good reason. Alyssa and I were just talking...and next thing you know it's 7 in the morning. I haven't felt too tired yet.

Classes have been okay. Nothing too difficult so far it seems. The neighbors have once again started to play their amazingly loud music. Maybe they need another dose of beat poetry.

I forgot to mention that Saturday night was the first time I had ever cried in a really public place.

Brent bought me cheesecake and then put some on my pants...my cute pants.

What is up with that?

the most amazing night...ever

Today I am leaving for Carrollton. I say this because it's 12:20 in the morning so really it is today. Melissa and I spent one more night haning out before I left. It was the most amazing night ever. We went to see Calender Girls....which was pretty freakin' funny, and then we went to Jillian's. Everyone there has made me feel so amazingly loved. I was hugged more times than I can even recall and kissed. Ohhh...I don't know how I'll stand to stay away for another month and nine days. I love Melissa and Nick and everyone at Jillian's for making this the most amazing Christmas break I've ever had.

Thanks soo much!

I want to be alive

I have this amazing rush of joy going through my system right now.

For the majority of my life I have been sheltered. Right now I want to go out and live my life the way I want to do it and fill it to the brim with amazing things. There are millions of things out there that I have yet to experience. I told Tim what I felt about dating him...pretty much how it would never work out. And I did it on my own. OH OH HEY! THAT'S ANOTHER THING OFF MY LIST!

I have a list of things to do before I die...it's great.

Sarah brown eyes

Don't be shy now

Sarah brown eyes

Oughta take a chance

The stars are silver notes

Across that sky now

Sarah brown eyes

Come let's dance

I'm leaving for Carrollton soon. The one default in my wonderful plan

a song

I've been writing. I got the Ragtime CDs for Christmas. This song is on it....it reminds me of a certain person.

There was a time our happiness seemed never ending

I was so sure that where we were heading was right

Life was a road so certain and straight and unbending

Our little road with never a crossroad in sight

Back in the days when we spoke in civilized voices

Women in white and sturdy young men at the oars

Back in the days when I let you make all my choices

We can never go back to before

There was a time my feet were so solidly planted

You'd sail away while I turned my back to the sea

I was content a princess asleep and enchanted

If I had dreams, then I let you dream them for me

Back in the days when everything seemed so much clearer

Women in white who knew what their lives had in store

Where are they now, those women who stared from the mirror?

We can never go back to before

There are people out there unafraid of revealing

That they might have a feeling or they might have been wrong

There are people out there unafriad to feel sorrow

Unafraid of tomorrow

Unafraid to be weak

Unafraid to be strong

There was a time when you were the person in motion

I was you wife, it never occured to want more

You were my sky, my moon

And my stars, and my ocean

But we can never go back to before

We can never go back to before

Jillian's

I seem to be hanging there a lot all of the sudden. Makes no sense at all.

None I tell you. None.

In case you don't know, Jillian's is this resturant/bar/game place where there's all around fun. I've been spending a lot of time with Lys and her boyfriend works there. She's dragging me there to see Brent. He called me cute at one point. At another point her threw an icky dish towel at my head. He always wants me to come on Tuesday for Trivia. Pam took me tonight (actually...now it's last night.) I like hanging out with Pam. She's super cool and tons of fun. Nick and Lyssa think Brent likes me and I think they're all crazy. I don't know why I go along with it. I really don't know. ehh...probably because I have fun...but I'm not really admitting to that right now. Brent did a little jump for me...it was lovely. I feel like some little school girl going on and on and on...so i'm going to shut up.

right now.

My life

Have I before mentioned that I hate being at home?....hmmmm

Yeah people should come and hang out with me. I'm so lonely, sadness.

Actually, if we can all have a little moment of honesty here, I'm truly happy right now. I feel like life is so full and wonderful. I just wish I could spread this feeling to everyone. Of course I'm sure half of the people would want to knock my head off for being such a sissy 'do gooder'

But I'm happy

And I'm eating...

three whole meals a day

It's amazing

I know why too...a certain boy...who makes me hate myself. But I won't let him do that to me anymore. I swear it.

"Getting out of this hole, I'll be strong and alone.

No regrets...maybe one...maybe two or three.

If I had it to do over again, I'd do it to them before they did it to me.

If I had it to do over again, I'd do it to him before he did it to me." Whistle Down the Wind

I feel like the biggest geek in the world, which by the way I'm quite sure I am. I've just watched the first two Lord of the Rings movies. Ohhh buddy. If I don't see the third one soon I'll do something crazy. See I don't do this waiting thing...maybe that's why I only just now saw the first two. But they're soo wonderful. I don't know how I went on so long without it.

I have amazing friends who should all recieve kisses on their foreheads.

I <3 geeks

thinking

I've been thinking a lot lately. Mainly about what I want in life. Here's one thing I came up with upon the subject of having a boyfriend.

Right now I feel like I really really want a boyfriend. For once I want to be able to go to a family get together and when they ask, "So do you have a boyfriend yet?" I can finally say, "Yes...as a matter of fact I do." Of course, being Bekie, I have to be picky...like I am with everything almost. I want someone who is going to love me just the way I am. He will love my pink fingernail polish with glitter in it. He will not think that it's strange that I like to eat cereal and drink orange soda. He will think I'm funny and he'll never get tired of being around me. He will never think I'm fat or ugly. I will be able to cry in front of him. He will kiss me on the forehead without me ever having to say anything to him. He will drive with me down empty street late at night with the windows rolled down and the radio up. He will walk in the rain with me and it won't bother him. He will go out with me late at night when I have to get out and he'll just understand why. He'll just understand me. He won't want to change me in any way at all. I will be perfect just being myself.

Maybe he isn't real and I'm being stupid.

Still....that's what I want.

So there, I said it.

Christmas Break Time

I'm at my parnets house for Christmas Break. I hate it here. I've decided I'm going to spend my entire break far far away from this house until it's time to go back home.

I promised Matt I would hang out with him all break long. He's a super cool guy.

I'm going to hang with the kids at Berkmar on Monday. They make my life quite a beautiful thing.

I don't understand the point of making up a bed...ehh...yeah.

Tim asked me out. I'm thinking about it.

Think think think think.

I told him to give me a week.

He keeps on asking me anyway.

I can't remember when my week is supposed to be up.

I guess he'll call me and let me know it's been a week.

Whatever

People should call me at my house

My parent's house that is

There are a lot of spaces in this entry

yeah, yeah I'm updating

Not too much has happened this week. I went home this past weekend and I actually enjoyed it. I'll tell you about that.

Friday Tim came to Carrollton and picked me up. We went to Wal*mart. There was a man playing trumpet and I gave him two dollars. He had pretty eyes.

Saturday Tim and I went Christmas shopping. I got through like two gifts and then I ran out of money. Being poor sucks! After that we went to Madrigal Dinner. It was such a beautiful thing. I got to see MARY. She sat at our table...which rocked. I think half the people there were ready to kill all the alumni. We made a lot of noise...it was great. As for people in the show I got to see many many lovely people. Some of these lovely people are LAURA, MATT, AND CHRIS!!!!! Geeeze I missed them all sooooo much. After that Matt, Chris and this freshman girl (I do believe her name was Alise or however you would spell that) went to Waffle House. It was some good eatin'. I soo have to hang out with Matt all during Christmas break. He's s super cool guy.

You know for this past week, I haven't been this happy in a long long time. I haven't talked to Parks all week. I'm quite sure that has something to do with it.

Everyone should get free ice cream.

I've been eating more

I'm Home!!!!
It's so good to be back in the dorm room. I hadn't even realized how much this place had become home until I left it.

I'm not gonna write too much...I have to dry my hair.

Thanksgiving was....interesting to say the least. I didn't eat too much. Made me very happy.

It smells like hamster.

I'm going to work on the website. I'll put a link up here when I'm finished. It's going to be beautiful

I'm feelin' pretty fine.