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2003 3 July :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: lazy
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..i'm stupid..
hmm.. i'm just sitting here, doing nothing.. jim's mad at me again.. :( because i'm stupid and i always do everything wrong. and i don't know why he doesn't just hate me. err.
i was on a diet, but now.. i'm just freakin to lazy anymore. grrr.. i dunno, i don't have any thing to make me do it. it sucks, because i'm fat and i want to loose weight, but i'm just to lazy to do anything about it.. godddd. i need to get jim after me.. i need him to keep me goin, and to help me out. -good idea jena.. lol
i got a new screen name for AIM.. its she ran away x :) woo. i love it. i haven't told anyone about it, cept jim so far.. but i don't really think that i am goin to let anyone know about it. it's a secret.. hahaha. not really, i just don't think that i'm gonna tell anyone.
ohh.. i got a new e-mail to, it's sheranawayx@hotmail.com LOL sound familiar?? haha. i'm so original.. oh wait, i mean lame. :)
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2003 2 July :: 11.45am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: none
pictures!
hmm.. i'm just sittin here with my baby jim, and amys sleepin on the floor. my sisters are asleep, and my mom and everyone (her friends) are up the bar.. hmm.. anyways. i got a photo album at yahoo.. and i just wanted to post the address in here so a.-i wouldn't forget, and b.-anyone who looks at this, can look at my pics! woo! yes im smart. lol
here it is:
http://photos.yahoo.com/fallingagainx
i'll be puttin more and more on there.. so be sure to look at it all the time 8-)
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2003 1 July :: 1.02am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Eve 6
i haven't written in a long time..
whoa, i haven't written in a long time! it's summer, thats probably why.. even though i really don't have a life.. jims pretty much just stays here, except for the ocasional "i have to go home to mow the grass" lol.. but it's okay, i love him over here!!
well, schools out, (for almost a month now! haha) which is good. and i can't wait until august 1st!! YESSSSSSS vacation with my family and jims goin with us. i can't waiiiiiiiit! (well, i really don't like the beach, but as long as jims goin.. i'll be okay!)
woo- it was 7 months for jim and i on the 29th. he makes me so happy :-D we didn't really do anything special.. just hung around the house and watched TV and what-not. but it was a great day anyhow :)
over the weekend, i went to my some-what of a cousins wedding. it was pretty fun, i got some good pictures with my moms camera. w00. yes! i can't wait to get them developed! :-D
well, i'm off. i will be writing more often!
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2003 2 June :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: just listenin to jim talk in my ear
just my day..
2 1/2 days left of school!!!!
ahh.. can't wait til school out.. i'm like freakin counting the MINUTES. haha. but anyways.. err-- everythings coming to an end in school, i am finishing up my finals, and giving books back, and saying our goodbyes. my mom got me 2 disposable cameras, so i've been taking pictures of everyone.. lol it was fun i'd be like "hey you, look here!" and they would look and i would take a picture, hahaha and they would look all stupid.. hahaha. i love pictures like those. lol
so um i got called down the othe office 8th period today, and this guy was like sitting in the office, and was like "are you jena?" and I was like "yeah.." and he was like "I need to talk to you." so we went in the nurses room to talk. he was from CYS, (children youth services) and he was there to ask me some questions about my mom.. hmm.. so i guess someone called in, and told them that her and george were "alcoholics" and that they always leave my sisters and I alone, and unattended.. psshh.. that is bullshit! yeah, mom leaves us "unattended" once in a while, but only because i'm.. BABYSITTING! people are so fuckin stupid anymore.. god, they piss me off!
so all in all, my day was pretty stupid.. except for when i got to see my baby jim!
love you jim.
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2003 30 May :: 10.10am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: nothing.. just listening to people talk
ahh.. i'm in school right now, in a study hall which i came down to print out some pictures of Beavers for Jim.. lol for his science extra credit. but um anyway, i'm very bored. and done printing out pictures. todays the seniors last day, so thats cool ;) only like.. 3 1/2 more days left of school after this one! woo-hoo.. yes. =) but anyways, i i am like mushed down with all these finals, and all this stupid stuff.. err- i hate all the pressure! lol. but i dunno. i know i passed my interior design final with an 80% - which is good ;) and i took 1/2 of my Spanish final and err-- i think i failed it.. hahaha. (to bad I don't care though. lol) oh well. i think I did good on my English final, but I don't know.. i'll see today -hopes- oh well. i have to go.
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2003 27 May :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: placebo - every you, every me
on the fone!
6 1/2 days of school left!
today
ahhh.. i'm on the fone with jim, were not really talking about anything in perticular.. but i'm so bored, god take the gun to my head and shoot me..
well lets see, schools sucked. i was so freakin tired.. being that i didnt go to bed until like 1.. lol which is really early for me, but i guess my whole body was tired from all the walkin, and the sun beating down on me and shit. but oh well, i got through it. ha.. barely.
but anyways, i came home from school, called jim and i was bein all bitchy and shit, so i got off the fone and took a nap.. for like 2-3 hours, somewhere around there. and then I called him back, I was still bitchy for like 15-20 minutes after i woke up, but i got in a better mood after a while.. lol jim always puts me in a good mood. :-D
kellys (my cousin) is moving in next door to me.. which is freakin sweet. she'll be goin to our school and shit. niceness. w00t.
tomorrow
im goin to school and goin to either the Wildthings Opening game with my baby jim, or goin to the Faux Pa with my baby.. (so either way im with jim, and either way im happy.) I just don't know which one were goin to yet... ahhhhhhh.
love you jim.
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hmm.. very interesting.. im so freakin bored, other wise i wouldn't have posted this!
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2003 27 May :: 12.30am
:: Mood: tired as fuck
:: Music: nothing
x-fest!!!
7 1/2 days of school left!!!!
ahh! x-fest was great. (except for the two nasty people that i saw there. but there were only two.. which is an improvement.) buuuuuuut anyways. ahh i bought an 'x-fest' shirt, and i got it signed by 3 of the bands that were there, first, smiling empty souls then eve 6 then STAIND aaaaahhhhhhhh I LOVE STAIND!!!! they were so fuckin awsome!!! lets see if i can remember all the bands that were there.. hmmm..
on the main stage there was Seether, The Donnas (yuck..), Evanescence, Staind (yesssss!!!!), and Godsmack.
west plaza stage there was, Smile Empty Soul (yesssss!!!), 12 Stone, Breaking Benjamin, Punchline, and Juliania Theory.
parking lot stage there was.. THE USED (yessss!!!!!), Eve 6, Trapt, and Taproot.. (COLD was supposed to be there, but I guess there guitarist or someone broke their arm??) -sigh- oh well.
But anyways, me and amy were all the way up front by the stage when Trapt came one, and everyone was like moshing and shit, and this one guy who was crowd surfing fuckin fell right on me and amy.. jesus christ, it hurt so bad. i swear i had like a concussion or something.. lol. but oh well, not like anyone would care anyways, eh?
so we walked around and shit, and had so much fun. (i woulda had more fun if jim was there.. but it's okay.. he'll go next year!) -yawns- we left like 30-35 minutes early, so we wouldn't be caught in all the traffic and what not.. and we got home around 12:00am. i was on the fone with jim almost the whole way home -smiles- muahahaha. i love him so much!! but anywayssssss.. jim came up to amys (where I am right now) to see me, and see if i was "okay" (which is so sweet.. lol) and we talked (really just hugged, cause i missed him so much) for like 10-15 minutes, then I came inside. ahh yes, it was a stressful day.. lol
SCHOOL TOMORROW.. well, really today, now that I think about it.. ahh, fuck that sucks some cock!!!! lol. oh well, not that much more school!!! YES. hahaha
love you jim.
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2003 23 May :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: the used - bulimic
blah blah blah
yesterday
so yesterday I went to pick up jim, and he came over. when we got home we just went up the bar to eat with my mom and sisters, and then we came home around 9 and just layed around on my bed and what not, and talked. I got on the computer for like an hour, but I wasn't really doing anything.. jim and I (well, really just me lol) was doing my interior design final project thing. man that thing is a pain in the ass! grrr! but oh well, it's almost done, so thats definitly a good thing. hmmm.. we stayed up til about 10:30 or so, and then we actually went to bed at 11:00.
today
ahh yes, school againnnnn. man I hate that place! but anyways, I got up around.. 6:30 and got a shower and what not, then came back in my room and got dressed. I woke jim up around 7:05, and we left for school at 7:15. I went to school, it sucked, then I came home and here I am now..
later
lets see.. im about to go pick up jim again from his house (like always!) then he and maybe rochelle is stayin the weekend, then sunday they're goin home, and i'm goin to amy's, and on monday amy and I are going to x fest!!!! hell yessssssss. I can't wait. but anyways, i'll write later this weekend.. because there really isnt anything else to say.
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2003 21 May :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: incubus - warning
ahhh
9 days of school left
ahhh man. school sucked today. i kinda knew it was gonna be a shitty day, when i woke up late, and had to get the quickest shower in my whole intire life.. it was shitty. i got dressed and everything, and i walked out the door, and it was like 2 degrees outside! I was like what the hell?? so I got my hoodie and what not.. I <3 that thing.. but thats a different story. (okay, not really, but I like to say that.. haha) but anyways, i got to school, and my bus was sorta late.. so that sucked. jim came in, and i saw him right after home room. -smiles- all our classes were shortened, which was good, but then we had this activity period (we have one, I think like every month?? I don't know, something like that.) but, it's this 45 minute period, where people go to there school 'clubs' and what not, and if people don't have anywhere to go, they just sit in there homeroom, and talk/study or whatever.. and i just did whatever.. I'm not really friends with anyone in my room. oh well.. who cares. finially, it was time to go home. Jim and I walked out to the buses, and kissed eachother goodbye.. ahh then the bus ride, I hate the bus ride.. -sighs- but I made it home.. in one piece.. barely...
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BlackRainbow2986 (7:27:47 PM): I LOST MY FUNNINESS!
BlackRainbow2986 (7:27:49 PM): 'OMG
BlackRainbow2986 (7:27:50 PM): IM GONNA DIE
BlackRainbow2986 (7:28:08 PM): CALL THE AMBULANCE AND HAVE THOSE FUNNY LIL MEXICAN GUYS WITH THE WHITE JACKETS COME AND TAKE ME
xx interrupted (7:28:09 PM): no no no, calm down, it's probably down your pants!
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2003 20 May :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: ugly
:: Music: the used - a box of sharp objects
nothing new
So much shit is going on in my head lately.. ahh, I can't sort it all out, so I just feel all fucked up and shitty all the time. (Which nothing is new, but you know.. oh well) As much as I love Jim, just all the stupid ass fights we get in doesn't help. I just keep thinking about all the shit thats wrong, instead of just about everything thats right.. and thats, well I just shouldn't be thinking about that kinda stuff. My life has just been never ending chaos, and it's really messin my god damn head up. I don't really know what to say, because I think of all this shit i'm gonna type down on here, and then when I come to do it, I forget it all, and it's just stuck in my head, for me to think about, and think about.. I hate it so much.. but once again, theres nothing I can do about it..
School sucks, right now i'm failing two classes.. but you know what the worst thing is? I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE. I seriously thought to myself this year was gonna be different, I'm not gonna let anyone or anything get me down. But what the hell was I thinking? It could never be like that, because I always let everything and everyone get to me and bring me straight down. If someone says something, I take it straight to heart, and thats just what I don't think people get about me.. I'm not like everyone else, yes, I do have problems most people don't know about, but you know what? I don't go around and tell everyone about them like some people do, because they think its "cool".. ahh, I could go on with that forever.. but once again, no one cares.
I don't know, I think thats all I'm going to go on about now.. I forget what else I was going to say. -sigh-
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