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2003 30 September :: 3.18 pm
:: Mood: overwhelmed
N-M-H
Waterfall
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hahaha that was fun
You're Most Like The Season Spring ...
Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you.
Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)
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I don't feel like writing today. Basically because I just had 2 pretty boring days in a row. I mean nothing awful happened and nothing wonderfully great happened. and that doesn't happen much. I tryed out for solos today and yesterday. It scared the crap outta me and lol... I literally couldn't feel my arms when I was up there..... cuz i was scared....... yeah. I think we might find out who got them tomorrow.. but maybe the next day. I dunno. I screwed up a couple of times though. I ran outta breath sorta cuz I was getting scared. lol like hypervenilating or something. I have a lot of homework. Especially in math. Which i forgot about yesterday. I thought we were doing Math Reflections the next day in class so i did all of it during class while we were supposed to be doing the page in the book. Hey well I got it done and i knew what i was talking about so... whatever. I'm gonna do that for homework tonight. and we got our progress reports. I got all A*s cept in science and I got A- 92% grrrrr.... so close.... I hate that. One point off. I was so happy.. in math i got a 94%. Ive been trying.
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2003 25 September :: 6.36 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: John Waite-Missing You, Aaliyah-Miss You and CD
good song, good song
John Waite
Missing You
Everytime I think of you, I always catch my breath
And I'm still standing here, and you're miles away
And I'm wonderin' why you left
And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight
I hear your name in certain circles, and it always makes me smile
I spend my time thinkin' about you, and it's almost driving me wild
And there's a heart that's breaking down this long distance line tonight
I ain't missing you at all since you've been gone away
I ain't missing you, no matter what I might say
There's a message in the wire, and I'm sending you this signal tonight
You don't know how desperate I've become
And it looks like I'm losing this fight
In your world I have no meaning, though I'm trying hard to understand
And it's my heart that's breaking down this long distance line tonight
Chorus:
I ain't missing you at all since you've been gone away
I ain't missing you, no matter what my friends say
And there's a message that I'm sending out, like a telegraph to your soul
And if I can't bridge this distance, stop this heartbreak overload
(chorus)
I ain't missing you, I ain't missing you, I can lie to myself
And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight
(chorus)
Ain't missing you, I ain't missing you
I ain't missing you, I can lie to myself
Ain't missing you, I ain't missing you
I ain't missing you, I ain't missing you
I ain't missing you, I ain't missing you, ain't missing you, oh no
No matter what my friends might say, I ain't missing you...
oh um.. and it doesn't have anything to do with me being dumped............. you'll never know...................................................
Ah gees. I am so tired. Our core packs us with homework every night and I end up going to bed at 11 and waking up at 5. Today 1 of mah friends asked me if i was punched in the eye. yeah.. uh they were jokin but still. haha. I'm not going to the all-nighter this week. I'm gonna get some sleep. Yeah. and Lazer Skate wasn't that much fun anyway last time because of.... certain things....people..... sleepy grouchyness............ I gotta figure out a way to get more sleep cuz its hard to keep my eyes open in school. Anyway! Choir solos are next week and I am not feeling very confident about them. In fact I'm absolutely opposite. Uhhhggg I get so nervous in front of everyone now after the whole incident last year. I shake all over and I loose my breath. I swear, I had nightmares this summer. Plenty of em. Speaking of nightmares.... I'm gonna write this one down cuz I'm gonna forget it. In my dream the other night, I looked in the mirror, and the gap between my teeth (from my braces that has been stressing me out for like forever) was like two front teeth wide and it was soooooo scary. and then on my bottom teeth I was growing a couple little ones in front and in back of my bottom teeth. Ah but I've had worse nightmares. Like that one where everyone got mad at me for something I didn't do and i was totally helpless to defend myself! ahhh I woke up in total panic. It was so real and so scary. It took me a while to realize it was just a dream after I woke up. Aww man it was awful.................................. I gotta stop with the stupid dot dots.. grr.. yeah whatever. Hey I haven't update this since like a long time haven't i.. Yay i just signed in finally to msn. Ok whenever I'm really done saying what I've got to say in my journal I always just say stupid random stuff so I'm going to shut up now and update. *update*
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2003 17 September :: 11.35 am
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And covered with a perfect shell,
Such a charming beautiful exterior.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes,
Perfect posture,
But you're barely scraping by
But You're barely scraping by.
[Chorus]
This is one time,
This is one time,
That you can't fake it hard enough to please,
Everyone,
Or anyone at all,
Or anyone at all,
And the grave that you refuse to leave,
The refuge that you've built to flee,
The places that you have come to fear the most,
Is the place that you have come to fear the most.
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And hidden in the public eye,
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes,
And perfect makeup,
But you're barely scraping by
But your barely scraping by.
[Repeat Chorus]
And you can't fake it hard enough to please,
Everyone,
Or anyone at all,
Or anyone at all,
And the grave that you refuse to leave,
The refuge that you've built to flee,
The places that you've come to fear the most,
Is the place that you have come to fear the most,
Is the place that you have come to fear the most.
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2003 26 August :: 9.08 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Beyonce Knowles-Yes
carlson 13 ****** dumped u?
¤ boys are stupid ¤ heh no he didn't! is that what he told you?
carlson 13 yeah
¤ boys are stupid ¤ omg yeah that just adds to it all... what an idiot I hate him so much
carlson 13 dump him
¤ boys are stupid ¤ i did
carlson 13 good job
¤ boys are stupid ¤ thats why it makes me mad
carlson 13 ;)
carlson 13 ¤ o well bye
¤ boys are stupid ¤ alright bye
I am so stupid. I didn't even realize what was written on his hand. I'm never going out with a guy that writes on his hand again lol Its gross anyway. girls are supposed to do that. but anyway. besides the point. ya know ive been cheated on but this was just disgusting. hes a pervert. he wrote luv letters that were completely *descriptive* to his other g/f. and at the same time she had no idea that he was going out with me. I don't think..... no wonder he wanted to go out with me in the summer. and now hes claiming that he dumped me. uffffffffffffff. and the biggest thing is i waited so long so that he'd be my friend first and that i would know that i could trust him. but i guess i can't and never can.
but y was the person who told me about this the person i thought that hated me? I mean, my friends knew. They didn't say anything. I mean what?
at least she isn't mad at me anymore...
hey if n e thing similar has happened to you leave some dumb message to make me feel better. heh
uggggg i hate boys
The Best Deceptions
another cheater... you heard about everything.. you
kno EVERYTHING they did.. and now, they want
you back.
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yeaaahup
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2003 22 August :: 12.35 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Stacie Orrico-Bounce Back/Maybe I Won't Look Back/More To Life
The butterflyz on my journal aren't working....... I just deleted this bugbear virus in like everybody's name on my computer. Maybe thats why my computer kept restarting... totally forgot why I'm writing in my journal......... *update*
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2003 18 August :: 6.00 pm
:: Mood: That feeling when you pull your face and drag it d
:: Music: Stacie Orrico CD
ehhh.. sounds accurate
I don't want to go back to schoooooohoooohoooooooohoooolllllllll
I'm Phoebe Buffay from Friends!
Take the Friends Quiz here.
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heh heh heh
Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz
weeeeee ok done
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2003 17 August :: 1.36 pm
:: Mood: better than i did a little bit ago...
:: Music: Stacie Orrico-More To Life
It bothers me that a bunch of ppl are looking at the main screen right now and can see my entries..... that will be cool when woohu has that button.
I'm excentric-gaaaaa gaaaaa
hahah..
--its from rat race... that one guy who like talks with his teeth ahh...hahaha...
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Saints and Sailors
youre becoming solitude and soo loving your
apartment. its understandable. ppl suck, and
youve expected too much, now u expect nothing,
but then again you have no reason too..
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Omg.. I look like an idiot... I'm in that parade magazine thing and my face is all like dddduuurrrrrrrr..... and I sound like a dork.. goes together well... No one in my family really cares. My dad is trying to sound enthusiastic because he rarely is about anything i do so.... grrrrrr............. I really didn't think I'd get in when i sent it in.. and honestly i had hoped that i wouldn't because it was slightly personal and i was afraid my school would make me read it on the announcements like they did the other students and then the snots at my school would just............. aaaaaaaaaahhh..... whatever... maybe when i'm a senior in high school i'll be happy about it.
I'm gonna put the lyrics in here to that song
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
CHORUS:
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more
(Than wanting more)
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
CHORUS
I'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...
CHORUS - repeat twice
More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life
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2003 5 August :: 1.39 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Pharrell-Frontin'
my site
Okay! I updated my site again! Yay it's so cool! I put a poll in the favorite music thing so.. and its all pretty! I put in the banner.. Go see it! Click here to see it! :)
tell me what you think
Normal
how boring...I suggest you take the test again and
lie on some of the answers...
What in heavens name are you?!?
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thats.. great
your the laid back type
whats your personality ?
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you like bunnies!!yay!!!!!maybe you are a
bunny..hmmmmmmm....
**~THE BIG PERSONALITY TEST~**
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wow.. lol thats scary
You should make commercials.
A Quiz that Makes No Sense.
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uh... cool
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