Mon Flamant Vomit des Bijoux de Sepia.

:: 2004 16 January :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: Prosy
:: Music: "Of Lillies and Remains" - Bauhaus

'non compos mentis' Bedlamite.
Climb to the peak of vanity and take that second glance, you'll need it. For the soilders of chauvinistic notoriety sure do frown upon this felony. The present generation of self-inflicting violence and excessive butter are really nothing but vagrants with broken maps, too stubborn to ask for directions.

It wasn't all my fault when you think about it.
The chain was dead long before this.
Why, I guess you can say it's a favor.
That's what I tell myself.

Scott's lips are insane.
And I'm floating on cloud nine.
Heading for a dead-end.
Traveling negative 40 miles a minute.

No, it wasn't my fault at all; blame it on the butter.

Hiei

:: 2004 14 January :: 8.30am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Legend of Mana main theme

Came out victorious
After some time since Zelda: the Wind waker came out.. I've beaten it 7 times. The reason I play it so much is to get every secret and every hidden item in the game no matter how usless or hard it is to get. My biggest task was getting all those figurines, not because I'm a so called "hard-core fan" but it's just something I thought I needed to do to make myself feel complete besides the fact there's nothing else to play in my spare time. (Even though I should be doing my make up work. Curse thy science!) Well now my Wind Waker legacy is over for I have received all that needed to be found and collected all that seemed accessable. I suppose I'll move on to something else, what? I have yet to find out. Maybe I'll get back into the Arc series or better yet, Suikoden, now there's something that's always fun, nothing like raising an army. Naruto is on, it's a rerun...Naruto vs. Kino. Yea I guess that's all. Try figuring out this riddle:
The beginning of eternity
The end of time and space
The beginning of every end,
And the end of every place.

7 spat | spit it out

:: 2004 11 January :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: "Purple Haze" - Hendrix

Clandestine pain.
I'd turn the sun off if the switch wasn't so high.

Bah. My mom decided to pay me a "surprise visit" this week. I packed my stuff sometime around a week ago and stayed their up until yesterday.

...Isn't pretext wonderful?

Hiei

:: 2004 8 January :: 6.48pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Same

Nothing new.
Same kind of day as usual. Got up, had class...Getting a D in science. I don't know why I guess it's just not my subject. Went to work, same old cronies, same old cheap geeks for dragonball Z and pokemon cards, and old men for hentai. ( Just so you know I work at a comic book store in a dead strip mall, we don't get much business..) Came home, took a nap and then went to kendo. Hasn't really changed either, typical Warm up, introduction, katas, sparring, and reflections (in that order!). Came home, took a shower, went to bed...Got up and did some make up work for class, and here I am. I thought I'd end this thing up with a poem...yes a poem. Why? Don't know.

THE CLOUDS their backs together laid, The north begun to push, The forests galloped till they fell, The lightning skipped like mice; The thunder crumbled like a stuff�
How good to be safe in tombs, Where nature�s temper cannot reach, Nor vengeance ever comes!

-Emily Dickinson (1830-1886)

Hiei

:: 2004 5 January :: 6.50pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Legend Of Mana theme song

Not that guy again..
Yea, i'm back once again. I know I came back and then went away for some time. A lot has happened with in that time I suppose but I'll focus on current events. My rank as a Rokudan has deffinitly proven to be challenging, the new years festivals have ended and today is my first day back to class and school. Current book I'm reading is Hagakure, it's a requirment for everyone in my class in kendo, righteous as it may be, I need to focus on school work because I'm getting a "D" in science. -clears throat- Anyway...I think that about sums it up for today. (y-.-)y Peace.

You are KAKASHI!
Mature. Balanced. Quirky. You're not what people would call a "black sheep" but at the same time, you aren't quite normal. With a subtle sense of humor and a slightly less than subtle way of teaching people a lesson, one thing is for sure: no one can wait to see your whole face

3 spat | spit it out

:: 2004 2 January :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: Irksome
:: Music: "[KR]Cube" - Dir en Grey

~~Phony~~ Phobia
Philophobia?...Blah. I need to throw my mind in another direction:

embryo
Embryo

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Jealous - The Song of Untrue Love
Jealous
This song is about an untrue love of a woman to a
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:: 2004 2 January :: 12.23pm
:: Mood: Imbecile
:: Music: "Love Kills" - Circle Jerks.

To live with no incentive; everything seems superficial.
My light bulb burned out. No metaphors there, I'm literally sitting in the dark.

The past seems so fake now that I think about it. But without it, there's no hope for my future.

And I don't think I'll miss him that much.
The future looks pretty nice.

It's about time I follow up on my word. I should have seen the past six days ago.

And cheerios never tasted sweeter.

Yes, that was a metaphor.

:: 2004 1 January :: 12.25am
:: Mood: Phlegmy
:: Music: "Howard Hughes" Rasputina

Counterfeit Innocence.
My sunshine jelly has rotted and washed away. It's my fault for not having the confidence to tell him how I really feel. To tell him that I can't accept the now-common- fa�ade I live through every day. Am I afraid of what'll happen? I know the truth, and it's evident that love wasn't meant for us. At least I think it isn't. And the slightlest chance of me being wrong is what's eating away my self-trust. I'm not brave enough to roll the dice and see what results.

I suck.

2 spat | spit it out

:: 2003 31 December :: 12.34am
:: Mood: Empty
:: Music: "LoveFool" - The Cardigans

Pretend that you love me.
"Dear, I fear we're facing a problem."

Maybe I shouldn't bother anymore. I felt like he blamed me for something I had no control over. Even if he didn't mean to seem as such, it sure did feel like it. I told myself things wouldn't work out.

Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
But who's to blame the third time around?

:: 2003 29 December :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: repulsive
:: Music: "Caribou"- The Pixies

Third time's a charm.
Y a-t-il de la pi�ce dans votre vie pour un plus de voyage � la lune?

:: 2003 26 December :: 11.46pm
:: Mood: acrimonious
:: Music: My insides rotting.

The last stop for a lost hope.
What a shame, my insides just fell down the sink and my heart is clogging up the drain. The plumber tells lies and his money doesn't talk.

I need to get away from it all, but the plumber took my heart and ran.

2 spat | spit it out

:: 2003 25 December :: 7.42pm
:: Mood: Sadistic
:: Music: NOTHING. I don't DESERVE music.

You know that feeling where you just want to shoot your eye out, and let your skin absorb the blood in, for efforts of moral venilation? Well, I do.
THANK YOU. I WANTED TO SAY "THANK YOU." or SOMETHING along the lines of decency....why couldn't I? I don't know. I'm retarded, maybe.

...And why in Robert Smith's name did I say a lamp?!?...

ARGH. >_< WHY DIDN'T I SAY SOMETHING MORE CREATIVE. A LAMP?!?!? WHO WANTS TO BE NAMED AFTER A LAMP?

I'm a sky diver with no where to land. I mean, really. How many times can I walk away and say, "If only..." I keep making the same mistakes over and over again. I'm watching myself make the same mistakes, too. I guess there's nothing to do. I really must stop hurting them like this...

Merry Christmas?

:: 2003 21 December :: 1.23am
:: Mood: Disordered
:: Music: Nada.

You'll never see a Weeping Willow cry.
Securing the fact that I'm still alive. That's all.

:: 2003 11 December :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: "Bohemian Rhapsody" - Queen

Gailieo figaro-magnifico-
My first track meet was yesterday. Phew, it was a whole EIGHT HOURS long. I had NO IDEA it took that long to run all those events.
...Anyway, Coach Foster came up with this bright idea to make me run three events. If I recall correctly, they were the 55-meter dash, the 4 by 2, and the 4 by 4 relay. For the 55-meter relay I placed first. Amazing? Yes. But maybe it was because I was up against really slow people. And when I say someone's slow, you know they're slow. Anywho- For the 4 by 2 our relay team won, and for the 4 by 4 we placed third. All-in-all, it was almost worth the six hour stand before I even ran.

I ran off pure adrenaline.

...Did I mention I really loathe our uniforms? The shorts are way too short, and the shirt hangs down because it's too big for me. I have to wear all this under-stuff and it really gets annoying after wearing it for all that time. Argh.

So... Yeah. I missed Elmo's Christmas Special.
Darn.