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stinko

:: 2006 5 November :: 11.20pm

today has been bad.
this weekend has been bad.
a lot of things have been bad.

i want to go to sleep but my stomach is upset and i feel really nervous.
it hasn't been this bad since high school.

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holiday

:: 2006 3 November :: 3.33pm

So we made it to the library today :-)

Caleb is doing so well. He's sleeping right now though. I thought I'd post some more pictures. Sorry the other ones were so big. Actually, I'm running out of time so some pics might still be huge. oops.

This is right after delivery.
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This is with Daddy
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I think he looks like a little jailbird. He's a week old in this picture.
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holiday

:: 2006 30 October :: 9.40pm

Thanks everybody! Just wanted to post some pictures and get into the gross details. hahaha.

So Tuesday night we went to the Childbirth class we were supposed to make up a few weeks before, and we're like "Uh, we're actually in early labor right now." And so the instructor told us that we had probably 24 hours. And she was right. Wednesday we went a walk and went shopping for some last minute stuff. Then around 11pm while Charlie was on the phone with his mom, asking what it was like when her water broke, mine broke. So we went to the hospital and I started having awful back labor but they couldn't give me anything for a while. Then the stadol. That stuff works. So we tried to sleep a little. Thursday morning I was in the pushing stage and Charlie says between having some of the contractions that actually push the baby out, I said "And now we play the waiting game!" hahaha. So it hurt. A lot. I had 2 episiotomies, and vacuum extraction because he was in the posterior position. She actually reached her hands in to turn him, and he turned back around. So we had to do it. And it hurt. And I am horribly horribly bruised. But he's here! We were at the hospital until Saturday afternoon. He has some jaundice so we're trying to get rid of it. I haven't slept basically since Tuesday.

Here are the pictures!

Here's Charlie and I after labor:
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Here's Caleb on his wormy play-mat, he has a billy blanket for his jaundice that's why he's glowing:
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He likes to sleep with his arms above his head all stretched out, it's so cute!
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stinko

:: 2006 30 October :: 8.34am

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
need
food
now.

seriously.

ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut.

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Eddy

:: 2006 28 October :: 5.23am


Why does reading woohu always depress me so?

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Eddy

:: 2006 28 October :: 4.59am

New My Chemical Romance: The Black Parade

Love it.

Especially number 8, 'Cancer'

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holiday

:: 2006 27 October :: 3.30pm

Caleb James is here! He is a beautifu little boy and we love him so extremely much! I'm still at the hospital trying to walk around and stuff so I figured I would let everyone know.

He was born Oct. 26, 12:07 pm, and he weighed 6 lbs. 10 oz. He is 19 inches long and has beautiful blue eyes. And we think maybe auburn hair. So it was a 12 hour labor but we've been at the hospital since Wednesday night. I had a TON of awful back labor so then on Thursday, well, I'll try to save the details, but it was the most painful thing I've ever done. But well worth it. I'll post some pictures when I get a chance. :-)

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holiday

:: 2006 25 October :: 11.58am

So....
Charlie and I are at Beaners right now :-)
I'm in early labor and have been since yesterday. We went to the doctor and I'm dilating and 70% effaced. We're so excited. Last night we had to make up one of our childbirth classes and it made me a little nervous knowing that everything would be happening in the next couple days or so. We're really happy.


Baby will be here either tonight or tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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holiday

:: 2006 23 October :: 5.28pm

So. At Beaner's again. Drinking a large hot cocoa again. Yummmm.
This baby is coming, probably this week. I just organized all of the cupboards and cleaned the house yesterday. And I didn't get sick this morning like usual. At my last appt. the baby weighed about 7 lbs. 8-10 oz. So this will be a healthy baby :-) Hooray. Everything is pretty much set and I'm ready! I'm so excited.

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Eddy

:: 2006 15 October :: 1.11am
:: Music: The Killers - Bones


Don't you wanna come with me,
Don't you wanna feel my bones,
On your bones.
It's only natural.

Don't you wanna swim with me,
Don't you wanna feel my skin,
On your skin.
It's only natural.


I love their new CD. =)

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stinko

:: 2006 14 October :: 5.38pm

i am bored. i should be doing homework, but i really don't care all that much.
i think i may go to my grandmas house before we all go to jakes.
that would be a good time, let me tell you . . .
my grandma-she is crazy.
she's a bad ass.
for sure.

ooh now i am really excited i got myself all worked up about grandma.
now if i don't go i am going to be really sad.

gosh.



grandma!!!!!!!

you're the bomb
you rock my life
you made my mom
will you be my wife??

well, maybe that is going too far.
i don't know.
this is getting weird.

i'm so sorry.

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holiday

:: 2006 13 October :: 5.02pm

So the ultra-sound was today. Baby weighs about 6 lbs 14 oz. Whoooo. And I had the sonographer get a picture of the gender and then she put it in a sealed envelope so I could have it for the baby book. So now at home I have this envelope that seals the big question! And I can't open it now. Ahhhh! :-D

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holiday

:: 2006 12 October :: 4.58pm

Whoooo
I am so happy. Charlie and I are planning more dates now. Like tonight. After he gets home from work. And tomorrow. And a color-tour to Holland on Saturday. :-) I am extra extra excited.
And tomorrow we have an ultra-sound. They may take me early. Any time now...

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stinko

:: 2006 11 October :: 4.30pm

so mitch told his friends that i am a lesbian.
im ok with that.

perhaps i should try it out next semester when robbys away.
heck maybe ill just try it now.

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stinko

:: 2006 9 October :: 10.36am

i have been sitting here for a long time it seems and i am starting to think that it would have been better if i just didn't go to class today.
blah.

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Eddy

:: 2006 1 October :: 1.16am


Hehe. Eric talks in his sleep. It confuses me because when he does he's completely clear and legible, he just says very wierd things. By far the best thing he said was last night. He told me to "Come down and bring the manequin"

......yeah...

<3

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holiday

:: 2006 26 September :: 6.57pm

About a couple more weeks!
I am so exhausted. Today we had a doctor's appt. for 8 in Cedar. So we had to get up at 6:30 to get there in time. Then we went back to sleep once we got home. Then I had a Chiropractic appt. Then I slept. Now I'm at the library. The baby dropped even more and it's harder to sleep. But I'm so excited I can't wait. The sky was soooo pretty early this morning! The clouds looked feathered and the sky was orange, purple, pink and red. I want to start painting again. This weekend was my baby shower and it was a lot of fun. Lots of good food too! Next week is my birthday, it came really fast. Other than that lots of doc. appt. and such. Lots of sleeping. Blah.

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Eddy

:: 2006 23 September :: 6.29am

I haven't felt this way in the longest time.

Its a wonderful, dramatic change.

<3

P.S. Tonights phrase. Created by Connie and Yours Truly.

"She's got a weiner in her buns and its full of condiments"

(about Terri's hot dog)

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holiday

:: 2006 22 September :: 3.12pm

Rainy weather makes me exhausted.
It's really pretty out though.
I can't believe it's Friday already though. But that's a good thing I guess. Everyday is the same for me, lol. Considering I don't work or go to school. It's a seven-day weekend every week. The baby dropped lower and tomorrow is the baby shower so that's good. :-) I'm just really worried about having baby while dad is out in South Dakota w/grandpa. So things either have to happen before Oct. 11 or after Oct. 20. I'm still talking it over with baby. We're still hashing details...haha.
I love my family. Last night my mom and aunt came over and we soaked our feet and did pedicures/manicures and ordered Q'doba. And watched Peggy Sue Got Married. And stuff. And it was a lot of fun. Tonight I'm going to Home Depot to check out some grills. Then making Snickerdoodles for my daddio. Then going to my parents house . Then Charlie and I are going to have a scrabble battle. haha.
That's about it.

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holiday

:: 2006 19 September :: 3.56pm

the baby dropped the baby dropped the baby dropped
yayyyyyyyyyy
i can breathe again and eat yayyyyyy
i'm going to natural choice chiropractic tonight for a free massage yippee

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