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2004 1 July :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: irritated
..i'm to forgiving, huh jim? lol
i had my doctors apointment today. i was so tired. i didn't go to bed until 4:30, and then jim called at 5:30 and we talked til 8:00 then i fell back asleep until 9:30, i got up and got dressed really fast because my apointment was at 10. we were only 15 minutes late! lol, we made it. i only gained 1 pound since a month ago; the doctor doesn't think i'm eating.. but i am. the babys heart beat is so strong. it's good to hear it.
after the doctors, we stopped at subway, then at the bar. then to the supermarket. while we were getting things, i almost blacked out. i guess it's because i didn't sleep or whatever; but it's one of the worst feelings in the world. you get lightheaded and really weak, then everything just goes black. my mom made me go sit in the car while she finished checking out.
mmmm.. we bought spaghitti-o's!!
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2004 29 June :: 12.45am
i was walking through my kitchen, and i stepped on a piece of an orange.. WHO LEAVES PIECES OF ORANGES ON THE FLOOR?!
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2004 28 June :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: awake
what a yucky day today turned out to be. i was supposed to go to the bar to taste food; but i didn't feel like going- so i stayed home.
i went up my grams for about 2 hours because my uncle had to go somewhere with mary; and someone has to stay with my gram. so i left when donnie came home around 2. i came home and fell asleep until around 5 i think then i called jim. we were gonna go to the drive in tonight with chelsea and the girls, but it ended up pouring down rain! so that messed everything up.
i can't wait til wednesday! jim's coming over after work in the morning, then he gets to stay til thursday when he has to go back to work that night. then on friday we're going to go to the mall and movies.
i think i have a cavity. i'm sitting here eating sour patch kids; and one of my bottom left teeth is hurting bad.
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2004 27 June :: 2.03pm
:: Mood: tired
well, zues was laying on my bed last night and knocked over annas cd player that i was borrowing because my stereo is on it's last end. so i'm scared to see if it still works; i hope he didn't break it!
wow, the bar wasn't packed like it was on friday. but it definitly had a steady flow of people which is good. i got nachos, but they didn't hit the spot. my aunt came in around 11:00 and ordered wings and fries, and she shared them with me because she couldn't eat them all. we ended up getting home earlier than usualy;; 2:30am i think. i waited up til 5 when jim would call.. then we talked for 30 minutes, then he went back to work.. he said he'd call me when he got home and he did but i guess i didn't hear the phone ring. he left 2 messages to. i musta been in a deep sleep because i always answer the phone!
can't wait til tomorrow. my mom, george, dustin, matt and i are all going to the bar for taste testing! sysco [where my mom orders the food for the bar] is bringing in a chief to cook some different food to try to see if we want it for our menu. the last time they came in i was there and they brought about 5 different kinds of cheese cake! ohhhh, me matt and jason were going nuts! haha. i can't wait.
i don't really think i'm doing anything today; i lead a boring life. thank goodness jim called me at 1:40 today other wise i would still be sleeping right now.
my foots asleep.
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2004 26 June :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: semisonic - closing time, 504 boys - i can tell
things have been really boring as always. nothing new going on.
yesterday i went to the bar with my mom and helped out. we had to go out and get some alcohol [they ran out] so we stopped at target and my mom got a some new clothes, and we stopped to give jim some chicken fetichini [sp?] for his lunch because i couldn't finish all mine.. bill made it especially for my mom and i, it was really good. so after we dropped that off we went back to the bar and hung out, did some things. we left at 3:30am.. and i made my mom drive me up to giant eagle to get some caramel ice cream because i was craving it! and i also got to see my baby for like 5 minutes. so i was happy, and i definitly suprised him. :D then we left and got home at 4:00am. i tried to stay up because jim was calling at 5.. but i ended up falling asleep at 4:30 or so. jim called and i answered but we didnt stay on the phone. after he was done eating he called back and told me that the chicken fetichini was really good. i'm glad he liked it.
i don't know, i don't want to jinx anything but things with jim & i are going really good. it's hard to explain; but i guess we actually talk again, not just "hi, bye" kinda stuff; but real things. hmmmm- i doubt anyone will understand what i'm talking about, but oh well. things are going good.
i have my next doctors apointment on july 1, i'm gonna see if jim wants to go with me. i don't know if he will though because it's at 10:00 in the morning, and he just got home from work about 3 hours before that. but i hope he will.
the girls went to their dads this weekend, so i'm free. but i'm not doing anything.. haha.
i still have to pay that $120 fine from missing school last year. ..i think it was 120, or maybe it was 130.. i don't remember; it was somewhere around there. i still have to pay it. soon.
only 13 more weeks and the baby's due! i can't wait. i feel like a whale. i actually weigh less now than when i did before i was pregnant, but i look like a huge balloon. i started crying when i was over jims on thursday because i said i was fat.
i have to go get ready to go to the bar again. my mom should be here soon to pick me up.
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2004 21 June :: 10.48pm
i'm so stupid.
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2004 19 June :: 9.00am
:: Mood: tired
i don't know what's wrong with me, i can't eat.. or when i do eat i can't keep it down. too much stress over jim or something; i don't know.
jim came over yesterday for about an hour. we're still together. he felt the baby kick for the first time yesterday.. it was so cute. he got me a dozen roses and a card.. i love him so much.
amy came over to.. she just left about a half hour ago. she had to go to work.
i'm just sitting here; my mom and i are going to get george his fathers day present today. and then i'm gonna try to go to jims house, or maybe i can get him to come over here. it depends on if he has to work or not.
i'm gonna go try to get some more sleep because i hardly slept at all last night.
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2004 17 June :: 11.51pm
i just talked to jim on the phone.. i told him that i just wanted to be friends and that we'd talk about everything when i saw him in person.
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