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mm.. i always tend to fuk up, always always, its just how my life goes.. i always want what i cant have. and im talking about multiple things here lol .. but whatever SCHOOLS OUT for five days and im gonna live it up!! Nick's here from .. mm somewhere lol so we're all chillin w/ him which is cool, lol my mom loves that boy -- its pathetic!!

but ya, back to my situations.. i somehow always get into these lose lose situations .. its like uugh! God, i dont know why i just cant listen to my grl when she gives me advice, i am so dumb.. but i cant help myself.. i mean i love my girl so much, and i try to give her advice too, and i tried to follow it, but .. its just aah! lol shits so complicating

but ya, thanks to my girls who are always there for me, who i can trust, and for the boys i got too -- id be lost without ya'll .. but ya.. i wish i could go back.. not do what i did, or fix what other people did or didnt do or felt or didnt feel or thought or didnt think.. grr, but for the people i fucked over, or didnt listen to im sorry and thats all i can say

well ive done it before , so i can do it again, put my feelings aside so i dont get hurt. ugh, i dont get it, so much bullcrap in life, why couldnt God just make it easy on us, well im dnoe complaining to the what.. 3 or 4 people who read this? im gonna go and think about good things and pretend none of this ever happened!

you know, i want to be happy too, which doesn't happen that often, but when i get a chance to be, i just take it - dumb me, i always put me in the place where i can be brutally hurt and i hate it, i dont mean to, i just kind of end up there, but since noone really reads this im gonnna go..
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i fucking love you - lol heath
bah humbug - lol whit
to the very few iLu
xo - hb wv cw ji zh
id be so lost w/o you -- please dont ever let me down or leave me!!

His A t Ti T u D e `HiS P e R s O n A l I t Y
HiS lOok `HiS sMiLe`HiS sCenT `HiS sTyLe
*...this is y i want.....him<3
such a cute quote ^

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