Staind - How about you
If someone else showed you the way
Would you take the wheel and steer?
It hurts me that you're not ashamed
Of what you're doing here
If they jumped off a bridge
Would you meet them on the ground?
Or would you try to claim
That it never made a sound?

Everyone plays the hand they're dealt
And learns to walk through life themselves
Not everything in life is handed on a plate
When people think your words are true
It doesn't matter what you do
I sold my soul to get here
How about you?

So you choose to force your hand
What a strange way to make friends
And you always change the rules
So the drama never ends
And you blindly go through life
Judging only by its worth
Just try not to forget
That the meek inherit earth

So please don't take offense
This is just a point of view
'Cause I'm the only one who
Will say these things to you

I hate.......everything.
Today sucked, my fucking parents ask too many god damn questions. I HATE QUESTIONS......you would think they would figure that out when i give them a smart ass answer. My dad thinks im fucking in a bad mood, what the fuck ever, he is just a fucking dick.

Damn..........*sigh* today is hopefully ending soon.........I just feel like crawling in a secluded place and dying.

You take away....I feel the same
You take away....I feel the same
All the promises you made to me are made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again
Cause you can feel my ANGER
You can feel my pain
You can feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings they will bring only pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again
.......good song.......good song......


Well I dont know what to say
Because theirs truth to what you say
I know it kills you im this way
Theres something different every day

Could it be that...I never had the chance to grow inside
Could it be that...My habit is to find a place to hide
Could it be that...sometimes I say things just to dissapear
Could it be that...im only being me
.....I love that song....part of it reminds me of a dear friend saying something to me....you know who you are....

Hello, to the one person who reads my journal, or atleast the only one who says anything.

So how was today Ellen? I didnt get to set by you at lunch, but thats okay, i just set there anyways.

There are so many quixotic people in our school. I want to obliterate them, all of them.

I want my own insignia. I need someone to make me one. Then I can write it all over everything.

Is school considered an ecclesiastical place?

It seems as if I have something to do, maybe I should go see, bye to the one person who will read this........I lovers you!

day at school:	I cried, my best friend left me in the hall.
kiss:	French......agh.
girlfriend/boyfriend:	lol...way back when, thats out of my memories.
time getting high:	at my house, it was strange.
time drinking:	that was when i was like 4, I was a little alcoholic.
date:	to a bluff, we sat on the edge and well......
time having sex:	um, im my grandparents house, B-word was "oversized"
time you asked someone out:	I never have asked.
time you ate sea food:	umm, along time ago, i dont remember.
time getting in trouble for something really big:	never really have, never been in "TROUBLE"
detention:	when I wrote a letter with a cus word in 1st grade.
time getting a filling:	two years ago, it felt cool.
fist fight:	only punched him, he didnt get to fight me.
time you cut yourself:	umm, on purpose, last year, i think.
questioned existance:	prolly about when i was 8 or so.

Tell me about your first.. brought to you by BZOINK!

Have you ever hit someone forcefully?:	yes, in the nose.
Have you ever thrown anything at a moving car?:	yes, fireworks.
Have you ever been in a fist fight?:	no.
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?:	yes, many times.
Have you ever hit an animal on the road?:	yes, a bird.
Have you ever seen a Beatles film?:	no, i dont believe.
Have you ever cussed?:	yes, only on occasion though.
Have you ever been on a subway?:	no.
Have you ever taught a little kid to cuss?:	no, a bird however....
Have you ever cheated on a test/exam?:	yes, many times.
Have you ever skipped school?:	no, i go every damn day.
Have you ever egged someones house?:	no, but my house has been egged.
Have you ever gotten a computer virus?:	yes, that computer is now in the computer graveyard.
Have you ever cried for no reason at all?:	yes, all the time.
At last but not least, have you ever missed someone?:	yes, i miss alot of people.

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