Shea's thoughts

:: 2008 17 December :: 10.27pm

so annoyed. soo annoyed with a bunch of stuff
just wanna move to florida. just progress

i want a house of our own SOOO bad. so freakin bad. i want to decorate it and have SPACE and not feel crammed and stuffed everywhere. i hate this duplex. it's too small. ..nothings respected ugh i hte it

i just want to move to florida and just settle in a get ready for life..

:: 2008 29 November :: 10.15am

i am so fricken mad and upset

my backpack was stolen out of my car at jess's house. yes ii should have locked my car but i forgot to seriously for the like the only time ever. i never forget to lock it.

and i was even parked inside of her garage. who does that?

yeah and everything was in it... including an assignment that is a complilation of events that we had to go to throughout the semester with signed sheets by deaf people and/or hosts who were at the events. things i can't replace.

and papers i wrote that i saved on a flashdrive that was also in the backpack

and videos i recorded that were saved on a flashdrive that was in the backpack

and fucking books that are fucking expensive that i would have continued to use in the following like... 2 semesters. because we continue to use our books because all our classes are based on sign language.

god

i am so pissed and upset and i seriously take this as a sign just like i do everyting because ibelieve in that crap. i take it as a sign that maybe i'm not meant to be going for sign language because now my grades are probably not goign to be good enough to pass if i can't turn in my journal.

great

dfa;lfjdl;skfja;sdlfj;aksjf;asdjfl; fuck and i dont want to be here at work . fuck this. and i swear to god i'm gonna fuckin throw a boulder at this stupid radio that i can't reach because it is playing christmas music and it is so fucking stupid.adsfd;skfjadl;sfjd;sfjasdlfajdksfjadl;sfjadl;sfjdfj

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:: 2008 1 November :: 10.21am

i am having a horrible horrible day...week...

i/we have never done this before. we've always been so on top of things and yeah we've been short before but never honestly with nothing. this is going to wreck things for us. this stuff is permanent.

god how do you tell a friend that you need something because it's fricken ruining shit.

this sucks and i keep getting sick every single day from the stress and i am not liking it.

:: 2008 28 October :: 5.03am
:: Mood: Not sure
:: Music: Country (B-93)

Huh...

I cannot fathom how I managed to stay up reading my World Religions book and doing ungodly amounts of laundry on an hour and a half nap at 11:30 pm and liking it. I figured "Whats the point of going to bed, I need to be up at 5:30am anyways and with my luck I would prolly sleep through my alarm and miss my test which would be a bad thing." So I made eggs and toast at 3:15 am, read the paper, bleached some whites, folded previous loads of laundry, listened to the radio and finished my chapters on Confucionism and Taoism. I still have homework due by the end of today but the load is less intense since I have accomplished half of it on my adventure of spountanious laundry doing and homework completion.

I am definately going to feel this later. It is my long day today meaning school goes from 7:45am to 9:30pm

YEAH!!!!!!!

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:: 2008 2 October :: 3.06am
:: Mood: Alert
:: Music: Eric Clapton- Layla

Crap...

I drank two cans of XS to keep me awake so that I could do homework. Now I cannot sleep and I have I am starving.

Thank God for mom's cooking cause veggie stew and tatos is just what I need.

:: 2008 28 September :: 2.31pm

my prozac has taken the day (maybe week) off. I am in the worst mood ever and i would seirously suggest not talking to me today because I am bound to explode.

when someone tells you they are comig over at 1 and decide not to come to oh who knows... THREE or something? maybe you should let the home owner know. that'd be great thanks.

:: 2008 26 September :: 3.58pm

FOR ANYONE WHO LIKES TO TALK ON CELL PHONES.

dont you ever EVER EVER EVER ever come up to me while talking on your cell phone and fucking show me by using your fingers what tanning bed you'd like to tan in. or by pointing or mouthing words or fucking any of that stuff. seriously i'm going to punch this business dressed man who thinks he's fucking better than me i want to kick him in the fucking crotch. god i hope he dies.

fuckers.

i'm in such a bad mood.

:: 2008 26 September :: 3.41pm

i'm in a really bad mood and i'd really like to be home right now.

ugh.

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:: 2008 20 September :: 10.27pm

I think if mccain/palin get elected I will have to move out of the country for many reasons.

but one main reason being that sarah palin cuts off like every word that ends in ING. Payin' doin' implementin' spendin' supportin' .....

arrrrgh! shut up!

"i can see russia from my house!"

"heartbeat away from being president!!"

:: 2008 17 September :: 11.04am
:: Mood: happy but tired

"Every time I've ever believed in a happy ending I've gotten severely fucked.�

-Brenda Chenowith

:: 2008 3 September :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: melancholy

Its Getting Old...

Same shit different day...

Again...

:: 2008 17 August :: 8.27pm

Why do people think they don't have to be responsible for their own kids? Why do people think they dobt have to be responsible for themselves? Why do people think you are being rude or asking too much when you are just simply asking them to follow the rules of YOUR house? Its my apartment you are a freaking guest.. If I should even call you that.. In MY HOUSE! Sorry but that means you follow my rules or you can fucking leave. Just because you think you are some tough guy gangster whatever doesn't mean you don't have to answer someone when they tell you to take care of the mess you made! And no! Im not gonna fucking watch your daughter for you! Get a job! Maybe then you can pay me to do it! But until then I won't watch your daughter when you have nothing better to do but drink.

Ughghghghhgghgh people are so stupid.

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:: 2008 11 August :: 12.05am

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:: 2008 7 August :: 11.02am

Ugugugugh please someone save me I need a new job so badly. Ireally cannot take it. Im going insane

:: 2008 3 August :: 1.18am

Yay I got it done! I feel l ike a badass haha. I was so scared but it doesn't hurt at all. I don't like the way it looks righht now cuz they had to use a 14 gage and a big ol ugly silver ball right now but in a wk and a half I am going to have the guy put a small cute diamond one in it. I am so excited and glad I did it. Now if only my parents won't hate me everything will be good!