remember that good mood i was in??
def. diminished by my father. yeah- im grounded for no reason. i know how kids always think that theyre grounded for no reason, but seriously i should not be grounded. my mom doesnt even think i should be, but you cant do anything about it when it comes to my father. so all the plans i had this week are down the drain. and for anyone whos called--thats why i didnt pick up. ive been upgraded though- now instead of being grounded to my room- its to the house. so im hoping by the weekend, i'll be officially out. if not- i will be out by next week. so i can make plans for then. sorry for the innconvience. and i hope to see you guys real soon!

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home all alone...its getting old
since mom is back in school and dad is working- i get to stay home and watch my siblings. what fun. reality check: i dont think i can get any more bored than i already am. and taking care of the house is no piece of cake either. but its only one more week! i can still go out..but it has to be certain times, dont have rides..just more complicated. but next week im free to do whatever my little heart desires. so you people better be ready to go out! lol. anyhu, im almost done saving my money for my very expensive phone bill. then i get to save it all again and finally buy stuff with it. its been hard trying to think of ways that i "spent" the money to tell my parents. oh well--never gonna go over on minutes like that again. hopefully not for a while at least. i need a job. badly. everywhere i thought was gonna work out- didnt. silly me for thinking that something might actually go right. is it too late to even get one now? i dunno. but i need money. i guess im gonna have to learn how to make it around the house. ha! i'll figure something out.

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cant wait til amara gets here..
went to ashley's filipino festival thing yesterday. she danced. she did really good! then i watched haunted mansion. cute movie. then some other movie on abc family. i liked it a lot. today i didnt do anything. and guess what..our air conditioner broke! hot as hell man! but im about to go out with amara to see mean girls. shall be fun. just wish my kaila could go. :(

man..i scare easily!
so last night kaila texts me saying that scream 2 was on fox..so i watched that- tv versions are a lot worse than the real thing. i think im getting better with "fears" lol. watching all these movies lately. but thats not what scared me..these guys came to our house at like 10 last night, saying that they were lost and they needed to use our phone. so my mom started freaking out, which got me scared..and the whole time ashley is on the phone. trying to scare me. yeah- it worked lol. then around midnight i guess..my mom started saying how she heard noises outside and that she saw someone run past the car, mind you- this is all right by my window. so i was chicken shit. and ashley only made it worse. what a night, what a night. then today was extremely boring. i did nothing. carlos called but i missed it. and now im gonna start some bio homework. its come to that. so im gonna go. ttyl. x0x0.

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*...HOLY CRAP...*
as you all know, i lost my tiffanys awhile back. well i dont know if i told you the part where my sister was wearing one a few days later. and she made up this whole elaborate story of how it was her friends. but i KNEW it was mine. it was just one of those gut instincts. like how a mother knows her child lol. thats how obsessed i am over my jewelry. anyhu, i let her go because i figured i was just being stupid and crazy. and i still never found it after tearing my room apart and everything. well, today, for some reason i decide to talk to her little friend. turns out- her friend doesnt own ANY tiffany jewelry. so i told my mom. and she got my sister..so of course she changed the story up a little bit..thinking i wouldnt realize. honey please. so i asked her friend about all these other people- NONE of them own a tiffanys either. so i busted her. and she made up this story of how she found it in the laundry hamper, put it in her room, then somehow it was gone by the end of the day. bullshit is all i have to say to that. finally, after a lot of arguement..my parents made her search her room for it until she found it and if she didnt she would have to replace it. luckily, she found it under her dresser. good thing for her..because i would have made her buy me a new one. trying to make me think i lost it, then lied about it. too bad for her..she doesnt know how to lie..she made it too detailed making it easy to figure out. (my mischievious skills are coming out lol) well..its back in my hands- where it belongs!

but through the whole process..i gave my sister a little bit of attitude..and I got in trouble. geez. did i not have the right to be pissed?? parents just dont understand...for the most part. heh. had to get it out. and i feel better now. so im out. x0x0.

...and i dont want you to think that im being a spoiled little brat...im like this over anything..and its the principle. had to clear the air.

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i saw jeepers creepers 2 last night. yeah- worked myself up and planned on getting really scared..but the only time i screamed was because the thing popped outta no where. other than that..not scary with really bad effects. next time, next time. then today my mom decides to have "summer cleaning" day. lemme tell you how much fun this is. but i've finally convinced her to let me re-do my room the way I want it. what a relief. cant wait for it to be done! she said i can start in about two weeks, because right now shes back in school..sorta. hehe..im excited. i've already looked online for my comforter. i think i found it. yay. well im gonna get back to my oh so fun cleaning adventure. lol.

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UNDER CONSTRUCTION...

i re-did woohu! hope ya'll like it..

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GUESS WHOS COMING BACK!?
...thats right- me. i pulled it off. oh yeah.

im gonna start from saturday. i DID manage to finally go out. i went to see troy with carlos n his family. lol. theyre such a cute family. came home around 1 in the morning. and the dog ran out of the house- yeah made a fool of myself chasing him. heh. oh well. then just chilled on sunday. now for today:

spanish- got our tests back..got a B..
math- got our tests back..got a B..so i have a C in the class :)
chem- she can kiss my ass.. a 69.20..wont give me the fucking C. anyways we did group work the whole time- so we did whatever.
lunch- me n amara managed to eat a chicken patty. haha. why didnt we think of ice cream??
art history- finished my project. i like it. and everyones came out really good too. tried to take damn pictres..but noooo. heh. carlos presented..did a good job.
bus- talked for a little bit to amy. then we all fell asleep..well i dont know if amy did. but u get what i mean.

now i gotta write a spanish poem and study for health. yes i need to study lol.

IM DETERMINED TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE...
yesterday was a good day..dont really feel like typing about it. i did relays. yeah- def. got very red. i got an A in english and on the exam. score. and epstein can kiss my ass. bus ride was fun though. then i ended up staying in last night. again. watched 'bones'- creepy but yet so0 fake. then some other tv. got off the couch around 3:00 am. then today i went to lunch at Mario's. yummy food. now im gonna call some people up to see if they wanna hang out. i will not stay home!

short and simple. lol

REAL EYES REALIZE REAL LIES.
hey all. whats up? nada aqui. today was boring, very stressful. spanish- translations test..alright. math- test. F.AI.L.E.D. chemistry- test. F.AI.L.E.D. art history- worked on the project. i like it. its fun. bus- talked to amy the whole way home. <3. took a nap. IM GOING ON A CRUISE AND THEN I HAVE A HOUSE ON THE BEACH!!!! im soooo excited. now im talking to ashley..hehe. my buddy. gotta go rest up with my candles lol.

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WAS IT PICK ON SAM DAY??

having no lockers suck! i have way too much to carry..

spanish- got a key club certificate lol.
math- copied chemistry worksheets..looked through magazines
chemistry- took a quiz. failed. did group work. ms. kenyon = bitch. went delirious.
lunch- nothing new
art histroy- worked on our projects. had fun actually. although everyone was picking on me. lol
bus- talked to amy most of the time.
home- ate wendys. yum.

note to self: do homework! ha

HOW YA LIKE IT DADDY??

weekend wrap up: NADA..maybe this weekend people will be able to go out?

today was good. very much appreciated.
- joe was on the bus :/
-carlos cut off his fro!!

* spanish_ didnt do much. my rachel was absent...
-walked behind amara and kaila without them knowing..funny funny.

* health_ wow. some people just shouldnt speak. HA. we reviewed and i caught up on work. girl dropped a book on my foot..oww. we're going to the track next class :(
-met up with everyone..talked..walked my buddy to class

* lunch_ boring..studied vocab. talked to amanda.

* english_ morone wasnt in the best mood. took the vocab quiz. but the hawthorn thing was interesting. then we just chit chatted.
-holy crap..you guys were HYPER!!

* economics_ talked to kaila and amanda. slept for a bit. did other homework. i guess you could say borinnggg..:/

* bus ride_ fun..talked to my girlies. no joe! whoo.

* home_ nada...watched tv..ate..the usual routine.

well im gonna try and do some tarea..ttyl

DONT GET THE WRONG IDEA..
..just been thinking [again]

im not mad, upset, sad, or anyother name you can think of. i just want to know what i come off as. do i come off as this little white girl with the perfect life? can i pull off the whole 'smiles and giggles' thing? some of you think that and i never thought i could. i guess its good and all that i can pull that image off. but why does me looking happy mean i live in a "perfect world"? whats that saying..oh yeah..dont judge a book by its cover. the thing that really bothers me isnt the fact that you think i live in a perfect world or live the perfect life..but that you pretty much tell me what i have/do. or think that i cant relate to any hardship that one may encounter.

no, i most likely wont tell you what i've gone through and if i do it will be a very general summary. no, i most likely wont show you that im upset. no, i most likely wont cry infront of you. no, i most likely wont ever complain about personal stuff. no, i most likely wont ever show you that side of me. and you guys know that im like this. you know that im not an open person. and sometimes i wish i were. but the fact of the matter is that im not. i keep to myself on the personal things.

now, dont get me wrong, im glad i can hide my feelings or pretend to be happy, because i dont like letting people know im upset. and i love being there for other people. its about one of the greatest feelings in the world. for me atleast. just to know that i could be your shoulder to cry on, or the ear you vented to, or that you chose me to seek advice from. i just like helping people.

...now here comes the but.

BUT..when you tell me your problem or hardship..dont think i cant relate just because of the way i present myself. because more than likely i can relate. and when I TELL you that i understand or that i know what you're going through-- DO NOT, and i repeat do not, tell me that i cant. just because i you dont know, doesnt mean it didnt happen. only i would know what i've gone through, and it'll probably stay that way.

bottom line is: dont tell me what i've gone through, or what i do and dont understand, and do not tell me that i live in a perfect world, because that is so far from the truth. or maybe say it...but then when i tell you it isnt true..DO NOT tell me that i dont know what im talking about. because you're the one who doesnt know what they're talking about.

so think what you want about me, but if i tell you differently..dont argue with me.

again, im not mad, upset, depressed, or anything of that nature. im not hiding anything from you and theres nothing going on that you should worry about. this was just another result from sam not being able to go out and had too much time to think.