:: 2005 16 March :: 5.15 pm

This is bullshit.
Excuse the language.. but, I don't really care right now.

I should probably never talk again. It only helps me to lose everything I haven't already lost... and I don't need any help at that.

Nothing makes this better.

Shoot Me

:: 2005 15 March :: 5.30 pm

...how senseless.
I hope the plan works. I really shouldn't hope when it involves my parents though.. it's just opening up myself to take another hard fall. So.. if it happens, great. If it doesn't.. I can't say it wasn't expected.

That's about how it goes.

I'm ready for Spring Break. I need to stay away from here and them as much as I can.

Posttraumatic stress disorder, anyone?

[update]
*sigh of relief*
The first part of the plan has been successful. We'll see how it turns out.

Shoot Me

:: 2005 14 March :: 9.20 pm

I don't even know what to say...

I probably shouldn't say anything. Most of you don't care to know anyway.

Just another night, nothing special.

I know any of you that wish to know or have a concern will just ask.

So.. I'll leave it at that.

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:: 2005 13 March :: 8.30 pm

I don't have much to say..

I've not been allowed to do anything all weekend so not really too many adventures to tell you about. I've had the entire weekend to spend with the two people in the world that want to watch me fail, my parents. Tell me, how fun does that sound?

For the last.. eh, 6 hours or so I've been working on scholarships and other things to do with college. Loads of fun, let me tell you!

I'm trying to compile a list of everything I'll need when I'm off to college. It's hard. So many things...

I still have questions for you. I'll get around to asking them sometime I suppose..

[update]
Something always happens...
...so much for it being a decent night.

Shoot Me

:: 2005 12 March :: 6.30 pm

What did I do so wrong?

If I deserve this I'm fine with it but.. I'd like to know what it was I've done so wrong.

I'm going to lose it... and I can't leave.

I'm stuck. Another long night.. but, it doesn't really matter. I'm strong enough to take it.. I've made it this long, no reason that should change... at least not expectantly. You don't worry. Please!

Shoot Me