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2005 18 December :: 10.37 pm
:: Mood: dirty
I Love Mail....
I just got the "Valley Vet Supply" official catalog!!!! Not only did I just recieve unexpected mail BUT I can now look at items for my beloved horses that I know I can't afford. But even better I recieved a $40 bonus in my paycheck because I stripped and rebedded 28 stalls on Saturaday. Since I made extra, the girl who was supposed to NOT leave me the stalls like they were, got docked in her pay. Kudos for me.
And I decided that even though I work on average 8-10 hour shifts I actually enjoy my job. The people there love how well I take care of the barn and Teresa leaves the barn in my hands to close it up at night and open it up in the morning. I feel pretty special to be able to be trusted with such a big responsibility. I mean for crying out loud there is 28 horses that need to be put out, watered, hayed, grained, and stalls cleaned. I am pretty impressed with myself. I am also physically exhausted. But I had mentioned something about working over in Carson City cleaning stalls and she got worried that I was going to leave her barn and work there. I told her it was only a side job and let me tell you what she was very relieved.
Anyways, I need a shower cause I smell bad and feel pretty gross. And I thought I should vent a little. Cause I can.
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2005 16 December :: 12.10 am
:: Mood: pissed off
Fucking Horses!!!!!!
I can't believe a single one of them. I will admitt I forgot to lock the gate and I could have sworn I did but they got out and ate about a half weeks worth of grain. I am pissed!!!! They already had their grain for the day and the bastrads are lucky they didn't colic. I don't know what I would do. I am saving my money a spending it on what they need. I had half a week to do so or maybe even a week and they.... I am so mad at them. Somedays I just want to get rid of them but I love them too much.
DAMN THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2005 15 December :: 6.22 pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Green Day
Whoa Baby....
I have so much energy I don't know what to do with it. I should go out and run another 3 miles but my hamstrings hurt from the whopping ten sqauts I did after school. Later when I feed the poines their hay I will trim their feet and brush them out. That should take care most my energy. I still have to make no-bakes for everybody and let me tell you what I make damn good no-bake cookies!
I am very content with everything besides my grades. I should be president of the procrastination society. I know that I should do my homework and have the time to do it but I don't. It drives me nuts. After break that has to change. And it will.
I am also content with him. He is young but his brithday is coming up right after Christmas. So I feel so weird about the age difference but if you think about it there really isn't much. Besides I don't think about that much. We just get along well. Watch I just jinxed the entire thing. That would happen to me. We'll see through the summer and college. Don't want to think to far ahead. I did that last time and things didn't go so well. Just one day at a time. I can do this.
I think.
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2005 7 December :: 6.07 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: DeadBeat Holiday
I don't get it....
I should feel paniced
I should feel distressed
I should feel sick
I should feel helpless
I should feel tired
I should feel scared
I should feel like crying
I should feel disappointed
I should feel insecure
I should feel important
I should feel beautiful
I should feel strong
I should feel couragous
I should feel invinciable
I should feel proud
I should feel perfect
I should feel crazy
I should feel intelleigent
I should feel pain
I should feel thoughtful
I should feel colorful
I should feel worried
I should feel strange
I should feel sore
I should feel drained
I should feel disappointed
I should feel curious
I should feel embarassed
I should feel estatic
I should feel crushed
I should feel hungry
I should feel grateful
I should feel accomplished
I should feel loved
I should feel rushed
I should feel stressed
I should feel annoyed
I should feel happy....
But I don't
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2005 27 November :: 9.44 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
So Tired....
I worked 11 1/2 hours and made $40. How pathetic. but its money and i have no other job. Frankly, I don't mind because I love the job. I am around the horses and leraning a ton about them from side conversations that the boarders have. Right now I am having a hard time moving around from being on my feet all day but in the end it is worth it.
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2005 23 November :: 7.17 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
God I hate my parents
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2005 19 November :: 6.40 pm
:: Mood: overworked
It is so much better now. I don't know why but really do love him. Even if he is younger than me.
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2005 7 November :: 6.37 pm
For You Katie....
May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
What I said to you earlier on the phone was out of line. I am just excited about Eve. And because of that I rushed to her defense. I really don't know much about her other than she is a very tough pony. If you read this before I talk to you, I am sorry.
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2005 6 November :: 8.03 pm
:: Mood: flustered
My toes are cold
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2005 4 November :: 7.36 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Country
Its True....
Katie I love you more than Scotty!!!!
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2005 3 November :: 8.58 pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: PLANS
It All Comes Together Now....
Puppy left today. I wasn't sad because Brad said he would go to a home over i Sparta. I almost want to doubt him because he would send him to market and make it a s a cover up. But what is stange about all of this is that he asked me if he found a home for him could he sell him. And also told me to go say my goodbyes before they left. I hopre they are finally coming around to my world a little bit.
I had mentioned getting another horse so long as John was at a new home and my Dad didn't object so hopefully that is going to happen in the near future.
I almost want think of the bad that could happen and almost want to think of something that makes me not want him. But I can think of nothing. Its strange really because he is not the hottest thing that has ever walked this planet but he is cute in is own way. He has a sense of humor that splits my sides and has a way of of making me feel loved without even saying anything. The thought of loosing him never stays in my mind because I feel like I have him in my bubble. It is actually hard to explain. I do believe that he is the only one that I can say I truely love. And I mean that. I love him.
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2005 21 October :: 1.31 am
:: Mood: Goofy
:: Music: Garth Brooks
Its the Truth....
I figured out why I run away from relationships. When I know that they will do practically what I want them to it turns me away. Why? Because I want a guy who I have to work for his love. I need to feel like I have to impress him. Not all the time but some of the time.
Thats why I love him. I know for a fact that he loves me very much and he tells me everyday. But there is something that makes me feel that I have to knock him off of his feet once in a while. I don't know why but something does.
This may be weird but for a fact We don't see much of each other on weekdays. Which is prolly better for us in the long run so we don't get sick of each other. Anyways, I am FINALLY cleaning my room and I was cleaning out my closet and folding clothes that were scattered on the floor and came across a shirt that I had worn over to his house. I smelled it and it smelled like him. For some reason it made me really miss him and love him even more. I must be really twitterpatted or something cause thats just weird seeings how he lives literally two minutes away from me.
I hope everything works out cause I do believe he is a keeper.
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2005 16 October :: 9.35 pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: Christian Music (Odd isn't it)
I am All Smiles....
Ever get that feeling where you just can't stop smiling? Oh baby do I have that feeling. It is just all going so great. He is like the perfect gentleman in every way. He always knows how to hit the spot. Always flattering me, surprising me, and always making me feeling like the most perfect person. Thats why I love him. And I really mean that.
I love him
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2005 9 October :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: sick
And Its Still Here....
Homecoming was all right except that I had the accompaniment of the flu. I was doing ok except for the spltting headache that I had. I could only dance in short bursts and then i would have to sit down. Jess gave me something that worked really well cause the last 45 minutes of the dance I felt like....well I don't know what I felt like but it felt good. I went a little loopy and Zach had of thought that my boat floated both ways cause I was out of it. But after all was said and done we found ourselves at his house watching 'Finding Nemo' which is a wonderful movie. Before long I found my self on his couch at 8 am. Imagine that. Naturally I left as quietly as I could.
I have found that with him I more myself and I like that.
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2005 8 October :: 10.55 am
:: Mood: fluy
:: Music: The O.C.
And Again....
The flu has brought me down again. The bad thing about it is that it is hard to move around and do things. The plus side is that with the flu I have lost enough weight to fit comfortably into my homecoming dress.
God does work in mysterious ways.
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