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2004 12 July :: 11.55pm
:: Mood: restless
i was just sitting here, looking at my pictures on my camera.. i haven't uploaded them; basicly because i've been procrastinating.. but i'll do it tomorrow most likely. [and i'll put one of me with my belly so you can see it kathy!] lol
didn't really do that much today. jim was here. we went swimming and watched some movies and what-not. he left around 6:30 and went home. blah, he left right before dinner was ready!
for dinner i made steak on the grill. haha, me cook? it's a scary thought, but i actually did it. i only burnt myself about 3 times. luckly jim helped me.
after he went home, kelly came over and we walked up to the mingo twist n shake for some ice cream. i got a large artic swirl with extra oreos. i don't know why i always get a large. i can't ever finish it.
..boring day as usual
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2004 12 July :: 2.02pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: shhh.. jim's sleeping!
"when i didn't need anyone.. i needed you"
so for my last entry, the pains i was having was just braxton hicks contractions.. i was getting all worked up over nothing. but i'm glad everythings okay.
yesterday i woke up and got a shower and everything then went down jims house around 3:00. we didn't really do anything, just talked about stuff. i actually think we fell back asleep on the couch for a while, but i'm not completely sure.. lol. at 8:00, george came to pick us up. when we got to my house we went swimming.. it was actually pretty nice in the water. then my mom and george ordered some pizza and hoagies from up the mingo twist n shake, and got a fire going. when the pizza got here, it was all gross. the pizza wasn't cooked all the way; the hoagie was cold; and georges stromboli was luke warm. we were all so ticked off. after we made smores and marshmellows, my mom george and anna went in and left sam jim and i outside by the fire. i think it was around 12:30-1:00 by the time we came in. jim and i played nintendo! i love that system. oh yeah, so much better than all those new game systems! haha. after a while we got tired of playing and went online for a bit, then watched tv and talked. we fell asleep around 5:30.. we both kept saying we were going to go to sleep earlier; but then we'd start to talk about something else. lol i just woke up around 1:00. jim's still sleeping.
god, i just got this massive headache..
we watched True Life: I've got baby mama drama on MTV last night. [it was about teenage kids having babies] there was this one couple where they were both 19 i think, and the guy broke up with the pregnant girl for some 16 year old. omg, that pissed me off. i guess it's kinda like the situation i'm in. little 14 year old girls trying to take jim away from me..? yeah right, over my dead body will i let that happen. sorry; jim is definitly the best boyfriend i'd ever had.. and i'm not gonna lose that.
i have pictures from last night; but i don't feel like posting them now.. i'll do it later maybe, i don't know.
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2004 11 July :: 1.16am
:: Mood: frustrated
stupid pains
i was almost asleep about 20 minutes ago, and then i kept getting these pains in my lower abdomen. well earlier today when i was down jims house i kept getting really bad cramps. i hope everythings okay; if these pains don't go away by the time i go home, i'm gonna ask my mom and see what she thinks. i hope everythings okay.. :-/
so i went to jims yesterday around 4:00 i got there. we didn't really do anything.. just talked and watched the movie what lies beneath or something and ordered some food from kuzins. i got up amys around 8:45, and we just chilled. i'm goin' back down jims house today because amy is leaving in the morning to go to a family picnic with her gram in ohio. so my mom is gonna come pick him and i up around 7:00 and he's gonna stay over my house til monday when he has to go to work.
amy and her sisters stupid rat keeps scaring me. i'm sitting here all by myself and it keeps running in its wheel making noises. jeeze.. lol
..i really hope everythings okay with the baby and i just have cramps or something dumb like that. i'm not gonna be able to sleep tonight because i'm going to be thinking about it.
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2004 9 July :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: "what not to wear" on tv.
i woke up at 2:00 in the afternoon. tried to call jim. it was 6:30-7:00 by the time i actually got ahold of him. he was on his way over, but i was pissed off because he didn't get here earlier so i just told him not come over and hung up.
i made plans to do things this weekend, because my sisters were supposed to go to there dads, but no; anna didn't want to go, so once again i get stuck watching them. i'm not a mom yet.. i shouldn't have to act like one all the time! but whatever. i'm definitly doing something tomorrow with or without jim. my mom george and anna are going to some picnic, so i'm free to do whatever.
i think i'm gonna get a ride to the mall tomorrow and to see a movie. i don't care if i have to go myself, i'm going to go.
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2004 8 July :: 12.50pm
:: Mood: cranky
stupid pills always make me sick.
i woke up around 12:00.. my mom woke me up to see if i wanted to go to greensburg with her; but instead i talked her into taking me to jims house for the day. i told him the only way i'd come down is if he'd push me on the swings down at the park. lol, he said he would. we'll see what actually happens. i'll update later.
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time: 6:15 PM
i just got home about 10 minutes ago, i ended up not going to jims, well i did go to his house but he didn't answer his phone so i just went with my mom to greensburg to look at RV's to rent for a week.. we stopped at bob evans to get something to eat, i got pan cakes with homefries, eggs, and sausage. mmm. it was good. jim called me at like 5:30 and was appologizing because he slept the whole day and didn't answer his phone. but whatever, i'm still upset about it. i woulda just walked in his house except i got there around 2:00, and he told me last night that his mom was going to be there until 3:00, so i didn't want to just walk in and her be sitting on the couch or anything; i'd feel so stupid! lol. but anyway, i guess jim is gonna get me a ride to and from his house tomorrow.. but we'll see what actually happens.
i hope he'll be able to go with us when we go on vacation at the end of july [we're renting a 37' RV for a week, and taking a trip up to niagria falls in canada] i doubt he will because of his job; but i'll see if i can't make him take off or something. he has to go, or i won't have any fun.
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2004 7 July :: 6.33pm
i've been into taking these quizes again for some reason.. i don't know why though.
What's Your Problem? Find out @ She's Crafty
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2004 5 July :: 11.53pm
 I am an Asteroid.
I am a drifter. I go where life leads, which makes me usually a very calm and content sort of person. That or thoroughly apathetic. Usually I keep on doing whatever I'm doing, and it takes something special to make me change my mind.
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2004 5 July :: 11.07pm
:: Mood: content
i give in to easily.
jim came over after work.. we stayed up and talked for about an hour or so, then he fell back asleep until 2:30, then around 4 kelly jim and i went swimming. it was so cold! jim was bein a butthead and wouldn't go in for the longest time because it was so cold, but he eventually went in with us. after that sam and i made dinner for us. jim and i went out and layed a blanket in my yard and talked about baby names, and stupid stuff. he got me laughing so hard, i almost peed my pants. haha.
a picture of us in the yard.
i didn't feel good all day, and i still don't now. blah.
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2004 2 July :: 3.50pm
:: Mood: amused
so i was just online, browsing on some new sites that i had discovered.. and i come along to my journal entry that i made yesterday and saw that i had a comment left by someone. so i clicked on and; and it read:
"um why r u so proud that ur pregnant."
so knowing me.. that note would not go unanswered. i replied:
"well i'm sure as hell not going to be ashamed of it.
..why wouldn't i be proud? just because of my age? get over it, a lot more girls a lot more younger than me are having kids. at least i'm taking responsibility for my actions."
but no, i think the people that read my journal don't look at my notes; and i wanted to make this more aware to everyone:
i am not ashamed of being pregnant. if you're one of my friends and are ashamed of me; then why are you still talking to me? i don't want to have anything to do with you if you aren't going to help and support my decisions.
like i said, there are a lot more girls out there, much younger than me that are pregnant, doing drugs, drinking; and just not caring what happens. you don't see me going off and drinking or doing drugs do you? no, because i take responsibility for my actions. which is a lot more than i can say for most of the people that i know, or even don't know for that matter.
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