So maybe this time, I'll speak the words of life, with your fire in my eyes, but that old familiar fear is tearing at my words. What am I afraid of?

 

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eddy

:: 2005 3 December :: 11.38am
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: AFI - The Great Disappointment

*Sigh*
Wow, I'm feeling really down and sluggish today. Result of a variety of factors I think. The weather....certain thoughts about certain friends...why it is that no one seems to like being too close to me(emotionally)...caring too much about one certain person when I know I really shouldn't...

I agree with you man.....I wear a mask every day. And i'm beggining to fall for it myself.

.........I am Beutiful......

......and I need a hug *sniff*

......and probably a shower too...

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swimfan14

:: 2005 3 December :: 12.08am

ahaha tonight was fun :)

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holiday

:: 2005 1 December :: 11.38pm

Oh my gosh. Today was so crappy! I was freaking out about getting our project done. We finally finished it but were late for class. OH WELL. I was goin' crazy. Just a crappy crappy day.
I saw Jenna! haha :-) That was cool!
I hung out with the girls last night after work. So tired but we talked a lot and it was nice. I hung out w/Charlie today and that was really nice too. We went to Panera and stuff.
I think it's really happening this time, NO F'ing joke. For real.
Anyway, g'night!

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 1 December :: 7.28pm

Senior Pictures.
the pictures are showing up now

out of the 150 some proofs we got back, these are the ones we ordered. soooo... tell me which ones are your favorite.... ACTUALLY tell me which one you want a wallet of (if you're worthy) *giggles... im kidding. but really though.... telll meeee.

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holiday

:: 2005 30 November :: 11.41pm

Work was interesting today. After class I went to Applause and we had a huge party for like 390 or something. Fun fun. I made 900 bread-rounds and some bruscetta. I'm so good. Haha. I was just really enjoying how awesome it feels to work hard. Sometimes. haha. But I mean, first semester is almost done, and I love my class. The difference between other classes and culinary classes is you form a family. We're so close. And it's almost done. We've always got each other's backs. It's cool. I sound like a dork though I'm sure. But I love it. And today, it was nice getting all that food out and getting complements and knowing you did well. Even though I burned the fuck out of my arm. It hurts. Bad. It's not a huge burn though. But anyway, works going to be super busy the next few weeks.
As for other things, still have no clue. Wish I knew. I don't want to just assume it's not happenin'... But I've been havin' addictions to cola. Which is strange, I haven't drank pop in a while, and now all I want is diet pepsi.
eHHHHHH
g'night.

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eddy

:: 2005 30 November :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: FUN!
:: Music: HIM

The Funeral of Hearts
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That's such a beutiful song. I love the video as well =) you should check it out!

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eddy

:: 2005 30 November :: 5.35pm
:: Music: HIM

Join Me

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Haha, that song makes me sound really emo lol. I'm not I swear, I just really like the song, and the video effing rocks too. I think they actually say "would you die tonight..." rather than "won't you..." I dunno. :) Got my hair cut 2 days ago :D i like it! yay!

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 30 November :: 9.16am

this weekend i had the most exhilerating experience. i went to keegans and he worked me really good. my WHOLE body was like spinning. It was great. I finally understand what hard work it is. i mean, i was sweating, breathing hard, and it even a hurt a little bit. they always say that it does. that its not as easy as some may think. keegan stressed that it's all in the form and positions... and you absolutely HAVE to throw your hips into it or it just doesnt work. im so sore today in all the right places...................................................







because we were BREAK DANCING. mwah ha ha. yeah, picture that. little teeny tiny me "breakin it down". *giggles. it was really fun though. you dirty minded fools. pshhh.


break was pretty good... i hate school. i hate being here. i honestly wouldnt mind it as much if it didnt start so early. waking up at 6 is the hardest thing for me to do.... gahh..

i got most all my christmas shopping down this week. noo.. not on black friday, that could have killed me.... did you see that footage of people getting trampled! geeeesh. i got keegan all taken care of which is a HUGE chunk of my shopping. at the end of the holiday season... i'll probably be about 500 dollars in the hole.. and thats only including my mom, keegan, little sister, and brandi. yikes... its a good think i dont have bills to pay.

i feel like scrubbing it the whole rest of the year... yeah... sounds like a plan....

OOOHH.. we ordered my senior pictures yesterday. im so excited to get them back. my mom ordered a ginourmous one too. 16x20 i think it was..... woot hoot!

oook, im pretty sure thats my life so far..

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swimfan14

:: 2005 29 November :: 7.56pm

He wont leave me alone, ever. It's getting really annoying and when I try to tell him that I DONT LIKE HIM..he doesn't get it and it freaks me out when he is like in one million of my classes and his locker is like right next to mine. Somebody save me....


It's Miller time says:
not talkin?
~Ashley~ says:
what
It's Miller time says:
you like tryed not to look at me today :(
~Ashley~ says:
um ok..srry
It's Miller time says:
i just noticed that normaly you do sometimes
It's Miller time says:
but today i would look at you and you would like look away really fast
It's Miller time says:
its alright
It's Miller time says:
just wanted to kno what was up
~Ashley~ says:
nothing
It's Miller time says:
its kewl but i just thought it was sorda weird
~Ashley~ says:
lol sorry
It's Miller time says:
i kno im geting probly anoyying with this whole thing.


^ Yeah, you think!?!?


It's Miller time says:
Hey is 1.7 in the english packet due tomarrow?
Ashley-sometimes you just don't get the hints!!!! says:
we aren't even on 1.7
It's Miller time says:
ohh really then i guess im ahead of everyone for once
Ashley-sometimes you just don't get the hints!!!! says:
umm we aren't even on that...were on 10.6..but ok..


Sometimes I can be such a bitch but if I'm nice to him then he's going to think I like him, so the only way to get my point across is to be a bitch. Oh well...he'll get over it.



Miss stacy cain you can't want that..we have a plan remember!??!

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swimfan14

:: 2005 29 November :: 6.55pm

Sometimes I just miss the way things used to be.

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holiday

:: 2005 29 November :: 12.22am

I definitely should be asleep right now. But no. I got some really yummy shampoo last night with Becca now my hair smells wonderful! I love Biolage. mmm. Sorry...
Anyway, trying to get classes at cc sucks so bad. grrr. So many annoying customers today. "Can I have a kaiser roll, just a kaiser roll."
Me thinking : WE DON'T SELL THOSE JUST ORDER FOOD DAMMIT
"You're out of a lot of stuff. Grr. Well. WHINE WHINE WHINE"
Me thinking: Yeah, you came a half hour before we close. Get over it. We're a class, we're learning.
"Can we split the payment on two cards"
Me thinking: GO DIE!!!!
Ha j/k
But seriously, ANNOYING. Oh yeah, it was funny. A couple guys walked in and they go: "We'd like 2 double cheeseburgers"
Me: "Dubble Cheeeese buurgers???" (confused look)
Them: "Oh, we're not in McDonalds! hahaha"
I made the most out of all three registers though, that was cool. $429
Holy crap I have to get to sleep.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 November :: 11.41pm

I guess I'm just naive for thinking that...

But thats what I get for thinking.

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eddy

:: 2005 28 November :: 9.48pm
:: Music: HIM - Vampire Heart

Guys! better take notes!
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eddy

:: 2005 28 November :: 5.11pm
:: Music: HIM

When Love and Death Embrace
I'm in love with you
And it's crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms

When love and death embrace

I love you
And you're crushing my heart
I need you
Please take me into your arms

When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 November :: 3.36pm

Haha I just remembered when I was at Jessica's when we were trying to sleep she had a cd in with a whole bunch of differen't songs on it and I was pretty much asleep and in my dream I heard the song "goodbye to you" and I woke up and it was playing and I was like "JESSICA JESSICA WE HAVE TO TURN THIS OFF RIGHT NOW!!" and I couldn't figure out how beacause it was pitch black so I woke her up to turn the song off. Haha I am such a nice friend....

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holiday

:: 2005 28 November :: 2.58pm

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Whoo. I'm tired. It was kind of fun being a cashier although everyone was crazy today.

I don't know what to do anymore.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 November :: 2.37pm

"You're just mad because you are a skip-bo loser lol".


<3 ashley

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eddy

:: 2005 28 November :: 8.08am

Soooo tired.....
Whew, sitting here waiting to go to an ortho appointment. And yes, I have slept tonight, lol. Hungry, but I don't wanna eat anything...should go get dressed too...

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eddy

:: 2005 28 November :: 1.17am

Woo! I got a new robe today when we went shopping and its so warm and comfy! i love it!

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eddy

:: 2005 28 November :: 12.28am

Gerard and Heartagram Quizes

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