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2004 12 February :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: maroon5
valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/
well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..
school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.
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2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year
well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.
one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...
im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh
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2004 10 February :: 7.30pm
:: Mood: pissy
:: Music: None
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Justins a fucking bastard. He called me a newb twice on Furc and booted me out of the chatroom. Fuck him >_<
Mako: You can't generalize against someone by the way they talk -- that, dear, is geing a noob. No one else was around, and you summoned me -- I didn't come to that pathetic dream. F yourself.
Mako: Geing? Being.*
[ And just for the record, I summoned you because I was bored, and the dream is far from pathetic. We dont like people talking like noobs because noobs are immature and stupid, and I know your not either. So just lay off the noob act, please? ]
Mako: I'll act how I please, do not attempt to change me because neither of your simple-minded asses can't be mature, and handle it.
[ Then dont fucking come back, because neither of us are simple minded. We asked you a small favour because you were acting stupid. ]
Mako: Favor* Simple-minded*
[ ..Sorry that I didnt put a dash inbetween words. No one is perfect like you, dear. ]
That was fifteen minutes ago. He still hasnt answered me because hes an ass. I hope he burns in hell- thats where he belongs.
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2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
school today was...
fine.
ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.
bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled
when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.
iheartrichie<3
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2004 5 February :: 10.27am
can you tell i was bored like whoa??
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2004 5 February :: 6.26am
:: Mood: sick as hell
:: Music: anal cunt
holy shit i feel sick :-/
omgggg i feel fucking sick as hell and i cant go to school otherwise i will SERIOUSLY die. omg i will kill myself i feel so sick. shit, i hope they don't kick me out for 30 days while im on this education probation :-/ ahh fuck it they wont, all the teachers are like in love with me - haha. :)
sooo yesterday was not a bad day.
busride to bocessat by myself because nikki wasn't on the bus.
busride to pacesat next to matt and listened to the 'fuck me,make love to me' song by uhh ludacris? haha its soo funny!!!
1st period-BBAdid some excel shit, and just chilled around on the computers ...
2nd period-SSdid some worksheet with ciara and the other new girl and then did another 3 worksheets on my own
3rd period-healthwowww fun ass class, haha theres about 17 kids in this class and its like a regular class and mr. reiss is the teacher and so far its a fun class considering i've already finished taking high school health..HMMMMMMMM.
4th period-englishworked on questions after reading a 3 page version of julius caesar yesterday in class, i sat next to eric and he's really really nice.
5th period-mathwent to mrs. neumans and worked on assignment 3 of which i did wrong, SHIT.
6th period-lunchate a bagel with paul and then nikki,kerry,and eric came in and ate. i always just sit around with connie or sit in the 'health,intro to occ,art room' because thats our 'cafeteria' lol. i don't want to go outside because i know i will smoke a cigarette and i really dont want to but oh well if it happens it happens..right?
7th periodearth science, my teacher, scott, is really nice and we worked on a lab
8th period-intro to occmy teacher (jonny b) is nice but old and annoying. we worked on some sheet and i met denise who is from glen cove and is supposedly really good friends with colin- oh gd...
9th period-economicsi talked to denise alittle more and she's really nice the we did some worksheet and then mr. reiss came in and we talked about how denise was from amsterdam and she smoked a lot of pot there..haha funny ass shit.
busride to bocessat with matt again and jamie wanted to fight im not sure who?
busride to erockhe got on the bus and my heart like fuckin melted<3
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2004 3 February :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: dj sammy
borderline
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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the sad part is..this kinda describes me :-/
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2004 3 February :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: the krystal method
well, yesterday i started pace. it's pretty cool. we get like no homework and we do no work in class either- haha. when i walked into the school the smell of pot just fucking enveloped me, haha it was soo fuckin funny. i met a bunch of nice people-nikki,cammy, eddie,alex,nikki,amy,matt,kendall,cjizzle(haha),scott and just a bunch of other people
oh yeah and then theres ciara and andrew. school is fun, its like one big happy family and the school is tiny as hell. blah i could see myself having a lot of fun in this school.
2.2.o4- sammsta's 16th birthday!!!
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2004 1 February :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: talking to corey on the phone
ah so last night sucked because i didn't get drunk...HAHA. im such a loser. well, im on the phone with corey and then at like a quarter after eight were bringing my sisters back home. after we do that my mom is taking me to kohls and were gonna get a shirt for me to wear tomorrow at my first day at pace. rawr im soo nervous :X ahhh. yeahhhhhhh.
ok so last night amy came over and she had bought handcuffs from CVS and jokingly she handcuffed herself to the chair and got herself stuck so we called my moms boyfriend and he came over to help us get her out. sooo after that brian and nick came over and just hung around and shit and then they wanted weed so they called someone and they brought it. 5 minutes after the car left greg calls me and told me that he was in that car and he was in front of my house and i asked him why he didn't just tell me to come outside. oh well. yesterday was my last day of being grounded so im really excited that next week i get to go out, YAYYYYY!
...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *
iheartodandrichie<3
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2004 31 January :: 11.33am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: from the game skateboard park tycoon
haha last night is why i love samm,jenn,and scutch. last night casey dropped off some of that infamous drink for us and we drank and lala and got drunk and stuff. haha then while were sitting on the computer samm's cell phone rings and guess who it was? JEN DEGRASSI! lmfao, the fat bitch actually had the nerve to call jennCO ugly. omggg bitch. haha so we were piss drunk and barely had a clue what she was saying so YEAH! lol. well, today i have no clue what im doing. richie came and picked sammster,jco,and scutchy at around 3:15am well, its all good.
tonight i have to go to my sisters 50 dance or something, its gonna suck big fat monkey balls. IF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHING AFTER CALL MY CELL PLEASE!!!!
i.heart.od.and.richie.<3
...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *
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2004 30 January :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: ozzy osbourne
samm and jenn are here, great, and were really bored...FUCK!
to cure my boredness
name: Marissa Leigh
piercing: ears, but i want my eyebrow
height: 4'10" baby and proud
shoe size: 7.5/8?
hair color: brown with blonde highlights
last...
movie you watched: willard
movie you bought: save the last dance
song that was stuck in your head: me myself and i, beyonce (I DONT KNOW WHY!)
CD you bought: killswitch engage?
person you've called: sammi
person that's called you: jenn
tv show you've watched: friends
person you were thinking of: him<3
do...
you have a bf or gf: nah
you have a crush on someone: yes, a huge one...
you wish you could live somewhere else: anywhere but here...
you think about suicide: Sometimes...
others find you attractive: maybe, idk?
you want more piercing: yeahhhh my eyebrow
you want more tattoos: yucky
you like cleaning: i wish i was a neat freak but haha if you've ever seen my room i think you could answer that yourself- NO
you like roller coasters: ahh, too scary
you write in cursive or print: a mixture
you carry a donor card: uh no..
long distance relationships: no
using someone: i would never, i know how it feels to be used....FOR HEAD
suicide: i would never have the guts
killing people: never. but i feel like it sometimes
teenage smoking: bad.
premarital sex: if your in love with the person
driving drunk: never...i lost a friend to that :(
gay/lesbian relationships: just not in front of me
abortion: depends but basically no
favorite...
food: mmm caesar salad
thing to do: dance
thing to talk about: alcohol
sports: tennis, is dancing a sport? lol
color: black,red,hot pink
drinks: mikes hard lemonades,chocolate milk
clothes: sweatshirts and tight jeans
book: oohh old boyfriends,mothers blessing
holiday: channukah :)
car: ummm caddy escalade,honda civic or accord,lincoln navigator
have you...
ever cried over a girl or boy: yeah, once or twice
ever lied to someone: yeah i have, a lot
ever been in a fist fight: yeah
ever been arrested: almost
what...
shampoo do you use: herbal essences
perfume/cologne do you use: NONEEEEE
shoes do you wear: etnies,vans,nikes,adidas
are you scared of: heights,spiders,blahh any bug
number...
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: about 10 maybe alil more
of people I consider my enemies?: a lot of people
of things in my past that I regret?: wow, so many things. 1=ecstacy 2=starting to drink
...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *
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2004 30 January :: 9.01am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: creed
yuck
im feeling better,but im so tired and drained.
OH WELL
anyway im going in for my earth science midterm and then going to lunch for an hour and then i have my math midterm. ugh im gonna fail so miserably probably. this SUCKS.
rawrrr i<3richieandod
...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *
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2004 30 January :: 12.09am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: soundtrack to mama mia
well, im going to make this short because im fucking depressed as hell. so sum shit up:
I FUCKING HATE MOST GUYS
im on the phone with richie and he makes me feel soo much better, ah i love him <3
xo
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2004 29 January :: 10.20am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: disturbed
ok, well im back from the italian midterm and to my surprise it was easier and i did better (i think) than i thought i would. i thought i would fail miserably and leave about 20 questions blank because in regular class i'd have a test handed to me, look over it and two seconds later hand it back with just my name on,completely empty because it was too hard. well, the midterm was nothing like that. of course it was nothing short of difficult BUT honestly it was nothing like I thought that it would be. im actually proud of myself for once! it was funny though, in the middle of the test my teacher comes up to me and goes, 'marissa you know you have extra time,right?' and i was like, 'no' lol, oh well i feel special and not stupid because i don't get extra time on anything else. OH WELL. hehehehe :)
well, when i got home i made myself a bagel and then got a phone call from amy. i talked on the phone with her and while she was in the halls before taking her midterm. she was nervous JUST LIKE ME about taking it. aw i hope you do well my love<3
anywayyyyys amy is coming over after she takes her midterm and i am dirty as hell and my hair looks like shit so i MUST go in the shower before she comes. ahhhh tomorrow is my freaking earth science midterm and my math midterm and im pretty scared for those too only because idk i just am. lol, i was student of the month in earth science in november and in math november and december. i feel so special, hehe.
well, tootles dahlings :)
odandrichie<3
he knows he could have my heart if he wanted to but still he refuses *
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