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2004 29 February :: 9.47am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: switchfoot - we were meant to live
soo last night biancas mom picked me and amy up at my house and dropped me,amy, bianca,and christina off at 7-11. we had some guy to buy us beer but the 7-11 guy said that he knew it was for us so he wouldn't sell it to him, we were soo fucking mad. so finally amy found someone to get weed and we walked to KFC in oceanside and waited there. while we were waiting an undercover cop in a crown victoria with tinted windows that were rolled half up tells us that he's a taxi and asks us for a ride we were like nahh no thanks. umm i think he was trying to get us for prostitution - lol. soo amy gets the weed and shit and then we had no where to smoke it so we walked down lawson and everyone smoked. then we start walking towards wendys and we notice someone is following us and we got scared - HAHA even though it was only big black mike, lolz. sooo we get to wendys and were just chilling there and then biancas mom calls her and her and christina left. then amy called brian and we walked back to my house and yeah i tried to get eric over here,and then eddie and then kyle but none of it worked cause it was like 1 in the morning sooooo today im going to go with my mom to get my grandma to the doctor. should be fun times update later :)
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2004 28 February :: 11.34am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: a static lullaby- lipgloss and letdown
well, i called corey back to tell him i love him and no answer or answering machine - whatever i tried, but thats it. i'll update later tonight when i get home if i go out :-/
i think im gonna start deleting my friends because no one ever comments and it really sucks sooooo IF YOU DONT WANNA BE DELETED post a comment here. ALSO if you wanna be added i'll add you if you comment
<3 laterz
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2004 25 February :: 8.10am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: everyone smoking cigarettes outside yelling
i missed the bus,my mom is mad and drove me to school. i got to school 20 minutes before i ever would have. oh well, i'll update about the day when i get home, k?
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2004 23 February :: 2.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
well, its 2:31 on monday february 23rd and i would've been out of school - if i had went to school. i didn't go to school today because i felt like shit. my mom went to the doctor. ummm i hate a boca 'meatless' burger with barbeque sauce and it was good. lol very interesting right? i have like $100 i think im going to take my mom out to dinner..today maybe? idk. friday i went to the horse tracks with my mom,amy,and her boyfriend lonnie who is so nice. i bet on a horse (6) and i would've gotten 68 dollars if he won and he came in 2nd place. holy shit was i mad. i would've been up 78 dollars but he didn't win so i was only up 10 lol but i got to keep the 20 that lonnie used for the starting bets. saturday i hung out with sherri,amy,and brian and we drank and shit and then later at night lonnie took me and sherri to get bagels at 24 hour and ice cream at TCBY. it was fun times. well, thats all because sunday was a nothing day and today im sick so im not doing anything today and tomorrow is school. we have to wait until what, april for another vacation? lalala school is almost over. i might graduate half a year early because i am taking economics now instead of in 12th grade. well, i hope everyone is having a good day :)
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2004 22 February :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: shitty
:: Music: some shitty rap music
First best friend: samm and jaymes
First real memory of something: sleeping in laundry baskets with my cousin
First real kiss: my boyfriend in 7th grade
First Job: carvel
First screen name: actingbug1
First self purchased album: spice girls i think
First funeral: my great aunt frans
First pets: dog- casper
First piercing/tattoo: my ears
First true love: tomm
First enemy: jessica ragusta
First big trip: florida
First play/musical/performance: i was in project rescue in 3rd grade
First musician you remember hearing in your house: billy joel prob.
Last cigarette: last night
Last big car ride: when i drove to florida
Last kiss: a while ago
Last good cry: ummm when when jack died
Last library book checked out: i dont remember
Last movie seen: ummm save the last dance?
Last beverage drank: snapple?
Last food consumed: mint chocolate chip ice cream
Last crush: him<3
Last phone call: my mom
Last tv show watched: i dont know?
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: my silver and white etnies
Last item bought: i dont remember
Last disappointment: OD not calling me last night :(
Last soda drank: last night?
Last ice cream eaten: today :)
Last shirt worn: my koRn 'still a fuckin freak' one
Here's a New 1 ...
[name ]: Marissa Leigh Fein
[ nicknames ]: riss,riss-ma,rissa,mariss,rissy,lil pissa,shrimp,marizzle
[ born in ]: oceanside
[ resides in ]: east rockaway
[ good student ]: pretty good
[ eyes ]: hazely
[ hair ]: brown with blonde highlights
[ shoe size ]: 7-8 somewhere in that range
Last time you...
[ had a nightmare ]: i dont remember
[ said "i love you" and meant it ]: today
[ ate at mcdonald's ]: in wantagh a couple of weeks ago
[ dyed your hair ]: umm like 7 months ago
[ brushed your hair ]: last night
[ Washed your hair ]: when i took a shower
[ checked your e-mail ]: today
[ cried ]: a couple of days ago
[called someone ]: last night at like 10
[ smiled ]: right now
[ laughed ]: 1 second ago
Do you...
[ do drugs? ]: not anymore
[ sleep with stuffed animals? ]: i sleep with my pug and my yorkie that OD gave me
[ have a dream that keeps coming back? ]: yeah...when i was like 5
[ play an instrument? ]: i used to be able to play violin and clarinet but not anymore
[ believe there is life on other planets? ]: yes
[ read the newspaper? ]: sometimes i do
[ consider love a mistake? ]: depending
[ like the taste of alcohol? ]: yeahh pretty much :)
[ believe in god? ]: nahh
[ pray? ]: nuh uh
[ go to church? ]: im jewish...
[ have any secrets? ]: tons
[ have any pets? ]: my cat dusty
[ talk to strangers who instant message you? ]: yupp
[ wear hats? ]: yeah
[ have any piercings? ]: in my ears
[ have any tattoos? ]: nahh
[ hate yourself? ]: yes
[ have an obsession? ]: haha yeahh
[ have a secret crush? ]: yuppsss
[ collect anything? ]: shot glasses
[ have a best friend? ]: yeah, i love you all so much<3
[ like your handwriting? ]: ehhh sorta its like a combination of print and script
[ have any bad habits? ]: yupp
[ care about looks? ]: alittle
[ boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: nah
[ friends and other people? ]: nah not at all
[ believe in witches? ]: yup
[ believe in satan? ]: nope
[ believe in ghosts? ]: yes i do
Current...
[ dress ]: pajama pants from my bat mitzvah and a koRn shirt
[ mood ]: pissed
[ make-up ]: none
[ music ]: some shitty rap music
[ taste ]: nothing
[ hair ]: straight and down
[ annoyance ]: fake people and shit
[ smell ]: nothing
[ thought ]: emohogotuoytnawi
[ fingernail color ]: nothing right now
[ refreshment ]: none at the moment
[ worry ]: nothing
[ crush ]: why do you care?
Last person...
[ you touched ]: my mom
[ you talked to ]: sherri
[ you hugged ]: uh i dont remember
[ you Instant messaged ]: chris
[ you yelled at ]: my mom
[ who broke your heart ]: ...
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2004 22 February :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: tired/shitty
:: Music: nothingface
im updating now but i have nothing to write about. basically everything was written yesterday when i was drunk..HAHA. umm i'll update tomorrow about sunday and monday at school.
laterloverz<3
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2004 21 February :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: maroon5- this love
im drunk, i got bagels and ice cream. i asked the guy if i was slurring my word...LOL it was fucking funny as hell, i dont know what else to write so thats it. aright? i'll talk to you later
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2004 20 February :: 11.54am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris
quiz..im alil bored
Name: Marissa
Nicknames: rissa,riss,mariss,riss-ma,marizzle,shrimpy,lil pissa
Screen name: m3ntalshorty,maj0rd0rkage
Sex: Female
Birthday: 11/16/88
Height: 4'10"
Hair color: dark brown with blonde highlights
Is your hair long or short: long
Eye Color: hazel
City born in: oceanside, NY
Location now: east rockaway, NY
Siblings: 2 sisters...nikki(8) alexis(6)
Parents married/divorced: divorced
Who are your closest friends: samm,jaymes,amy
Who makes you laugh the most?: joshy lyons
Who knows the most about you?: samm and jaymes
+++WHO WAS YOUR CRUSH IN...+++
Kindergarten: shane
1st Grade: kenny
2nd Grade:
3rd Grade: billy/bryan
4th Grade: billy/bryan
5th Grade: david
6th Grade: david
7th Grade: matt/bacci
8th Grade: john/tomm/joey
9th Grade: emilio *ew*
10th grade: richie
11th grade: ---
12th grade: ---
Boy/girlfriend status: single and wanting him <3
+++OTHER STUFF ABOUT ME+++
Do you have a job: i used to
What are you scared of: being alone forever
Who's your role model: my mom
Most interesting thing you've done this summer: drank too much alcohol
What store do you shop at the most: pac sun,h & m
Are you a ditz: haha sometimes
+++FAVORITES+++
Day of the week: saturday
Thing in your room: my bed
Cousin: jamie and lauren
CD: korn(issues),pantera,killswitch engage
Song(s): maroon5 (this love)
Animal: dogs,horses,cats
Ice Cream: box of chocolates,chocolate and peanut butter
Alcholic Drink:mikes,long island ice tea,sky vodka and cranberry juice
Thing to do: play soccer,tennis,dance,acting,singing
Movies: jack,schindlers list,october sky,gothika
Hangout: my house
Favorite pizza topping: i like buffalo pizza so - buffalo chicken
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: college
If you could live anywhere: san fransisco<3
Dream house: anywhere but ehre
What age do you want to get married: around 25 if possible
How many kids do you want: 1 or 2 so i can spoil them
Girl's names: shoshanna (nice and jewish..lol),savannah,cheyenne
Boy's names: jacob
+++HAVE YOU EVER...+++
Been in love?: yes
Lied?: Yes
Cheated on a test?: Yes
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: once and i felt really guilty
Tied your shoes together?: no
Eaten something with a lot of fat?: yeah, plenty of things
+++FEELINGS SIDE+++
Worst Feeling in the world: being alone,being hurt
Best feeling in the world: being with someone you love
Can you define love? no, you can define real love
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Are you ticklish?: hahaha,yes.
+++OPPOSITE SEX+++
1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes,and smile
Perfect "dream" date: dinner and then cuddling on the couch
What do you look for in the opposite sex: personality
What does the opposite sex not know about you: cuddling is better than any sexual thing
+++NIGHTIE NIGHT+++
What do you wear to bed: pants and a shirt
What's your bed time: anytime i want
Do you wish on stars: i try
Is there a TV in your room: nope
What's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: nothing really
How many schools have you been to: 8 different schools
Are you passive or aggressive: more passive
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Would you rather be hot or cold: cold
What is your curfew: about 3?
+++FRIENDS+++
Person you can trust the most: samm/jaymes
What is the best quality of a friend: honesty,trust,caring
What friend do you have the most fun with: everyone :)
Name your friends: samm,amy,scutch,jenn,vix,lauryn,maris,jess,krys,chris,selma,sarah,leigh,cassidy,sherri,jen,jaymie,jaymes,tim josh,larry,liam,sal,nick,and so many other people that i really don't feel like writing down ...BLEHHH
+++SILLY STUFF+++
Do you glow in the dark: uhh nope
Do you posses magical abilities: sure why not
Do you keep your underwear and socks in the same drawer: yes
Can you name all 4 Teletubbies:lala,dipsy,what asre the others?
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: mostly everything
Have you ever tried to kill yourself: never tried but i've thought about it
Do you know anyone who SERIOUSLY wanted to kill themselves?: eddie commited suicide.......
What are you addicted to?: my cell phone?
Do you like jewelry?: ehh alil
Do you wear a watch?: nah, never
Do you believe in God?: no
Do you believe in love at first sight?: nahhh
What are your favorite tv show(s)?: everwood,7th heaven,friends
What color tooth brush do you use?: i dont rememeber
Is the glass half empty or half full: emptyyyy
Are you listening to any of your CDs at the moment:no, but im listening to splash waterfalls
my mom's bringing pizza home, but sherri probably can't come over this weekend and now im fucking mad as hell.
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2004 20 February :: 11.19am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris
im listening to splash waterfalls by ludacris and SHIT this song gets me fucking horny...heh.
well, the days have been alright. i have a pack of cigarettes and only smoked one when i was stressed and aggravated and yeahhh so thats good. cigarettes are not a daily thing for me anymore, there more like a stress reliever, just like alcohol was to me.
today:friday, i dont know whats going on today hopefully something but its ok if nothing happens, lol. sherri is coming over today and we might go to the witches brew with her and her friend crystal and her friend. well see what happens tonight and if anything else is going on. OH WELL.
saturday sherri,amy,and brian are going to be here and were going to drink and shit and amy and brian are going to smoke. thats really it. this vacation is over and i honestly cannot believe it. it didn't really go fast but still i can't believe that its already over, shit.
iheartodandrichie<3`
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2004 16 February :: 9.59am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: nothingface
last night was fun. we went to drop my sisters off at my dads girlfriends house and then we went to wantagh to pick sherri up. after that amy,sherri,and i went to the witches brew and had some espresso and DAMN that shit was good and it made me pee so fuckin badly, haha. we hung around there and called some people to see who we could hang out with. we wanted to hang out with roberto but he was tired and he had to go to work at 3 so he said no.
i saw yoni and he was staring at me and kept talking to his friend about me and it was getting me really mad and everything. i wanted to fuckin punch him in the face.
so we get in the car with my mom and we drive to the wantagh bowling alley and we were waiting till 9:30 for allison,dave,and sam to come and it was like only 8:30 so we walked to wendys and then hung around in there and then went back to the bowling alley then met up with the people and they played a game and then we went back to allisons house. OK? yea.
i<3richieandod
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2004 15 February :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: hoobastank
well, i have nothing to write here besides the fact that i changed the look of my journal around :) i got a new background,cursor, and perdy colors and all that shizzle. well, i hope that you like it so leave comments about the sexy changes to my sexy journal.
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2004 15 February :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: hoobastank
which groupmember are you?
well, last night i went to sportime in bethpage to this wrestling thing with amy, my mom,my sisters,her friend,and the kid he mentors. it was pretty fun. one wrestler before he went on came into the audience stood on the bleacher right next to me and was spitting beer all over the place. UGH i got it on my jacket and all in my hair. ew i reeked of budweiser and my hair got fucked up. blah oh well. today i dont know exactly what im doing but all i know is that tonight sherri is coming over and hopefully we're going to go to the witches brew and yeah. february 20th i want to go to the glen cove bowling alley and hopefully i will be able to.
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2004 13 February :: 9.21am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nice to meet ya ma-bow wow
well, im in school and bored as fuck. my first period teacher isn't here and only me and one other person was in my 2nd period class so were not doing anything. well, hopefully today goes pretty quick. its the last day of school before vacation!
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2004 12 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: led zepplin
|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie
|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination
|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against
|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost
|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies
|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done
|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH
|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!
|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk
|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally
|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)
|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.
|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie
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Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...
|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche
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