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2005 19 September :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: fearful
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Lucky Denver Mint
you're not bigger than this, not better, why can't you learn?
http://www.yorku.ca/cjp/Summaries3.htm
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2005 18 September :: 10.37pm
i have to go do my homework...
also, i'm babysitting again, so i shall get money to buy cd's and kanji and language books and lots of lovely things.
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2005 18 September :: 2.54pm
:: Mood: surreal
:: Music: PENICLLIN - English Industrial Students
feel the vibe, sound of life in the air, breaking through that wide and endless sky of asia
hahahahaha... i'm hearing music in my head
well, my stuff arrived from Ebay, and i'm in love with Hakuei more and more all the time :D in one of the videos they're in this cardboard small city and Hakuei is sporting this awesome red jumpsuit with matching eyepatch :D
omgwtflolJAPAN!
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2005 13 September :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: ack
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Christmas Card
hey hey, still staring, little girl? are you looking at or past me?
i think a mosquito bit my foot and it itches like doom.
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2005 10 September :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST SHOOT ME NOW
everything's shit :(
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2005 31 August :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: pissed off
i think you got a piece of my heart on your face.
yeah.. today was well, yeah.
there are some things i like about my schedule and some things i don't. i only saw casey ONCE before homeroom started. she isn't in any of my classes and she isn't in my lunch.:( actually on Als is in my lunch.
homeroom i think will be okay, Als is there as well as Bobby, Kristen, and Krystal. Everybody said Mrs. Daub was really mean but i think she's okay so far. when we get our seats moved though it might suck. It's also the only class i have with Stalker in it.
2d period is mostly boring, mostly preppy people, Lye and Hannah J and Kirstie are in it though, so it's not completely bad. Sholtis seems really boring though.
3. Is gym. i HATE gym. Mrs. Walk said this year we do football and basket ball. I will die. Lye is in it, Jarrid is, and Mike K is, those are the only 9th graders. Brandon Butler is there too and he was talking to me O.o shelby said he's a retard, haha. he seems sorta nice O.o Jarrid was talking to me and butler too.
4 is gewd, Ryan M sits right next to me, and Raya and Nichole M are in it. Raya was happy cuz i could be her partner and stuff. who should i chose, ryan or raya? :(
after that is lunch, which is.. eh.. well at least my beloved Als is there. we sat with Jessica and Raya and their friends, Shelby knows Jessica and i think my sister did too O.o i didn't eat today though because the line was really slow and not worth the wait.
5th is.. well.. i dunno about 5th yet, Sure it's art and i have Als with me but once we move to alphebetical order it will be hard. Most of those people are like preppy seniors, who i don't really think care too much about art, they just like Mr. Humes. um.. my mom said i could have made friends because she said the people that take art are a little different but once i told her my observations she agreed with me. we also might have to work the cafeteria worker's appreciation day :(
6th i have Knox, um, Eric Law is there but i don't sit by him. I sit by Bobby though, he is my partner :)
7th i don't like at all. there are only like maybe 10-15 people, everyone being people like abby r, kevin p, kevin forish, bobby martin, kara p, etc. AND I'M RIGHT SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF THEM. i'm surrounded on all sides and i have no one to talk to <.< the teacher seemed like he sort of got the impression that i'm quiet or something _-_
8th is GREAT. i had study hall with cappozello? (not checking right now) but we had like twice the amount of people we should, so it seemed like all the 9th graders, we got moved to study hall with Mr. Barker. he is by Mr. J's room, he's the other shop teacher. it's good because i sit by Jaletto and we some other people and we were talking and stuff the whole time. and i mean, sit like right next to him ^__^ and unfortunately i'm far away from my locker now, but i'm closer to my bus...
i saw Joe during the day and i said hi and he said hi back but he didn't seem to happy to see me :(
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2005 29 August :: 12.49am
The mistletoe hung in the castle hall,
The holly branch shone on the old oak wall;
And the baron's retainers were blithe and gay,
And keeping their Christmas holiday.
The baron beheld with a father's pride
His beautiful child, young Lovell's bride;
While she with her bright eyes seemed to be
The star of the goodly company.
'I'm weary of dancing now," she cried;
"Here, tarry a moment-I'll hide, I'll hide!
And, Lovell, be sure thou'rt first to trace
The clew to my secret lurking place."
Away she ran-and her friends began
Each tower to search, and each nook to scan;
And young Lovell cried, "O, where dost thou hide?
I'm lonesome without thee, my own dear bride."
They sought her that night, and they sought her next day,
And they sought her in vain while a week passed away;
In the highest, the lowest, the loneliest spot,
Young Lovell sought wildly-but found her not.
And years flew by, and their grief at last
Was told as a sorrowful tale long past;
And when Lovell appeared the children cried,
"See! the old man weeps for his fairy bride."
At length an oak chest, that had long lain hid,
Was found in the castle-they raised the lid,
And a skeleton form lay moldering there
In the bridal wreath of that lady fair!
0, sad was her fate!-in sportive jest
She hid from her lord in the old oak chest.
It closed with a spring!-and, dreadful doom,
The bride lay clasped in her living tomb!
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2005 26 August :: 12.01am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Goodbye Sky Harbor
you are. . . smaller, getting smaller but i still see . . . you . . .
long survey without stupid questions | Created by shatteredwidow and taken 66 times on Bzoink | basics | name:: | Brooke | age:: | 14 | birthday:: | 10/18/90 | zodiac sign:: | Libra | height:: | 4'11" | weight:: | 'round 118 | shoe size:: | 6 - 6 1/2 | any piercings? | not anymore | any tattoos? | not yet | glasses/contacts:: | i chose not to have glasses | do you have braces? | just got them off | hair color:: | pink.. well.. yeah.. mostly XD | eye color:: | brown and amberish green | race/heritage:: | white, origins being german, polish, english-irish and swiss | favorites | color:: | pinkxblack | person:: | kyo and hakuei XD | band:: | dir en grey, PENICILLIN, jimmy eat world, hole | tv show:: | wonder showzen | movie:: | the dark crystal, labyrinth | number:: | 9 | day of the week:: | saturday | season:: | autumn | place:: | kyo's pants XD | sport:: | badminton | singer:: | kyo XD | book:: | pendragon series, tithe: a modern faerie tale | month | october | flower:: | black roses (okay so they aren't really black, but purplish) | candy:: | button candy | ice cream flavor:: | pandaw paws, whitehouse cherry | restaurant:: | 200 items buffet | actor:: | depp XD | actress:: | | animal:: | poison arrow frogs, flamingos | drink:: | Ramune XD | website:: | deviantart | instrument:: | gee-tawrs | planet:: | saturn, mars | ceral:: | you mean, "cereal?" um.. the flintsones marshmallow things | store:: | amazon japan, jpop help | cartoon character:: | goth kids on south park | body part:: | shoulders, neck, face | video game:: | Katamari Damacy | first | your first word was:: | don't know | the age of your first kiss was:: | not happened yet | your first time was:: | probably never XD | the name and age of your first love was:: | | have you ever... | gotten drunk:: | not that i remember | done drugs:: | besides caffeine? | had sex:: | | done a threesome:: | | been jelous of a friend:: | it's a constant thing | been suicidal:: | never | been homicidal:: | secretely XD | stole something:: | candy,money | fallen in love with a friend and couldn't tell them:: | shhh | wrecked a car:: | not yet | been held back a grade:: | no's | lost a friendship over something stupid:: | yes | been single for more than a year without wanting to be:: | XD | dumped someone cause you were sick of them:: | sounds in character | broken a bone:: | never | been in a serious fight:: | why? everyone loves me X3 | been do depressed it was hard to get up in the morning:: | at some point or another | cried over someone:: | plenty of times | had a friend who died young:: | nope | had to go to a funeral of someone you really loved:: | perhaps | this or that | winter/summer | winter | rebirth/death | how bout the inbetween? | coke/pepsi | coke | hot tub/pool | hot tub | dream/reality | dream | cat/dog | cat | flowers/candy | candy | comedy/tragedy | comedy | your view on | politics:: | bad | god:: | kyo is god. | gay marrige:: | go for it | magick:: | it works | love:: | more often than not is a waste of time | evolution:: | could have happened | aliens:: | somewhere | abortions:: | yes | karma | i believe in it | fate:: | yes | legalizing marijuana:: | yes | the afterlife:: | who knows | do you have | more than 50 cd's? | yes | a car? | no | a motercycle? | no | a job? | if you count babysitting a job | more than 10 pairs of pants? | no | more than 15 shirts? | yes | more than 8 pairs of shoes? | no | love | gay/bi/straight:: | straight | are you dating someone? | no | if so for how long? | | do you love them? | | whats your favorite things about their personality? | | do they have any flaws in their personality? | | whats your favorite thing about their looks? | | what your least favorite thing about their looks? | | loves | friends:: | all of them | faimly members:: | some of them | pets:: | most of them | random | do you love yourself? | in times that are few and far between | if you were a mythical creature what would it be? | mermaid or dragon | if you had a wish.... | it wouldn't come true ;) | other | anything else not mentioned? | some of my pet peeves are cd's that skip, skinny girls who think they're fat, and people with the same name as me | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink |
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2005 24 August :: 12.33am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Dir en grey - 24 Cylinders
sleeping with a kiss to unheated death
well orientation was today, it was mostly stuff i didn't pay attention to about college and grades and careers and all that stuff i'm not ready for. I went basically to see everyone and find my classes, and my friends were there so it wasn't so bad. the first part was terribly boring though, except for stalker. i must say his attempt at getting attention worked for once. my mom took Als and I home, and she showed my mom Boogers. at my dad's house not much went on but we got Arby's and we came over a few hours earlier because dad wanted to get out of work. School starts next wednesday and i don't want to go at all, this will be the worst year ever. the only good thing is i guess my art class, and seeing everyone again. even though most of the people i'm happy to just see don't know it.
this is just a small add on
some people are really deep and stuff, that you have to admire, and it makes me feel inferior because when it just boils down to it, i'm just so damn apathetic (or, for a cover, i say 'neutral') about things, like, things that i want, and people i think i love, way way down inside i know i could live without it all. i'm ashamed.
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2005 23 August :: 12.47am
:: Mood: ouch
:: Music: Dir en grey - Macabre -sanagi no yume wa ageha no hane-
THE MAN FROM NOWHERE
He was a strange one all right . . . just as the authorities said . . . this young man who acted as though he had just dropped in from another world . . .
He was just outside the new gate entrance to the city of Nuremberg, Germany, when an inquisitive policeman first noticed him. He was clean, but so poorly dressed that he was almost ragged. The policeman later told his superiors that he had first been attracted to the young man by the difficulty with which he seemed to walk . . . as though suffering from some deformity which caused him to stumble. His feet were badly swollen; his eyes were squinted against the light . . .
The inquisitve policeman tried to question the lad but he learned nothing . . . over and over the stranger kept repeating . . .
"I want to be soldier like my father was!"
It did not sound like an expression of determination . . . but more like a chant . . . as though the strange young man who uttered it was merely reciting words he did not understand.
The policeman led him to the station, where the Mayor and other local dignitaries gathered to observe and question this unusual visitor. In a monotone the young man continued to repeat his assertion that he wished to be a soldier like his father.
His name? He evidently did not understand what they were saying and he stared blankly. But when a pen was placed in his hand he giggled nervously and wrote in a slow, legible hand . . . K A S P E R H A U S E R. He could not . . . or would not . . . write anything else. But on that quiet Whitmonday afternoon in 1828, the young man had inscribed on the records the name that was to mark the beginning of a puzzle which remains unsolved to this day.
When food was placed before him, he seized it in his hands and crammed it into his mouth as though he were famished. A mug of cold milk was evidently something he had never ecnountered before and he recoiled from it. Water he drank, but not until he had sampled it with a forefinger.
Just before nightfall, while the baffled city fathers of Nuremberg were trying to decide what to do with their enigmatic visitor, he presented them with two more pieces to the puzzle . . . two letters wrapped in rags which he carried inside his tattered vest. One letter purported to be from his mother. Dated sixteen years before, it urged anyone who found the boy to send him to Nuremberg when he was seventeen so he could enlist in the Sixth Cavalry of which his father had been a member, according to the letter.
The other missive was badly written and purported tobe from someone who had found the boy and cared for him but who could no longer support him.
Oddly, both letters wree written on some sort of thin leather or parchment which was not familar to the officials ar Nuremberg.
Kasper Hauser, if that was indeed his name, spent that first night with the city's most learned man, Dr. Daumer, were the young man promptly astonished his host by trying to pick the flame off a candle. Further tests brought out that he had no depth preception whatsoever and, although he seemed to be in full pocession of his faculties, they were as undeveloped as those of a baby.
Although the condition of his feet and legs indicated that he had walked a considerable distance, no one could be found who had seen him on the road. A reward was offered for anyone who could identify him. Pictures were distributed throughout Europe, but to no avail. The more the officials probed, the deeper the mystery of Kasper Hauser became.
Under the kind and patient Tutelage of Dr. Daumer, Kapser Hauser learned quickly . . . first to speak . . . and then to write. He told his new-found friends that he had been raised since infancy in total darkness in a cellar . . . had never tasted anything but black bread and water . . . had never seen the man who brought his food in total darkness. He had seldom heard speech . . . and then only a few words. But how, or why, or where he had spend those years he had no idea.
In October of 1829, Kasper came stumbling out of Dr. Daumer's basement, bleeding from a deep gash on the head which he said had been inflicted be a masked man weilding a long knife. The city officials assigned two policeman to guard him after thtat . . . but while they dozed on the afternoon of December 14, 1833, Kasper Hauser went for a stroll in the park across the street . . a stroll from which he came staggering back a few mintues later . . . dying from a stab wound which surgeons said could not have been self-inflicted.
The snow in the park revealed no footprints other than Kasper's . . . and no trace of the weapon.
The well-documented facts in the enigma of Kasper Hauser etitled it to a place in the records as one of the stangest cases of its kind.
Von Feurbach wrote of him . . . "Kasper Hauser showed much ignorance of the simplest facts of life . . . and such horror of the necessities of civilization . . . that one feels driven to believe that he was a native of another planet . . . transferred by some miracle to our own."
-taken from "Stranger Than Science" by Frank Edwards -
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2005 17 August :: 2.02am
:: Mood: Insomniatic
More Emotional
You have: 55% SCIENTIFIC INTUITION and 62% EMOTIONAL INTUITION |
The graph on the right represents your place in Intuition 2-Space. As you can see, you scored above average on emotional intuition and about average on scientific intuition.Keep in mind that very few people score high on both! In effect, you can compare your two intuition scores with each other to learn what kind of intuition you're best at. Your emotional intuition is stronger than your scientific intuition. |
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Your Emotional Intuition score is a measure of how well you understand people, especially their unspoken needs and sympathies. A high score score usually indicates social grace and persuasiveness. A low score usually means you're good at Quake.
Your Scientific Intuition score tells you how in tune you are with the world around you; how well you understand your physical and intellectual environment. People with high scores here are apt to succeed in business and, of course, the sciences. |
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2005 15 August :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: back from teh graveeeee
:: Music: The White Stipes - Blue Orchid
you got a reaction, you got a reaction, didn't you? you took a white orchid, took a white orchid and turned it blue
well today i went shaw-pang. well see my grandma has been afraid to shopping alone ever since some boys were teasing her in the parking lot of kmart or something, like calling her old and grandma and stuff. (why does it have to be HER? you see my mom bets that she is bipolar, you know, so like, she's AFRAID of it now...) so my mom took me, her, and my sister up to the crafts place in the mall, after that my sister went off doing her thing in the mall and took the bus home and i stayed with my mom and grandma, then we looking in the other one, and then we finally found Gold Star <3 i bought some strawberry soda, 2 boxes of banana flavored pocky (ate one box already) and two of the those weird jelly drink things like ninamori and naota had in furikuri, only they have like some photoshoped picture of heero yue on them O.o i got a grape one and a pineapple one. My granmda gave me ten dollars and that's what i used it on, before i knew we were going there i was planning on saving it towards jrock but i'm a compulsive spender <.<
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2005 13 August :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: UGH
:: Music: PENICILLIN - Taiyoo no Kuni
i think this song means "Country of Sun" but i'm not sure if i translated that right...it's a sweet song, though, it was a very uplifting aura about it.
Anyway i got back from that party a little while ago, we didn't see the Amish people though because we left before they came. It was at some farmy place. The DID grill a pig, but what was weird is they also did cook a GOAT, and some guy shot some WOODCHUCKS and cooked them. I only ate pretzels and cookies. There were some girls there around my age, they were okay i guess. They were too much into active stuff, like they were climbing the latters on the huge silos and stuff and running through these old barns, but i didn't trust the rickety stairs, especially with my huge healed shoes, they make me feel unsturdy. We went looking for chickens but we couldn't find any. That's okay because the girl who lives there said the chickens were mean. I was telling them about my school and how all the boys used to wear girl jeans and the one girl was all like "EMO BOYS! They're hot" lol. She liked my shirt (Charlie and the Chocolate Factory) and my shoes, i guess she's supposed to be into gothic stuff or something. She liked anime though, and she said she had a friend who listens to jpop. She commented that my sister looked like one of her ex boyfriends O.o
HELL YEAHHHH!
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XD!!
i got pregnant from my secret lover XD
KIND OF? i would be happy! XD
like sex XD
damn <.<
it's that bad? XD
XD!!! i'd read it..
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2005 9 August :: 9.36pm
:: Music: PENICILLIN - Hate
wonderful, special, oh my god,unbelievable, miracle, kiss my ass
Mama is waiting, honey boy
Hey, you're a chocolate parfait
Here's your toy yo nice guy
Hate ***************
The greatest student, teacher's pet
Hey you, finish the homework
Really good job, nice guy
Hate *****************
Kiss my ass
Where's your soul, honey boy?
Hey, you're only a big mouth
Ain't nothing if ain't no fan
Hate ***************
Got a good sense, yo honey boy
Hey, I wanna be guy like you
It's American joke, yo nice guy
Hate ******************
Wonderful, special, oh my God
Unbelievable, miracle, Kiss my ass
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
Get out my face, makes me very happy
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
You take a chance, Get on bound for Hell
Fantastic, marvelous, oh my God
Congradulation, intellegent, Kiss my ass
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
Get out my face, makes me very very happy
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
You take a chance, Get on bound for Hell
You Are a Glam Rocker! |
You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self.
No doubt, you are all about making good music...
But what really gets you going is having an over the top show.
Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in! |
How You Life Your Life |
You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
You are Agonistic |
You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.
For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.
You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.
And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you. |
actually, i'm already putting together the blocks of my own religion, haha, but there are some agnostic elements.. too...XD nevermind
You Are 37% American | America: You don't love it or want to leave it.
But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.
On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead...
And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch! |
| You scored as Emo. Your Totaly Emo!
Emo | | 45% | Goth | | 40% | Rocker, Mosher | | 30% | Prepy | | 25% | Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev | | 20% | Skater | | 20% | Trendy | | 0% |
What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t created with QuizFarm.com |
how the hell did i end up emo? they never have otaku nerd in these quizzess...
| You scored as Cute. You're cute. Like a girly girl. And if you're a guy and you got this result, you must be gay. But anyway. Email me at in_the_depths_4ever@yahoo.com
Are you ugly, cute, or sexy?! created with QuizFarm.com |
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2005 6 August :: 9.00pm
:: Mood: drugged
damn i wish my sister would just move out or something.
so, not much has been going on except yesterday i got a Charlie and the Chocolate Factory shirt and some shoelaces. I asked my dad to call me when my cd came but for some reason i think it's already there and he just didn't call. everytime i ever want to call him he's not there. too many people are IM'ing me right now. god school will suck this year. i might have to pestermy dad into taking me to waldameer because my mom said she'd take me but of course we all know how she is with keeping promises.
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