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2006 3 January :: 5.09 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: nickelback : savin' me
seventy times 7.
I'm not happy, and its not my fault this time. The people that I feel like are my friends, the people that I feel like are my everything, are nothing. They follow their leader and I'm just there for their amusement. I'm making new friends this semester, ones that they will never know, they don't deserve to know them. Brand new says its best "Dont apoloize, I hope you choke and die."
:-\ goodnight.
5 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2005 19 November :: 10.44 am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: fall out boy : dance dance
I cant stop listening to the same songs over and over again. I also cant help but keep making the same mistake over and over again, and yet I still fucking care. For the record, I'm RIDICULOUS.
with a smile on my face |
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2005 10 October :: 8.39 pm
I miss my woohu!!!!!!
2 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2005 17 March :: 10.30 pm
i miss my woohu.
with a smile on my face |
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2005 8 January :: 3.47 pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: the pixies : i bleed
don't apologize, i hope you choke and die.
I'm so content, but at the same time I'm so unhappy. Is this possible? How can i be feeling two opposite feelings/emotions, so strongly? I'm lonely, but not necessarily for love, for a true friendship. Anyone that I've thought I would be able to trust has let me down one way or another, I have no one anymore, but myself. I just want that one person I can call up and turn to, no matter what, when, or why. I want that person I can tell EVERYTHING to and not have to worry about them saying anythign to anyone else. I have a best friend, who I love dearly, unfortunately I cant trust her..and that's where I get lost. The one person I thought I could trust I can't, it made me question everyone and everything. I'm so very unhappy & I just want to curl up into a ball, and never open up again. I'm off to work, I wish that building would burn down, so I wouldn't have to work there anymore, die steakhouse, die.
6 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 29 December :: 4.40 pm
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get, <3.
with a smile on my face |
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2004 18 October :: 7.01 am
it just makes me so mad, I can't live through another Victoria, or go through another case of that. I can't lose "him" to a friend, I'd die. I did that for 4 years of my life, I'm not doing it for another year. Im feeling so much regret right now, I just want to curl up in a corner and scream and cry and sleep and just never have to get up. And btw, I don't want to go to Beastie Boys tonight, I don't want to do anything. AHHHH! Alright, I"m done.
5 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 30 August :: 6.47 am
I still like him, I still want him around. I miss his 2am phone calls, I miss the beach at ngiht with him, I miss him hanging out w/ me and my friends. And I can't stadn the fact that he won't talk to me, fuck you, immature bitch.
1 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 18 August :: 9.03 pm
its official, i was not meant to be happy.
ASDHFJSDK
2 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 2 August :: 7.46 pm
I miss freshman year so much. I was thinking about it today, and I got sad. I miss my friends from then...the six of us. I miss it so much. fuck growing up.
with a smile on my face |
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2004 20 July :: 1.57 am
I leave for alaska, tomorrow. dont miss me too much<3333
with a smile on my face |
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2004 17 July :: 3.03 pm
Going to Alaska in 3 days, and I can't fucking wait!
<3mandy.
5 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 25 May :: 7.59 pm
Umm, I dont update this one as much, just sometimes...so yeah.
www.livejournal.com/users/fandapop
BUt I still love my woohu <3
2 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 20 May :: 4.12 pm
I guess that I can do a "real" update on woohu, for once. Exams are starting on Monday, and I'm getting nervous. This weekend, is going to be insane, but I think that it's just bad timing. Friday night I'm working til 9, than I'm going to Lauren's, cause we made plans a week ago, and I love her. Saturday I was planning on going to the Fishing Rodeo, to help my step-mom, but maybe I'm just going to study, all day. And then Saturday night is a night with Paige, so she thinks. Ya'll know what I'm really talking about though. And then Sunday is the Bahamas, I can't fucking wait. Paige + Mandy + Samahab = daaang, watch out. hahah. But now I'm thinking with exams starting on Tuesday at 1, that I shouldn't do all this, and just go out on Sat night/Sunday day, cause I really need to get atleast c's, on EVERY exam. God, too much to figure out. I'm off to Wal*Mart with Maria, I miss her a lot.
xo
<3mandyy
2 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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2004 17 May :: 10.39 pm
I'm paid for!!!!
<3333
4 kissed me to die |
with a smile on my face |
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