So maybe this time, I'll speak the words of life, with your fire in my eyes, but that old familiar fear is tearing at my words. What am I afraid of?

 

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holiday

:: 2006 9 May :: 11.31am

Schools over! Finals are over! Yay! I won't be going back until next year and it's kind of a relief.
Lately I've been busy moving and working. Workin' workin' workin'. It feels like a dream, it just doesn't feel real to be moving. I mean, right now, I know where everything is. Now I'm going to be in a relatively new place where I have no idea where things are besides Meijer and the mall and work. What the heck.
We have a really nice deck and backyard. And rosebushes! I'm fricken nesting already! hahaha. I want everything clean and I'm planning on planting so much and getting things painted and... ah. Crazy. I just want to stay at home and clean and plant and cook. Is that bad? oh my gosh.
By next week I'm 'supposed' to have gained about 5 pounds and i weighed myself today and I've actually lost weight. But that's okay. Everything's healthy.
Anyway, that's about it for now.

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tonyp.

:: 2006 8 May :: 1.08pm

well i just finished my first week at a tattoo shop working with chris and whatnot. i made some pretty good money to. if anyone is intrested in a tattoo party get ahold of me threw hear or if ramiro is still having it get ahold of him. me and chris are going to open our own shop very very soon and if anyone wants to make donations..(like anyone is that nice) it would be awsome.
everyone have a good day.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 8 May :: 6.39am

Isn't this the best part of breaking up, finding someone else you can't get enough of? Someone who wants to be with you too.


brokenmentality

:: 2006 7 May :: 9.09pm

just got back from the tim and faith concert. it was great.

my ears are ringing...




im nervous about this, but i trust you. know that ok?

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eddy

:: 2006 7 May :: 5.44pm

Watching 'The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen'. Noticed again the character named "Dorian Gray" Which clicked in my memory the James Blunt song "Tears and Rain". Sample of the lyrics below. I remember hearing that song, and thinking I had heard the name before, but couldn't think of where or what it was. So I looked it up. Good ol' Wikipedia. Dorian Gray is a character in a novel written by Oscar Wilde The Picture of Dorian Gray. It's a really interesting story actually. =)


I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.



Now I feel like looking up the other Characters

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eddy

:: 2006 7 May :: 3.10pm







Eddy's creature-nemesis:

The Dreaded JACK BAUER
QuizGalaxy!
'What creature will become your nemesis?' at QuizGalaxy.com



Interesting.....

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 7 May :: 7.52am

this weekend started out rough... real rough. but turned into something wonderful.

i've stayed at keegans all weekend.. its odd being home and him being at work. yesterday we went to holland to support a crew all that (circle junkies) not like anyone knows them.... but it was the tulip festival which was nice, thier performance was really quite pathetic... what can ya do right?

we tried to go to the zoo on our way home, but it was closed, so we went to applebees and ended up running into stacy and ashley and sat with them, that was a nice suprise. then we made one more stop and came home. :)

what a beautiful day.

now TONIGHT brandi and i are going to the tim mcgraw and faith hill concert. i cannot WAIT! ahh. go ahead, be jealous. and if you dont like country music, kindly refrain from leaving a smart ass cocky comment because i dont diss your music, and frankly... it pisses me off when people diss mine. (smiles)

SCHOOOOOOOOOOOL. nooooo. oh well, its almost over.

im beginning to let go of certain things. and i really think this is going to help us ALOT. because a relationship is supposed to be based on trust right? and give and take? thats what we're doing. i cant imagine ever losing my best friend, or that feeling i get in the morning when i wake up and he's snuggled up to me, looking so peaceful before he wakes up. i love that. i love the simple things. those are the things that mean the most.

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eddy

:: 2006 7 May :: 2.33am


Well, work tonight was interesting again. I had to close by myself for the first time. I don't recommend it. I was getting peeved at people. One guy came up and asked for a whole pizza and I just told him that we ran out of dough, because I did not want to make it. I had not the time nor energy. During closing time I was mopping the floor and Wayne was playing Eminen's "shake that ass" song really loud in the bar. This one guy, with a group of people walks by and says "shake that ass for me" And me, thinking, (more like hoping) he wasn't talking to me, just kept mopping, not even looking up. Then of course, my fear was confirmed when he says "or just keep mopping" To which a girl in the group begins to laugh at hysterically, all the way until they got out of the door. Probably even longer than that, but thank God I couldn't hear her anymore. It really wasn't that funny. I think they might have been drunk, the guy at least, the girl looked like she was only 17 or so. Got a check today that I didn't know I had. That's super cool. My legs and feet are gonna fall off I think. They hurt real bad.

I stink.

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eddy

:: 2006 5 May :: 7.52pm

Hey guess what everyone?!?! That's right! You got it! More StacySydneyJessicaAmanda movies!!! YAY!!!!!!!

We Hate This Fucking Bitch
The Tape
Whatcha Gon' Do Wit All Dat Ass?

Sorry no updates on the date yet. I know you're all dying to see the next in that series. It's coming soon, I promise!

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 4 May :: 9.50pm

people come into our lives for 3 reasons: a reason, a season, or a life time.



which are you?

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swimfan14

:: 2006 4 May :: 11.22pm

Tonight is just one of those nights where I can't help but think about this.

As much as I try, it's never going to go away.


stinko

:: 2006 2 May :: 11.30am

so i have three days left of school.
can i last?

gaah. so many weddings this summer. it's crazy. frickin yeah.

sometimes it makes me feel old and others it makes me feel young.
i'm not sure where that leaves me exactly.
18.
is that young or old?

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swimfan14

:: 2006 1 May :: 8.36pm

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Hmm well i'd say those pretty much fit.

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eddy

:: 2006 30 April :: 1.09pm
:: Music: The Killers - Jenny Was a Friend of Mine

And post-euphoric depression sets in...

You wouldn't care if you ever saw me again, would you.

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 29 April :: 2.31pm

tired as hell.

prom was wonderful. still didnt top last years, but we werent really aiming for that. it was wonderful in its own way. me and keegan went with brandi and ryan, im so glad we didnt go in a big group. we got pictures at my house, then at the rockford dam. we had dinner at mangiamo! (the exclamation point is part of the title.. odd as it is) it was absolutely gorgeous. the restaraunt itself is in a huge "old world" mansion. its italian and suprisingly wasnt that expensive. i think it'd be a safe bet to say that we ate at the most beautiful restaraunt. seriously.... lol.

i didnt really care for st. nicks. to me it was set up really awkwardly. the dance floor in its own little room thing... odd. we made it fun though. senior prom.. gotta live it up right? i couldnt have been more happier with the way my hair and dress turned out.. i felt like a princess. and keegan just looked absolutely wonderful. it was nice to see him in black for once. he's gone white, ivory, and FINALLY black. and the black definately looked best. *smiles.... i love us together.

after prom we went to steak n shake and then midnight bowling. we didnt really know what to do. me and keegan wanted to go to oasis, but brandi didnt want to. so we kind of winged it. we didnt want to go anywhere that alcohol might be... which rules out alot of the post prom parties! no worries though. keegan and i went back to his house and stayed there. this morning he even made me breakfast. aww.

all in all i got about 140 pictures. thats gonna be a pain to print!

i cant belive this was my last dance. no more getting dressed up. no more extensive hair, no more beautiful dresses. its about time though. im assuming the next time i get ALL done up like this will be my wedding! bring it on..... all the more reasons to get an expensive dress!

tonights a rampage game. i should probably get ready.

HOLY my goodness did it take forever to wash all the hair spray out of my hair. i havent yet gotten to blow drying it.. but i know thats its mega snarled.

have a good rest of the weekend.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 29 April :: 4.13pm

A lot has changed lately.

My dad called me on Thursday and told me that my stepmom was moving out. I don't really know what to think of this. At first I cried but then I realized the whole reason why I was crying wasn't because she was moving out it was because I was just scared of what was going to happen and I didn't want my dad to be alone and it hurts me to see him hurt. I guess I don't really have feelings towards this. I think it's for the best. I hated her anyways. Once she moves out my dad wants me to come over Tuesday-Thursday because he is always in Detroit all week and we need someone to take care of our dogs but there's no way I'm moving in there. I'm not going to be at a house all alone and plus once Summer comes I wont even be here anyways so it's not going to work out. I don't know what we are going to do and we are also going to put our house up for sale and move too. This whole thing is really stressing me out.

So then today my uncle needed me to drop something off at my dads so I planned on going to see my dad anyways so when I'm about five minutes away my mom calls me and tells me my dad called her and said that I can't come over right now so I wanted to know what that was all about and I called him and he said that my stepmom was there and that it just wasn't a good idea for me to be there. I got pissed off because I basically drove out there for nothing and my uncle still needed me to drop something off at my dads so I just went over there anyways and dropped it off and I walked out and then my dad came after me and we got into this huge fight and it ended up with me crying and leaving.

And now my mom and I are also in a fight because of this whole thing so I pretty much feel unwelcome at both of my houses.


She couldn't take one more day
Home was more her prison now
Independence called out
She had to get it

A fight was all she needed
To give her reason
She slammed the door with no goodbye
And that it was time

Now she's driving too fast
She didn't care to glance behind
And through her tears she laughed
It's time to kiss the past goodbye



In other news besides all the bad things that have been going on, Prom was awesome. I don't really feel like talking about it because Prom is Prom but it was really weird because everyone kept telling me last night that I looked like Mischa Barton and my Prom dress looked like her Prom dress that she wore on The O.C. and the episode just airred on Thursday so a day later we had almost the same dress. Hmm..her and I ... pretty much the same person.


swimfan14

:: 2006 29 April :: 1.21pm

You know what? I actually thought I wanted to be your friend and now I have no idea why. No idea.


holiday

:: 2006 28 April :: 4.09pm

Charlie and I went to the Culinary Picnic today! Lots of fun. Egg tosses and water balloons, and waiter races. And I won a raffle. It was at John Ball and it was so nice out, besides the pond smelling like dead fish.
Then we went to the doctor and heard the baby's heartbeat! YAYYYYY. It was amazing. We were both grinning. Dr. Leary said the babies heart rate was in the 150s...so maybe a girl?!? :D YAY
So excited. My ultrasound is coming up quickly too. But now I have to work...

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 27 April :: 1.35pm

i just tried on my prom dress and jewlery and all that... OMG.

SMILES SOOOOOOO BIG

im excited now. it still fits. my tan is wonderful. i cant wait to eat at montiago or whatever its called. !!!!!!

see everyone tomorrow!

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holiday

:: 2006 27 April :: 10.26am

holy crap. when is this sickness going away!? Seriously, going on about 42 days here. I have my ice carving final at one. But I can't really bring myself to get out of the house and go to class. Blah.

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