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2005 17 August :: 7.42pm
:: Music: Lee Jung Hyun - [Something in Korean]
I`m better.
Thanks guys. :D I`m feeling a little bit better. My mom still is pretty pissy. But that`s kinda normal.
I like poured my feelings to like 2 awesome friends yesterday, like completely. I`ve never had a person listen to my problems before so that was nice. And cause it`s hard for me to trust people. But whatever.
And tomorrow is registration. :D And I`m walking there with Nikki so I won`t be alone when I get there. P: There is like 800 people there I don`t know so I would feel pretty weird being alone.
I don`t think I`ll be posting in the guild for awhile.
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Dakishime
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2005 16 August :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Nothing.
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I feel so unwanted right now. It really sucks. My mom like called me stupid. And it hurt a lot because she was already mad and I knew she actually ment it. And I can`t stop crying.
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Dakishime
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2005 14 August :: 2.38pm
:: Music: Chemistry - Let`s Get Together (Tokyo Calling)
BLEHBLEHBLEH. (:
Registration is next week D: The Orientation is next week. WHY IS THE SUN SETTING ON SUMMER?! How I would love for at least 1 more month. That`s cause I`m lazy. :D
Kirara so lucky. She found what she wants to do. I think. I wish I made a strong decision on what I want to do for a living and work hard for it to come true. But all I can do now is just get good grades. P: BLEH. I have no idea. D:
Well, today I went to develop my Japan pictures which has expired at least 2 months ago. LMAO. Told you I`m lazy. And I got a new Jansport Red backpack for school. eww. School. bleh. Whatever.
I don`t care anymore.
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Dakishime
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2005 10 August :: 8.56pm
:: Music: Otsuka Ai - Himiwari
:D NOTHING REALLY.
Damn music. I don`t think music works on woohu.. ): But yeah. Whatever. My mommy said if I get straight A`s for a year, I can get to go to Japan again. And MAYBE South Korean and Taiwan. But now that I think of it. I don`t want to go there just yet. I would rather get a digital camera first and then go on vacation. (: But I hope I live to see the day. ):
I`m always scared that, I can never see tomorrow. Not that I`m sick or anything. But it`s just scary. D: I hate the feeling. hehehe. o_____o^
I still cry over my dad`s death. Kinda silly since it`s almost a year now. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? A Whole year. Almost. The end of August is approaching. P: And Like yeah. I wonder what I will do on that day. D:
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2005 5 August :: 9.57pm
This Layout sucks and it`s hard to read. But I`ll put another one up soon, hopefully. (:
Something`s weerd about my PS7 When I save for the web. xD
Like I don`t know what but it gets all fizzy and the picture doesn`t come out smooth. ): But whatever.
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dakishime
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2005 5 July :: 7.05pm
AND BOOM. I`m gone. <3
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dakishime
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2005 30 June :: 12.00pm
:: Music: Nothing.
ACK!
Damnit. I have to finish coloring a picture by tomorrow night.. D; I didn`t even start on the lineart yet. D: D: I wasted my time drawing other things for other contests that isn`t even going to end until like August or whatever. blehhh. But then tomorrow I`m staying home so I have a whole day to finish it. I hope I do. ): I might have to draw another picture also. D:!
Well, here in the Bay Area, Northern California, the weather has turned abruptly high. D: I hate heat. And I`m staying at a cheap person`s house and they don`t like to use air conditioner. o_o
I should like change the layout now. It`s getting so old..
I also need a new user look-up for Neo. o_o I made a new account and joined Apri`s Guild.
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dakishime
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2005 30 May :: 11.18pm
How disappointing. Trying to take your life away. Does it even matter to you how people that love you are going to feel? No, it doesn`t matter how many times we say it. You just don`t listen. You`ve had someone that you love taken away. So just pretend you are in our shoes. We love you. And you try to kill yourself. Which is even worse then just passing away. It makes me feel like I`m worthless in your heart. That no matter how many times I say that I care for you and that I love you, you just can`t seem to hear me. Do you really want to leave all your friends that much.? Do you have so much hatred and grief all around you that you can`t seem to find a way out beside suicide.?
Bad things happen to everybody. Some more to others. But to live life, you`ve got to deal with it and move on. If you die, you won`t get to see tomorrow and what is held inside it. I understand that some people can`t help but be depressed and can`t seem to see the brighter side of things. But you aren`t like that. You are mostly happy and excited. Don`t try to suicide again. Do you think you will make your family any happier.? All it would do is bring us grief. More grief. Even more until our eyes gouge out.
Don`t cut yourself either. It disgusts me. How people think cutting themselves make them feel better. It`s like if they want more attention to their sad lives. I`m sorry if I seem to a hypocrite or a bossy bitchy stupid girl, but I don`t like seeing people getting hurt.
Please don`t try to suicide again. I hope you won`t try to suicide again. I wish you won`t try to suicide again.
Honestly to tell you the truth. You were the strongest person I knew.
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