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aerii

:: 2006 14 March :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: jealous





god, now i hate myself even more...

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aerii

:: 2006 13 March :: 9.18pm

i wrote more postcards than hooks, i read more maps than books, i feel like every chance to leave is another chance i should have took.
every minute is a mile, i've never felt so hollow, i'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles.
my secrets for a buck, watch me as i cut myself wide open on this stage as i am paid to spill my guts.

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aerii

:: 2006 13 March :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: hear you me

i hate...









myself

when i try to do something good and it blows up in my face

wasl testing

school

boys

myself

Christina Marie Pena

and the fact that she is so much better than me

Mr. Eastman

Jed Zillmer

tofu

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aerii

:: 2006 9 March :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: amused

"As someone whom lost their Grandmother to emphysema i can tell you it's confusing and that i dealt with it by learning to smoke.

because i fucking love the irony"

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aerii

:: 2006 5 March :: 5.21pm

stab my back, it's better when i bleed for you

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aerii

:: 2006 19 February :: 11.24am
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: the shins

one by one all day







"howdy, lem," my grandfather said with his eyes closed
wiping the eastbound dust from his sunburned brow
a life before doubt.

i smell the engine grease and mint the wind is blending
under the moan of rotting elm in the silo floor.

down a hill of pine tree quills we made our way
to the bottom and the ferns where thick moss grows
beside a stream.

under the rocks are snails and we can fill our pockets
and let them go one by one all day in a brand new place.

you were no ordinary drain on her defenses
and she was no ordinary girl
Oh, Inverted World
if every moment of our lives
were cradled softly in the hands of some strange and gentle child
i'd not roll my eyes so.

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aerii

:: 2006 12 February :: 8.55pm
:: Music: placebo

drag






You're always ahead of the game
I drag behind
You never get caught in the rain
When I'm drenched to the bone every time
You're the first one to swim across the Seine
I lag behind
You're always ahead of the game
While I drag behind

I drag behind
I drag behind
I drag behind
I drag behind

You're always ahead of the pack
I drag behind
You posses every trait that I lack
By coincidence or by design
You're the monkey I've got on my back
That tells me to shine
You're always ahead of the pack
While I drag behind

You're always ahead of the rest
When I'm always on time
You got As on your algebra tests
I failed and they kept me behind
I just gotta get off my chest
That I think you're divine
You're always ahead of the rest
While I drag behind

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aerii

:: 2006 7 February :: 5.52pm
:: Mood: stressed

i hate.





the fact that i just spilled milk on myself.

science homework.

that i'm not driving right now.

that ori won't take my driving even though he isn't doing anything, and can't do anything.

my hurt back.

that I'm not listening to POWERMAD.

Mike Lyons.

the dewey decimal system.

not being little anymore.

the fact that me and Chris to the tina didn't Tae-Bo with Billy Blanks today.

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aerii

:: 2006 7 February :: 5.14pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: stereophonics


my throat hurts like i've been crying/screaming all day.

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aerii

:: 2006 28 January :: 7.22pm
:: Mood: disappointed


i hate how i can't be who i want to be

i hate how i don't want to be me

and i hate how i'm not important to them

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aerii

:: 2006 28 January :: 3.35pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!!!

<3<3

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aerii

:: 2006 28 January :: 11.02am

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY BROOKELYNN!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!!!


(ps. cigarettes? lol)

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aerii

:: 2006 27 January :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: cold

?





this one?

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Aerii

:: 2006 26 January :: 5.32pm
:: Mood: energetic

HOW THE WORLD WORKS (FUNCTIONING PEOPLES)








People often say that God created earth. But that isn't true. They also say that the earth was created in "the big bang". But this too is very untrue. The gnomes made the earth out of poppy flowers and sun screen and calculator buttons, which they ground into a fine powder using little gnome hammers. This is the truest thing that has ever been uttered by anyone.
I like to tell myself that these gnomes made humans. But there is no proof to support this statement. No one knows where humans come from and what our purpose is. But that isn't what this story is about. This story is about how "The People" interact with each other and function.
People function. They "use" their brains. They engage in problem solving activities. They move their limbs about violently. But has anyone ever taken the time to know and appreciate a person? If they did, they would realize that people can be deep and say meaningful things, such as, "I love you." And they can mean it. You may think it odd that humans have this ability to share such feelings, but they love to love. But humans also love to hate, which, in a sense is still loving. One time, I was walking down some stairs and this guy totally punched me in the face and he was all, "Dude! I love to punch people!" And I was all, "Excuse me, lame-O!" They we got into a bloody fist fight and I emerged victorios, with the skin of my advisary fashioned into a new robe. I taught that SOB to hate.
But humans possess many other qualities and emotions. And they preform many different tasks to interact with each other, my favourite of which, is hugging. Don't ask me why, because even though I have an answer, I won't tell you.
So remember, everytime you look at a human, you're looking at a human who lives on a planet that was fashioned by gnomes.

-FIN

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Aerii

:: 2006 23 January :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: annoyed



I just want to disappear.

Fade away forever.

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aerii

:: 2006 23 January :: 5.27am
:: Mood: cold





I'm just some girl who can't convince herself that love is real.

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Aerii

:: 2006 21 January :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: allamericanrejects

move along





Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

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Aerii

:: 2006 20 January :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: happy





Haha, and Quin totally deserved it too!

Good times.

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aerii

:: 2006 18 January :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: contemplative

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aerii

:: 2006 18 January :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Chesney Hawkes

Star Wars Quiz.




1. How many cloaks has Jedi master Obi-Wan Kenobi gone through since the start of the Clone Wars?

2. What type of land speeder does Luke Skywalker own?

3. What is the name of the 2-handed lightsaber combat style?

4. What type of skyhopper does Luke Skywalker own?

5. What race is Kit Fisto?

6. What type of holster does Han Solo carry?

7. What is the cylinder located above the hips of a storm trooper?

8. Mace Windu is a master of what lightsaber form?

9. What does form VI consist mostly of?

10. Where does a lightsaber get its color?

11. What are the three different variations of the DC-15?

12. What standard firearm and side arm do the Imperial Stormtroopers use?



Five points for every answer. Ten points for every correct answer.

[electronic kisses.]

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aerii

:: 2006 17 January :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: placebo

brookelynn -



i listened to those placebo songs.

[i like them]

<3<3

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aerii

:: 2006 17 January :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: snow patrol

spitting games




I broke into your house last night
And left a note at your bedside
I'm far too shy to speak to you at school
You leave me numb and I don't know why

I find it easier to sit and stare
Than push my limbs out towards you right
My heart is bursting in your perfect eyes
As blue as oceans and as pure as skies

I struggle for the words and then give up
My heads up with the birds on the t-hut
A little piece of mind that I know better
That the plain disgrace of all my letters

After that the floodgates opened up
And I fell in love with everyone I saw
Take your time I'm not in any rush
And it's in everything I ever write

It's not as if I need the extra weight
Confused enough by life so thanks a lot
Lonely written words for company
Just raise the roof this once and follow me

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aerii

:: 2006 16 January :: 9.00am



I'm downloading a Japanese word processor.

It's not that exciting...

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aerii

:: 2006 15 January :: 8.06pm

and we're getting good
at passing out in motion,
on our strangers floors,
and our wandering hearts,
numb our blistered fingers and our burning throats

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aerii

:: 2006 14 January :: 4.39pm




I wanna watch Drop Dead Fred.

Where are my siblings? I feel so alone.

...and hungry.

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aerii

:: 2006 11 January :: 9.05pm

I'm so sad and angry and not cool feeling....

I don't even know what to say.....




alskjdflkajsdflkhsadglkjasdglkhsdltjsdglhasldgkjsd

[totally freaked out]


I'm sorry sorry sorry sorry, even though I have nothing to be sorry about.

<3

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aerii

:: 2006 10 January :: 7.54pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: the shins

I need to see Better Off Dead.

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karoras-spirit

:: 2000 1 January :: 12.00pm

Image from martinam.org

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aerii

:: 2006 7 January :: 5.01pm

today is sad and sleepy.

i mish you. <3

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aerii

:: 2006 1 January :: 12.53pm

<3<3<3

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