A Little Ground Covering Me
Shallow grave man. Haven't listened to this cd in awhile hmm. Gonna listen to the Allman Brothers later thanks to a suggestion from Julia. She could tell me that jumping off a mountain was exilerating and I would think about doing it. The sweetness will not be conserned with me.
inspirejulia: hey
DODDLEDAY: hi

inspirejulia: whats up?
DODDLEDAY: updating my livejournal
DODDLEDAY: you?

inspirejulia: same
inspirejulia: haha
inspirejulia: listening to allman brothers
inspirejulia: do you like them?
DODDLEDAY: yeah!

inspirejulia: awesome!
DODDLEDAY: I have live at filmore east

inspirejulia: sweet
DODDLEDAY: yeah its awesome

inspirejulia: cool
inspirejulia: have you heard their song mountain jam?
DODDLEDAY: yeah
inspirejulia: i love that song
DODDLEDAY: me to
DODDLEDAY: finally finished updating my livejournal

inspirejulia: cool
inspirejulia: i've been updating for over an hour and keep thinking of more to say
DODDLEDAY: i do that sometimes

DODDLEDAY: you like phish right?
inspirejulia: yep
inspirejulia: love them
DODDLEDAY: do you have lawn boy
inspirejulia: is that a cd?
DODDLEDAY: yeah
inspirejulia: ah no
inspirejulia: haha i dont know if i actually have any of their cds
inspirejulia: i have farmhouse though
inspirejulia: and some random mix colin gave me
DODDLEDAY: me to i wanted was seeing if i could copy someones, i only have round room
inspirejulia: ah
inspirejulia: wait so yo uneed to copy farmhouse?
DODDLEDAY: yeah
inspirejulia: i dont think i have a burner, but i can lend you mine if you want
DODDLEDAY: oh thanks!
inspirejulia: no problem
DODDLEDAY: i can copy round room for you if you want
inspirejulia: oh sweet!
inspirejulia: my brother might have some too
DODDLEDAY: cool
inspirejulia: do you like keller williams?'
DODDLEDAY: yeah
inspirejulia: cool me too
DODDLEDAY: i downloaded a few of songs about a month ago i think
inspirejulia: cool
inspirejulia: my dad made me deleate my downloading things
inspirejulia: he thought i was gonna get sued haha
DODDLEDAY: my mom did too, but i saved them on cds
inspirejulia: oh thats cool
inspirejulia: i dont know how to do that
inspirejulia: i'm kind of bad with computers
DODDLEDAY: i found out from this guy in my class
inspirejulia: except the basic stuff
inspirejulia: oh cool
DODDLEDAY: you just need windows media player
inspirejulia: ohhhh i have that i think!
DODDLEDAY: it comes with our laptops
inspirejulia: ohh
inspirejulia: mine isnt from school though
DODDLEDAY: ooh

inspirejulia: but i have it
DODDLEDAY: its free to get
DODDLEDAY: but you just put a cd in and go to copy from cd and itll load the whole cd to your computer
inspirejulia: woah sweet
inspirejulia: i'll try that sometime
DODDLEDAY: cool
That's about as long as our convoserations last. Next one of use will say oh i gotta go and thatll be the end. I never said thank you for that. So Bored. The Caffiene wore off so Im sitting here a shell. Wanna talk to Andy on AIM but he's never on! That angers me. I wanna be lightyears ahead with him instead of lightyears behind with her. But she's fun and easy to be with and he's fun and hard to be with. So confusing.

Answers from the Great Beyond
It feels like I'm just keeping flowers in full bloom just in case some one decides to come into this empty shell called my life. I keep it kept up just in case. Hey do you wanna come in? There's enough room, I'm sure. Stupid cold! My nose is running and I keep sneezing. It's a losing my religion time again...uh oh. That's not good. Time to clean up. Get rid of all the people and things don't matter and the things that I'm losing. Clean the slate. Gotta go do that

Just Feelin Like Woah and Some Other Stuff
My last entry got deleted so I guess I'll just retype it. He's in the room though so I feel like I'm being spied on and that hurts. It hurts more that he's not talking to me and that gives me this sharp pain in my stomach. Unlike the pleasureful pain I get when he does talk to me. Yeah he only talks to me because he thinks I do drugs (which is a whole nother thing I'm confused on right now.) Just so confused! I hate him when he does this, but I love it when he doesn't and that hurts me, but it's the kind of pain I enjoy. I like it when he says stuff like, "Man all you guys suck, except for Ashley, you're cool" It just makes me feel sooo proud and I don't know why. Stupid hormones. My nose is running. Damn it. I'm just iritated and not comfortable at all! He's not helping. None of them are helping. I'm losing them all. So I need to get rid of them before they get rid of me.

Just a Stupid, Long, Sluggish Week
Just wanted to use the word sluggish in an entry or title. So Bored. Sitting with Catherine so I won't be blunt, but I will say that dreams never come true and I hate him and everyone else for it. Read between the lines. I wonder if this will work in Woohu...
&heart; &heart;
Don't know. I haven't found someone who can't keep up with me. All the people I want are lightyears ahead and all the people who want me are lightyears behind. AHAH Screw her. Screw him too. Screw them. I thought you were an english teacher, you're supposed to know english. This is going to be my stupidest entry yet I'm afraid. Sorry.

Father, I Want to Kill You
Yes indeed, tye-die is a wonderful touch to black and white. Had the honors thing today, which sucks because it's just a way for them to boast about how many smart people go to our good ole school. They don't mention that half those kids do drugs and that last year a kid brougt a gun to our good ole' school. It took them an hour to go through all of the kids. We're supposed to wear black and white, but since I forgot I have service on monday. I always forget though and never do it, so who really cares. This is the end beautiful friend, My only friend the end, It hurts to set you free, but you'll never follow me, the end of laughter and soft lies, the end of nights we tryed to die. This is the end. If I ever kill myself those'll be my last words. I wonder if those were Jim Morrisons last words. Show me some love. Secretly listeing to The Doors in study hall. Love that. Plus I'd have gone crazy if I hadn't had my musical fix. It's the heroin and I'm addicted. My eyes have seen you! I want you, but you want him, and he wants her and she wants them and they want me, but I want YOU! Got that from Julia. She'd be an awesome best friend. All the leaves are brown. The Mommas and the Poppas. Change the gear of your soul. Just drifting through the years. Interim is next week. That's were we learn about one topic for a whole week. This years topic, the Truman years. 1948-1952. Wow that's interesting. Not really. Last year was cool because we learnt about movies and we got to watch casablanca, which is my favorite movie of ALL time. I still don't know what the hell I'm doing. But, that doesn't suprise me one bit. I have spanish next and it should be interesting since my mom talked to her on the phone and yelled at her and shit. I hum in class. Music is so fuckin inbedded in my head that I never notice when I'm singing or humming, it's second fuckin nature. Kill me for it. I just want someone to send me a note.

My Fortune Faded
We could talk if days were'nt so fast. Went to the hospital for the blood test thing. To prove if my dad is really my dad. Stupidest thing ever. But they didnt draw my precious blood, instead they took cotton swabs of my mouth, which I prefer. They're making me and my mom do this because my dad hasn't payed child support so my mom is sueing him and all this stuff. Ah the doushe bag. Anyway who cares about that. It's bad stuff. Got a soar throat so that's why Im not at school right now. We went to the store and I got some stuff for it. Now I'm gonna have to make it all up tommorow and that sucks as you can imagine. Really wanted to talk to Hilllary though, but I imagine it would've been awkward. I'm the fuckin bumper man. No one would wanna date me anyway. I'm decayed and I talk too much and have to many views I need to express. I need a protest. It involves pain to look inside. I need to date a revoloutinist. Like Abby and Anita Hoffman. Abby Hoffman is a guy for all you republican retards out there. I'm gonna go eat lunch now.

I've Charmed Everyone Here
Only Julia's on, but I can't talk because I have to go back downstairs later. Hilary is one tricky devil. She invited me to the Ice Ring to be a bumper for her date with Mike. Just so I could keep comversation going. SHe could've told me and I still would've gone! Ahaha how evil. But, Im not a gossip whore so I'm not gonna tell anyone. Well except for my wonderful Woohu and Livejournal and maybe My greatestjournal, but no one reads those. Well, except for Julia. I'm gonna go downstairs now.

My Eyes Have Seen You?
Show me some love. God, how could she ask that question?!?!?! I dont ask her about that so she shouldn't ask me! I shake when I think about it man. Who's the guy who's voice is like heroin? She made my feelings sound so impersonal and stupid. But right now I have to get unconfused.
Here it goes:
I loved colin, but then I saw he was a jerk, but I hated seeing that and she said he was nice, and she was the one who showed me he was a jerk, but then I started liking Andy, but that's more someone I want for a friend even if he is a stoner fuckin druggie, and now all of a sudden there's billy. We have so much shit in common it scares me. Because of Andy and Billy I thought I was over colin, until he said something to me in the hallway and I almost fainted. Sure maybe it was, You're gonna die, but that's how strong it is. But you know what it doesnt matter because Illl never actually date any of them. It hurts to set you free, but you'll never follow me. Lost in a Roman wilderness of pain and all the children are insane. That's me. Insane. Talking to Julia. She confuses me. Im a born actor on the inside. I pick up little bits of other people and make myself out of that. Only a few people can admit that. Im fucked up and that's okay. There's danger on the edge of my mind. Honesty is giving me a headache.

Uh-hu
trying this out man