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2006 14 April :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: PENICILLIN / ZERO (INSTRUMENTAL) / Tsuki senko ni kagayaku/ZERO
so, today i went shopping with my mom and she bought me stuff! Woah. Well like, i bought some of it too but anway.. i got lots of hair clips (flowers,ladybugs, butterflies,more flowers, sparkly hearts) and a strobe ring XD she got me soy noodles (i ate them) and pitascios. Oh! And i got this really cool barbie watch! XD and we're having steak later~ (Good friday? Yeah it's a good friday, FOR MEAT!)
it upset me though when my mom was talking about why we go to big lots and stuff, she says it's not because she wants to, but because we're poor and she just does a good job at hiding it. she said i don't realize that we're poor .__. i don't know
so jess went on a fishing trip today, he'll be back sunday, he gave us our easter baskets! ^_^ i liked it, it had candy and little chicks in it. Mom took out everything that wasn't chocolate out of hers and gave it to me, also the weird bear dressed as a rabbit he gave her. She was mad at him for just going to big lots and buying baskets that had things she didn't like in them, just to be in the clear, but she says he always is like that so it's not a bug surprise. but i still feel bad X_z
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2006 14 April :: 8.42am
:: Mood: bored
what the hell am i doing up at 8:40 in the morning?
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2006 11 April :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Polysics / My Sharona / Polysics or Die!!!
So today was good! Well, i knew it would be, because when i woke up somehow i found the thirty dollars that i magically lost the day before, and they weren't there, so that was a good omen. My B-52's cd didn't come though, my dad said he didn't get a confirmation yet but it's because we got it used and it took a while when we did that for the bis cd. But he's going to check amazon to make sure it processed and check his credit card and if it didn't register then we're just going to be it again from someone else, probably on ebay. We went to eat since i had to be back early for my haircut and while we were eating my sister spotted my mom going in to jo-ann's so we followed her. my sister's friends were there too cuz they were over when i got home from school and they were saying they were gonna stop in. One of her friends helped me make some cranes :D Then my mom bought some of that weird colorful knit stuff everyone uses to make scarves to make me some, and she bought me this little kit thing that you use to make this cool flower pink that's pink and black and polka dotted O.o but it looked cool, and it will be fun to try to make. Then laters i got my hair cut and it's totally awesome and parted at the side :D After that my mom and i went to giant eagle and she bought me hair mousse since i told her i liked the kind that kent used and she got me some rainbow hair clips since they were only 99 cents (they're just colored in all teh colors, which i have, but i only have one purple and like one blue, this back is a little smaller but it all of them and pink! like realy pink :O) i need to walk to k-mart and big lots and buy some other kinds of clips and other things sometime. :D
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2006 9 April :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: depressed
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2006 5 April :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: bis / Lie Detector Test / The New Transistor Heroes
what if your friends were lying to you? would you see through the reason or believe it was true?
I hate people who intentionally let bad/unfavorable things happen to them just so they have another reason to cry and complain and advertise their problems. Because it's so cool to be depressed, and have problems, like it will earn some type of admiration or respect. IT DOESN'T. And i hate the people who can make themselves better but don't because if they did they wouldn't have problems any more. I hate people who complain about things that were their own doing. I hate the people who are too blind to see the truth. GROW UP. People make me sick. Your so called tragic life is nothing but an illusion.
Someday i'm going to pick a random day on my calendar and on that day I'm going to be completely honest and tell everyone what I REALLY think, because, honestly, you have NO idea. In the process i shall destroy ever relationship i've ever had with another human being but at least this feeling rotting in my chest will go away.
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2006 4 April :: 9.45pm
:: Music: Vidoll / I My ai mai / Cross Gate 2002 ~un Solitude~
so, my PENICILLIN single has not come yet n.n but i'm moderately certain it shall arrive by the weekend with Dad, and, because i know i got all A's, (i had him)he ordered me The B-52's Nude On The Moon Anthology (35 songs :O) so for that, I am happy and have a reason so stay alive until next week! XD
And, they have King James Version on amazon! well, used and new from third party sellers, and the least expensive one is 29 bucks, which is crazy for an american cd but compared to others at 70 some dollars it's not that bad. I really need to buy/download that album (i got it from napster but even tunebite can't unprotect the files n.n)
I suppose there's more i could talk about but i'm too tired to remember.
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2006 20 March :: 1.09pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Lapis Lazuli / ZUTTO / The BEST
okay, so, WTF happened to my Valentine's picture? It's all fucked up <<
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2006 19 March :: 10.42pm
:: Music: The HorrorPops / Girl in a Cage / Hell yeah!
i'm totally awesome.
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2006 19 March :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: PENICILLIN/99banme no yoru/Singles
"Thinking's hard - let's just kill it!"
okay so wtf is a runtime error? xanga is just being weird.
so yesterday was love! Chris came over and it was loads of fun, we talk about.. well.. shit.. i dunno.. lots of things XD He had the BRIGHT idea of walking down to country fair. IT WAS FREEZING! but on the way back it wasn't that bad, i bought a cream cheese danish and a bag of wint-o-green lifesavers that i've already inhaled n.n
today lana came to visit with her baby, she was cute. she liked me, but weird enough most babies do O.o my mom said she was a really cute baby but to me babies all kinda look the same o.o they're going back to russia to visit relatives (lana's mom, etc) what fun!
so i talked to my mom a little and sometime in the future nisai is going to teach me some japanese, and i may get lessons from the internet... i told her i wanted to be an exchange student and she was all "omg no that's too long! -____-" XD i'm going to changer her mind. i swear it. i mean, i know, don't get me wrong, i'm totally lucky stars for getting to go ONCE. but i don't want that to be the end. dreams don't end that way, and i'll be damned if i let that happen to mine.
mom's making steak for dinner ^.^ yummi
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2006 15 March :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Dir en grey/24 Cylinders/Kisou
damnit, i wish i'd get over this cold! somebody just kill me XD!!
Okay so. Teh band kids have embarked to florida, by bus. HA. Even my plan ride to Japan won't be that long xDD And we have convined dearest Krystal to come visit us in art! ho ho!
So i brought the pie thing home, and i was just like to my mom: "I TOLD you i had it taken care of :P" and she got pissed but i don't care xDD i told Mrs. Tharpe about it and she was like "Jeez! It's not like i would have done anything with it, plus you called me -- twice." so i told her i didn't know if i did it right the first time and she told me it was hard because you have to wait for the recording to finish but, heh, i didn't, i just punched in the extension right away xDD So like yeah. I felt triumphant :D Once again Brooke escapes punishment and disaster!
Btw, Ryan Nichols is like totally awesome, we have fun in computer class and health! Listening to PENICILLIN today and distracting him from his work ^_^
I'm totally looking forward to this weekend, simply because of the days off, and i'm not going to my dad's so i don't have to go anyway, and that's the great thing about it. I'm just going to sleep ^_~ (unless something better comes up, but what's better than sleeping? ha. thought so.)
BUT. I DO have to babysit tomorrow - - ;; Maybe something will come up and i won't have to. That happens, you know.
Btw, how am i ever going to roll up a million roses? _-_ it's going to take me forever... I only have like 41,000 something... not nearly enough >.< damnit
Nova is cool. I made her up, and she's totally awesome. She's got superpowers. But, all teh people in her story do. But Nova is my favorite ^^ (shhh, don't tell the others o.o)
PS. I hate it when people advertise their problems like it's some type of badge of honor. nobody thinks your cool because you go to therapy. You're not cool if you WANT to go to therapy. Shut the fuck up.
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2006 12 March :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: ORANGE RANGE/Mission in Poppiple/1st CONTACT
So. I did have plans for saturday, but sadly neither chris nor als could come. But i guess it's just as well since i'm krank (sick), and i don't think i would have enjoyed my company, and they would'nt either, and i don't want to go infecting anybody now do i? Aber ich still went out with mein vatti und wir went to go eat somewhere, und wir went to get movies :D Mein Vatti said ich should have something to do while being krank. So ich got Mirrormask*, Speak, und JU-ON.
Mirrormask was amazing. simply supurb. Ein of mein lieblingsmovies by far. Speak was spitze auch, sie stayed pretty true to das buch aber sie left out some parts, und sie changed a few things, aber it was still klasse. It made mich cry : ( JU-ON was toll auch, much scarier than the amerikanisch version, aber the amerikanisch version did have more backstory, aber it focused more on one character than the original. the original was a whole string of deaths of peole who entered the haus. It made mich see images of the lady wann ich went to sleep, and ich heard the japanisch people talking in my head, it was a whole druggy effect, scary but entertaining, ich weisse nicht how much of that time ich was actually sleeping
Bist du like mein incorporate deutsch? XD
NEWS BULLETIN: some madchen just called on the callwave asking for Ashley O_O. Und. ich forgot. MONSTER RANCHER EVOLUTION. COMING IN APRIL. BITCHES!
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2006 5 March :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: T.M. Revolution/INVOKE/Jpopcd
I've got a big closet =)
Lord Nikuru: I'm too lazy to clear out my closert.
Lord Nikuru: closet**
LeaveWhiteAsh: my closet just has close and some other stuff
LeaveWhiteAsh: clothes*
Lord Nikuru: lol
Lord Nikuru: Mine's got...
Lord Nikuru: A ton of junk.
Lord Nikuru: And clothes.
LeaveWhiteAsh: haha
LeaveWhiteAsh: my closet is too small for a lot of junk
Lord Nikuru: I've got a decent sized closet.
LeaveWhiteAsh: holly shit
LeaveWhiteAsh: i'm such a pervert
LeaveWhiteAsh: i totally took that in bad context XD
Lord Nikuru: Holly shit? lol, what?
LeaveWhiteAsh: 'i've got a decent sized closet'
LeaveWhiteAsh: such a perv xDD
Lord Nikuru: Clos.et...
Lord Nikuru: XD
Lord Nikuru: Wow.
LeaveWhiteAsh: yeah that was pretty bad
LeaveWhiteAsh: well, it didn't matter what word was at the end
LeaveWhiteAsh: it was just the
Lord Nikuru: lol
Lord Nikuru: I get what you mean.
LeaveWhiteAsh: "i've got a pretty decent sized" part that set me off XD
Lord Nikuru: "I'VE GOT A BIG CLOSET."
LeaveWhiteAsh: YES
LeaveWhiteAsh: XD
Lord Nikuru: But, yeah.
Lord Nikuru: It IS big.
LeaveWhiteAsh: XD
LeaveWhiteAsh: !!!!!
Lord Nikuru: :P
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2006 4 March :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Miyavi/Senor Senora Senorita/Senor Senora Senorita
one two step, step by step
I'm so lyke totally updating!
The fountain. WTF. It's so stupid and ugly, and.. stoopid XD. It's just... sitting there... ugh... stoopit tacky fountain XD You may have brainwashed my family you shall not take me too xDDD
So, yesterday well, um, oh let's see, the freak was still sick so i didn't have to baby sit, starting to take a nap, Chris called me and we gabbed for a while XD He was going to come over but my mom couldn't give him a ride home, oh well, some other time. XD But i have to say our chats on teh phone are the best <3. Then when my mom got home i went with her to cash in some checks i had (two from babysitting, one from my saturday job, 123 dollars total :O) put it all in teh bank haha. I didn't have to work today, but my mom said more stuff will probably come up and it's probably gonna end up being a few saturdays a month and maybe stuff in teh summer. the we got my sister and then we went to the store and got movies, i wanted to get The Weatherman but they were out. so my mom ended up picking The Wedding Crashers and The Corpse Bride, i slept at home until around 1 when they put in the corpse bride, my sister made jess help her make smoothies (she was all bent on making them tonight, despite what other people wanted to do) they asked me if i wanted one but i didn't. We watched the corpse bride, then i slept more on the couch and eventually went to bed.
Today my mom is painting more of the bathroom (man she gets cranky when she's working in there XD) It's slowly turning purple, it will be weird, cuz this is the first makeover the bathroom had. I finally got to watch Ma Vie En Rose, though, hehe, for the colorful movie it was it was kinda sad. I felt so bad for Ludo the whole time ;;
that was all i did, just hung around otherwise.
the fountain is gay! >:O
BTW,
I realized that, in 10-20 years from now, i will look back at this journal and learn absolutely NOTHING about my life as a teenager.
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2006 1 March :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: enraged
:: Music: Klaha/Chameleon no suppun/Nostal Lab
Swing low sweet cherry
Make it awful
It's your life, it's your party, it's so awful
Let's start a fire
Let's start a riot! Yeah it's awful
It was punk
Yeah, it was perfect now it's awful
They know how to break all the girls like you
And they rob the souls of the girls like you
And they break the hearts of girls
Swing low, cherry, cherry
Yeah it's awful
He's drunk, he tastes
Like candy, he's so beautiful
He's so deep like dirty water
God, he's awful
You're lost, oh, where's your daddy -it's so awful
And they royalty rate all the girls like you
And they sell it out to the girls like you
To incorporate little girls
Hey, run away with the light
Run away its divine
Let's run away, yeah, tonight, and
We'll steal the light of the world
Swing low, sweet cherry, yeah its awful
You're gonna ripe for the picking, it's so awful
You've got your youth
Don't waste your money
Yeah its awful
I was punk!
Now I'm just stupid
I'm so awful
Oh, just shut up you're only 16
If the world is so wrong
Yeah you can break them all
With one song
If the world is so wrong yeah you take it all
With one song
Swing low sweet cherry
Make it awful
hey bought it all, just build a new one.
Make it beautiful...yeah
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2006 26 February :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Bis/Popstar Kill/The New Transistor Heroes
hey popstar you look real silly, i wanna kill you now (kill, kill, kill)
Attention: Bis is the best power pop group ever. thank you.
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