Kayla

Kayla

:: 2004 18 February :: 10.31pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Chingy- one call away

My sister...
Ok well today was a really long day! I went to wic this morning and it turned into a 2 hour event because I had to like renew it for the year or whatever.. and then we took my sister to the Ruth Cooper center she has a lot of problems and and shes having a very hard time right now... I wont get into details because I dont want to put her privacy out there but shes just having a really hard time dealing with life right now.. and our lives have been pretty rough and she is just handling it badly. So anyway we were there from noon to 4:00 just getting her in there.. shes gonna be there awhile I dont know how long exactly but I hope they can help her. I feel so bad that I contribute to her problem.. she thinks that I hate her..and I dont.. she is my sister,I mean we do have our moments but I do not hate her. She thinks i am so spoiled and get more attention than her.. but none of that is my fault and we try really hard to include her.. but I'm sorry she feels that way. Well today she was being really mean to me.. I think its cause she was really upset and needed to take it out on someone.. well she ended up getting mad at me and punching me and punched her back in her head and i broke my pinkey nail so bad it was bleedin a lot.. but anyway I feel kinda bad about the fight but it was just my reaction... ok well I'll update when I have more to say!
<3 Kayla

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 16 February :: 9.59am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: nothingface

last night was fun. we went to drop my sisters off at my dads girlfriends house and then we went to wantagh to pick sherri up. after that amy,sherri,and i went to the witches brew and had some espresso and DAMN that shit was good and it made me pee so fuckin badly, haha. we hung around there and called some people to see who we could hang out with. we wanted to hang out with roberto but he was tired and he had to go to work at 3 so he said no.

i saw yoni and he was staring at me and kept talking to his friend about me and it was getting me really mad and everything. i wanted to fuckin punch him in the face.

so we get in the car with my mom and we drive to the wantagh bowling alley and we were waiting till 9:30 for allison,dave,and sam to come and it was like only 8:30 so we walked to wendys and then hung around in there and then went back to the bowling alley then met up with the people and they played a game and then we went back to allisons house. OK? yea.

i<3richieandod

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sexylilsweetie

:: 2004 15 February :: 3.50pm
:: Mood: satisfied

Valentines Day
Mike just left so I figured I'd write about our night last night... For the most part it was a pretty good night but we did have one little fight.. it was kinda stupid so I wont get into it but other than that it was good... I put rose petals all over my bed and lit some candles around my room. Mike came over at about 9:30 and we ate pizza and then we went to my room (after our stupid fight) Mike gave an adorable little bear and a really sweet card and I gave him a foreplay rose (you take turns pulling back the petals and doing what it says to each other;) hehe) a box of chocolate dipped strawberries, a regular rose, and some stuff for us to use together... a bottle of Pink Champagne, a set of wine glasses w/ hearts on them with a bucket for the champagne bottle, a candle, and some chocolates, 2 flavored condoms (strawberry & vanilla) and a toy. after we were in my room I had on my lingerie I bought to wear for the night.. Mike liked it :) we opened the champagne and drank some together then we played with the foreplay rose and stuff. after we got done enjoying each other.. we fell asleep together. This morning we got up around 10:30 mike watched TV while I picked up the house then we sat in the sun room together and watched TV until he left about an hour ago now. I am gonna go call Keagen now and see if she is gonna spend the night tonight. <3 Kayla

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 15 February :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: hoobastank

well, i have nothing to write here besides the fact that i changed the look of my journal around :) i got a new background,cursor, and perdy colors and all that shizzle. well, i hope that you like it so leave comments about the sexy changes to my sexy journal.

i.wuv.richie.and.od.<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 15 February :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: hoobastank

which groupmember are you?

well, last night i went to sportime in bethpage to this wrestling thing with amy, my mom,my sisters,her friend,and the kid he mentors. it was pretty fun. one wrestler before he went on came into the audience stood on the bleacher right next to me and was spitting beer all over the place. UGH i got it on my jacket and all in my hair. ew i reeked of budweiser and my hair got fucked up. blah oh well. today i dont know exactly what im doing but all i know is that tonight sherri is coming over and hopefully we're going to go to the witches brew and yeah. february 20th i want to go to the glen cove bowling alley and hopefully i will be able to.

i.heart.richie.and.od.<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 February :: 9.21am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nice to meet ya ma-bow wow

well, im in school and bored as fuck. my first period teacher isn't here and only me and one other person was in my 2nd period class so were not doing anything. well, hopefully today goes pretty quick. its the last day of school before vacation!

iheartrichieandod<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: led zepplin

|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie

|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination

|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against

|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost

|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies

|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done

|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH

|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!

|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk

|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally

|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)

|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.

|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie

|Me|
Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...

|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 February :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: maroon5

valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/

well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..

school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.

iheartrichieandod<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year

well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.

one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...

im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh

iheartrichie<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

school today was...
fine.

ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.

bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled

when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.

iheartrichie<3

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