Shea's thoughts

:: 2007 23 September :: 9.57am

some of my money is missing.

:: 2007 20 September :: 11.49pm

A raindrop is perfect. He falls from his home of a cloud so dark, faster and faster he falls not knowing where he will go but anticipates his destination. For each moment that passes he is certian there is a purpose for his exsistence but is unknowing of his fate.

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:: 2007 17 September :: 12.50am

gunnie if you are online please get on aim

:: 2007 17 September :: 12.05am

finally finished dying my hair. thanks to roman of course.

it looks kinda dumb but i dont care. i like the change. and since i am not cutting my hair because iwant it to be long at least this is a little change.

i love grey's anatomy omg. i love it so much. if i had a dying wish i think it would be to be a charatcter on greys anatomy. yeah fer realllllllllll.

shit.

i should replace meredith. because she is annoying and i loveh er but hate her at the same tie.

time

dont mind my typos. i just dont care and omg i can't breathe i feel like my throat is bleeding from all those chemicals and standing in the bathroom with all those chemicals for so long gahhhhhh can't breathe.

yesss! i love endoplasmic reticulum and ribosomes. gosh.

:: 2007 12 September :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: Terribly Sad

A Tribute To A Very Brave Boy...

I did everything in my power to make the last month and four days of your life a happy one. You were a real trooper throughout this whole ordeal. You took your medication like a champ and you were fairly reasonable about bandaging. I knew you were in pain but you still listened to my requests. You were oh so very brave through all of this. You have your wings now. Forever you will run through grassy meadows and carrot patches laced with sweet feed. You are a very brave boy Socks and I love you very much.

Sweet Dreams Sockman

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.58pm

hes a handsome black man.

adn i just opened my book and it is confirmed.

i will fail this class.

grand.

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.53pm

great. my teacher is a really old, unapproachable man.

YES, he walked in to the wrong class and started writing his name on the board and a lady came in and said 'i thought you were in 301?"

"this is 301, isn't it?"

no its not hahaha- i still have a chance to get a better looking, younger, more approachable professor in this class. i'll keep you pposted as i'm sure you all care so much.

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:: 2007 11 September :: 5.47pm

this is what you get because my statistics class is in a computer lab.

why is my math class in a fricken computer lab?

god am i typing really loud or is it just me?

i put my bags in the seat next to me because i dont want anyone to sit by me.
god i'm a bitch.

why are there so many old people that go to davenport. shit i hope thats my teacher because he's pretty hot. he's wearing a tie. oh, nope he sat down. anyway- old people? i hate having so many old people in my class because then no one talks out of turn and it's nothing like high school. everyone acts like they are so much smarter than they really are. i hate it. gosh that guy is cute. well - for a man . man. man man........................

shit i need to go drink and get the hell out of this clas. why am i in this class. i suck at math. i'm probably going to fail it. i did awful in my other math class. shit shit shit. why i am in this class. 3 hours of math. it's gonna kick my ass.

i haven't even opened the packaging on my book. maybe i should do that.
god i need some friends at this school.
but you remember i put my bags in the seat next to me so no one sits by me, right?

i'm a fricken moron.
lets get this show on the road before i write another pointless update.

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.44pm

the sky is pretty right now.

i'm going to have so many regrets when i die.

i'm never going to have that feeling again because i dont have enough time to.

i'm living my life grey's anatomy style. stop feeling sorry for yourself!

:: 2007 9 September :: 5.21pm

so fucking stupid.

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:: 2007 8 September :: 3.23pm

i feel weird.

something weird happened and i'm afraid to fall asleep.

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:: 2007 6 September :: 12.50am
:: Mood: energetic

Seriously...

I have my work definately cut out for me this semester but it is so worth it if I can learn small phrases in German and not have anybody understand what I am saying. I am so excited!!!! I'm only kidding. But seriously that would be awesome. This semester I managed to aquire a sixteen credit load that consists of Sociology, Survey of Calculus, Biology and of course my favorite out of this whole entourage, German.

Anyways, besides my boring and most certainly uneventful college course schedule, my horses are extremely lucky that I love them ever so much. Last night they broke through the fence, then this morning, then tonight. Last night was ok because it was an easy fix, no harm done. This morning on the other hand really irritated me. Class was scheduled to start in an hour and I hadnt been down to see Socks yet and actually looked like a girl, but thats beside the point, and all of the sudden I hear Johnny screaming, in my opinion, and I looked out and the other two horses were nowhere to be found so I go out and look and here comes Pete and Sierra just casually walking down the road coming back from the barn as if they had to do some sort of inspection to ensure that everything was in working order down there. Luckily I had grain in a bucket for Socks, so I shook it a bit and they came running and followed me out to the pasture. I did a make shift fix on the fence and mind you that I am still in my school clothes that make me look like an actual girl. So now my hair is not straight anymore and at that point I didnt really care but that is also beside the point. I actually thought my hair looked pretty nifty because it had that wild messy look but looked seductive pulled back loosely. I will just admit it, I looked hot today!!!! Also beside the point. So anyways, the horses get out again tonight when I get home, actually they were out before that and my phone is broken so I didnt get the numerous messages left by my mother, and I fixed their fence again, hopefully it holds this time. So at 1:00am I am energetic and quite disappointed I was unable to run. Maybe I will do it in the morning. We will see.

I dont really like him, I just like to talk about him alot. I found it quite coincidental that he was exactly were I was at the time I decided to be where I was this afternoon. Of all of the trillions, no make that gazillions, of students on campus, how is it that he happens to be the one that I run in to. Seriously. It just amazes me. Then to top it off we hung out for an hour or so and he was begining to be riduculous, also beside the point. But I mean seriously, how does that work? I enjoyed the time I spent with him but seriously. What makes me wonder even more is that within the first 10 minutes or so I was going to leave and get my German book and he didnt want me to go. It just makes me wonder. Like I said before I dont really like him, I just like to talk about him alot.

So with that out of my system:

Auf Wiederschen!

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:: 2007 5 September :: 7.53pm

we moved into our new apartment and it is so cute and wonderful and big and spacious and great and i love roman and we are so happy .

and my new job is really good i am so much less stressed. i can tell my body is thankful that i got a new job. my face is totally clear and i dont feel pissed off all the time. that job was no good for me. too stressful.

i love life right now except for school. school sucks but oh well. love

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:: 2007 28 August :: 1.35am
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Just me humming strange tunes in my head

I should have seen it coming...I just didnt want to

I seem to have myself stuck between a rock and a hard place. Well maybe not really but sometimes it feels that way. I am not over heels for him anymore, not like I used to be at least but I find myself more and more thinking about him. Sometimes it feels as though something is really there and not just by my account by I get a vibe from him and within minutes or maybe even over the course of the day the sense will just fad into normality which is boring and uneventful. Sometimes I wonder if he just tries to stay distant from me because he doesnt want to see something evolve. I dont know but it was worth a thought.

Another thing that really pisses me off and has become quite the trend is not recieving a phone call back from two specific people in particular. Let me just put it out there, when someone calls somebody else it is common courtesy to return there phone call just to be polite. I am so fucking sick of putting forth an effort where it seems there is a wall. I am tired of being the only one who ever seems to care. I know I fucked up. I know that chances of making it work were slim to none but I was willing to take that slim chance that it might work. I suppose it was just a waste of time from the begining the second time around. I just wish you would of told me that before you decided to drop me off and never bother look back and try to pick up the pieces. But whatever 'lifes a dance you learn as you go.'

But do not worry there is hope for me yet. We will see where this one takes me.