Shea's thoughts

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:: 2008 2 August :: 7.32pm

So I've been wanting to do this for a long time. Going back and forth between a tattoo and piercing. Well im getting a piercing for many reasons
1. You can remove them so if I don't like it I don't have to worry about it.
2. I love jewelry and accessories. Anyone who knows me well knows this. I never go a day w.out earrings of some sort. I think accessories complete every look.
3. Im feeling rebelious and I need to do somethibng to satisfy that.
4. I think this specific piercing is cute and hopefully will look ok on me!
5. I need something different

So that's that its settled, im getting a "monroe" piercing. Hooray. Tonight after I get out of this shithole. Aka work.

My grandma is never going to speak to me again tho.... :0(
Forgive me!

:: 2008 26 July :: 12.17pm

My mind is blank now. Every part of my body is sinking and empty. I don't have to think about anything, hear anything, say anything, feel anything, worry about anything.
...there are no job interviews, no hypocrites. I do not have to... socialize. I do not have to smile. I do not have to justify my beliefs. I don't have to wear dress shoes. I don't have to pledge allegiance to the flag. I don't have to use a number two pencil. I don't have to read the fine print.
...it is true that it is nonproductive. But when ninety-five percent of out-of-bed activities hold the possibility of pain, to be pain-free is simply the most delicious feeling in the world.

-not mine

:: 2008 20 July :: 10.18am

Im at work AGAIN I seriously hate it here. I am applying somewhere else tomorrow.

I can't tak eit here. It is soooo boring and they treat their employees and clients like crap. They are truley a horrible company and I can't wait to get out of it.

Other than that I am just really confused bc there is only one thing im sure of in my life and the rest I don't know what to do with.

:: 2008 16 July :: 7.32am

I am not married yet. Just so everyone knows.

I want to find a new job soooo bad. I hate it here. I've only been here for 45 mins so far today, haven't seen another soul since we are always so slow, and it seems like I've been here for hours. It may seem like an ok job since I am able to sit here and use my phone to write on woohu but believe me- I would rather have any more stimulating job. Time goes by so slow. We work alone ughh I hate it here.

But I can't start looking for another job because we are so up in the air about moving to florida.

17 Added Water!! | Do you want to see some drama?

:: 2008 2 July :: 11.35am

Omg roman and I went to canada last night with some friends and we got hitched!!!! So now im mrs garcia nice ta meetcha. Lol we are still there woo I love canada. The chapel was gorgous and the carriage ride in my cute summer dress and romans tux was romantic. Our priest told us that he just KNEW we would be together forever. We said our vows and got to ride away afyerwards in a beautiful gondala under a small bridge.
Ro got me a 3 carat diamond band.wow he amazes me more and more with each day. It took my breath away! So tomorrow we are working out the details to move to hawaii in our friend rob's aunts old house she is letting us rent for 100 a month. Wow. We are getting a loan for the tickets and leaving in 4 days. Yay im gonna be a badass surfer. The house is 2 stories with a basement newly remodeled everything and they are leaving all the furniture so we don't have to worry. Rob is moving into our apt with danielle so they are taking our lease. Everything is working out so perfectly. God musthave answered our prayers. But I guess I do deserve it. I am a really great person and I never lie or act mean. Everyone knows this. I am never decietful and I treat everyone with respect. I also like to compromise and not be bossy ever. Those are probaly just a few reasons why He's preforming his great miracle on us. While we are down there a couple months from now we are joining a missionary group that robs aunt was a part of and traveling to cambodia to build houses and maybe heal a leper or two. Ha Oh not really but who knows. Roman really suprised me with all these plans but I guess I should just learn to expect greatness from the worlds most perfect, selfless, kind, giving, wonderful, beautiful, nurturing, wonderous, magical, whimsical man on THE PLANET EARTH.

Well we are headed to niagra falls then home so I had better go.
Signed,
Mrs. Garcia-Wilde

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:: 2008 29 June :: 12.51pm

I don't know why bc I have not always felt this way but lately I am like obsessing about getting a tattoo. I really really want one. I know for sure I would get one if I was skinnier but right now im not sure. Ugh its driving me nuts tho I really think I want one

:: 2008 29 June :: 10.59am

Well had to get up at 6 again to drive in the rain to ameeting an hour away in spring lake and now here I am at work. Thank god for my new phone with internet. I ws so tired on the drive there and back I was completly almost sleeping my eyes refuused to stay open. In any other circumstances I would have pilled over and rested but if I miss the meeting I get taken off the schedule for a month and if ii miss work I get fired. Grrrrr.

Today I am just going to take some time for me when I get out of work at 3. Gotta go to the mall to return something and buy some shorts. I still have to work the next 3 days but im gonna try to make the best of today. Lately everything has been sooo stressful I can hardly take it. I might quit the jw ..well no prob not but I might just try to set a schedule with them. Im tired and I just want to enjoy summer and the break from school while I have it and so far I have not been able to do that at all.

:: 2008 27 June :: 11.48pm

I really can't do this anymore I am too tired. I just got out of work at 11pm and now I have to be at my other job at 6:30am tomorrow. I an so exhausted. My last day off was monday and I don't have my next day off until thursday of next wk and even then im not positive ill have that off cuz jw marriott mifht still schedule me that day. I really can't do this. I don't deal well with stress abd then on top of it when I have to deal with how NOTHING Ever gets done around my house unless I doit it makes the stress worse. Im so sick of this shit.

Well guess I better get to sleep I have to get up at 5:40 tomorrow morning ufhghhgghghghhgggggggggg

:: 2008 7 June :: 10.12pm

GIUGJASDPG:AJSG:LKSDG

UGH!!

i've always hated when people use the phrase "life's not fair" but it's so fucking true.

gAWD. don't even fucking test me because one day i'm gonna blow up.

:: 2008 26 May :: 5.19pm

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words <3

:: 2008 13 May :: 1.30pm

ughghghghghghhgskgsd;lgkjasd;lkgjasg;lkj

i need a new job.

and i need to figure out so much and i just want to sublease our apartment and have money and be rich and not worry about stupid shit anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fuck. i hate the stupid tanning place midnite sun and cruise can go fuck itself they are seriously the worst company ever they dont care about their employees, customers, or even have any morals. all they care about is money so don't tan there anyone ever okay??? seriously, don't. you arej ust fueling their stupid money hungry owners and managers. fuck i hate my job.

i think we are going to elope. PEACE.

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:: 2008 4 May :: 4.59pm

Sublease Agreement

This Sublease Agreement (the "Sublease") is made and effective [Date], by and between [Sublessor] ("Sublessor"), and [Subtenant] ("Subtenant", whether one or more).

Sublessor is the tenant in a lease agreement dated [Master Lease Date] with [Landlord's Name] for a term ending [Lease Term End Date] (the "Master Lease"). A copy of the Master Lease is attached hereto and incorporated herein by this reference. The property leased to Sublessor in the Master Lease is referred to as the "Leased Property".

Sublessor now desires to sublease the Leased Property to Subtenant, and Subtenant desires to acquire the sublease.

NOW, THEREFORE, for value received by each of the parties hereto, the receipt and sufficiency of which are hereby respectively acknowledged, and in consideration of the mutual agreements of the parties, it is agreed:

1. Sublease.

A. Sublessor agrees to sublease the Leased Property as follows:

Sublease Term: [Term of Lease]

Monthly Sublease Rent: [Monthly Rent Paid by Subtenant]

B. Subtenant shall pay the rent to Sublessor not later than the [Rent Due Date] day of each month. Rent payments shall be made to the address for Sublessor below or such other address that Sublessor may identify to Subtenant from time to time. Subtenant shall also pay to Sublessor any other amount or charge that Sublessor is obligated to pay under the Master Lease that arises or is attributable to Subtenant's occupancy such as, but not limited to, charges for garbage, water, sewer, utilities, common area expenses, maintenance and refuse removal. Such charges shall be paid within ten days of Sublessor's statement. Subtenant shall be responsible for procuring and paying for any utilities or services not provided by landlord pursuant to the Master Lease.

C. In the event there is more than one Subtenant party, then the obligations of each such Subtenant shall be joint and several.

[Use of Furniture]

2. Obligations Under Master Lease.

Subtenant agrees to comply with the terms of the Master Lease and shall not do or permit to be done anything that would constitute a breach or default of Sublessor's obligations in the Master Lease. Sublessor agrees to comply with all of Sublessor's obligations in the Master Lease. Sublessor agrees timely to pay rent and other charges due under the Master Lease and, provided Subtenant is not in breach or default of any obligation in this Sublease, shall not do anything to disturb Subtenant's use of the Leased Property pursuant to this Sublease.

3. Indemnification.

A. Subtenant will indemnify, protect, defend and hold Sublessor harmless from and against any and all loss, cost, damage and expense arising out of or in any way related to a breach or default of Sublessor's obligations in the Master Lease by Subtenant.

B. Sublessor will indemnify, protect, defend and hold Subtenant harmless from and against any and all loss, cost, damage and expense arising out of or in any way related to a breach or default of the Master Lease by Sublessor.

3. No Assignment or Sublease.

Subtenant shall not, without the prior written consent of both Sublessor and the landlord in the Master Lease, assign this Sublease or sublet the Leased Property or any part thereof.

4. Notices.

Any notice given in connection with this Agreement, shall be in writing and shall be given to the appropriate party by personal delivery or by certified mail, postage prepaid, or recognized overnight delivery service as follows:

If to Sublessor:

[Sublessor]

[Sublessor Address]

If to Subtenant:

[Subtenant]

[Subtenant Address]

5. Headings.

Headings used in this Agreement are provided for convenience only and shall not be used to construe meaning or intent.

IN WITNESS WHEREOF, the parties hereto have caused this Sublease to be duly executed as of the date first above written.

[Signatures]

Landlord's Consent

The undersigned, the landlord in the Master Lease, hereby acknowledges consent to the foregoing Sublease Agreement.

Landlord:

Date:________________________ ________________________

:: 2008 3 May :: 7.14pm

is anyone looking for an apartment to stay in june through sep 15??????? ............

we are trying to get rid of ours... we are moving out to save money which is going to be really great but yeah we aare just trying to save so we can get married so if anyone is interested at all let me know and we can talk details.

but as far as life goes......... i have no clue.

runningfreak

:: 2008 3 April :: 1.29pm

Every Freakin Week..

I have to become more organized.

I am only in this position because I have made myself be here.

runningfreak

:: 2008 20 March :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: tired/maybe hungry

This time I mean it....

I am making changes in my life. They are good changes.

I just need to get everything in order.