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:: 2007 27 February :: 4.21am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: miss misery - elliot smith

i didnt know elliot smith was dead, that makes me kind of sad.

being grounded is a pain
college makes me more sad everyday
i have to write an essay four days ago, i dont even know what on...
lsdkjfsldkjf
i want to drift away right now.
i want to make my daddy happy, he needs it.
i want to see loren.
i want to see nicole.
i want to see the world.

christina is really starting to piss me off, all she talks about is sasquatch.. its really annoying. i dont care if you're going a you're going to see the beastie boys or interpol, so stop bragging about it.

sdjfhsldkfj
i am so confused with everything....

at least i have all science fiction novelists on my team.

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:: 2007 26 February :: 6.29pm

i am the one who wants so much to laugh with you right now.

on a completely different note,
my dad should not go to this court hearing alone, jesus.
i feel so bad for him :(

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:: 2007 15 February :: 8.38pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: at the bottom of everything - bright eyes

AHAHAHAHA

I LOVE NICOLE@!!!;sdjflksjdfoiwe

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:: 2007 15 February :: 6.26pm
:: Music: portugal the man

SO MUCH EXCITEMENT

slkdfjslkdjflksdjflksdjf

i think i might explode

:: 2007 14 February :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: tear - red hot chili peppers

today was weird.
but good.
but sad.

i unno.

<3
i got butterflies.

:: 2007 12 February :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: shout out louds

today was totally not a bad day, im going to miss hanging out with all those people at the falls :(
they're wonderful.

beau was being an ass today.
but eli was really nice, so we hung out and watched Diego in the food court.

pshha.

AND I FUCKING PASSED PORTFOLIO. beat that bitches.
with a tough reader, and i got a mofo'in compliment. sheesh.
i rock.

mmmm, and i dropped logic today.
and i miss morgan
and oli

:: 2007 12 February :: 6.19am

i didn't know that...

:: 2007 12 February :: 3.43am
:: Mood: anxious

today feels so messed up.
i keep thinking that today is wednesday but its not, lsdkjflskdjfs.
and im all anxious to talk to my english teacher
im all anxious to drop my classes
i feel like im screwing everything up slkdfjs lkblehhh

idk lsdjfsldkfj
and i couldnt sleep

today is going to be a bad day.

:: 2007 10 February :: 8.20am
:: Mood: disappointed

i
really
wanted
to
go
see
the thermals
with
loren

but no

i had to go and screw things up.

:: 2007 8 February :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: scared

just tie the rope

and kick the chair

just leave me hanging there, gasping for air

yeah dont mind me three feet from the ceiling

:: 2007 2 February :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: crushed

i feel so alone

and i dont fit in anywhere.

sldkfjsldkfjsdlkfjsdlkf
can i disappear now?
please...

i hate this.

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:: 2007 2 February :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Crystal Ball - Keane

kasdjflskdjf

so basically
i forgot what i wanted to say.

but i feel good.
life is good.
and you should feel good too.

:: 2007 2 February :: 5.24am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: longest winter - pedro the lion

my daddies birthday is tomorrow.

im so sick of being grounded.
i just want to leave this place.

uslkdjfsklsskjfjfjfksloooplsdj

anyway, im glad its friday. i'm really starting to not like school. a lot. i just want to give up. thats bad. hmm. and i hate riding the bus yuk yuk yuk.

so basically i dont know whats going on with me anymore.
i feel like i dont know myself and i feel lost.
but i feel content too.
my stomach is twisting around and driving me crazy.

:: 2007 1 February :: 7.30pm
:: Music: you will never take me alive - the paper chase

today was... different

and i don't really know how i feel about it.
so many things came at me.

i feel happy

i feel.... new

im wearing a big grin.

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:: 2007 30 January :: 6.33pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: how can i tell you - cat power

i feel like no one cares what i say or what i do
or who i am

i feel forgotten

and hated.

i feel judged and i feel like they're all mad at me.

i feel immature and gross.
i feel like a fake.
and i dont want to anymore.

i want to be me
i want to be real.

help.

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:: 2007 30 January :: 5.01pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: we got to get away - caesars

learn to take a joke.

and stop assuming things about me.
im pretty fucking complicated
and its hard to read me
so dont just go around preaching how i feel
when you dont even fucking know.

but im super excited for thrusday
AHAHAHAHlkdfjslkdfjlskdfjlskd
butterflies
major.

:: 2007 29 January :: 5.26am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: the killers

if the answer is no, can i change your mind?

p.s.
Samantha had her freaking baby!
ahahahaha
ima go see it today!
yay!

:: 2007 28 January :: 11.07am
:: Music: tokyo police club

i'm scared.

:: 2007 27 January :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: maria taylor

i really should be writing that paper.

right now i just want to drop out.

bleh.

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:: 2007 26 January :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: anticipating

I can't explain the state that I'm in
The state of my heart, he was my best friend
Into the car, from the back seat
Oh admiration in falling asleep
All of my powers, day after day
I can tell you, we swaggered and swayed
Deep in the tower, the prairies below
I can tell you, the telling gets old
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you the day we were born
My friend is gone, he ran away
I can tell you, I love him each day
Though we have sparred, wrestled and raged
I can tell you I love him each day
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you...

:: 2007 26 January :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: disappointed

this sucks.

:: 2007 25 January :: 5.28am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: The One I Love - Sufjan Stevens

i didn't know that the score you got on your IQ test depended partly on how long you took.
maybe thats why my score went down last time i took one
ahaha
i would answer a question then walk away for 5 minutes

im cool
haha

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:: 2007 24 January :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Am I Wrong - Love Spit Love

shes like a clone.

eww.

:: 2007 23 January :: 5.06am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: St. Ides Heaven - Elliot Smith

I had a scary dream last night, and I thought it was real :(

I was hanging out with Jimmy and all of his friends and we were running around in some forest up on the south hill. We keep seeing smoke over to the north so we run over to pioneer park but its in the middle of manito for some reason and we look and see that all of hillyard is on fire.
then i'm at home and i'm watching the news and some kid threw a bomb into an open water tower (dont ask me how that works) and the fire was raging out of control. So now downtown is on fire and everyone is freaking out and for some reason me and Ori are down in bowl and pitcher in the middle of the night and we find aubrey and some other girl and we escape from there because the fire is spreading and there were all these fire flies and flare signals going off. then we get home and i try to find my shoes but i cant find them and all these people keep saying they wont let the south hill catch on fire but i dont believe it and i got scared and woke up.

then i realized that its the middle of winter and spokane couldnt be on fire.

:S

:: 2007 22 January :: 10.06am
:: Mood: dizzy
:: Music: Soundtrack For Our Movie - MAE

jordan has a nice MacBook. i like it a lot
his computer even has spell check
i love it

hold on he has to show me something.

it was fucking sweet, it has a camera and you and use all these cool effects
i'm in love with this computer
i want one maybe i'll steal jordan and he can bring his laptop
:D

i love little kids
i want to major in early childhood development right now
awwwwwwww

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:: 2007 22 January :: 6.21am
:: Mood: rushed
:: Music: In The Morning Before Work - Owen

i dont understand how i break my alarm clock sometimes.
i dont think it likes me, so i just decides not to work.

whatever.
i hate school.
i feel like hating things today.

i really want a good hug.
not a half assed hug

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:: 2007 21 January :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Dogs - Page France

so what if you catch me,
where will we land?

:: 2007 20 January :: 11.30am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Inmates - The Good Life

a huge branch broke off of the tree in my front yard and got stuck between the deck and the tree.
its scary, i dont want to walk under that tree. the branch might fall on me.
:(

:: 2007 19 January :: 5.44am
:: Mood: confused

i hate it when teachers don't respond to your emails.
i should get ready to go to school.

yuck.

:: 2007 18 January :: 3.11pm

I think Paul is right. God does hate me.

I got a concussion in Eli's car today when it slid into some rocks and my head hit the window.
:(

and i really dont want to go to school tomorrow.

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