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:: 2007 18 January :: 6.25am
:: Music: Time After Time - Quietdrive

i feel kind of stupid.
i stabbed myself in the eye with a needle.

but i think it was destiny or something
because if i hadn't, i wouldn't have called morgan and woke her up
and if morgan hadn't woken up i couldn't get to school.

so yeah, everything happens for a reason.

but now my eye feels all fucked up and i'm worried i'm going to go blind
and i cannot see well out of it

AHHHH.

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:: 2007 17 January :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: scared

I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath where I am.

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:: 2007 17 January :: 4.13pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Wolf Like Me - TV On The Radio

I hate empty stomachs.
They make too much noise.
And they ruin my day and make me feel sick.

So I've decided I'm going to go into my kitchen and find some food.
yes yes.

Today was uneventful in an eventful way.
If that makes sense..

I made some new friends, and I did good on my logic quiz.
Eli broke a table.
I was sophisticated. Hells yes.
I talked to square head kid on the bus ahaha that was fun.

But I really am hungry.
So I'm going to go eat some stuffs.

:D

:: 2007 16 January :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Agenda Suicide - The Faint

i am so tired
and sore

and i dont know why

and im really pissed off.
lets go punch infants.

:: 2007 16 January :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Books Written For Girls - Camera Obscura

so i guess i'm grounded for another five weeks.
which is pure shit.

so what, i failed english but im doing it again. im not giving up.
jesus christ, this wont fuck up my future forever.
let me go.

to get ungrounded i have to have a B average.
so i have a B in math and a B in american studies
and i have proof of those grades.
but they want me to wait until winter quarter grades are posted to unground me.
winter quarter just started.

that seems unfair.
or am i just crazy?

maybe im just crazy.

ahahahahaha its not like i dont learn from my mistakes.

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:: 2007 16 January :: 5.20am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Float On - Ben Lee

i have a quiz in logic today.
and i hope seeing beau wont be akward.
it wont be.
i just have to tell myself that.

i want to see nicole
and katie
and ksanka
and a whole bunch of other people.
and brookelynn :)

so last night, my dad had the "what are you going to do when you grow up" talk with me. im getting kind of sick of these.
so now i have to make a list of colleges i want to go to
and i have to find scholarships and i have to make a plan
and i dont want to.

its a scary feeling not knowing what you're going to be doing for the rest of your life..
and its just starting to sink in i think.

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:: 2007 15 January :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: A Movie Script Ending - Death Cab For Cutie

sd uggh

sldjfslj
i want to get away from here
just drive away
get on that highway and never look back.
i want to see it all, i just want to soak everything in and admire the beauty thats around me. see all the things that everyone else is too busy to notice.

and i want to be listening to amazing music while i do.
like elliot smith.

and i know who i want to go with.

[edit]

you have to accept people for who they are
and they decisions they make
you cannot control them
if they have their heart set on doing something, they're gonna do it

its their life, let them live it.

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:: 2007 15 January :: 1.37pm
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: let it rain - ok go

ukhkjhkj

mmm pot stickers

im so glad i dont have english this week.
ahahaha
and i should be ungrounded by tomorrow

yay

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:: 2007 13 January :: 4.24pm
:: Music: Open Face Crab Sandwich - Seaweed Jack

ahhhhh.

too bad seaweed jack is playing on friday.
or else i would go.
that sucks.
stupid catarina.

i want to dance :S

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:: 2007 13 January :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: If You Want Blood (You Got It) - AC/DC

today is a lazy day.
its snowing
and i just want to take a nap.

but i have to finish cleaning my room
and write a freaking essay about fear in the media.
poop.

ah well.
i should be ungrounded soon.

crap, i have to remember to do that freaking math binder stuff.

im looking forward to friday :D
ahaha, im pretty pathetic. oh well.

THANK GOD FOR 3 DAY WEEKENDS!
seriously.

:: 2007 12 January :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: sick/calm
:: Music: fruit bats - lazy eye

life is one confusing mofo, but i'm glad i got it sorted out.
im grounded :S
which sucks.
my best friend moved across the state.
boyfriends are trouble :P
haha
bad habits get worse.
stomachs growl louder when you dont feed them.
you dont feed them when you cant find food.
crushes complicate a lot of things.
especially when you cannot stop thinking of them.
college is complicated
high school is complicated
but i cant choose which i like better or want more of.
i want spring.
i want food.
i want st. patricks day to come
i cleaned my room finally.
you re-meet people in the oddest places
ice cream is good, but dont get large. its just too much.
its not hard to make things right with someone.
parents are crazy in good ways :D

ah
well
i dont know
i just felt like i neglect this thing.
and it needed some love.

:: 2006 15 December :: 2.03pm

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

:: 2006 10 December :: 4.32pm

i love you skyler.
and i miss you <3

i wish you could come home.

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:: 2006 8 December :: 6.56pm

dont take caffeine pills.

they make you sickkkkk..

gahhhhhhhh

can i vomit now?

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:: 2006 5 December :: 9.18pm

you still exist?

HA!

[sorry about that, nathan]

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:: 2006 27 November :: 8.16pm

Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a truck.

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:: 2006 23 November :: 5.48pm

okokok
sooo

shiny toy guns are coming to spokane december 6th
and i dont have college classes the second half of that week.
so
im going

and im excited.

and its only $10.

sooooooooooooooooooooooo
i know who's going with me too.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

:: 2006 20 November :: 6.12am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: house of the rising sun

tomorrow
will
be
a
fabulous
day

because...

"the
devil
and
god
are
raging
inside
me"

will be beautiful
when i buy it tomorrow
and fall
in
love
with
brand new
all
over
again.

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:: 2006 13 November :: 5.58am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: blink-182

i wish we knew how

Watch your fears flow
And please don't loose me while you're looking for yourself
Cause you know I would wait;
Forever and a day

So when we grow up, finally
Old and alone
Let's not forget what it felt like
To be in this moment, nowrightnow

Baby, there's no need to worry
This feeling is only temporary
With time it will wash away, like those stains you left on the carpet
From the last time we went wrong
And I yell the words I wish were mine
And hope you understand, but you just don't
Understand

Well, maybe I'll just sit here and listen as your voice rises
Sending shivers up my spine, goosebumps down my arms
And pushing me further down this hole named lust
You're stealing my breath, slowly but steadily
While your words catch me by my heart strings,
And pull...

There's the boy at the corner market selling his lemonade,
Dirty knees and elbows, smiling.
I saw his tears, sending brown streaks down his rosy cheeks
He reminded me of you darling.

:: 2006 9 November :: 3.41pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: jacob butcher - skyscrapers

hehe.

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:: 2006 1 November :: 5.31am

really fucking funny halloween joke...

"Girl walks up to the whale girl and says....

First hott girl says:
Hey girl with the name that starts with "A" and ends with "X".

We can't celebrate Halloween at school. SOOOOOOOOOO

take that fat suit off!!!!!!!!

ahahaha

forth meal?"

leik omg, lets make fun of people!!

it would have been funnier if she had the guts to say it to my face, cause i would have fucking beat the shit out of her.

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:: 2006 26 October :: 4.22am

hehe <3

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:: 2006 25 October :: 4.41am
:: Mood: excited

My parachute didn't open
and when my back up failed
the pixie dust prevailed
and i woke up next to you
all i wanted was to hold you

i was born in a city
however small
it held a hospital
the location where i came into being
it was all down hill from there

what do you do
when your lifes a disaster
and your moving faster
and its getting harder to breathe

what do you say
if someone is right but
you disagree
even if its the truth

i was told you are depressed
by a little bird
that was severly hurt
as it did not notice my window
it just flew wherever the wind blows
as it convulsed on the pavement
it whispered i am hated
your genetic flaws
i said say it all
you cant decipher reflections from reality
but neither can i

i noticed neither can i

:: 2006 23 October :: 6.01pm

everything is good again prettyymuch.

yeahh. today wasnt that great of a day but you know, everyone has their moments haha.

nicole makes delicious food. eli is good at honking at old people and driving on the wrong side of the road. beau gives me kisses on the cheek. and i met some russians today.

morgan makes me happy cause she likes to talk with me :D thats good stuff
and jordan is a sweetie and i missed brett bretterson so i;m glad i saw him today and gots to hug him and all that jazzy jazz.

i cannot wait till saturday so's i can hang with those supurb designated drivers, hells yeah.

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:: 2006 22 October :: 12.57pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: pollen and salt - daphne loves derby

some days, i just wanna give up.

i feel so stupid and pathetic and needy.
and i just want to be good enough, for him and for me.
but right now i feel like i wont ever be. and it hurts.

and thinking all of this, makes me feel more pathetic.
i just need to drop it.
i wish i could just.. not care anymore.
i wish i could just go with the flow, be cool with everything thats happening around me. but i dunno. it hard for me and i feelsldkjfdsjflsdkjf sdlfksjdflksjdfl like exploding.

arrrrrgggh i dont like this, at all.

:: 2006 20 October :: 5.59am

so i'm your latest cup of tea to keep your cold hands company.

:: 2006 18 October :: 4.33am
:: Music: waking ashland- i am for you

i feel stupid again...

i hate it when i get in these moods...

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:: 2006 17 October :: 6.23am

And now my heart is in your hand
So baby, understand

:: 2006 5 October :: 4.48am

bffl's are cool.

:: 2006 25 September :: 6.47am

HOLY FREAKING HELL!!!!!osdmflksdjflskdfhlaksdjf;;

i got a feature of deviantart.... holsdflkdsjflshiit
umm yeah im an unknown artist shiitsonn

ohhahahaaa yeahhhpuyupp

anyway, thats prettyfucking cool if you ask me and please ask me

harrrhaakaka butttt

ummparty prettyymuch
its prettyy intense yakno

FREAKING HELLLL ahhhhh!!! exciting

its CRUSH btw hellsyahh

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