Ramblings of an Evil Genius

1 Doubt | Do you doubt my Genius!?

:: 2005 9 October :: 7.31am

The dance was cool.
I had fun.

:: 2005 7 October :: 6.35am
:: Music: BOB DYLAN

Well, the 40 days of purpose res life group meetings started last night. As you can tell, I have no idea what to call it. Anyway..it went very well. There are 7 groups of couples, Brad and I are the youngest. Not by much though, all of them are in their early 20's. It was nice because I was expecting it to be really dull and everyone to be uber churchy, but they weren't like that at all. We all just talked and laughed the entire time. I guess it's every Monday for the next six weeks. It was supposed to be Thursday, but people had problems with that I guess. So, sorry Erika and especially Keegan. ;) Laguna night must be rescheduled!

Today is black day and I'm having fun with it. Even though my stinky boyfriend is being a shmuck. =) Hehehe..

I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be!
You'd be non-conforming too if you look just like me!

:: 2005 6 October :: 11.48pm
:: Music: The melody in my mind

Oh it rhymes and I have a rythm for it too!
And I wait everyday
For the games that we play
For this prices that we pay
To go on another day

Give me strength
Give me life
Give me the additude to rise
Above the filth
Above the lies
Above these brain dead flies

Take my pain
and my past
Take it all and make it last
With this ring
With this cup
Take my soul and fill it up

As I hope
and I pray
to go on another day
I think
and I try
Just to carry on
If only to

Give you strength
Give you life
Give you the additude to rise
Above the pain
Above the lies
Above the tears that you cry

With this ring
and this cup
I promise you I'll take you up
Above the pain
and the lies
And the tears you used to cry
I'll give you strength
and give you life
I'll give you reasons not to die.

Comment on the other entry if you want to comment on this.

:: 2005 6 October :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Hmm
Im in a lyrical mood, maybe ill post something a little later, on another note however I went to the Hippy Grocery Store (Whole Foods) yesterday. Jesse took alot of pictures. When he post them Ill make a link.

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:: 2005 5 October :: 6.34am
:: Music: BOB DYLAN

Things are good in the hood.
Who's all going to Homecoming? I'm just wondering..

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:: 2005 1 October :: 9.26am

I am in the play. I get to be a Citizen of Oz. I know, I know.. it's a very minor part and I probably have no lines that I say individually, but I'm just excited to be a part of the play. I didn't try hard at auditions and my heart was never really into this play, but I'll put my all into it now.

Red flannel day is today. How exciting. I get to do fucking everything because everyone in yearbook is a lazy ass. No one can just offer to do anything if they don't benefit from it. It drives me crazy how everyone can take that class and yet not want to do anything for it. Whatever.

Hopefully today goes well. I need to shower, later.

Edit>>
I got my Homecoming dress, it's brown. And brown is the best, so I am happy. Erika and Keegan your couple is back!

:: 2005 1 October :: 2.31am
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: Rammstein- Stein Um Stein

I thought of something today...I don't know why it bothers me but here it is:

The dead will never smile again. I thought of this as I watched an elderly couple enjoy each others company..and It almost brought a tear to my eye knowsing that there smiles would fade and never appear again. I don't ever want to get to a point where I'll never be able to smile anymore.

:: 2005 1 October :: 1.44am
:: Music: Im playing Guitar! Oh no.

Playing Under The Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppers
-and-
Battery by Metallica

Hell yes! Im bored!

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:: 2005 30 September :: 6.22am

He made me smile.
I need to just stop caring, worrying, getting so worked up, etc.
Last night was perfect. We argued a little, but it didn't end in us yelling, storming off, or me crying. It ended in him saying, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." And that was that.

Then we talked about a lot of things for an hour or so.
And I just want this all to last, because if I had this huge part of my life good and fixed again I don't know what could bring me down.

I love you. And always remember every word you said last night.
You can go.
I trust you.
And you know me saying that is a huge step.
Just don't make me regret these words.
Tony's a good friend.
Continue in the good direction you are going in now.

:: 2005 29 September :: 11.28pm

Proof there is no God.
They made a sequal to that horrific D&D movie.