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2005 21 May :: 11.27pm
well GOD DAMN. i'm on a roll here.
i'm just so frustrated with people.... some people i can't tell how i'm feeling, some people can't take the hints about how i'm feeling, some people never ASK how i'm feeling, i can't even EXPLAIN how I'm feeling, somepeople should KNOW how I'm feeling, but just don't seem to realize it, when it's so goddamn OBVIOUS, yet they don't say anything! jeez, i hate eveyrone of you! I just feel so insignificant, looked over, taken advantage of, looked down upon, trambled over, walked over, pushed aside, invisble etc that it's just driving me CRAZY.
eh, I'll take two and call you in the morning.
whatever.
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2005 21 May :: 11.13pm
AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE?!?!
while i'm in this nasty mood may i add..
If i were God, I would be so totally pissed off! Christ, look what a sad lot the human race turned out to be? If i were god, I would have destroyed the earth and called it quits a long time ago! We should all be ashamed.
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2005 21 May :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: non-existant
i don't want your sympathy, i just need a little therapy
you know what would be the BEST therapy?
Well, i think, anyway.
One of this days i just won't be able to take it anymore and just be a nasty bitch to everyone within eyeshot. Dear sweet god, I'd feel so much better after that. There are so many things i just want to say to everyone (not nice things, either) and i'd feel so accomplished after doing so. but i probably won't.
i just can't wait until i do totally lose it and just freak out....i feel the pressure building, so i'm sure sometime it could happen. just hope you're not the sad fuck who's around when it happens!
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2005 20 May :: 11.23pm
:: Music: Old carousel organs
This day has been a mixture of good and bad
I got to see Star Wars today with Brett and Ray, it was cool. The acting was kinda bad but I love going to any sort of movie so it was good. The robot king was awesome, so was Obi Wan and Yoda and Padme sorta (she had her good moments)... so was that lizard thing Kenobi rode on. You could tell how close Aniken was getting to the Dark Side throughout the movie as he glowered more and more and his eyes got yellower. Pretty sweet. Awesome action scenes to make up for Skywalker's monotoneness (four lightsabers at once! Sweeeet!).
Also I looked for jobs... I applied to four places, one was like "come back when you can drive", two were like "we don't feel like hiring you but we'll keep your ap on file", and ONE... a promising prospect... the man actually said he'd give my ap to the manager. Yesss.
Iiiiii liiiiiike looooootsssss of leeeetterrrrrsss.
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2005 19 May :: 1.08am
:: Music: What is it? Steel guitars and mandolins? Who the crap made this?
Last day of school ever!
Schoool's out for summer
Schooool's out for ever
School's been blown to pieces!!!
*whining ensues*
b-b-b-b-but, I WAAAANT it!!!
sigh, I hate being broke.
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2005 10 May :: 4.10pm
:: Music: Zenith Presents The Best Of The New Exotic Sounds
It is another day, more sitting around doing nothing except homework. Maybe my mushrooms are up.
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2005 8 May :: 7.44pm
:: Music: Dumb I Sound // Sufjan Stevens
Rejoice in the Lord always.
Pneumonia isn't that bad. I've never coughed up so much cool snot! I had one that looked like a little squid, like you eat at weird chinese restraunts. I put him in the trash can. Aaaand I'm getting better! I am finally eating stuff and I can sit up and use the computer for homeworks. I'm not going to school tomorrow but Tuesday I'll more than likely be back. Muchas gracias again to Brett for visiting me, it is lonely, being an invalid.
Was I the only one who didn't wear any pants on No Pants Day? I suspect I am.
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2005 7 May :: 5.24pm
Well, the doctor says I have pnuemonia. Woooohoo. You were right Brett!
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2005 3 May :: 11.33am
I am home sick. This is the worst flu I've ever had, I can barely think straight.
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2005 30 April :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: well...still breathing
:: Music: Hole - Softer, Softest
pee girl gets the belt
eh.. i'm really hungry, i haven't eaten much all day. my stomach is throbbing. feels great.
i need a major change... just new everything. i'm bored of it all. i want a new life. completely. clean slate. i need to reinvent myself and my world somehow. i need a new addiction, something i absolutely need... so i can focus on that and give myself a purpose.
didn't do anything today. but that's alright, i guess.
i think my time is running short.. eh. it takes almost all of my energy to wait up everyday, just merely existsing is exhausting, i feel like i'm falling behind. it's getting harder and harder to phsyically and mentally function, and almost think i'm just going to stop. just stop. run out of juice and keel over. eh, it feels like i'm getting old already. one of these days i'm just not going to wake up.
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2005 30 April :: 10.06am
:: Music: Sister // Sufjan Stevens
Ay, pues. Today I gotta babysit for a few hours. Not like I have anything else to do, plus I will make money, but I'm sick. This morning it felt like someone had run a steel pipe rougher up and down my throat. Complain complain complain.
I rode my bike everywhere yesterday. It was trash day and I found some awesome stuff. This dentist office was giving away a dentist chair! Complete with pump and everything. I couldn't carry it home though. : P I found more cool stuff like perfectly good bikes and desks but I left them for los pobres.
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2005 28 April :: 3.21pm
:: Music: Ohio // Dan Deacon
Sooo many things are ticking me off... *takes deep breath*
*lets it out slowly*
I guess none of it matters. None of it affects me personally and there's nothing I can do that will make any of it better so I shouludn't worry about it. Don't things like that suck though? Man...
I should really clean my room... it's a mess...
[edit]
My former rage is nothing compaired to the wrath my computer has just incurred for randomly sending out an email I was half finished with. D:<
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2005 26 April :: 6.44pm
:: Music: BORING LATIN LOUNGE CRAP
Mother of Mercy, people! It's "whet" your appetite, not "wet"!! Whet as in "too sharpen"! It makes a ton more sense to sharpen your appetite than to drench it!
[update 7:43]
Now playing: Harold Stern, The Jewish Cowboy
MUCH better
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2005 26 April :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: I HAVE TO FREAK'N PEE!
Mrs. "To-bad-He-Treats-Me-Like-I'm-Dead"
i don't have a lot of time. I haven't updated in god knows when. ah well. nothing much to say, i guess. the PS2 is my lord and master and i have devoted every nanosecond of my free time to serving it. if the PS2 was a man i'd marry him. [if they were cute, and i could still play games on him, somehow O_o]
well, I saw Kung Fu Hustle with Als. good movie. it was like [Kill Bill]+[humor]-[blood and gore] with subtitles :P
i've been having lots of contradicting feelings, namely trying to find how i truly feel, and where my heart is at, etc, concerning certain people and interests. soul searching is serious business, yo.
hmm 3 minutes left, AND I STILL HAVE TO FREAK'N PEE
i don't think i'll be online much, as my husband [PS2] beckons me, as well as the only good compy is my sister's and she's been sleeping in her room at the times that i want to get on.
i need new music. i'm getting bored. i need to buy things. i need help. i need a tranquilizer.
i'm going to get paid again soon, and i need that as mother's day is coming up. and.. eh.. hold that thought. i have to go. i'll finish this some other time
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2005 24 April :: 6.39pm
:: Music: band organs
You whippersnappers don't know what good music is.
I had an awesome weekend, I'll tell you all about it later in full. Basically I went to see Flatfoot 56 at Skelletones and they were awesome. So were the Offbeats and the other band.
PS I heart demo tapes.
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