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:: Music: talking to jim on the phone
i'm just sitting here talking to jim on the phone..
he came over on the 2nd. stayed 2 nights. he went home today around 4:00-5:00.
he's comin' back over tonight around 12:00, and i'm gonna call my mom to see if i can go over there when she gets home from closing the bar. other wise he's just gonna stay for a little while.
my doctors apt. yesterday went good. jim went with me, he heard the babys heartbeat for the first time. my next apt. is august 31..
after my mom came to pick us up from the doctors; we went to target to register for my baby shower.. i'm doing the babies room in duckies; it's so cute.
my moms birthday is today.
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2004 1 August :: 12.32pm
:: Mood: indifferent
so i'm back from vacation.. well actually i got back a few days ago; but who's counting?
everything with jim is okay, sorry about that long entry i made about it; i just got upset i guess.. but who cares.
yesterday i went to jims house. i got there around 2:00 in the afternoon. my brother dustin drove me over. jim shaved his head; and i coulda kicked his ass for it because i hate that.. but he actually looks cute so i wasn't as mad. lol. we watched jack up in his room, then went downstairs and ordered a pizza from kuzins. we just lounged around then watched The Story of Us, that movie was made for jim and i. after that we walked down the park and i finially got to swing on the swings! [jim pushed me] we went back down his house and just chilled and watched movies the rest of the night. when his mom got home she gave him the keys and he drove me home. we had to stop in bentlyville to get gas, drop movies off at giant eagle, and get jims mom a subway sub. after all that, we finially left for my house. i got home around 12:30-12:45. i got jim to stay for about 15 minutes. then he went home. he called me when he got home, and we talked for about another hour i think then i went to bed.
i woke up around 11:00 today.
i don't know what i'm gonna do today, i need to go to the mall to get my mom a birthday present because her birthday is on the 4th. so i'm trying to get jim and i a ride to the mall.
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2004 24 July :: 1.19am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: breaking benjimin - so cold
"i feel, i feel dead inside.
nothings bringing me back
from this. not this time."
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2004 19 July :: 11.40pm
:: Mood: crappy
blah blah blah, everyones getting on me for not eating anything. i don't know, i just don't feel like eating, so i don't eat.
only 6 more days til vacation with jim.
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2004 17 July :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: futurama on tv
nothing really happened yeterday.
today i woke up around noon and got a shower. my mom stayed home from the bar so we could go to the mall. we left around 1:30-2:00. it took me about 20 minutes to get a shower because the water kept turning off while i was in it. it was tickin' me off.
we went to the washington mall i got a pair of red dickies and a pink shirt with a black star on it from hot topic, they won't fit me now but they'll fit after the baby's born.
at fashon bug they were having a big sale so i got two maternity shirts, just a plain black one and a white one that buttons half way down. then i got a pair of mudd jeans, and a black & pink stripped shirt that ties down the sides.. again, those things won't fit until after the baby's born.. but i'm starting "school shopping" now so i'll actually have something to wear when i go back. oh and i got a cute little black hat.
we stopped at the bon ton, i got a grayish-black tank top that's really cute. that won't fit until after the baby's born either..
we went to the gap for kids and looked on the sale rack for baby clothes. we got so many cute little onesies/hats and other cute little things for the baby! god, i can't wait to wear them on her. :-D
for lunch i had chinesse. my mom and i shared some sorta chicken with rice and an egg roll. the rice was good. but it made me sick.
i spent $20 at clairs on the cutest jewelry. it was all on sale. lol
i got home around 7:00, then went swimming for about an hour or so. called jim, he has tonight off; and doesn't come over again.. i think he likes to just make me depressed or something.
i think i'm goin' to amys tomorrow. not positive yet though.. we'll see what goes on.
this is the first time i've been online all day. that's amazing.
[edit] 11:53 pm
it was nice actually having my mom home today. i haven't even seen her [at all] for about a week and a half now.. i'm so tired of being home alone all the time, i get lonely.
and i'm telling jim now that i'm sorry.. it just happened. i haven't done it in a long long time.
<3<3
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2004 15 July :: 11.20pm
wow, some people are really desperate.
get a life, and your own boyfriend!
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2004 15 July :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: melancholy
it's funny how 1 story can sound so different from 2 different people.
..jim wants me to go with jim to kennywood with him, his mom, ronnie, his brother and one of his friends. hmm.. let me think. that's stupid. and he got all mad when i told him i didn't want to go. okay; i'll go and be miserable and make him feel bad for me because i can't ride like 1/2 the rides. it's an all over bad idea. he was like "well you know i'm still gonna go with or without you" i was like "good for you, have fun. take someone else."
whatever, i don't give a fuck about anything anymore.
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jim called around 10:30 and asked what kind of diapers to buy if there was any special kind.. why does he always do something so stupid, that's so sweet. he makes it so i can't ever hate him.
ahh!!!!
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2004 15 July :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: muse - time is running out
SvvEeTbLoNdEcHiC: just remember u are so much better than this girl so dont even think for a second that u dont have somethin that she does bc u have everything and jim is just a blind ass mother f-er lol
aww.. thanks kristen.
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2004 14 July :: 6.07pm
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my school schedual.
1st pd. economincs & government - areford
2nd pd. geometry - brletich
3rd pd. english 11 - baker
4th pd. accounting 1 - skilles
5th pd. study hall [mon. tue. thur.] - downing, fitness (gym) [wed. fri.] - mitchell
6th pd. study hall - gurdish
7th pd. child development 2 - taylor
8th pd. biology - foglia
hmmm.. i don't know how i got 6th period all week long study halls..
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2004 14 July :: 1.14am
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: petey pablo - freek-a-leak
pictures
i took this yesterday.. yes it's me. and yeah, i'm very much pregnant! [29 weeks along] wow, i look fat. this is for you kathy!
jim and i sitting by the pool.. we just got done swimming. this was taken on the 11th, when jim stayed over.
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