:: 2005 6 March :: 8.35 pm

Imagine that...
...it must be time for the nightly yelling match.

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:: 2005 5 March :: 8.50 pm

Remind me again...
...why do I bother coming home?
Sometimes I'm not too intelligent.

Good day... I wasn't here, plus I was with Mrs. H - both good.
Now... it's looking as if the night will fail at even being decent.
Hopefully it will be tolerable. It'd have to get pretty bad to not be.

I'm so tired of this house I'd rather curl up in a damn corner and die.
But I can't... I have to stay strong for her and for me.
I know it's best to stay strong.. but, it's easy for me to give in. Often this gets the best of me.. it brings my worst side out. I don't like the person this makes me but I've never known the difference.. I've never been able to show a different side. The time is coming though.. it's coming as soon as I can get it here.

Shoot Me

:: 2005 4 March :: 9.45 pm

Another night to come home to a disaster.

The evening had even went well.. I was at Mrs.H's the entire time. Then I got home.. apparently my parents are at it again. My mother was just coming home as I was from "taking a drive" and my father was just stomping back and forth being the typical ass he is. It's not too bad right now.

I'm so tired of their crap.. his mainly but sometimes her's just as much. There's nothing I can do to help it.. just wait it out.

So.. plans for tomorrow -when ever it may come- Work in the morning at 7. To Mrs. Heggemann's between 12-2ish. Maybe tomorrow will be alright since most of it will be at Mrs. H's.. I will still have to be around him some though.

Sunday.. Work from 9-11.. evening depends.

I'm really starting to get tired, I might try to sleep.. sometime. Not too good at sleeping anymore.

I wouldn't even be trying if it weren't for you.

That's it.. I'm out. G'night everyone.. have a good weekend.

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:: 2005 3 March :: 9.55 pm

Conversations that consist of nothing but end up as mood changers are awesome. Few people can have an impression on my mood.. actually mainly just one person and it's wierd because it's always a positive change. It's nice.

I was just thinking about the wierdest thing earlier.. why is it that there are certain things everyone dislikes but typically there is something made with the disliked ingredient that they love? I'm like that just as much as anyone else but, it's wierd.

It's seems as if there will only be slight controversy tonight, my father just said goodnight. Hopefully that's a good sign anyway. Things are known to make complete turns when they involve my parents and I. It's really a hard thing to follow.. one minute I'm acceptable [or as close as I can be in their eyes] the next I'm the worst thing that has ever happened to the world. It's a tricky thing. Really.

...and that's all. No more updatage.

Shoot Me

:: 2005 3 March :: 4.30 pm

...as the introduction to hell continues.
How is everyone else getting along?

I'm drinking milk, skim of course. I've decided to just drink milk instead of eating. Think that'll last long? We'll see.

I believe my mother and I will be going to the game tonight, I'm not sure but that was the original plan.

If I don't stop coughing I don't want to go anywhere.

Well, I'm about to scratch those plans, my father just informed me that he would be going. *curses*

So.. I guess I'll go find something to allow me to say I tried to take my mind off of everything so I don't lie when I say that I did try.

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