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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 April :: 12.32pm
:: Mood: loserish
:: Music: eh, nothing.

i cant believe myself!
i can't believe that i actually forgot to tell everyone that i picked up daniellie too when i picked up leigh! aww i looove her

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 April :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: the ramones

not a bad night
soo last night i went to fridays to dinner with my mom and then she took me to sherri's and sherris dad took me,sherri,and doug to the club. we stood out in the rain for like 5 minutes and my hair got SO MESSED UP! well, we got in the club and guess who i saw? emilio! lol, he ignored me and i got really really pissed. THEN i saw sam who i haven't seen in a longgg ass time because she went to kellenberg :-/ aww. i also saw some girl who i go to school with. then when i was standing on a speaker some kid tapped me on the shoulder and was like 'my friends wants to dance with you' and i was like 'nahh' and they were really annoying! ughhh. then they opened the VIP room and it was really cool. they had a hot tub filled with pillows and me doug and sherri sat in there. we started getting bored so we left and walked to the gas station where i proceded to call [brian & rich and leave derek a message]. the guy started staring at us so we walked over to some closed nail place and stood there. i called [matt] because i was bored. my mom came and picked us up and while we were going to drop sherri & doug off derek<3 called me back. we talked for a while. after i dropped sherri & doug off we picked up leigh and i hung out with her. now im with leigh and we are going to get ready and then wait for rob & tom.

i<3dereksofreakingmuch!

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 April :: 9.23am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: fallout boy

im not a sexual person after all!
HASH(0x8aa5790)
My outercourse activity is snuggling!


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exactly, i'd rather cuddle than anything

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 April :: 2.46pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: bleeding through

just when i thought he couldn't get more amazing
he surprises me...YET AGAIN.

x silver skullz: well, thats just the way i feel...idk i feel so unsuperior
x silver skullz: like a piece of shit
dmbmustang8766: inferior?
dmbmustang8766: dont feel that way
dmbmustang8766: cuz ur not
x silver skullz: well, i do
dmbmustang8766: u shuldnt
x silver skullz: i dont know why i do
dmbmustang8766: :-\
x silver skullz: your just amazing, you really are
dmbmustang8766: aww
dmbmustang8766: im really not though
x silver skullz: more than any guy i've ever met...
x silver skullz: no you really are
dmbmustang8766: :-\
x silver skullz: i mean please, i've gone out with SO MANY guys and none of them have EVER asked to kiss me
x silver skullz: your just...amazing, really.
dmbmustang8766: egh, i just didnt wana get slapped or somethin
dmbmustang8766: i dont think so, but thanx
x silver skullz: whatever, thats what i think
dmbmustang8766: u still shuldnt feel that way though
x silver skullz: but i do, and i was just scared that you were never going to talk to me again
x silver skullz: or hang out with me for that matter
dmbmustang8766: no,
dmbmustang8766: actually
dmbmustang8766: i was worried bout u on the train
dmbmustang8766: cuz u didnt come online
dmbmustang8766: n u didnt cal bak
x silver skullz: and to be completely honest i like you ... a lot
dmbmustang8766: <3
x silver skullz: :-[
dmbmustang8766: aw
x silver skullz: :-'
x silver skullz: *:-\
dmbmustang8766: dont make that face lol, i <3 u
x silver skullz: and honestly, i know its not what you want right now but i could picture myself being with no one but you.
dmbmustang8766: awwww
x silver skullz: :-X
dmbmustang8766: awww. nonono i like u. . . hunn i rele gota get off though, il def ttu 2moro
dmbmustang8766: 2moro
dmbmustang8766: i mean later
dmbmustang8766: lol
dmbmustang8766: <333 mwaaa ilu
x silver skullz: ok ttyl xo mwa <3

...he is the most amazing thing in the world

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 April :: 11.30am

bored, going out tonight
well alcohol
You're addicted to.....

Alcohol!
Mmmmmmm, Mmmmmm, Bitch! I like you, alcohol is one
of the better things to be addicted to. The
only bad part is it makes you feel like doing
nothing and the next morning you get a terrible
hangover.


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this is for my boredom.

->im going to sherris around 7 and her dad is driving us to the club (2686) kim is asking her boyfriend if he wants to go. i miss her and i wanna see her!!! well, my mom is picking me up around 11:30. next weekend maybe i'll hang out and drink with brian and a couple of people and i might hang out with derek (aw i <3 him) well, i dont know what else to write because there is nothing. hopefully i'll convince my mom to take me shopping to buy a shirt for tonight because i dont have one to wear. im gonna ask brian to come to the club tonight and my mom will give him a ride home. well, bye bye kiddies :)

[[iheartderekwithallofmyheart<3]]

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 April :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown

quiz cause im bored..what now?
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Marissa Leigh
Birthplace ::: Oceanside, NY
Age ::: 15
Age you act ::: pretty old, not really sure
Current location ::: East 'Cock'away, NY
Eye color ::: hazely
Hair color ::: broawn with blonde highlights
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: scorpio
Height? ::: 4'11"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Russian
Your hair ::: long and straight
Your fears ::: spiders and heights
Your perfect room ::: red walls,lots of leopard and band posters
What you practically do in a day ::: go to school,eat,online,phone
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: aww,lol
Phrases you overuse ::: fuck you
Your first thought when you wake up ::: grrr i have to get through this day
Your greatest accomplishment ::: who knows?
Something you want to do ::: be with him <3
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: coke
McDonald's or Burger King ::: mcdonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: christina aguilera
Chocolate or vanilla :: chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas
Black or white ::: black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills - DUH
Burgers or hot dogs ::: burgers
Egypt or France ::: hmm france
Rock or rap ::: rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: used to - haven't had a cigg in like a month!
Cuss ::: yupps
Sing well ::: eh
Sing in the shower ::: yeah *blush*
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: hmm mayyybe
Believe in yourself ::: not usually
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: when im bored, yeah
Play an instrument ::: none, i used to play clarinet
Want to go to college? ::: yes i do
Want to get married? ::: yeah
Want to have children ::: i wanna adopt
Think you're a health freak? ::: not at all
Get along with your parents ::: my mom most of the time
Get along with your siblings? ::: nahh
Think you're popular ::: no, im not nor do i want to be
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: mmm no
Drank alchohol ::: yes
Smoke ::: no but i wish :(
Get high ::: nah
Done any drugs ::: nopeeeee
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: never have
Been on stage ::: nope
Gone skinny dipping ::: nah
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: not in the past month
Stolen anything ::: nope
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: scutch
Loudest ::: jenn
Most shy ::: lauryn
Blondest ::: .. sammi
Smartest ::: jaymes
Kindest ::: timmy
Best personality ::: thats gotta be krystyn
Most talented ::: jenn - DEFF
Best singer ::: jenn, haha
Most ghetto ::: christal/jaymes
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: paris
Pain in the ass ::: grrrr andrew
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: lol deff leslie
Funniest ::: jessyca
Best person for advice ::: sherri,sammi
Dependable ::: jaymes,tim,sal
Trustworthy ::: jaymes
Druggie ::: josh
Most likely to end up in jail ::: josh
Person you've known the longest ::: sammi/jaymes
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i dont remember
Last nightmare ::: .. i dont know
Car ride ::: to the rockville center train station
Last time you cried ::: yesterday, when i banged my head on the wall
Last movie seen ::: the whole 10 yards
Last movie rented ::: bring it on....AGAIN
Last book read ::: Frank McCourt
Last word said ::: shut up
Last curse word said ::: fuck
Last time you laughed ::: friday with derek
Last phone call ::: my mom
Last CD played ::: switchfoot
Last song you listened to ::: idk number 5 on the switchfoot CD
Last annoyance ::: haha my sister
Last IM ::: Roberto
Last weird encounter ::: umm idk
Last person you hugged ::: derek <3
Last person you yelled at ::: my sister
Last time you wore a skirt ::: ummm i dont remember
Last time you've been evil ::: always
Sarcastic? ::: ummm i am sarcastic all the time
Last time you fought with your parents ::: today
Last time you wished upon a star ::: i dont ever anymore
Played Truth or Dare ::: in like 6th grade?
Spent quality time alone ::: right now
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: ehh sometimes
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: no, its pathetic and ridiculous
How about egging someone's house ::: nahh, stupid.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: ah, im scared- what?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: nope...
Yo Momma ::: STOP IT BITCH!
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: ummm not really
What do you think of George Bush? ::: asshole.
Any secret fetishes? ::: yupp ;)
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: hehe..maybe
How many languages do you speak? ::: uh 1!
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: nahh
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: darn :-/ lol jp

i was bored. i might go visit my grandma today but im not sure. i wanna go shopping. i wanna go to the club tomorrow but im not sure if im going to be allowed to. shit, i fucking hate easter because i have nothing to do because im jewish ahh oh well.

derekisasexyfuckingmofo<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 April :: 9.45am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: lamb of gd

im so nice!
well, i decided that since im so nice if anyone needs me to pay the $2 so that they can keep their journal i will - if you've been nice to me and you continue to comment :) i figured i have 10 spare dollars so i have to pay for myself and thats 8 so that leaves me with money enough to pay for 4 people.

->comment if you would like me to pay for you :)

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 April :: 3.45pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: unearth

wow, im a loser this is my 3rd time updating today :-X ahh its ok, i hope that you all are enjoying these journal entries. (im bored):

i follow the crowd @ woohu.com
I do it because it's cool


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I scored a 76% on the "how sexual are you" Quizie! What about you?

i took all the sex quizzes, lol :) iheartderek<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 April :: 11.07am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: nothingface

pictures
this is me...






and now - derek <3...





...and now thanks to tiffany [ www.woohu.com/~cherries ] i know how to put pictures in my journal!!!

now all i have to do is send in my $2 to andy!

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 April :: 7.54am
:: Mood: rejuvenated
:: Music: something corporate- konstantine

amazing day <3
omgggg yesterday was an amazing day. i went to get my nails done because i was seeing derek but i ended bumping up into some girl and my one nail got really fucked up. oh well, i took the 6:44 train bellmore and met up with derek and got a hug :) then we walked to the movie theater and bought 2 tickets to i think the movie was called the whole 10 yards maybe? lol. after we bought the tickets we had like 20 minutes so we went to see some car that i personally didn't like but derek did because it was a stick. yuckkkk. we went in to see the movie and i coulda sworn that he didn't like me cause it seemed like he didn't wanna touch me or whatnot. BUT during the movie our arms were pretty much on top of eachother. during the movie brian bleeped me so after the movie i called him back and he wanted to know what i was doing and i told him that i was in bellmore and wouldn't be back into oceanside/east rockaway till sometime after 11. sooo after the movie we walked around and then ended up in the train station parking lot looking at cars and derek goes to me 'would you be mad if i kissed you?' and i said 'yeah, cause i have something in my mouth' and he said 'spit it out' and i did and then he kissed me :-D. after that we ended up holding hands and walking. then we ended up hanging around on the benches by the train station looking at the passing cars and saw an unmarked cop car :-O well, when it was time for me to get my train we hugged and i didn't want to leave him :( but he is damn well close to perfect.

iheartdereksofuknmuch<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 9 April :: 9.38am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: marilyn manson - the beautiful people

hopefully a good day
i just wanna tell everyone how incredibly amazing the antique store was. i have never seen such cool stuff! blahh im talking to christian and he's yelling at me for nothing again. LMFAO :) it's actually funny when he gets mad at me. but anyways - derek says we're hanging out around 7 or so today, i hope we actually do because i need someone to calm me down and also to get me out of this piece of shit town, hey that rhymes - haha. well, im bored - very and i need to take a shower so im going to listen to some music and talk to some people (like the new journal by the way?) i'll be changing it to a cool leopard looking background because now im obsessed with leopard due to the bench thingy i got yesterday. i decided my room is going to be painted red and all my other stuff is going to be leopard. it's going to look SOOOO cool :)

guy's are confusing :-/

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 8 April :: 7.32pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: switchfoot

i just came back from furniture shopping. we went to some antique store that was going out of business. they had the most AMAZING stuff!

-a leopard velveteen bench
-a cool as hell chair from the 50's
-2 horsey things (that are cool!)
-6 shotglasses in a holder
-a lamp

i love antique/thrift shops

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[(i was bored)]

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 8 April :: 11.45am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: judas priest

i love my joshy :)
i love my bestest friend joshua liam lyons!!!

happy birthday sweetie we love you more than life *happy 16th* hunni bunches of oats

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 7 April :: 10.21am
:: Mood: mad
:: Music: finch- what it is to burn

what the hell?
i just wrote a HUGE entry and woohu deleted almost everything i wrote :(

-matt is coming over today
-i went to sweet hollow rd. and mt. misery last night (didn't see anything interesting)
-eddie is giving me a 10 inch dildo..lol
-sherri came over
-i got coldstone (birthday remix)
-tried to get eddie or roberto to take us back to mt. misery/sweet hollow rd, no go :-/

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