darksworddancer
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2005 7 March :: 6.47pm
So not much is new....im tired today...and really bitch...thankyou mr. fisher.....
I went to bio this moring to find another award sitting on my desk....it helped my day greatly...
Prom is creeping up and im excited...yet not.....hmmmm..i still need to fix my dress....roxanne!!!!!
My dad gave me a motercycle!!!!!!!!!!!!! and im getting my permit on my b-day!!!heee.....im excited.....so yeah.....thats my life....ahhh
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DarkSwordDancer
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2005 2 March :: 9.18pm
:: Music: ahahhah
ha!
So yeah...i havent updated in a while.....
Regional science fair:
This happened yeaterday, March 1st Tuesday, I took 3rd in the entire fair and got severak other awards. Im invited to compete in State, it'll be in Missoula and im excited. Since i got 3rd im alternate if one of the two girls ahead of my become incapacitated or die ........to go to internationals! So yeah...im cool with it....i was only 3 points away from taking 2nd...im ok with that so.....yeah....Now im on break away from all that....
On March 18th....Thats when im having my b-day party...its very restricted due to lack of room...so ...shhhhhhhh.....it'll be from 7 pm to 12 midnight....then basically anyone who wants to can stay the night...it'll be fun...and we'll do pizza...and ofcourse there will be DANCING.....and prolly SAW or The Grudge.....i nono.....so yeah...ill be calling everyone thisweek to tell them...you see im afraid of people being mad at me for not inviting them to my b-day...and im gonna feel bad...ehhh!!!!!!!
Yeah..so today...ryan said i wasnt allowed to have a boyfriend....i was like wha..? So yeah......im confused....MY SISTER MOVED INTO THE NEW APPARTMENTS BY MY HOUSE....AND ITS FULL OF HOT JETTER MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and im done with that....
Ashleys baby is getting soooooo big...he's a sweetie......she might bring him over for a little bit....i dunno....so it should be interesting.....
Saturday we are going to go see Taming of the Shrew...i think...hmmm....i dunno....*call jessika*
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DarkSwordDancer
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2005 20 February :: 9.43pm
:: Music: An array of songs stolen from jessika
IM BACK
Ok so im back from Seattle.....it was great...but now im sick...eh...yeah....tis annoying. I have regional science fair on the 1st of march...then state....arg.....im excited but tired of being soo buisy...
So this prom dress i have...yeah...its horribly small on me....i need to loose weight for it and add some things but it should be good for prom..im excited.
Im sad....i missed morp....AGAIN....im going to it next year, come hell or high water...im going to go!!!!
So right now im downlaoding the new virsion of msn...and its taking forever...eh....
I have the strange urge to watch Thumbalena!I will...tonight...later...i hope..
Dear Diary M2M
Dear Diary,
Something good happened today
He finally called me by my name
I didn't know how to behave
What to say or do
I was so confused
Dear Diary,
I wanna talk to him again
But whenever he is with his friends
He keeps trying to pretend
But I already see
The way he feels for me
CHORUS
What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know
Dear Diary,
He wrote some letters on his hand
It wasn't hard to understand
I figured I'm part of his plans
But now I'm in his heart
I don't know where to start
CHORUS
You're my secret hiding place
Where my private thoughts are safe
And just one look and he will see
What's inside of me
Welll....thats a group long forgotten by many...
Im excited for my b-day this year....it'll prolly be on the 12 or 13.....i dunno what we are gonna do.....prolly what we usually do....but we'll do more games...and it'll prolly be longer then usualy....lol....i want to have it from like 7- 12.....or 11....so we can do everything we want to... NO i am not inviting as many people as i did last year....that was the worst....eh...this years max is like 8 people...maybe 9....but no more....
I turn 16 in ....24 daYS!!!!!Sorry...its my sweet 16 and golden b-day! I know im stupid...leave me alone!!!!!
So yeah..i like ryan...alot...eh...one of the few guys ive actually been giddy over...like....its bad...*swoon*...ok...im better.....
*swoon*...too bad he'll never notice me like that.....ok really im done...
*swoon*....you didnt see that....
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DarkSwordDancer
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2005 3 February :: 6.25pm
:: Music: Hey Baby-No Doubt
Hmmm..
So we are preparing for the science fair...yeah...no where near prepared....grrrr.....
Stress.....moms comming home tomarrow....yay...i think....bah.
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2005 30 January :: 7.04pm
:: Music: Radio
Neh...
So yeah...its been a while...bah....
So the guy i like ...Ryan...omg he's tall...i never noticed how talll.....like im head is to his chest......its so funny.....omg...hes so cute...yes im pathetic...shhh...
So the science fair is in 2 weeks and im not even anywere near ready...yeah it sucks.........so...
I survived semester tests...and amazingly enough im enjoying life....ive lost some weight so i have some confidence and its nice...
Next week is:
AA Orchestra Festival-CMR
Science Fair
Week after:
TOUR!!!!!!!!!!
YAY
sorrry iim really excited for tour...Seattle....the ocean, no parents,Sushi....and....shopping!!!!! :D...im a dork...lol
So...question...Who likes to RollerSkate?
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Jessika
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2005 21 January :: 11.47pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: Queen - Fat Bottomed Girls
Read this!
{I'm witnessing death as I type this.
A fly just fell off the wall or the ceiling or somewhere above this computer and landed next to the monitor's power cord here in the school library. It's laying on its back twitching and wriggling around trying to use its last bit of energy to flip itself over from this fatal position. It stops every couple of seconds to rest and everytime it looks as though it's the last time it'll move before being swept away by a janitor into the garbage and eventually whisked away to its ultimate grave.
Five seconds it stops. Three seconds it twitches.
Seven seconds it stops. Three seconds it twitches.
"I'm not quite dead yet!" says one side of the fly, the other half retorts with the ever-comical reply, "Yes you are now shut up."
It looks as though this is the end.
Oh, no it's pulled through once more.
And as it twitches again, it finally flips over onto its feet. A good two minutes after it falls, it has finally moving properly again. It tries climbing up the wall... and once again falls onto its back. Several seconds are passing and it's stopped moving, but the frantic flailing of its appendages has resumed and it's now trying to regain its composure.
I find myself wanting to put this poor fly out of its misery. And then I remember, flies are disgusting germy things and they should suffer like the rest of us sick creatures do, at least once in awhile. I want to scream at it to
JUST
GIVE
UP
but these last few moments are an eternity to the fly and if it can only just flip over once more...
I really don't think it's going to pull through.
I really hope it's not going to pull through.
Disgusting germy thing anyway. I am revolted.
And alas, it is flipped over once more onto its feet. Movement is stopped except for what looks to be its cleaning habits. (That's an absurd thought. Flies don't clean, they merely rearrange the disease.)
In another minute or so, this fly will try to climb up the wall (it's much too weak to fly) again and fall onto its back again.
...or maybe instead, it will take a trip under the monitor and disappear into whatever depths from whence it came.
Not that I care anyway.}
Lindsey typed that today....it is flipping awesome I think. I love the style.
Is anyone free after the early out on Wednesday? *is extremely determined ;-)*
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DarkSwordDancer
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2005 16 January :: 6.08pm
So...
Ok so since Friday ive been on rest, orders of the Doc. He has me on 5 different meds, seriously......i hate being sick....my temp was 103....he said i had this bacterial infection in my sinuses...I have this horrible cough, my nose is dead now.....eh...but i am going to school...i feel alot better...and i can stand to be stuck in my house for another day...eh...
So i have a powerpoint on monday....that ive had 2 days to work on...i havnt even added transitions...crap....
I also missed a Unit test in english and a Chapter test in math...so i have to make those up...not to mention get my art wrkst for semester test study for every class....anmd cram in about 3 hrs of practice for Youth symphony and chamber.....MRS JOHNSON is being a total bitch....
So yeah...slightly stressed...*twitch*
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DarkSwordDancer
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2005 12 January :: 7.08pm
:: Music: My December
PROM
My December
by Unknown
This is my December.
This is my time of the year.
This is my December.
This is all so clear.
This is my December.
This is my snow covered home.
This is my December.
This is me alone.
And I...
Just wish that I didn't feel.
Like there was something I missed.
And I...
Take back all the things I said.
To make you feel like that.
And I...
Just wish that I didn't feel.
Like there was something I missed.
And I...
Take back all the things that I said to you.
And I'd give it all away.
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away.
To have someone to come home to.
This is my December.
These are my snow covered dreams.
This is me pretending.
This is all I need.
And I...
Just wish that I didn't feel.
Like there was something I missed.
And I...
Take back all the things I said.
To make you feel like that.
And I...
Just wish that I didn't feel.
Like there was something I missed.
And I...
Take back all the things that I said to you.
And I'd give it all away.
Just to have somewhere to go too.
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to.
This is my December.
This is my time of the year.
This is my December.
This is all so clear.
And I'd give it all away...
Just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away....
To have someone to come home to.
Yeah...sorry i like that song alot...
So prom...im already starting to find a dress and right now its a struggle between aoff the shoulder dress and a corset dress with flowyness beneath.
Yeah...im doing my own hair this year....and im gonna dye my hair a nice deep red, not dark, and kinda leaning back to my roots.
Now all thats left is a date, and i would melt if Derek asked me....*sigh* or i can go with friends...again...which isnt bad...
Morp is before prom correct? Well i think a group of us should go to morp cause i like to dance....and havent done so in a while...with people anyways...yes...lets go cause i say so! Kidding. :P
I dunno...my crush got dumped by his girlfriend..and i feel badcause i was happy...and now im not....grrr.....oh well nothing i can do about it....
Yeah i stayed home today cause ive got this god awful cough and keep snezing and i got tired of my sneezing then everyone laughing....and tired of hacking up a lung every 2 minutes...yet im still sick...and need to talk to mrs. waterfield... Im going to try and be in AP Democ. next year which means i have to take U.S history over the summer....o goody....but i dont maind....im hopping to take 8 classes again...im an over acheiver what can i say?
So latley my lifes goal is wavering..Aerospace engineering seems to become more and more unreachable every time i think about it.....then i start wondering if i want to go into Psycology or Counseling...cause ive got a head start...but then it seems to easy...grrr.i hate doubt....then i smacked back into checklist mode...and everytime im walking /sitting/reading/talking ...basically while im breathing...i will go over and evaluate myself....and then i feel like crap...
Yeah...so the fist 2 weeks of febuary im going to be trying my hardest to keep up with my classes......grrr....we have AA fist week then 4 days of concerts /travel...eh......it'll be fun...but yeah...its gonna be interesting...
So if anyone cares to say....do you think i would look best in which dress?
A: Off the shoulder
B: Corset top with flowy bottom
C: Halter dress full length
And what color?
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Jessika
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2005 9 January :: 6.59pm
:: Mood: grumpy
Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife.
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Yeah. I am loving those lyrics by the Used right now.
I have no one to talk to >_<
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DarkSwordDancer
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2005 9 January :: 5.24pm
So....im pissed off at Mrs.Johnson for changing the fucking schedual for orchestra rehersals outside of school......goddamn her! So now its on sunday ,instead of saturday, from 2-330.....well lets see...hmmm....i have plans bitch....ARG this pisses me off to no end....you see i have church from 9-1......but im also babysitting from 7-3ish...so now she moves the rehersal from a saturday from 10-12 to 2-330......so now i have to drop babysitting which means no money for me but im not going to drop for odd reasons.......*kills mrs.johnson* Im so mad right now.......you know that last straw...well...its been obliterated......fuck........damn stupid ass people
So the other night...friday night..i had this dream....:
Jessika ,Justin Gwen ,Nick and I went to this basketball game that looked like it was being played in the coleseum. Justins house was at the top of the coluseum and it was weird...tehn when the game ended a concert started up...Godsmack....and we all were headbangging and the like...Then we all left......So we are out in the parkinglot Gwen and Justin go somewhere and Nick and jessika go somewhere and im just wandering around the parkingtlot for a little bit....Gwen and Justin come back and shes hanging all over him half drunk....and then jessika and nick come back...both unbelievably pissed off at me...? Then jessika was like"we were thinking about you...."
So some stuff that i dont remeber goes on and then I realize i forgot my walet in the concert and Nick says he has to go up to Justins place to grab something. Well, we walk back to the entrence area of the coluseum...and its completly coated in spiderwebs and there is this button....So the entrance way is like a wall with a sidewalk then some railing, then it turns right accross the stadium wall...Nick walks through the spiderwebs all graceful like and i just run through them, when im halfway through hje presses this red button in the spiderwebs recead (oh and nicks all pissed off cause he has to give me a ride home and since i lost my walet i cant give him gas money thus..) and then he looks at me like "stupid bitch" then says "Oh, and if you get bitten 3 times by those spiders you die." I had 2 bites....it was creepy...So then we get back into the stadium...but now i guess the gates of hell were opening..so we walked in and were standing on a platform much like the entrence but no spiderwebs...and people are decaying and dying around us....and the staudim floor is gone now there is only a greenish glow from a massive pit ,and the walls are now like steep clifs and there are these ythings comming outta the pit trying to catch you...then jessika appears outta nowhere and dies?suddenly..so nick and i are walking down this pathway and climbing rocks when needed to ...all the while nick calling me a stupid girl and yelling at me for loosing my walet...so we finally give up and are at justins house...which is at the top of the stadium....and jessika appears in faerie form and is talking to me...and poking me...then all of a sudden nick eats her...she was the size of tinkerbell mind you...and he ate her off my sholder! then he said "Goddamned pixies..." then we were back in the parkinglot.....justin and gwen are in the back doing godknowswhat and im sitting in the front....we stop at dairy queen and nick says its my treat...as implying i w\am to pay for it and i tell him i lost my walet remeber and he flips out.....then i woke up.....WTH??? I was soo lost in the entire dream...gah
So yeah...im tired...oh i helped jessika reformat her comp yesterday...then my dad was an ass some more...now its today..wooo...bye
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2004 30 December :: 10.32am
Complaining!!!!!!
Yeah so...life today...im tired...and extreamly tense...michelle need a back rub....bah
So jessikas party is tonight...im spossed to go early i think....oh and nickos party is tomarrow night and my dad dosent want me to stay the night at jessikas afterward....right...like im not going to...well im not anyways but shh its a secret...its going to be sooo cold!!!!*burrr*
Poor roxy her mom wants to talk to nicko's parents...eh....that sucks...so many things wrong with that
So yeah im really tired cause last night my imagination was having a hay day with all the shadows in my room..and the head was making this paper rustle it was weird.....
OMG my dreams last night were weird....i had a dream that i was talking on the phone with Derek Eldridge *melt* and we were talking about this famous basketball dude...i dunno then he started singing the punk rock song ...it was funnny.....ok so yeah
I started working on my science stuff again so yeah......my dads being a jerk right now...and he wonders why i get mad at him...oh sure you can go to roxannes then about 30 mins later he comes up and says mom wants to know what im gonna give up this week .....then i find out he was the one who changed his mind...then to top it all off ..i asked him why he changed his mind and he started babbling then claimed i polluted him......polluted him? what do i have some unknown jedi mind tricks? so yeah...its my fault i cant go..(?) i dunno hes being stupid.........then he comes up here today and tells me if michael and his friends break something up here while im here its my fault............even though...the whole time...iv been telling them to stop.....ASSHOLE....oh and now he dosent think i should stay the night at jessikas on new years eve.....oh hell no...im not changing my plans...he can kiss my big white ass cause im tired of him.
In other news ...wait no....no new news...he just got mad at me cause i asked why he was so enthusiastic about being cold.....sorry .....and then i go to my room and get yelled at for not being involved in family life....arg....parents..
My mom forgot to pick me up again...yeah....she does this often..its almost like she dosent exist...or isnt home ever...oh wait!!!she isnt..
AND MY BROTHER is being a dork.......errr *jab jab*
DAMN FAMILY
*smack head on desk*
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2004 27 December :: 8.43pm
:: Music: Vitigo-U2
Darkness sucks
Yes so taday was great fun!!!!Nick and i kept stealing Gwens hat then running around and hiding/passing it off to one another...twas amusing...the move Darkness......suck...yeah...horribly sucked......we had quizznos and it was very good......and i had a steamer...i ate alot today....eh...need to go to gym or get on tredmill....but neways...i meditated today it was nice...then i streached....now i awhere...oh lastnight jessika slept over...it was fun...she never stays the night to it was cool...now im tired....and yeah so ....bah...sleep
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2004 23 December :: 9.49pm
so i was hanging out with my guy friend justin...when i see derek in Wal*Mart...and hes like....MICHELLE!....so we hug and then justins like do you know her? And derek puts his arm around me and is like no....hes sooo tall....but yeah and then we started to talk about ciggaretts...(why..i do not know) and then age and they are both like oh well im not 18 for another couple of months...and i blurt
out oh well im not 18 for another 3 year...ok like really 2 and 3 months...and then he starts hitting himself on the head and telling me how he thought i was older....*michelle kicks herself*
i like him and now....bah
*Kick, kick kick*
Yes so that was my week...i hung with justin for 3 hours one morning..the above happened in that time.....*kick*...*kick kick kick* bah
Oh justin broke his hand cause courtney broke his heart...i feel bad....*twitch*
im sooo mad at myself....gah.....AAAAARG...*falls off chair onto ground and twitches slightly*
whywhywhywhwyhwhywwhywghwhiewfgtkcrm;xz...grrr....eh.....
damn me and my..eh.ness.....*kick self*
ARG....*slam head on comp desk*...just shoot me now...please! First i find out that the senior i have a thing for has a gf...a gf.....grrr...ow well....*slams face on desk*....im going to go and take my anger out on the cleanlyness of my room...
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2004 21 December :: 9.18pm
So yeah, nothing new...im tired...roxanne made me sick...bah....cleaned and rearranged room slightly...no more clutter!!!!yeah...bah
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2004 19 December :: 8.51pm
Wow its been a while...its a few days till xmas...yeah...im bored....i need to call roxy. Ashleys party was fun but Angie and Colten were being stupid....yeah....they are very my attention people....hmmm...
Ashley is due January 28...Ashley Houser not hindoin...
bah...im going...bored...
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