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2004 23 September :: 10.06pm
So yeah...im uber tired cause i was stupid and stayed up to watch a movie last night.
Bio: Note on Ch22
Art: Notes
Gym: Running and soccer : D!!!!!!!
English: Book reports ....my crush gota "D"....poop.....tiphany got a C! Hers was good!!!!!
Orchestra: Playing test for homecomming royalty assmebly seating. *FRONT ROW FRONT ROW FRONT ROW* *CROSSES FINGERS*
German: Start Chapter 2 *snail passes classes pace*
Comp. Lit.: Finished Lesson 5 and did lesson 6 step by step
Geometry: Proofs and the like...revioew for test tomarrow.
So today over all was ok..i was kinna miffed in art but thats life.Im much better then earlier...MUCH...yeah...so..i dunno now im just tired and sick but i dont wanna cry anymore!!!! Bah...so yeah.....
HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!! PLANS??????? ANY AT ALL? I might just go paint the town red with roxy and bob...but i dunno..i think it would be cool to go walk around and talk and thelike... Any ideas?!?!?!
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 22 September :: 8.23pm
Yeah so according to my dad im not mature enough to have the cello. And im freaking out cause i had to mow the lawn....no.
1. Micheal didnt pick up the dog poop so i had shit on my boot.
2. Im sick, tired and in the dumps. Was asleep while he was yelling at me ....but micheal was asleep cause he was sick.NICE OBSERVATION SKILLS DAD, IM GLAD YOU NOTICED.
So now im crying . All day tears have been thretening to emerge and i guess they finaly broke though. Im tired and sick...and the one chance i get to sleep my dad tells me i need to go mow the lawn.
Oh and before i left to go hang with niki even though i was tired he said michael would load the diswasher for me...but he didnt...cause he said michael shouldnt have to do my chores....like i asked him to?.......fuck bag.
Im so unbelieveably pissed off...and discouraged...its not even funny. Damon and i have been talking and he apologized and the like. So yesterday night he called around 10 and we starterd talking and i told him i ushered with Josh Beck and couldnt stop laughing. He flipped out and was all i cnat believe you even hang with the guy........RRRRRRIIIIIGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHTTTTTTTT........i felt like stabbing damon in the eye with my fingernail...but it would have been too messy.
So im on the verge of tears because i am tired of fighting with people and im a cry baby get over its what i do....but i dont want to deal with people who feel the need to thrust themselves into my business ....its shit....and when they do this they dont exactly help me...usually they just cause more problems and bleh..so....yeah.....
*goes back to her hole and falls asleep*
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 21 September :: 7.36pm
I come from the land down under,
Where women roar and men thunder.
Cant ya hear cant ya hear that thunder?
You better run you better take cover.
I LOOOOOOOOOVE that song.
So today was boring as usual.
Bio: Scored a 96% on the test
Art: Gallery and start self portraits *gag*
Gym: Flicker/Basketball *Racken fraskinmyr brady rackn frackenNo good for nothin frakinf rakin*
English: 2book reports
Lunch: Kendra pulled my from the lunch line and m,ade me go with her to her house...but she bought me lunch...which was a blizzard...yeah
Orchestra: Playing test
German: Chapter test
Comp Liy: Sec 5
Geometry: Proof...boring and easy all rolled into one.
I have goit this crush on a guy who moved here from LO....OMG HIS ACCENT! ...what can i say?
DAMNIT! i burnt my grilled cheese *starts scraping the burnt off franticly*
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 20 September :: 6.09pm
It's funny how I find myself
In love with you
If I could buy my reasoning
I'd pay to lose
One half won't do
I've asked myself
How much do you
Commit yourself?
Yeah...feeeling of the day.....openness...i feel like telling people how i really feel them.But im not going to for fear of rejections and anger. Im a fearfull person.
Today:
Biology: 21-3 notes and finished worksheet.
Art: Finished still life and read chapter 6
Gym: SOCCER!!!!!! I was so happy...and was almost decapitated and only decapetated someone else.
English: Listened to 3 book reports..ithink or 2...hmmm...
Music: Sight read and work on homecomming peices. Show off my new cello ;)
German: Review for test
Comp. Lit.: Section 4 finish
Geometry: Proofs work...its so easy and boring.
So i joined Youth Symphony. Yes...michelle joined youth symphony...and i now have a private teacher i guess. So...yeah...
My cello/bow/case cost a couple thousand dollars. Yeah...so no more trips for michelle. Also no queen size bed...damn....but yeah..i have to play them back. So all money i get for my b-day and xmasgoes to my parents.
My mom is gone again...bah...tomarrow is club meetings and i need to mow the next door neighboors lawn so i have money for bunko. damn damn damn..i hope im not dead tomarrow cause i will need to hurry and spaz so yeah.
I want a bf. Im bored enough to say that...actually scratch that....i want to go bug josh.
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Jessika
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2004 16 September :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: buzzzzzzz
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR >_<
Yeah. I am actually doing something right now. It sucks. I should do the rest of my speech improv goddammit!!! >_
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 15 September :: 8.46pm
Hmmm....so monday was horrible and today is fine....ashley is comeing up as soon as the hurrican is over and my mom is comming home.
Thats about it.
Ive decided though to tell you of a secret world in which christie and i live in. But you cannot talk about it at school. Or at our gatherings. Its an ongoing story that links in ways that dont make sense.
Amazingly it started with me and Gena Kurcher and the whole im a witch thing. Well she wanted me to call Spike who would be a vampire. So i did.(..i played with things like spells and callings then...it was so stupid but so much fun...feeling like you sould control something. ) and yeah...everything went away..until in 8th grade Christie and i start talking and stuff and get on the subject of vampires. So she tells me that a guy saved her from Spike when she was sleeping over at Genas....well i hadent talked to her about it,or any one infact except gena. It was all kinda erie......So for the past 2 1/2 years we've occumulated an entire world full of magic and mystery. Shape shifters, hunters, vampires, witches, warlord...you name it we've created it in our world. But we traced back our family lines to find we are related....but...i mean like...all the way back to viking times. i was amazed...turns out our ancestors were sisters.So we just assume we are rencarnated sisters...its strange. But yeah so sam and damon are vampires in that world...so many people are dead...and so many in danger...that this world of ours tends to engulf us...
How we get the stories. I wake up some days with my window open, which was closed, and bruses on me. SO....thats how , we pull things from our dreams and peice things togather. But the weird thing is we both get therse dreams/ prem...and end up doing or seeing the same thing as in the dream. Or we know whats going to happen, like just walking around..and think that person is going to trip and they do.Plus lots of De'javou .
This may all seem so stupid but what can isay? My imagination has me trapped in a cage and it swalloed the key already.
Brandon,same,david,austin,damon,alex,brian,jeramy,leah,jaki,grim,goka,...so many other characters.....eh...am i insane?
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2004 12 September :: 7.23pm
:: Music: A song from labrynth
*shake angry fist*
So yeah..i havent updated in a while so here it goes....
Saturday:
Got up and called a few peeps...mis- communication still insued...as always. Then i went to HighWood and mowed the lawn...then came home for like 2 min's,time eough to do hair,makeup and put on my black boots. Then my dad drove me to West Kawanis. I met up with Nick,Jessika,Gwen,Kayleen and Ashley. My greeting ... WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN YOUR LATE!..Yeah like i told everyone. I WAS GOING TO BE LATE SORRY I CANNOT CONTROL THE WORLD. So then we walked to DQ which was closed, then to Fords...it was a good fatty lunch. After we walked down an ally and everyone freaked out....omg i wanted to hit some of them...ARG .....then we went to the Pawn shop...it was kinna boring...and after we went back to the park...I dunno the entire time someone was yelling at me, glaring or someone was upset or tired. I was kinna bummed out because yeah...i get together with friends to have a good time....it was just kindablah. But we dropped nicko at the park cause he had to work in a few mins then we wallked all the way to the holiday gas station(by sams) and back. Then we hung out on the grass at the part and watch the game/ talked and freaked and talked and were girls. It was ok...but i think it was in a way one of the worst get togethers..and i planned it...bah....
So at the end no one could give jessika a ride home so i did. And my dad freaked out at me cause i asked to be picked up at 4...but i called at 3:15.....and told them we would be at the park...so yeah...and my dad just made sure i understood how useless i am...
We got home and we all talked...i almost got myself grounded because i called my dad an asshole...i was just so frustrated and the like...and was tired of people yelling and being bitchy to me...
Roxan came over and we went to the game, but she left to go find rabb..then came back the 3rd quarter. But during the entire time i was flirting endlessly at the game..it was bad.
Walked home with niki, go here and went to sleep.
Sunday: Babysat, then walked down to James house with niki then back up to the mall adnw walked around, then walked to her house and then home and here i am..slightly upset about my dad...my mom is gone and my dad has become attila the hun...and now he thinks "fine" is a sarcastic answer...im going to cry sometime due to fatigue and emotional attacks from michael and my dad.
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 9 September :: 10.01pm
So today was bad...just bad...... Biology -test...but i was all bahish. Art- We had to pose and then be drawn....it sucked..i looked so fat in all of them....eh i was depressed all day... English- i was there for like 5 mins literally...then i went to a dental appointment...waited till like 11:20....then got my teeth done. They're extra clean...but i have 4 cavatives that are so small that the x-rays didnt pick them up so they can just be blown out. (he said its due to maturity)....but now i have a killer headach...and im starting to focus in and out... German- we got our books. Comp Literacy- Shopping for comps online. Geometry- End of chapter Angles.....and then i went home....and still have this massive headache.....bah....im going to shower and finish math homework then sleep.
I miss our get togethers...bah.
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 8 September :: 10.14pm
Meg:
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Muses:
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
Meg:
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
The story of my life.
So ive got a new crush on this fresh or soph...im not sure. He sits next to me in art and we both think alike.its cool.
So school was pretty uneventful. Biology -finished chapter 20. Art- Colaberate drawing. Gym- Push up test (i didnt get a chance to take). English- Pictures! For once in my life they didnt urge me to grin, so im hoping it turned out good! Um we took quiz and thats it. Orchestra- Oveture sightread..it was easy. German- Alphabet practice and fire drill practice. Computer Literacy- Windows Notes. Geometry- Angels...boring...easy..annoying.
I can do the twirl's for bisonets...im going to try and become manager. Yay me.
My mom and i arer going to make a bodice for me! YaY!
Im sick...DAMN YOU JESSIKA!
I have a crick in my neck.
My knee hurts...
And yet...i can keep my sunny disposition toward life alive and well.im cursed.
Kayleen is going to try and have a movie party friday night and the Saturdaynight there is a football game! YEAH!!!!....i like to scream.
I have a dental appointment tomarrow...damnitall!!!!!!!!!!Yeah...he'll clean my teeth and tell me how much i need braces and then how i cant get them till im 18...grr* Shake angry fist*
At least i'll only miss a part of english and lunch...prolly a peice of orchestra to but thats par for the corse.
I vote that if we cannot get together on friday at kayleens then we all meet up downtown or at the mall. I am going to try and go down to the farmers market on Saturday so yeah.
Im going to go away from ordinary for me...what color other then red should i color my hair? It needs to be colored...maybe just back to brown or whatever so what do you say????
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 7 September :: 10.24pm
In my head...
So today we ran the mile....i got 13:32. AND i wasnt last, a girl skinnier then i was last, and there was nothing wronge with her! Yes...so...but my knee gave out as i sprinted the last 1/16 of the mile...yeah it hurt....so now it is once again stiff and yeah. But im good...dead tired but good.
So tomarrow is pic. day...Yay!!!....ok no...but wah...so i need to pick what to waer...
Im ungrounded friday so i can go to the Saturday Night game! Yeah...i go to be loud and obnoxious...heeee...
Im going to beg my parents for a movie party on friday...but it prolly wont happen...pooh...
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DarkSwordDancer
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2004 6 September :: 9.52pm
Bittersweet Symphony
'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah,
No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now
No change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change
I can't change
'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
Try to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the things meet yeah
You know I can change, I can change
I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change my mold
no, no, no, no, no,
I can't change
Can't change my body,
no, no, no
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Have you ever been down?
Have you've ever been down?
So i watched the Secret Window last night,it was good. And i watch Hidalgo today..it was good.
Im perky....got 2 new pairs of shoes. 1 pair of black slight heel boots that go to my mid caf.And a pair of white tennies. CUTENESS!! Yes shopping is fun (jeans with pinkness and just jeans! and tinerbell shirt thats green)
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2004 6 September :: 12.50am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Poison - Something to Believe In
Whadya think?
The question of the night:
Should I dye my hair blonde?
So far the majority says yes. Sandra is willing to do it and add red highlights as well. It will be a pretty big jump, as my hair is currently a medium brown..I guess more on the dark side.
On another note: I made M&M cookies. And corn. It was a great combo. :-)
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2004 5 September :: 7.18pm
Yeah go figure ;)
Ive been lazy today...so sue me!!!!MWAHhahahahahahahaha!Woke up and talked to ashley, they maybe moving back here...and possibly out to the house in highwood. The i put the dvd player into my room and yeah...um then ive been helping jessikas account and yeah.
Im wearing a sweater and drinking coffee....yay!...I have a pressure headach and my knee hurts..still...i think i need to go to the doctor...
Im going to sew a bodic for wild wild west themed homecomming...yeah.it'll be fun.
Im in the reading mood any good book suggestions?
Yeah....oh im only grounded for 1 week now...ah.
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2004 4 September :: 6.29pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: idont wanna wait for our lives to be over.
Living life backwards.
So last night when i went to the game(GOD IM GONNA ARG!) we say ashley adn everyone and it was ffun..niki came with...so we stayed at the game then went to the dance afterwards. So like1/2 hour into the dance niki wants to know if we can walk home instead of getting picked up...she call my parents and we end up walking. She said they said we could leave around 11:20...so we do...turns out she wants to walk home with james livingston, he lives by the mall, so we are talking over by the industrial building and my phone rings,my dad yell at me telling me that we were 15 min late.So we start walking, and its now 11:30... JAMES AND NIKI ARE WALKING EXTREAMLY SLOW. So i ask then to walk a wee bit faster and they say nah, we arnt going to get in trouble dont worry....*he he heh heh*...so i start walking my normal pace and get to my block and yeah (during the time they were constantly 1 block away from me and i kept flipping them off because i was soo pissed at them) so im sitting under the light, and waiting for them to turn the corner of the block 1 block down....so yeah..she gets there...and then they hug for like 1 minute and its now 12:00. And im spazzing so finally im like niki move your ass. We get in and shes like, ill tell your mom its not your fault its mine. Guess who is grounded for 2 weeks?
ME.
Not niki but me. So no movie party, no games , no socializing after school. She placed aside my need to be home so she could hang all over james even though today she is seeing him again today. Thanks niki for being such a good friend, i now know who to turn to when i need a knife driven into my back.
Yeah so im slightly steamed.
Not to mention that this morning my dad and i got in this huge fight which ended in him telling me he was going to send me to a fat camp where i can go ahead and be degraded with other people like me. I just looked at him and said I dont need to go to fat camp to be degraded, your ding a bang up job. Then i walked into my room and for the 2nd time in my entire life actually sobbed in my room, not like aw you hurt my feelings,but more of when am i even alive sobbing, then i almost threw up...and i could stop crying as much as i tried...and it sucked....
Then i guess i screwed my knee over last night so i cannot fully extend it and spent the morning with a heat pad wrapped around it....now i can almost extend it completly.So yeah.
And now im home, and myparents are driving me up the wall.....and my eyes hurt from crying.
And yeah.....im regressing back to the way i was .....i dont want to though.
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2004 1 September :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: *sniffle*
:: Music: Sugarcult - Hate Every Beautiful Day
I hate sick.
The government today announced that it is changing its emblem
from an Eagle to a condom because it more accurately reflects the government's political stance.
A condom allows for inflation, halts production,destroys the
next generation, protects a bunch of pricks, and gives you
a sense of security while you're actually being screwed.
That made me laugh a lot.
I feel pretty shitty still. 5 days into the school year and I have already stayed home. It made me feel about 25% better, though. I HATE Geometry. I don't understand it so it sucks. I am pretty awesome at Algebra, but Geometry....I can see myself getting like a C. At least I can fail that but still go into Alg. 2 trig honors next year. My teachers pity people lioke me that can only stay in one branch of math.
I don't want to write my English paper. Topic: how justice is defeated by prejudice in To Kill a Mockingbird. Brady suggested using conscience as the basis, so it will be pretty simple. I just don't want to do it. Or my Geometry paper. Or the test on the book tomorrow. I want to do speech and drama and choir (once I can breathe again). That's it. Oh, and sleeping is good, too. ..I think I shall go do that.
Haahahaaaaaaaa..I was looking through past entries. I came across this response to Nick going all poetic on me:
How's this for poetic!??!?!
Cookies
Life is a cookie.
Warm, gooey;
Only, however, when fresh from the oven.
Crumbly when old.
Burn them and they also crumble.
Chocolate chips become obstacles in the oven that is life.
Haahaaaa. That totally rules you, Nick. You'd never believe it, but it only took me 30 seconds to think of, too :-D
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