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2003 1 December :: 7.20 pm
:: Mood: depressed
Such useful things, friends are...
I've had a confusing day, with regards to my mood, anyway. I started off with general depression, which developed into periods of mild suicidalness, countered with the feeling that I want to kill everyone.
My 'friends' keep on making new friends and talking to different people, but I don't think they understand or care that I just can't do that. It took me nearly two years to forge what I thought might be lasting friendships, but everything is set to crumble at my feet again. Still, it's up to them if they want other friends, and it's quite understandable. I mean, I'm hardly the best of company.
The problem is, when I just want to be on my own, and I'm likely to hurt people, I can't find my own space. So one of the friends pulls her councillor act on me, and goes all 'understanding and sympathetic' and the other doesn't care. Oh, the joy of friends.
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2003 12 November :: 5.08 pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: AFI
Trains, shoes and little sisiters (and paint and turpentine!)
I had a bad day today. More unlucky than usual, anyway.
I managed to miss the train home because the people in front of me were slow, and the train was early then didn't wait (they hate the school kids.)
While I was waiting with my year 8 sister and her silly friends for the next train, my sister managed to drop her shoe off the platform (!!!) Don't ask me how, but she did. It wasn't the track side, but there's this big strip of grass and mud on the other side, and since none of my sister's friends would fetch the shoe, I was left with the honour...
I had to climb through the railings, then walk through the wet grass and into the mud to fetch the shoe, which had rolled under the stupid platform. It's a really skanky station because it's not a major one, so they didn't give it a solid platform, just concrete on stilts.
And just to top that lot, I managed to get white emulsion paint on my navy blue school skirt, which the parents were not pleased about...
I won't write any more now, but I might update tomorrow. I better get on with my chapter for my Pokémon fanfic.
EDIT: Must add this quiz result...
What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 9 November :: 11.25 am
:: Mood: aggravated
Why can't parents ever keep their noses out of their kid's business? Every time I try and do a piece of homework, write something, draw a picture or whatever, they come along and start with the twenty questions routine. And if that wasn't bad enough, they start offering suggestions I don't want and trying to 'help' me.
I was trying to plan my Spanish coursework just now, and we have to write a leaflet to advertise our home town. I wasn't having a whole lot of luck with it, because there's nothing to advertise in my town, so my parents march in and tell me all the 'great things' about where I live, and that just because I don't like them, it doesn't mean other people won't.
That might have been a reasonable thing to say if:
1»] I had actually wanted help,
2»] I hadn't known that already, and
3»] Everyone in my Spanish class hadn't complained about the same thing I was complaining about to the teacher last lesson.
I wasn't in a positive mood by then, and so I just told my parents to leave me alone, and went to type up my R.S homework instead. Which is how I came to be updating my journal.
On a lighter note, I caught Feebas at last on my Pokémon Sapphire game, and now I just have to evolve it.
Also, I've put something new up on Fanfiction.net, and changed my username to Darkstorm Dragon. You can see my profile and stories by clicking HERE.
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2003 2 November :: 12.11 pm
:: Mood: bored
It's always English homework...
One of the advantages to having a computer in my room, is that I can just shut my door, pretend I'm doing homework, then just update my journal, or whatever else I feel like doing on the computer.
There are disadvantages, of course. My sister is always in my room playing some noisy game like The Sims, or a noisy Neopets game. But I can live with that, I guess.
I'm supposed to be working on an English essay right now (why is it always English homework I am trying to do while I update my journal?) I just have to type a couple of pages up, then finish it off, so it's not that much to do, but I hate typing things up, especially homework.
I think I better go and get on with it, so I'll leave this entry for now, and maybe do another this evening.
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2003 1 November :: 7.30 pm
:: Mood: indifferent
Wow... I haven't updated this in over a month... That's probably because whenever I feel like a rant in my web journal, I'm nowhere near a computer (or the internet decides to go down -_-)
Well, I'm not in any extreme mood of any kind at the moment, since my day was half-decent. I made a birthday card for my mum, did my DT homework and surfed the net. As usual. Life is so boring...
This is going to be a very short entry, since i have to go and work on my Pokémon fan fiction, which I will someday post on my Fan Fiction account, which you can visit here.
I can't be bothered to write anything else in this right now... Maybe when I'm in a worse mood.
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2003 17 September :: 7.10 pm
:: Mood: Ill
:: Music: Evanescence
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I have a sore throat, a blocked-up nose and my eyes are running. I've had to go to school for the last two days with a bad cold, so I'm not in the best of moods...
Oh, and I have English coursework due in tomorrow. I've done about two-thirds of it, but i really don't feel like doing the other third. School is piling on work because I'm a year 10 and we're starting out GCSE course this year. Great time for me to fall ill.
Right now I'm really bored. When I'm bored I just sit around and take online quizzes. I'll paste some results here:
Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange darkness and sadness lurk about you.
What element would you rein over? (For Girls) brought to you by Quizilla
Dragon of Fate
In the war between good and evil, a Dragon of Fate tends to walk the fine line of Neutrality.
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos.
As far as magical tendancies, Your inner dragon has the ability to conquer the world of magic, but it will not be easy.
During combat situations, the Dragon of Fate shows a preference for the rending and slashing of Hand to Hand combat.
Dragon Description:
Dragons of Fate are a very rare breed of Dragon. They are seldom seen, but when they are they appear to be nothing more than a wisp of smoke, though occasionally one will view the sharp, silver talons that characterize this breed.
They will often appear at key moments in human history, but generally just as observers as they do not like to interfere in the natural course of human events. There are occasions however where they will use their powers, but only in the direst of circumstances when the balance of the universe is threatened.
When the balance is threatened they will retreat to a plane of existence where they can see each and every strand of life in the universe. They will isolate a particular strand or strands and either change that strands course, or in very rare occasions, cut the strand out of the web, which is why they need the sharp talons. Though no one has ever seen this plane, the rumors are that the pattern of life is so beautiful that if one were to gaze upon it they would lose all sense of themselves and simply cease to exist. It is for this reason that Dragons of Fate have to be very cold and objective, for only they can gaze upon this web and not be awed by its beauty.
This Dragons favorite elements are: Objectivity, Balance and Free Will
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2003 14 September :: 3.10 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Radiostorm Alternative Digital Radio Station
First Attempt at An Online Journal...
I'm trying to listen to Radiostorm Alternative (my favourite digital radio station) but the network keeps stalling (I'm not entirely sure what that means, but that's the warning message that comes up.)
I've started up a website recently, and I thought it might be useful to make a web journal to go with it. The website is for Neopets graphics (premade guild layouts and suchlike,) my artwork and Pokémon Ruby/Sapphire related things. Yes, I'm a loser. I'm fourteen and I still play Pokémon on a Game Boy.
Not that I care. It's better to be a loser than one of the awful self-centered things at school that call themselves popular.
You can visit my website here. There's not a lot to see right now, since I've only just started it, and it hasn't got it's own domain because I'm a kid and I can't afford to be paying to run a website.
I'll post some pictures of my art here when I get some good pictures done. I can't do digital art very well or quickly because I don't have a scanner at home, so my dad has to scan things in at his office.
I can't be bothered to write anymore right now, but I may add another entry later or edit this one.
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