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2003 27 December :: 5.21pm
:: Mood: lonely
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wtf
okay, the littlest things piss me off anymore.
jim finially called me last night for the first time in 2 days. so i was really pissed off at him. all we did practicly was fight the whole time we were on the fone. --and we haven't fought for a long time-- and i told him that i thought we needed time off; and he said okay. and i said okay, then hung up. he called back probably 5 times, i didn't answer. he didn't call back again for about 5-6 minutes or so.. and i answered. i was crying, blah blah blah, no one cares. now we're okay.
i'm glad to.
so far my break has been nothing but shit. no one has come over, i really haven't gone anywhere; and jim hasn't even stayed over. which pisses me off even more. i guess he's coming over tonight [*i'll update later, to tell if he does actually come over*]
i've been sitting around the house all day doing jack shit. watched my dvd's like 50 times each. i'm just bored out of my skull. so i went out into the kitchen my mom was making a pizza or whatever- and she had peperoni sitting out and i went to pick it up [I WASN'T GOING TO EAT IT] and my mom like grabbed it off me, and i was like "i'm not going to eat it" and shes like "i know" and continues to grab it off me. wtf? that pissed me off so bad.
so basicly right now i'm pretty pissed off, bored, and lonely. but my loneliness overcomes it all.
xx.jena
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2003 25 December :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: linkin park - numb
merry christmas
i'm just sittin here, messin' around with my digital camera i got for christmas. aww- everyone go to my photo album.
i'll be updating my album a lot, so keep checking.
merry christmas everyone.
hope it was a good one.
<3 jena
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2003 20 December :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: talking to jim
i'm just sitting here, eating a candy cane; listening to jim. he's playing driver 2 on playstation. i'm just sittin here watchin' and talking to him. i have to go back to school on monday, that sucks. but christmas vacation starts on thursday.. thank goodness.
my pap is home from the hospital [since yesterday] which is a good thing. let's hope he stays home for a while.
5 days til christmas.
and i still have to christmas shop.
xx.jena
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2003 16 December :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: cheap trick - i want you to want me
wishing jim was here
school was hell; as always. i came home went directly to the bank with my mom to cash a check, went home picked up the girls from the bus and my brother from down the house, we all went to see my pap in the hospital. i was supposed to go shopping with jim.. but plans changed so i called jim told him i couldn't come..
the doctor told my gram that my pap wouldn't make it out of the hospital this time. his heart is giving out. ..right before christmas.
i really don't consider myself "depressed" i just think that sometimes i get sad; like everyone else does.
but right now i am truely upset, mad, depressed and every other word there is. i just really need to be with jim to fuckin' cry on his shoulder for a while. it helps when i do that.. it really helps.
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2003 15 December :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: outkast - hey ya'll [it's just on the radio..]
is it never ending?
i haven't been doing much lately. didn't go to school friday or today..
my pap went back into the hospital again around 7:00 tonight..
i'm almost done with christmas shopping, just a few more things.
10 days til christmas. wow.. that's not very far away.
i think i'm gonna get a shower tonight and just go to school in my pj's tomorrow.
xx.jena
"i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled, the one who could brighten up your day, even if i couldn’t brighten my own"
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2003 8 December :: 4.08pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: bob marley - no woman no cry
stressed.
-my pap is still in the hospital
-my mom is being stupid lately, we've been "fighting" about everything
-jim sometimes forgets to call me, i get upset
-i keep pasing out (..not joking.)
-i have a whole week ahead of me with assignments due, tests etc;; and it's really stressin' me out
now for the good news..
xx.jena
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2003 7 December :: 2.47pm
Friends only
I'm sry this Journal is Friends only. Well, it's only because alot of people have problems and like to harrass other people. I don't feel like dealing with peoples shit. If you would like to be added just comment and I would love to add you. I also make layouts for people. Also, my profile has alot of information about me. so feel free to add me.
with love,
 Megan
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2003 5 December :: 6.09pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: switchfoot - ment to live
everybody knows..
my pap is in the hospital again.
he's not doing well. everbody in my family knows that, but no one will openly talk about it.
why is it so hard to talk about someone dying? ..it seems to be a simple question, but it's hard to answer.
..it's just to hard to face, so we cover it up and pretend like nothing is happening; when really we're losing a huge part of ourselves.
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2003 1 December :: 2.04pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: linkin park - numb
everything's just getting worse
jim and i were supposed to go to the mall today, but his fone was busy busy busy- and i couldn't get through, so we didn't go. once again jim, thanks for basicly ditching me. 3rd day in a row.
You are the crying eye. You think nothing out
theres worth it an u just want to be alone. You
know uve been hurt 2 much wen u open ur eyes n
all u see are tears.
The type of pain ur eyes behold
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2003 30 November :: 12.20pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: silence
there will always be that one special boy.. that no matter what he does to you, or how bad he hurts you.. you can never let him go.
..thats all i have to say.
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