:: 2004 17 August :: 6.25 pm

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind dont matter, and those who matter dont mind.

Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer...but wish we didnt.

Think about it

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:: 2004 16 August :: 4.35 pm

Why do I get blamed for everything? I didnt do anything wrong!!!

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:: 2004 14 August :: 10.34 pm

If i see one more math problem i think im gunna kill myself
You've probably already guessed that I was doing math homework, if not ur an idiot lol. I also got this book called the Da Vinci code, becuz i have to read it for my english class, and my moms all paranoid cuz its against christianity, but w.e she'll get over it hopefully

Emily came over yesterday, she brought sum reli weird movie called cabin fever. If you've seen the previews and reli wanna see it DONT it horrible! It was reli weird, I just have one word for you...PANCAKES...if you've seen it you know wut I mean.

Today me, emily, and my mom went shopping for a backpack we went to 3 different stores. we stopped at bj's and sum old guy was hittin on my mom cuz she helped him out with his gas, he said he was gunna buy her a beer. Finally I found a backpack, then me and emily went to the bookstore, she bought a book. We walked over to walmart and I bought my friend Ashley a birthday preset. Then Emily went home

After that I did my homework, im so sick of math!!! Sandra called me and we talked for a little while, I found out that shes now going to santalucas and she likes it alot better than boynton. She wouldve been in four of my classes..well my neck hurts
PEACE

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:: 2004 11 August :: 3.41 pm

Last day of summer-first day of school
LAST DAY OF SUMMER

my last day of summer was pretty fun. Emily slept over and it was just so much fun we were laughin about everything! I got so pissed off at my cat cuz it threw up 3 times in my room that night, and guess who had to clean it up! grrrrrr! Anywayz the next morning we got up around 10:30 and watched Jerry Springer than we walked over to the movies. We walked over to taco bell before we went into the movies, and I ended up getting a huge stomach ache :(...
we saw collatarel or w/e its called...it was reli good, I actually thouht tom cruise did a good job. Then we walked over to bells and came home. Emily left a few hours later and I went to my excercise class. That night I could not fall aslepp I layed down at 10:30 and didnt fall asleep until 2:30, than I had to get up at six

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

I was so tired this morning when I got up, I only got like 3 hrs of sleep :(. My day was pretty good my schedule looks like this

1. Drama
2.Psychology
3.Chemistry
4.Computer technology
5.English
6.Basketball~:(
7.Algebra 2

I have friends in all my classes except for math...Idk ne1! I have to get basketball changed to spanish 1 cuz I need to foriegn languages. This year I have lunch A which kinda sucks...The only friends I got in there are shannon, stephen, mike, ashley, and brianna...maybe theres more idk about, hopefully, well I have english and math hw grrr, and I'm gunna probably fall asleep pretty early.

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:: 2004 8 August :: 8.45 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Barenaked ladies-if i had a million dollars

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:: 2004 6 August :: 2.55 pm

At emilys
Emily is sick right now. Shes taking a nap, i feel so bad for her but i was sick yesterday. Emily took care of me so im gunna fix her oodles of noodles. she did that for me yesterday its the least i could do...she also read to me lol, she was doing voices and everything.

Wednesday night was fun. me and emily went to go see harold and kumara go to white castle IT WAS SOOOO FUNNY. but the theatre was reli cold. then we went bak to my house and just hung out. the next day was reli boring but we didnt have to go to step class because we pretended to fall asleep lol. then we went over to her house and i got sick, nuthin else has reli happened but i'll update l8er if sumthin interestin does

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:: 2004 3 August :: 3.39 pm
:: Music: guns n' roses-paradise city

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:: 2004 1 August :: 7.27 pm
:: Music: sevendust-beautiful

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:: 2004 31 July :: 3.18 pm

to all my friendz: enjoy ur time at the warped tour!!!
everybody is at the warped tour today except me :(...but thats ok cuz im still having fun, i got to go shopping. I just bought a new pair of shoes, then im going to get my eyebrows done and finally clothes shopping.

a few days ago me and emily hung out. we went to the mall and emily went shopping. then she actually came to step class with me. It was so funny watching her try to step that it made my day. then she came over and we ate. we were taking her home and the song "slow motion for me" came on and we started acting like idiots lol, a few ppl started starin at us lol

i might go see a movie with my brother and his friends tonight...i think its called the manchurion candidate but im not too sure.

me and my brother are trying to convince my mom to let us get a dog...but i doubt very seriously that she'll let us. she says that we dont take care of things we have, and it would be unfair to the dog if we kept it locked up in an apartment all day...NOT IF ITS A SMALL DOG!!!! well im going to get my eyebrows dun...coment if u want to...i doubt if ne-1 reads this lol...PE@CE

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:: 2004 28 July :: 1.26 pm
:: Music: wheatus-teenage dirtbag

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:: 2004 26 July :: 4.45 pm

annoyin little kids!!!
there finally gone! i'm usually pretty good with kids, especially since i was a counsler in summer camp for about four years, but not my little sisters friendz. I dnt reli have a problem with vanessa its her cousin kelly who annoys the livin shit outta me. i swear shes got the capacity of a five year old, and she laughs so incredibly loud (she makes rachel look normal *lol em)

I was thinkin alot about the other day when sandra was over...i wonder why i didnt ask my dad if i could go live with him. I kno he probably wouldve never let me...but i still couldve asked. I was reli mad too...more mad than i have been in a while, maybe im to tied down to my house and family...idk, once again im worrying over absolutly nuthin.

not much has gone on today...except dealin with julie and her friendz. Tonight im goin over emilys which hopefully will brighten my mood...tommorrow i gotta go to the class thing again! o how im dreading it! I was just writing to waste time...it didnt reli wrk to well

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:: 2004 25 July :: 6.31 pm

LoTs To WrItE!!!
ok, well im gunna start where i left out from last week. First of all me and sandra got reli bored so we started messin around with my moms video camera. after that my mom made me and her go to this stupid step class at the Y. it was so hard, so i got give my mom credit for being able to put up with it, now shes making me go twice a week :( oh well there are worse things in life. after that I slept over sandras house.

the next morning we cleaned ALL day. then sandra wanted to cum over again but i didnt care cuz we were havin fun. we were actually plannin on her sleepin over for two days then goin home. she str8end my hair and then i called my mom and asked her if sandra could sleep over, my mom said she didnt care so everything was good. then me and her decided we wanted to go see catwoman...thats when the shit started hittin the fan. we only had enough money for 1 ticket, but sandra said she knew every1 who worked there. so i called my mom and asked her to pick us up after the movie, she said that she would. but guess wut??? sandra DIDNT kno the ppl workin there. so there was kno way we could get in. i called my mom and asked her to pick me up then, but she wouldnt b-cuz she was shoppin with al and they just got to the store, and she didnt wanna leave. i was upset so i threatened to wlk home in the middle of the night, but she didnt care. we walked back to sandras house and called my mom from there to let her kno we were stayin there... and she could pick us up when she was dun. then without me knowin it sandra called my brother and asked him to cum and get us, he eventually said yes so once again i called my mom and told her that jeff was gunna pick us, but this time she was in a reli bad mood and said sandra couldnt cum over cuz i was bein "disrespectful" then she hung up. we kept tryin to call her but she turned off her cell phone. jeff was there to pick me up so sandra decided to wlk me to the front gate. but when she got there she got in my bros and basically refused to get out, and becuz it was me i was freakin out. when my mom tells me im not allowed to have a friend over, I CANT i would get in so much trouble. odly jeff wasnt tellin her to get out of the car. it took me a while but finally he tld her to get out. sandra didnt tell her mom she wasnt allowed to cum over so instead of goin home she started walkin off towards the movies. then i started worryin again cuz her mom thought she was with me so i made jeff go pick her up. after that we drove bak to my house and me, julie, vanessa, and sandra were tryin to cum up with reasons to let my mom kno sandra was over without me gettin my ass kicked. we were to late thou, cuz while we were tlakin about it we heard the key turning in the doorknob so me being the dumbass that i am yelled sandra hide, i deserve to be bitch slapped for that one. me and sandra ran in the bak while julie and vanessa stalled. i closed the door which bought us sumtime b-cuz the was no door handle on it, cuz we were paintin the day before (the door that is), and sandra hid under the bed. it didnt take long for my mom to realize that sumthin was wrong, and of course who had to be with her but al...the last person in the universe i wanted to see. my mom was PISSED and she decided that she was gunna drive sandra home...so she dropped her off. ten minutes l8er however sandras mom called and asked to speak with her, so obviously she didnt go home. the fight just got worse from there, and i was ready to call my dad and move in. finally i went to bed.

the next morning wasnt ne better than the night before. I thought i was grounded for life, my mom took julie and vanessa shopping and i got left home alone. I decided to clean to try and get on my moms good side. around 1 sandra called and asked if i could hang out, but i wasnt even suppose to be on the phone so i couldnt. the weird thing was i looked on her caller ID and it wasnt her house # so idk if she had gone home. my mom got home and i was tryin to be on my best behavior, which actually worked she told me that i could invite emily to sleep over :), emily came over and me, her, jeff, and his friend joe went to go see I ROBOT at city place, that movie was reli good!

Today i went clothes shoppin, i got a new outfit...theres a huge sale goin down at the mall NO TAX WEEK, and everything was like 50% off. emily went home about an hour and a half ago, as long as this journal entry was, i gave the shortened version, but i g2g PEACE

p.s. dani im gunna miss u so much!!!

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:: 2004 22 July :: 12.33 pm
:: Mood: weird

Tuesday was kinda fun. I did nuthin basically the whole day, then my mom came home and told me i had to go to this stupid class thing with her. but i was like w/e cuz arguin with her is like arguin with a wall. So we were gettin ready to go to the ymca, when sandra called and wanted to kno if i wanted to go to boomers. i reli wanted to go and at first my mom said she would think about it, then she changed her mind cuz she wanted to go see Al and she didnt wanna leave my sister home alone at night. so i called sandra bak and we came up with a solution... Julie could cum with us!!! at first my mom said yes and then she asked how we were gettin there...i basically figured she could take us cuz boomers is on the way to Als house, but no that wouldnt work cuz Al was so fuckin important that she had to rush over to see him, and couldnt drop us of. Then i asked her if i could go if i got another ride... of course the answer was no. we finally left my house and the argument kept gettin worse until finally i decided not to go to her little class! julie and her went inside and i just sat in the car for like 5 minutes. then i decided i was gunna go over to sandras until the class was over. so i went and found my lil sister and told her were i went. then i walkede over to sandras and we just watched sum t.v. The whole time we were joking around about how my mom was gunna kill me, and sandra made me put on all these crosses, and carry around a bible it was reli fnny. finally my mom came and suprisingly she was in a good mood. sandra invited me to sleep over but julie had to cum cuz my mom didnt want her to be home alone. so julie came with me...then we watched sum more tv for like a half hour. sandras boyfriend called and he said that he was going to the club house. we went over there and he was sooo high, it was so fnny he sounded so fnny when he tlkd. he left like ten minutes l8er so me julie sandra shawn and katlyn stayed outside for like 2 more hrs... and me and sandra tlked to the hot security guard, he had a newyork accent :)
finally we went inside and fell asleep!

the next day we decided early in the morning that we wanted to mini golfing... everbody had money but me :(, but julie and sandra voluntered to pay for me :). all of sandras money was over at shawns house so we went over there but she wasnt home. so we went bak to sandras house and sandro called. he didnt remember anything that happened the night before. we tld him that julie was 16 and he thought she sounded hot lmao! finally shawn and katlyn came home and we go sandras money. we ended up like havin $23, when we needed like $26. so we decided to just take the bus there and have my mom pick us up after work. and then if we didnt have enough money for mini golf we would go bowlin. we were walkin to the bus stop...we didnt make it. we came to realization that we wouldnt be able to afford golfin...and with the money we had we wouldnt get to bowl much. so instead we decided to go to the movies. we walked over there and we were all arguin over wut we wanted to see. me and julie wanted to see I robot...but sandra wanted to see a cinderella story. since sandra was paying the most we saw the movie she wanted to see. it ended up bein good. after the movie we got hungry and went over to get sum mcdonalds. we saw ryan wesner there and tlked to him for a little while, then my mom came and picked us up... we went to the ymca, and played a lil basketball. sandra ended up sleeping over.

today not much is goin on ive been up for a couple of hrs...me and sandra played a game in monopoly...I WON!!! now im just writin in my journal...but i g2g l8er

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:: 2004 19 July :: 11.15 am

i havent updated in a while, but not that much has been goin on...but im still gunna write the shortened version.

me and emily hung out from thursday to sunday it was fun...i always have fun with her. thursday night we rented the butterfly effect...which was so good...if you havent seen it yet RENT IT lol...but dont watch the directors cut cuzed it sucked! then we hung out all day and went shoppin, she came over to my house that evening. we decided to go to the Y...but we didnt have very much fun. then we had to cum bak home and move everything out of my room...when i say everything i mean everything...cuz my mom wanted to clean the damn carpets. it took forever. Then on saturday was my little sisters birthday party so we had to stay and help. but it was ok...cuz we went to veterans park and made a new friend :) lol...his name was matt he was 17...at first one of julies friends thought he was a bum in the slide...which i think hurt his feelings. Then that night we went bak to emilys house and watched i know what you did last summer...which turned out to be pretty good, i reli liked the ending! then the next morning i had to go to church, and then i went home, slept for a little while cuz i was reli tired.

when i got up ashley came over...and we just caught up. we decided to go to the movies and see white chicks, it was sooo funny. then after the movies we went up to the pool, and i made three more new friends lol :)...michael, sandy, and patricio (i have no idea how to spell his name) it was fun...we ended up havin a water fight...and ashley got thrown in, and she was wearin a white shirt. we then went bak to my house and got changed, cuz she wasnt suppose to be at the pool. then i watched charlies angels 2 and fell asleep...i think shes suppose to cum over again today!...well im out

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:: 2004 14 July :: 10.29 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: sevendust-enemy

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