Uh....

:: 2006 5 January :: 11.38pm

I'm throwing all the hints..giving you all the signs..why can't you just see it?

:: 2006 4 January :: 11.14pm

Class schedule starting next week:

CA 102 Intro to Hospitality cred 2
7:30-8:30am M,W 1/16-5/04

PS 110 Survey of Am. Government cred 3
3:15-4:45pm T,Th 1/12-5/04

CA 115 Table Service cred 5
8:50-1:50 M,T,W,Th,F 3/02-5/04

CA 160 Ice Carving cred 2
4:30-8:30 M 3/13-4/24

Classes I've got done already:
First Aid credits----1
Menu Planning/ Nutrition 3
Bakery/Deli Operations 5
Business English 3

:: 2006 4 January :: 10.57pm
:: Music: Far- In Two Again

OHHHHHHH

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

I had a bad feeling at first, but we talked and hugged and kissed and everything was always fine.
Char and I went skateboarding at the park today. It was SUPER fun. I fell a couple times. hahaha. I landed on my whole left side. lol.
Then we just had a lot of fun today. I love him.
So much.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to Seoul Garden w/my Aunt Linda then pick up my check at work then Charlie's. But the weather...ugh.
It HAD to snow again.

:: 2006 4 January :: 12.22am

A fucking waste of time is ALL you've become.

3 squirrely | have some nuts?

:: 2006 4 January :: 12.03am

Today was anything but ordinary. I couldn't fall asleep last night for the life of me so I pretty much just stayed up all night watching the first season of Desperate Housewives. I'm pretty far, I must add. I am so used to being out all night with people and not falling asleep until around 3 AM so last night was definitely a challenge. I got to school, not looking forward to seeing a certain someone. There was a little tension going on there. So anyways, I'm in first hour (Modishers) and Mr. H called him and wanted me to go upstairs to his class room and I figured it had to do with my monologue or something like that. I walk up there and there standing in the hallway is Veronica. I just about died. I kept saying "omg". H then said that she remembered me and I just about died again. I ran up to her and gave her the biggest hug I've ever gave anyone and this hug was differen't than the last hug I gave her when she came in with her mom, not remembering anyone and she had to sit there and see me bawl my eyes out, and she had no idea why in the world I was crying. When we hugged that day, she barely hugged me back but today she wouldn't let go. I knew she remembered me and I was so happy. I've waited so long for this to come. H told me that she doesn't really remember everything in our friendship but she remembers alot of it so I just have to fill her in on the rest and then she told me she remembered me bawling when she came into school and she had to ask her mom why I was crying and her mom said because we were basically best friends. She told me she felt bad that I was crying but it's not her fault this happened. All in all I'm really happy that she remembers me. She asked me who about six people in our drama class were. She didn't remember them at all. But anyways things are slowly getting better for her and that makes me really happy and now I feel like a moron when we talk because I don't know what parts she remembers and what parts she doesn't so I have to ask her and either way I feel stupid but this is all worth it�..

tonyp.

:: 2006 3 January :: 1.56pm

well i had a good new years
but everything else has been pretty uneventfull which i dont really mind. im reading a really good book right now its called the gunslinger and its by steven king, its not a horror which is suprising.
im getting ready to go to chad and have him show me the ropes real quick that way i can finally start on what i need to do. i also need a REAL job to make actual money so if anyone knows if anyone is hiring let me know please.
mt older brother has kindny stones which sucks but he will be fine, hes tough.
but other then that thats about it.

3 squirrely | have some nuts?

:: 2006 2 January :: 5.35pm
:: Music: Gackt - Last Song

Oh Geezus.....
Oh my gosh....I don't wanna go to school tomorrow =( Im sad. I want to see everyone...but I don't wanna go! >< ergh! I smell...need a shower really bad.....Didn't go to sleep until 5 this morning, thats not good if I have to get up at 6 tomorrow morning.....ugh...

:: 2006 2 January :: 5.03pm

You pretty much just ~~lost~~ me.

So walk away like you always do.

:: 2006 2 January :: 2.40am
:: Music: Ayano Tsuji - Kaze ni Naru

Mmmmmmm ^_^
Die and Gackt.....two sexy men.....from Japan. lol.

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Oh my gosh.....I actually just saw on tv.....a guys gone wild video commercial. What the hell.....Thats actually fricken funny. I mean...it kind of makes sense to make one after all the Girls gone wild things out there....but its funny to actually see one....whoa...

:: 2006 1 January :: 11.14pm

blah blah blah
got some news
blah blah blah

:: 2006 1 January :: 10.29pm

Happy New Year!
Haha man....the highlight of my night.....wow, there were a lot. But the funniest one was hearing Regis saying fiddy cent. Not fifty cent. Fiddy cent. I busted up laughing. It was great =D I screwed up our soda toast cuz I took a drink at the last second, and they started yelling at me :( Didn't kiss anyone, options were limited unless I wanted a lesbian moment. Which I didn't. Plus I forgot all about that part until just a little while ago, lol. We had fun taking pictures and video taping nothing, lol. Mindy bought like 15 hamburgers from Burger King for like, 4 people. lol. Didn't get to sleep till about 10 in the morning. Im super tired =S

Firsts of the year
First move: Anchorman
First Puzzle: Elvis
First Pop: Pepsi
First People I saw: Mindy, Jessica, Brad
First person made fun of: Mindy, of course! (While she was sleeping! haha!)

I could go on and on and on........but I won't lol.

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 1 January :: 9.19pm

so i think i've decided that im gonna go on doing pageants. i think i have the right kind of personality, and if you do those things right the scholarships you get are amazing. i could PAY my way through college and be making a difference at the same time. if i really set my mind to it... i dont think i'll win all of them.. but i definatly think i could get down to the last 10 or so... and either way.. i know from experience that the pageant process itself is an amazing experience. plus i have a pretty impressive resume for one. i decided this while i took a bath tonight.... honestly.. a candle lit bubble bath is where you come up with and figure out the BEST things. plus my mom has a skylight.. and nothing is more relazing than listening to a gentle rain.

im scared about high school ending.. ANXIOUS but scared.... and for the first time in my life i have a plan. its so reassuring to know where i want to go with my life. and if i change my mind about this whole interior design thing.... at least i'll have a great side hobby to fall back on later in life! we went to schulers today and i found this book that was just amazing. it was 40 dollars.. but covered every (well im sure not EVERY) aspect of interior design.. even down to tips on creating your sample board. i think im gonna get it tomorrow. and when im done with this entry im gonna look at different colleges and their design programs.

its just so exciting to have an outline for my life. i've never had that before. i've never been sure about something so HUGE. im extremely indecisive. VENDING machines are a hassel for me! wayyy to many options! so when it comes to my life, and where im going to be in the future... you cant even imagine how confused i get. i havent ever delt with the whole "future" issue before. i just kind of made it through school.. and here i find myself at the end, and i was about ready to break. what kind of 17 year old doesnt have a career picked out? well i'll tell ya from experience.... a very normal one! i now know that im just lucky that i've chosen a career... because you cant just do that overnight. i dont think we should be rushed into deciding the rest of our lives! and i was feeling really down because i thought EVERY one had it figured out except for me. that is NOT the case. design is a passion that i've been practicing for years... and i didnt even know it! my room has always been a haven for me.. and a reflexion of my style. when we lived with brandi i was going crazy because i didnt have a space of my own. it sucked! i need that one place that just screams ME everywhere ya know? i'm very big on personal style.. and even though yes, i do wear abercrombie sometimes... i like to think i have my own style. its the little things that make me unique. i just love fasion and i think you're home should be a reflexion of everything that makes you feel like YOU. ughh.. im just SO excited!

*smiles really big......

with all these "plans" or whatever.. i've realized that in order to stay confident and focused i HAVE to get in shape. im not toooo far from it.. but far enough. i need to have alot of energy. i have a good head on my shoulders... and like i said in my last entry... i dont have any type of negative thing affecting me. that means i have no excuse not to suceed. i just have stay in shape and be on my toes. i am SO ready to embrace life. i wasnt put here to sit in cedar springs the rest of my life. and yeah.. everyone "hates" Cedar and wants to get out... but ya know what.. this is my home. and has always been my home. even though i know that there are bigger things out there... i know that in littler nowheresville michigan.. theres a small town that holds all my memories and the foundation for the rest of my life! i dont think you're SUPPOSED to want to stay in your hometown for the rest of your life! and lets face it... Cedar Springs is all over the united states. there are towns just like ours in every single 20 mile radius of every state... just a few different variations.. and some BIG cities like new york. dont be naive and think that this is the only small "hick" town around! this is our starting place.... not ending! be thankful for that! whether you want to admit it or not... this town has helped make us who we are. if we lived in LA we'd all have much different ambitions.

im just so content with my life right now.... and its so wonderful to feel this good!

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:: 2006 1 January :: 5.22pm

Hmm...Where was I last New Year's Eve?
Working at Latitudes, ducking from crazy drunks in the bar.
Hanging out w/Charlie, at the hotel. Eating ice cream.
hahaha.
Getting a new job! That was 3 jobs ago!!!! Holy crap.
It's gonna be a good year. I can feel lots of changes. Ah it's great!
I miss Applause right now, I kind of want to work. Is that sad?

"You make my heart feel really good!" <3 <3 haha

:: 2006 1 January :: 2.34pm

oh... happy new years.
oh baby
last night was awesome.

:: 2005 31 December :: 1.52pm
:: Mood: tired

I count the days that we have spent apart. I've got a bad liver and a broken heart. There's no salvation in the comfort of you. I finally realized your tearing me apart.

I think what hurts me the most is the fact that you don't hurt at all.

:: 2005 30 December :: 5.46pm

Puddin Flop (as Stacy/Dani says)
Last night once again was fun as always. Like Stacy said this is mostly just going to be more for my benefit than anyone else's. I went and hung out at Danielles house with Big Nasty, Ryan Case, Dan, Tyler, Shane, Dustin, and of course Stacy. Stacy and I decided we wanted to make bacon randomly and we had the worst time making it and then like an hour later we were finally finished. "The dacon is bangerous" lol one of Stacy's wonderful lines. Then at like midnight we went to IHOP and I said I wouldn't ever go there again after what happened to Erika and I but I went anyways since I wasn't just going to not go with my friends and it wasn't all that bad. Our waitress was extremely weird and we were all trying to be nice and all of the sudden she asked someone at our table "how they wanted their meats?" and I looked at everyone and they were all trying not to laugh and all of the sudden I just busted out laughing and I made Ryan and Dan bust out laughing too. She was definitely odd. And then when Ryan, Tyler, Shane, and Dan went by the Rockford Church some kids threw snowballs at Shanes car and they stopped and got out and beat them up. It was pretty funny to hear about but I didn't see it since I wasn't riding with them and at first when they called us we didn't believe them but it really happend because when we got back Dan's face had a huge hole in it and was bleeding and Ryan's face was swelling up. I couldn't believe it and then on the way to IHOP a cop pulled them over because Shanes lights went off because Ryan said "they were jammin' too hard"...I don't know but I just couldn't stop laughing last night. We always have some great times.

I should get going though because I'm hanging out with Logan, Emily, and Justin later.

So everyone have a good weekend.

<3 Ashley

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:: 2005 30 December :: 2.09pm

We were talking wedding ideas. YAY. It's just a grand feeling. My mom is excited. We were talking about her wedding and stuff and what we're going to do in Char's and mine. We have to reserve the place of the reception in a few months, and we don't even know where it's going to be! haha.
In other news, dad and mum went to look at the new corvette z-06 today! Ours is coming in a couple months. Canary yellow! Woohhhh!
It's got a display that shows up on the windshield that shows your speed and how many g's you pulled. And a navigation screen, bose system, and dvd player. We don't need a dvd player though...that's stupid. I'm excited!

:: 2005 29 December :: 3.28pm

Stop, stare, and watch me burn. Someday it'll be your turn. You can't fool me. I can see all the things that you didn't want me to see. You threw my heart away and thats the price I paid. I know it's never fair, you promised me you'd always be there but you never really cared.

:: 2005 29 December :: 2.02pm
:: Music: Kaiser Chiefs - You Can Have it All

Gawd these dreams
This one really freaked me out. For some reason I was married to like....a middle eastern man and I hated his guts. And all he wanted to do was have sex with me and make me have babies and I wouldn't let him. =S for some reason my sister was there and so was Justin. Messed up!

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