...bleck...
what the hell is going on?

the space between.

You cannot quit me so quickly
Is no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love
The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain
But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like 'Will it rain today?'
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted game we play
We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain
Will I hold you again?
Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down
The Space Between
Where you're smiling high
Is where you'll find me if I get tickled
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into...
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand
'Cause we're walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here
The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...

bubble of thought.
my current thoughts to you:

fuck you.



yep.
xoxo.

words ill regret saying tomorrow...
i thought i could handle this.
i thought i was strong.
i hate not knowing. i hate feeling like this and saying these words.
maybe its done, maybe its not.
i fucking hate this.
i hate loving you but i live to love you.
i love you and thats why its so hard.
i cant handle this much longer but i have to. its better than the alternative.

xoxo.

i have the most amazing friends. i am very grateful for every single one of you. thank you all.

xoxo.

just in case you dont read my livejournal...
i apologize to anyone that was in my company last night. i am throughly disgusted and completely embarrassed w/ my behavior last night. i thank everyone that watched over me. im sorry that i wrecked everyones night.
i had no idea. i dont remember much of anything and thats probably a good thing. all of what ive heard makes me want to crawl in a hole.
i would most definitely change my actions last night if i could. never again will i do this. it scares the hell out of me being that out of control.
im so sorry everyone. thank you for being the wonderful people that you are. i couldnt ask for anything more.
all my love.
xoxo.

hi.

General Information
State your full name.:	Carolione Elizabeth
Do you like your name?:	sure.
If you could change it, would you, and to what?:	nope. i wouldnt. its all a family name.
Tell me your age.:	16
Relationships/Love
What do you want your wedding to be like?:	traditional and special.
Tell me the perfect setting for when you have sex.:	um...a bed.
Have you ever been in love?:	yep.
Are you in love?:	yep.
Your opinions
Rock music is..:	my life.
Pop music is..:	okay. justin timberlake is hott.
Your thoughts on anarchy:	stupid. it would never work.
Do you believe in God?:	yes.
Favorites
Type of music:	rock.
Band:	nirvana and coldplay.
Food:	popcicles.
Thing to do:	sleep.
Thing to say:	aw, hell no.
Person to talk to:	all my lovers.
Subject in school:	history.
Parent:	well, i have one so well go with that one.
Color, and why:	green, its a pretty one.
Author:	edgar allan poe. its very interesting.
Book:	wow. i have lots. the catcher in the rye was a good one.
Candy:	gum.
Last, just random questions and things about you.
Do you like yourself?:	eh, no matter.
What do you like about yourself?:	i like to help.
What dont you like about yourself?:	eh, no matter.
Can you play any instruments?:	i can! woot. the clarinet.
Are you depressed?:	nope.
Have you ever been suicidal?:	nope.
Do you do drugs?:	neva.
Do you drink alcohol?:	ha. that would be like saying the sky isnt blue.
Do you miss anyone right now? Who?:	yes, some people.
What do you want to do with your life?:	social work.
What's something you know you want to accomplish before you die?:	get married, have a good career, all that fucking fairy tale junk.
Do you think that I love you?:	you better, bitch.
You best, because I do.

About Yourself brought to you by BZOINK!

thats the start, the middle, and the end.
so...

i drove over the bidge today at the beach. that was pretty neat i would have to say. i didnt even freak out. i was too busy driving.

many many tests today. i think i did pretty good on them. i actually studied and knew my junk. what a thought. in math i learned how to do the math while taking the test, just like always. its great.

i agree w/ lenny...this weekend is a "fake weekend." im sleeping tonight and then tomorrow i go to lenny's to work on a project. sunday i clean and sleep some more.

all i do is sleep lately. i come home and sleep, wake up to do my homework, and then go right back to sleep.

the school year is coming to an end. went kind of fast...

i have a livejournal. www.livejournal.com/~_spot.

peace, fuckers.
xoxo.

this aint no barbeque. get out of my grill.
if you could be an animal, what would you be?

you should tell me.


more later. im sleepy.
xoxo.

the question of the day: "where do you want to go?"
yesterday was good. happy late easter everyone. sunrise service was good. a lil early though. the easter bunny visited me too.

that was a crazy storm we had this morning.

lenny came and picked me up this morning. we ended up in bear's driveway so we kidnapped him for the rest of the day. it was fun times. i think we went everywhere possible in this town. sun harvest, target, barnes and noble, the movies, fridays, the park...i think thats all. they are some good kids.

tomorrow is school. ew.

i finally got to see adam this weekend. it had been a month since i last saw him. i missed him.

...maybe this was the true measure of love, he thought- when you willingly tolerate behavior that, in anyone else, would be annoying, even abhorent to you....
-yellow


all my love.
xoxo.

nope.
i havent updated in awhile.

wednesday i took the family to see mr. cypress. my grandpa didnt really like it, imagine that. but my mom and grandma loved it. as did i.

thursday was no school for me. i spent some quality time w/ my grandma.

yesterday was okay. i took my grandparents to the airport. :( then i stayed home and watched cheaper by the dozen w/ my mom 'cause she was sad.

i saw bear in a big blue car driving down the road! haha.

today i party w/ L and E and hopefully adam. it shall be fun.

tomorrow i get up and go to the sunrise service on the beach.

then i chill w/ ernie and lenny again. ill have to see whats up.

i finally got the new vines cd. it makes my life complete.

that is all.
xoxo.

Erniphobia was here.
i love lenny for coming to get me this morning and ernie for coming along for the ride. it was an early morning adventure.

today was pretty uneventful. i slept alot so thats cool.

im so taking my grandma to see mr. cypress. its so great.

i cant wait until this weekend. im pretty sure my mom forgot me being grounded. woot.



...its not quite something, but yet not quite nothing. do i leave it as not even something or let it become nothing?...

all my love.
xoxo.