i'm so happy i got to say that to sara i needed to tell her that n i'm happy now!! i just wanted to update it cuz i haven't n forever but oh well hey everyone mauhz i luv ya'll bye bye bye
- LiL t

sara
ok i was readin sara's journal n it was talkin about how she wasn't afraid of dying n all this other shit about logan. this is for sara! gurl u need to forget about him he was in the past the past is the past n no1 can change that!.! trust me i get what ur sayin that u can't get over him, guys are like addictive drugs me n keely decided that about frank n from the look of it logan is too. lol damn those drugs! heehee i want u to rethink everything u said in your journal about dying. u should be afraid of dying cuz like u said life is short so don't waste all ur god damn time on this one guy when there's 50 trillion other guyz u could get without a problem that prolly won't break ur heart, i haven't found mine yet but i can help u find urs i need to focus on skool more than guys right now even though i don't i can still help u find a guy!.! that's what friends are for. i'm sad u didn't mention me n that quiz thing on ur journal about who made u laugh or bring a smile to ur face :-( lol jp :-) gurl cheer up be happy! there's plenty of other fish in the sea lol JUST KEEP SWIMMING JUST KEEP SWIMMING LOL finding nemo u should watch that it'll make u laugh! lol n puff out ur cheeks! n look in the mirror that'll make u laugh too girl i luv ya n i'm here for ya remember that always!! - LiL t

[DMX]
Uhh.. UH! .. WHOO!
[Chorus:]
[DMX]
Y'all gon' make me lose my mind up in HERE, up in here
Y'all gon' make me go all out up in here, up in here
Y'all gon' make me act a FOOL up in HERE, up in here
Y'all gon' make me lose my cool up in here, up in here
[DMX]
If I gotsta bring it to you cowards then it's gonna be quick, aight
All your mens up in the jail before, suck my dick
and all them other cats you run with, get done with, dumb quick
How the fuck you gonna cross the dog with some bum shit?
Aight
There go the gun click, nine one one shit
All over some dumb shit, ain't that some shit
Y'all niggaz remind me of a strip club, cause everytime you come around,
it's like (what) I just gotta get my dick sucked
And I don't know who the fuck you think you talkin to but I'm not him, aight slim?
So watch what you do
Or you gon' find yourself, buried next to someone else and we all thought you loved yourself
But that couldn't have been the issue, or maybe they just sayin that, now cause they miss you
Shit a nigga tried to diss you
That's why you layin on your back, lookin at the roof of the church
Preacher tellin the truth and it hurts

[Chorus]

[DMX]
Off the chain I leave niggaz soft in the brain cause niggaz still want the fame,
off the name First of all, you ain't rapped long enough to be fuckin with me
and you, you ain't strong enough
So whatever it is you puffin on that got you think that you
Superman I got the Kryptonite, should I smack him with my dick and the mic?
Y'all niggaz is characters, not even good actors
What's gon' be the outcome?
Hmm, let's add up all the factors
You wack, you're twisted, your girl's a hoe
You're broke, the kid ain't yours, and e'rybody know
Your old man say you stupid, you be like,
"So? I love my baby mother, I never let her go
" I'm tired of weak ass niggaz whinin over pussy that don't belong to them,
fuck is wrong with them?
They fuck it up for real niggaz like my mans and them who get it on
on the strength of the hands with them, MAN

[Chorus]

[DMX]
I bring down rains so heavy it curse the head
No more talkin - put him in the dirt instead
You keep walin - lest you tryin to end up red
Cause if I end up fed, y'all end up dead
Cause youse a soft type nigga
Fake up
North type nigga
Puss like a soft white nigga
Dog is a dog, blood's thicker than water
We done been through the mud and we quicker to slaughter
The bigger the order, the more guns we brought out
We run up in there, e'rybody come out, don't nobody run out
Sun in to sun out, I'ma keep the gun out
Nigga runnin his mouth?
I'ma blow his lung out
Listen, yo' ass is about to be missin
You know who gon' find you?
(Who?)
Some old man fishin
Grandma wishin your soul's at rest but it's hard to digest with the size of the hole in your chest

[Chorus]

[DMX]
Hold up! ERRRRRRRR!
One.. two.. meet me outside meet me outside, meet me outside
All my Ruff
Ry-DERS gon' meet me outside meet me outside, meet me outside
All my big ball-ERS gon' meet me outside meet me outside, meet me outside
All my fly lad-IES gon' meet me outside meet me outside, meet me outside
All my street street peoples meet me outside meet me outside, outside motherfucker
X is got y'all bouncin again
Bouncin again, bounce-bouncin again
Dark Man X got ya bouncin again
Bouncin again, bounce-bouncin again
Swizz Beatz got y'all bouncin again
Bouncin again, bounce-bouncin again (Swizz Beatz)
Ruff Ryders got y'all bouncin again
[DMX]
Bouncin again, bounce-bouncin again
Dark Man keep you bouncin again
Bouncin again, bounce-bouncin again
Dark Man keep you bouncin again
Bouncin again, bounce-bouncin again
All my streets they bouncin again
Bouncin again, we're bouncin again
Swizz Swizz Beatz we bouncin again
Bouncin again and we bouncin again
Double R keep it comin, ain't nuttin y'all
Ain't nuttin y'all can do, now.. [BOOM]

this song is the best i LUV DMX !!!!

me n bobbie r just chillin lol we're like hyper!!! lol ya taht's cuz were not were about to fall alseep i srry i lied lol i srry!!! heehee bobbie's thirsty n is buggin the shit outta me lol j/p. pj's hott lol i cant' believe james told him that! grrrrrr gonna hurt u !!!! lol neways i was talkin 2 brad then i'm like i got a ? n he's like i kno what it is n i'm like no u don't lol he's like ya say it n i'll tell if it was wat i thought n i go do u think it's about our break up or about me still likin u. he goes our break up n i go no! lol he was wrong!!! heehee i told him i still liked him lol then frank came over n he wouldn't talk to me nemore i hate frank. Today was pimp as hell we had a dance n i was dancin like a black chick lol it was funni then brandon was sad n i felt bad n asked him if he wanted to dance with us then bobbie yelled at me o well he was sad n i'm srry he was. n bobbie is buggin the shit outta me cuz she's readin everything i say out loud lol she won't stop n it's not kool. I'M AN IDIOT lol she said she was an idiot lol n i squished her boob lol omg were like fucked up right now o well i wanna tell u more but i'm kinda tired n i can't type when i'm tired lol u kno how many times i hit backspace all ready lol cuz i'm not lookin at the keyboard lol that was like 10 times right there heeeheee o well i guess i'ma go to bed now i'll ttyl HAPPY BDAY ELYSE N HAPPY VDAY 2 MY VALENTINE (I WISH IT WAS PJ) LOL o well hope he doesn't see it n bobbie wishes her valentine was brandon! lol bye luv ya ttyl mauhz

~LiL t

today has sucked so far n will suck soooooo much more i'm sure!!! first i got up n i went rite back to bed i was tired as hell from last night i had guard n i stayed at school til 7:30. (I wake up at 7:10 which sucks.) then i have to stay for beckman n FINISH my page n omg today will suck majoryly. i'm sad taht frank called keely a bitch n won't kiss her i was just tryin to help her out!?! was that the rite thing to do?!? i don't know she'll tell me if it wasn't n if she's mad at me. well i gotta go get dressed. ttyl mauhz luv ya'll

~LiL t

i'm really hyper this morning lol i'm bitchy in a good way tha'ts funny don't ask lol neways last night was so funny me n bobbie called brandon n then he hung up on me then she called him n he hung up on her lol it was funny as hell we sat there laughin all night then i watched bad boys 2 then i watched the grammy's till 11:30. dmx rocks!!! lol nvm that but today has been all good so far ! today may not be so happy - preppy day i dunno yet !?! lol i luv everyone muahz i ttyl pz

hey what's ^ i got home from guard like 2 hours ago omg it was hard my thighs hurt like hell owww lol oh well i hurt my hand when i threw a triple on my rifle n it hurt like a mofo it was swollen n purple but that's ok i'll deal wit it bobbie was supposed to come over but i didn't call her we were gonna go to target n get black cheerleading shorts n write "UGLY" on the butt in white it's gonna be funny i guess since we didn't do it today we'll do it tomorrow or somethin' i dunno yet!?! ummmmm........... o ya i might go to tn tonight if my mom ever comes home n i can ask her if i'm alowed to go she'll prolly say no but it's worth a try it's it chandelle wants me to go n so does april n janielle o ya i gotta call janielle n ask her what time she's goin i mean i kno when it starts but i don't kno what time she's goin or what time she's leavin i think i might call bobbie n ask her if she wants to go to tn for her first time too ( april is goin for the first time) lol hey elyse i'm sryy i didn't say tarynn after every sentence that would be alot!! lol that was funny yesterday when u were on tha fone wit ryan n u kept sayin taryn hehee good times n then with ty n u kept hangin up on him lol better times god i wish i had a bf i mean vday is like next friday not even a week away i want brad to be my bf sooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!! it's not even funny i luv him so much!!!!! y does frank gotta ruin everything oh well i'll talk to brad lata i gtg peeps i luv u all i'll ttyl muahz ~ LiL t

ummmm. today kinda sucked i went 2 school pissed cuz frank called last night n goes u ain't goin out wit brad no more but every other word he says is "skank ho" n i'm like w.e then i found out my mom listened to my phone convo. only the parts i said so she doesn't kno what he said i'm like w.e then this mornin i missed tha bus n i saw mike kody alex elyse n kevin at car riders so i talked to them n i punched my science book lol ( it hurt) n i walked like a duck all day cuz my thighs hurt like a mutha fucka from doin squats yesterday then when i got home i went online n talked to TY about what he says turns out we have somethin in commmon everyone thinks were not trustworthy i guess u could call it n were both tryin to get some1 to go out wit . his skool thinks he's a PLAYBOY! n my skool thinks he's ty tha bi but he's not!! n then my skool thinks i'm a bi slut!! i'm not fuckin bi n i ain't no slut i may not be straight but i ain't no fuckin slut! slut- a : a promiscuous woman; especially : PROSTITUTE -1 : to offer indiscriminately for sexual intercourse especially for money. and i'm not any of those!! so i'm not a fuckin slut n i'm not fuckin bi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! courtney good plan we'll just talk!! holla back shswfl lol that's great shit! muahz luv ya

~LiL t

today was good cept taht i found out that ty told venessa n kendra n april that i " gave him head n jacked him off" first off that is a LIE or ya he told them taht he didn't want me to either that i just did it LIAR!!!!!!!!! ok no nothing like that happened everyone knos what happened now he's just lying!! i seem to have a problem with liars this week!! i dunno y he would say that shit but i did nottin like that i'ma good girl 0:-) heehee ( tha perfect lil angel ) but w.e that's only one part kahleigh told me that he was makin fun of me n i think i kno y but that's a totally different story.. next problemfrank n david are gonna get strangled they can't seem to keep there fuckin opinion to themselves. i'm tired of them callin me a "skanky ass hoe". last poblem eric is lying n he's tha most against it... he told renee i said he was flirtin wit her sista i just sid i don't think he sould be friends wit her cuz she's not tah nicest person but neway ya!! i hope everything gets better!!!! elyse - music is good, lying is bad!!
<3 ya'll *mauhz*
~LiL t

u kno what are the two most tru statements taht i've read in tha past two minutes?? 1.~no matta wat happens
ima stay by ur side~
best friends foreva
thats how we ride~
( taht's me n elyse, and me n chandelle i luv ya muh girls)

2. ~A kiss is just a kiss till you find some one you love~ A hug is just a hug till its the one your thinking of~ A dream is just a dream till you make it come true~ Love is just a word until its proven to you~
(n that's for my babi boi)
i'm so pissed cuz courtney was tlakin to me about my bf n said he was only goin out wit me cuz i begged him n that shit ain't tru i would neva beg a guy i'm not that desprate!! hun i'm not ugly but i ain't tha hottest girl but i can still get a guy when i want i don't understand !?! y do people lie?? tahts my big argument for tha day lying!! it suks god i wish i could be happy like elyse but it's not workin out!! damn my life suks!

XoMizShawtyXo [12:57 PM]: no family problems (at the moment) b-day in 18 days, v-day in 13 days, guyz are great lol (well most and ah i <3), yesterday was fun, 2day was ok so far, doin ok in school, not poor! lol

i'm so happy for u elyse i 'm pretty happy to i hope everything stays good for u were in it together !! luv ya my sista ho!

damn it
why's everyone gota be mad?!? i do luv u chandelle i'm srry if i didnt' say i did u should kno i do! y don't u trust me when i say that?!? this is to EVERYONE! friendships or realstionships cannot work out if both people rn't honest or trustworthy trust me when i say this i've learned through experience, it suks when things don't work out!! i luv u all! wouldn't care to loose ne of u! (that means i would hate it like hell n prolly kill myself unless u didn't mean nething) please don't lie n be trustworthy!

hmmmm.
i'm realy realy hyper this mornin i dunno y?!? it's all good though. last night didnt' go well but it's all good i guess atleast until i talk to one of them today. I really like him n i would hate to loose him, n i would like to keep courtney as a friend but she takes everything so literal n it kinda bugs me alot!?! y does she do that?!? I BUGS THE SHIT OUTTA ME!! guess we'll see today it depends how much of her shit i can take be4 i got off on her. i understand that kahliegh may have a hard life n i might to but i dont' make my life hard n i'm shure she doesn't either. but aww well she's not one of my friends so i don't care. i do wanna say that i luv every1 who's thurr 4 me i luv ya till tha day i die no matta what!!! o by tha way hi mike! i'm talkin to this kid that alicia knos heehee!! neways i'l lbbl luv everyone

~ LiL t