kill me now.........
I give up... I'm don't want to try to fix fights... it only makes my day bad. I had such a good day today.. i was so happy untill I got home. I shouldn't have talked to him and i should have told him to just leave me alone cuz that was such an awful thing to do but... i had to.. I thought maybe i could make things better. But.. no. Its not gonna happen because Mike holds grudges and won't let go of them.. He'll never give in, forgive, or forget. Maybe it would be easier to be like him. I should just not go online, stay in the line at school and just not try to change because i doubt it will ever get better.. I wish i could move. i wish i could sooo much.. I don't know why im bothering because they were jerks to me anyway and i especially hate mike.... sooo whyyyyy am i trying to make this better? Just stay like I was for 2 more months and then... after the following months ill go back to how I am now. I dont want hell anymore. I wish I could forget. Confidencial... pfffftt!

Lip sync and crap
No, I'm not listening to that song. We just tried out for lip sync and we did that song. I don't really care about brandie and her whole group. I mean I care about the other ppl in the group but I don't care about... them...having.. a group.. yeah. I found a quiz thing that I want to do.
Birthday: 2-15-90
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius
Gender: Female
Location: Michigan
School: Middle School
School in 5 years: High School Senior Year
Occupation in 10 years: Web Designer
Hair Color: Brown
Eye Color: Brown
Height: short
Glasses or No: contacts
Braces or no: I'm getting braces over spring break.. ahh..
Piercings/Tattoos: none
Type of Music: emo, some pop, some rap
Sport: Volleyball
Fav Color: pink
Fav. Band/Singer: Dashboard Confessional
Best Girl Friend: probably BreAnn
Best Guy Friend: Zack or Corbin
Turn-Ons: eyes, guys that actully care about you
Turn Offs: insults and guys that tell dumb jokes
What do you look at first when you see a Guy/Girl: smile
Fav Car: Beatle
Do you have a BF/GF: yup
Who do you have a crush on: noone
Future Occupation: web designer
Fave Songs: Dashboard and Moulin Rouge songs
Ride at Disney?: um.. didnt ride anything there
Favorite Cartoon Character: spongebob
Do you Believe In Angels: yup
Do you Believe In Demons: ...yeah i guess
Fav. Article of Clothing: tanktops
Bacon Bits or Croutons: uh...
Do You Like rollar coasters: depends.. corkscrew, yes, shivering timbers no
Do you go to church: yes
Do you get a long with your family: yeah right
FAVES:
Foods: cereal
Fruit: grapes and strawberries
Veggie: celery
Drink: Dr. Pepper
Books: Um.. Drivers Ed by caroline b cooney
Cereal: Cinnamon Toast Crunch
Subject in School: Computers
Day of the Week: Friday
Month: July
Season: summer
Fast Food: Hot and Now
Number: 5
Guy friend: didn't they already ask that?
Girl Friend: Marie, BreAnn, Sam, or Whitney
Cartoon: shut up...
Pizza Topping: cheese.. thats it
HAVE YOU EVER:
Ran from the cops: no
Shoplifted: no
Held A gun: no
Done The Nasty: No
Gotten in a car accident: Nope
Watched Punky Brewster: no
Gone Skinny Dipping: no
Cheated on a test: um.. in manufacturing.. I hated that class. Thats it.
Played Strip Poker: no
Broken a Bone: Fractured both my arms
Had a Medical Emergency: no but when I broke my arm they wheeled me to a room.. that was pretty cool..
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME:
Sang out loud: today in Jazz Choir
Screamed: today at my brother
Watched a kid\'s TV Show: umm.. can't remember. I don't watch tv that much
DO YOU:
Have a pager: No
Have a cell phone: no
Have your own car: No
Have Clothes on Right now: nah.. ya know.. when I get home from school I strip to my skivvys. DUH yeah
Have a mental disease: no
Have any pets: yes
Save E-mails: always unless they are junk or I need more space
Smoke: No
Do Drugs: no!
Drink: nope
Sleep with Stuffed Animals: no
Sleep with the Lights on or off: Off
Think youre weird: kinda yeah :)
Have A pool: Yeah
Go Online a lot: Yes
Sleep A Lot: yeah!!
Curse a lot: no not that often
Have a Job: Nope
Like Lollipops: sure...
THIS OR THAT:
Button, Fly or Zipper Jeans: button
Cookies, Cakes, or Pie: pie
Coffee or Tea: haven't had either
One Pillow or two: 1
Lace or Satin: lace
New or Old: new
Here or There: there
Sweater or Sweatshirt: sweatshirt
Pencil or Pen: Pencil
T-shirt or Tank Top: tank
Stripes or Solids: Solids
Wool or cotton: Cotton
Chocolate milk or plain: chocolate
Celcius or Fahrenheit: fahrenheit
History or Science: history
Summer or winter: summer
Skiing or Swimming: swimming
Ruffles or LayStyle: LayStyle
Blanket or Stuffed Animal: blanket
Shampoo or Conditioner: conditioner
Lefty or Righty: righty
Bridges or Tunnels: tunnels
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Coke or Pepsi: coke
Pools or hot tubs: pools
TV or radio: radio
Snow or rain: rain
Peaches or Plums: Peaches
FUTURE:
College: yes
Husband: i hope so
Number of kids: 2
Occupation: omg.. its on here like... 5 times
Web designer!
House 1 or 2 story: 2
House type: mansion I don't know!


thaaaats it.

Lip Sync
Don't even ask what the "The Friend" is supposed to be about but my name was an inside joke.
Keep in mind I thought she was my best friend. I thought they ALL were my best friends and they are turning their backs on me like Andrea.


"The Friend" says:
i have a full day planed
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
what r u doin
"The Friend" says:
well...
"The Friend" says:
at 12:30 we are doing lipsink at 4:30 they are going home sept sam then at 7 my mom is dropong us(sam and i) off at the dance
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
what?
"The Friend" says:
did whitney talk to u
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
lip sync
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
no..
"The Friend" says:
yeah
"The Friend" says:
so
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
r u kicking me out?
"The Friend" says:
i told u
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
no u didnt
"The Friend" says:
me, sam ,whitney,and courtney
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
so, your kicking me out.
"The Friend" says:
did whit talk to u about doing it with u
"The Friend" says:
if not you need to call her
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
BRANDIE
"The Friend" says:
what
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
this is soo not fair!
"The Friend" says:
yes it is
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
whithout whitney I can't do lipsync
"The Friend" says:
TO BAD FOR U
¤ Smart cookies.. they do not crumble...¤ says:
yeah.. thanx!

Ok. I know I already did this but no one looks at my journal so I\'m gonna do it again.

Current Clothes] a multi-colored pink, purple, and black sweater that i would wear to school but someone I don\'t like has the same one so I\'m wearing it on the weekend.
[Current Mood] embaressed and stressed for school
[ Current Music]As Lovers Go by Dashboard Confessional which hasn\'t been released yet.
[ Current Taste]nothing
[Current Make-up]NONE at all..
[ Current Hair ] down
[ Current Annoyances ] last time I said my old best friend who is angry for stupid reasons but now its more like ppl who keep telling me bad stuff that she\'s saying about me.
[ Current Smell ] nothing
[ Current Thing ] stars and pink stuff
[Current Desktop Picture ] heh. Its black and on the bottom it says active desktop. I haven\'t been on this comp in a while.
[ Current Favorite Artists] Dashboard Confessionals and Christina Aguliera
[ Current Favorite Group ] ummm... Dashboard Confessional if that counts. Or maybe Our Lady Peace.
[ Current Book youre reading] Scribbler of Dreams?? maybe.. I think thats what its called but its about a murder or somethin.
[ Current CD in CD Player] a burnt CD with songs that were popular this summer.
[ Current DVD in player] i think its empty
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] don\\\'t ever paint them
[ Current Refreshment ] don\'t have any
[ Current Worry ] My birthday party and crappy ppl at school. and memorizing my script for Social Studies. oops forgot about that... ah.. and I have Science homework. hehehe
LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] my mom
[ You Hugged ] my boyfriend
[ You Yelled At ] my little brother.
[ You Kissed ] my mom probably hehe
FAVORITE...
[ Food ] mashed potatoes
[ Drink ]Dr. Pepper
[ Color ] pink
[ Album ] Dashboard Confessionals. I like both the albums
[ Shoes ] my sketchers
[ Candy ]gummy worms
[ Animal ]..kitten
[ TV Show ] Lizzie McGuire, Boy Meets World or Home Movies which went off air recently.
[ Movie ] Moulin Rouge
[ Dance ] um.. I dunno. Cha Cha Slide
[ Song ] Dixie Chicks- Travelling Soldier
[ Vegetable ] celery
[ Fruit ] pear.. maybe..
[ Cartoon ] spongebob squarepants
[ Store ] Debs or Dots
[ Kiss ] ?
[ Hangout ] Lazer Skate or Basketball games :)
[ Vacation ] I don\'t like vacations.
Are you..
[ Understanding ] yes
[ Open-minded ] yes
[ Arrogant ] umm.. don\\\'t know
[ Insecure ] maybe sometimes yeah.
[ Interesting ]eh.. i dunno not really
[ Random ] no
[ Hungry ] no
[ Friendly ] yeah
[ Smart ] sorta
[ Moody ] yes
[ Childish ] sometimes yeah
[ Independent ] sometimes yeah
[ Hard working ] sometimes
[Organized ] pretty much yes
[ Healthy ] I think
[ Emotionally Stable ] no
[ Shy ] yes
[ Difficult ] yes
[Attractive ] you tell me
[ Bored Easily ] no not really
[ Thirsty ] no.
[ Responsible ] most of the time
[ Obsessed ] with what? no
[ Angry ] sorta
[ Sad ] kinda
[ Happy ] not really
[ Hyper ] no
[ Trusting ]yes
[ Talkative ] to my friends
Who do you want to...
[ Kill ] I wouldn\'t kill but i\'d...
[ Slap ] here ill just put it. Andrea
[ Get Real Wasted With] no one
[ Get High With ]nooo one
[ Look Like ] Christina Aguliera, but I\'d never dress or pierce myself like her. lol[ Talk To Offline ] Zach or Brandie
[ Talk To Online ] um.. i don\'t know. No one in particular.
[ Date ] already am so no one.

heh. I think I just updated my journal with my mood. Whoops. Whoops seems a lot dumber when your spelling it out. hehe But anyway! Volleyball tryouts are tomorrow. Crap. I suck at volleyball. and then theres that one thing in choir that they are doing which is on Tuesdays. Intramieral volleyball practices are Tuesdays and Thursdays which really sucks cuz i\'m pretty sure I\'m gonna get intrameral (or however you spell it) and A and B teams have games on tuesdays. If I make the A or B team im gonna be mad. Cuz I\'d pick choir before sports cuz I suck at sports and I feel dumb and clutzy when I play sports. Choirs just fun. I luv singin. So when I make intrameral im gonna just have fun practicing on thursdays. maybe...
but.. I just don\'t get why the ppl who I\'m mad at and who are mad at me keep talking about me. I mean if you hate me, why are you still talking about me? I could stoop to your level and talk shit about you but.. I don\'t do that. I don\'t tell ppl that andrea is so full of herself and all that crap about how she liked a guy while she was going out with Mike and how she made me keep it a secret. heh. and that when I liked a guy she got mad at me cuz she had a boyfriend! I mean if ya got a boyfriend and you have an obsessive crush on someone else then why are you going out with a guy you don\'t even like! ahhhh.. Then mike suspects her of cheating and she gets mad and wants me to say, oh its ok andrea. What a jerk for him ACUSING YOU FOR WHAT YOUR ACTULLY DOING!! o m gosh!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh.. I think I\'m going to delete this. But ya know maybe not since no one that I know that goes to my school looks at my journal. In fact I\'m pretty sure no one reads my journal. So if you read it click the say somethin. Cuz im just curious. Okay I\'m keeping this. Andrea has no reason to be mad at me. She said she was mad because I liked my former boyfriend too much.. what? I mean.. I liked him.. he was my boyfriend... wasn\'t I supposed to like him? Ya know I was just about to appologize but what would I say? I\'m sorry I liked my boyfriend. I\'m sorry I liked the same guy as you. You can\'t pick who you have a crush on. You just like them! and whats up with cortney being my friend, \"not on andrea or your side\" and then saying all this crap about how she hates me behind my back. Well gueeeess what? Your ex-boyfriend likes me. I guess he wasn\'t agreeing with you in health. Uhh.. sometimes I just really wish you would read this. Especially mike. and ethan omg.. you drama queen!


Whoa ok. So I hope you all get my point some time or another. Just back off.

This is sorta dumb I'm making this journal. No one reads it. Just fun for me. Maybe I'll put a little woohu sticker on my agenda and some middle schoolers will go to the site. Or maybe not. I dunno. I'm doing quizes again.

See what Care Bear you are.


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I gotta call Rachel and Brandie.

Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You?


pfff.... ha..ha..


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hmmm...

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say something

Again? I must be pretty dumb.
Ok. This is so dumb. The other day I was talking to Cortney and she says shes not on a side between Andrea and I. So I believed her. Although thats what Brandie and Mike have done before and turned to a side against me when they found I was losing the fight. And mike.. ooo... Guess what! I shut down my site the other day. At least the remains of it. It was so filled with crap from Andrea and the people I thought I could trust but are boys so duh.. can't trust them. I mean I haven't talked to them in... a looong time and they sent a comment on the poll that I had up (which sends to my email) that said, "Shannon you are so stupid. Stop whing and get a life" Ahh.. what retards. They spelled whining like that. Ahhhh I haven't talked to them in a long time! Why are they still trying to get to me. Just leave me alone idiots! Ooops didn't even finish what I was saying when I was talking to cortney on the phone. So today I was talking to one of my good guy friends (who everyone thinks is my boyfriend since he's such a good friend. ahh..) so anyway I was talking to him and he brought up the fight about Andrea and I and then someone else comes up to me that Im ok friends with and says Oh yeah andrea was saying a lotta shit about you. So im like omg. I said what? Like as in what did she say. She thought I said when and she said they were talking last hour in Mr. Bowers. The thing is I've got last hour with andrea so thats impossible. so she described cortney and she said that cortney was calling me "a brat and was annoyed with me and stuff" but that girl always says the word brat so she was probably saying a bunch of different crap. The thing is I haven't talked to cortney in a long time either. So whats her problem?! One more person against me. I didn't say anything to her. I'm going to Lazer Skate where I am gonna hang out with my real friends and people who actully care about me. If you hate me tell me it straight to my face. I'd rather have that then have to listen to other people telling me it. OMG i wish I was homeschooled or could just move to a different school so people at church wouldn't have to be all snotty just because I go to cedar schools. Cedar Sucks. Mostly the people in it.