I love you Ellen.... I am always here for you... Dont forget that. True Friends should always be there, not just when they want something. Always be who you are, if someone doesnt like you for it, they are the ones that should change, not you. Keep your head up and pray or atleast hope that it doesnt get worse, if that is possible...

My parents were nice to me today.... I didnt like it alot because they were all happy and shit....grr.. But atleast they didnt ask me every fucking question they could think of....

Somewhere in this darkness, there's a light that I can't find.....

I didnt go home until late tonight. And guess what, I had to explain everything I did....to my GOD DAMN parents.....

They read my letter about suicide and now they want to take a family picture so if someone "Dies"....lol Its funny... I dont think they really care. But I was like ok whatever, I will take a damn picture but I am wearing normal clothes and I am wearing my hair in a ponytail.....

I thought they were going to have a "talk" with me about my letter because my dad sais "Will you do something for us" I was like "umm What" *breathing hard* "Take a family picture with us" *sigh of relief* lol....I was really dreading a talk..... They havent got the slightest FUCKING clue.....

I feel like playing with white out and drinking mountain dew.....

do you see anything annoyingly hypocritical about smokers who won't order dessert because it's not healthy?

RUNNING >FROM ME

Say a prayer for me
cause i can barely breathe
i'm suffering, and i can't take it
because of me, no one will ever see
this side of me, if i don't make it

it's like i can't wake up
it's like i can't get up
it's like i can't remember who i used to be
am i running from you, or am i running from me?

clear a path for me
cause i can barely see
i'm stumbling, and i can't shake it
it's up to me to save myself from me
my enemy, but i can't face it

it's like i can't wake up
it's like i can't get up
it's like i can't remember who i used to be
am i running from you, or am i running from me?

i'm breaking now
im breaking now
i;m breaking out
here i come, here i come, here i come
can't..wake..up..cause i'm no one
am i running from you, or am i running from me?

it's like i can't wake up
it's like i can't get up
it's like i can't remember who i used to be
am i running from you?
can't face myself, i'm just left with the suffering




Feet, prepare to be swept, my anger is going to take my down.

Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.

Staind - Take It
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you this pain in me - in me

But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it

I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes
I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do

But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it

Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
It know it
'cause I once felt that way
Nothing I could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow

Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away



Black:
PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE
KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH
SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the
world. For reasons who knows, but you
definately hate life.
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