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:: 2004 5 January :: 7.35 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

I had a lovely day! Winter break ended and we went back to school today. I have gym with Lexi =) and then I have art. Our math class had a lot of ppl taken out of it cuze they were "distractive" Momo left *tear* but Amanda Sikes left too which means TOTAL SWEETNESS BABY! I hate that goddamn bitch. So even though were in school again and I dont like school, I think this semester is gonna kick wicked ass! =D

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:: 2004 4 January :: 4.31 pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: My dad is watching football so all I hear is yelling...

HASH(0x86d123c)
Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
(please rate my quiz)


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HASH(0x88741e0)
You, my friend are a true individual. You most
likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing
things differently, people either admire you or
think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you
are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte
hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all,
continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry,
I am just expressing an opinion)


A Deeper Look Inside Yourself (with pics)
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HASH(0x86efbec)
Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)


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Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||| 62%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||| 58%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 66%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 66%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 46%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Dependent |||||||||||| 50%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 58%
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Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||| 46%
Type 3 Ambition |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 54%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 58%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||| 54%
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:: 2004 3 January :: 4.07 pm
:: Mood: Sad & Cold
:: Music: Goo Goo Dolls-Iris

Its really cold and I'm sad...I wanna go cry in my bedroom or something, I'm gonna go get something to eat.

Iris
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am




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:: 2004 2 January :: 10.00 pm
:: Mood: depressed

Hi guys...hope you all had a good New Year (if you considerate that a holiday...i personally dont give a fuck but some people think of it as a holiday? go figure) School starts back up Monday, oh joy. I hate school and 3/4 the student population, not to mention the evil teachers that top everything off. It pisses me off...a lot of people are changing and it seems like no one is real anymore. I dont really care anymore I guess. As long as I have the people who mean the most to me I'll survive.

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:: 2003 29 December :: 4.59 pm
:: Mood: mellow

"...I know what its like to want to die, how it hurts to smile, how you try to fit in with people but you just cant...how you hurt yourself on the outside to kill the pain on the inside..."

^ from the movie "Girl, Interrupted"

I saw that movie last night on TV...and that HAS to be one of the best movies I have ever seen in my life. Its such a good movie and if any of you have the time to see it I encourage you to take the opportunity. It has changed my out look on suicide a lot and its made me think about depression and death etc. Its hard to explain what I think but if you see the movie I think you will understand where I am coming from...so again if you have ever wanted to die at any given point in your life and you've suffered from depression see the movie...

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:: 2003 28 December :: 9.25 pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Kittie

Hey there people, its so fuckin cold...freezing my bum off. I dont really have to much to say, life is kinda stupid right now a lot of people with probs and lots of drama, but i gota stick by them like a good friend. Hopefully shit will get better soon for them, good things take awhile. Life for me has been good for a change so its nice to be happy or somewhat happy. Heres some more quizzes, goddamn these things are addicting!


Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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crackwhore yellow
Crackwhore Yellow


What Messed Up Crayon Color Are You?
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haha



You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."


The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Dark
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GAME BOY - Born to Play
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.



Ever wanted your picture taken with your favourite
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What kind of girl are you?
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:: 2003 25 December :: 6.38 pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Fuckin Annoying Christmas Music

MERRY FUCKIN CHRISTMAS BITCHES!!!!
Hello people and Happy Holidays, ya know it dont seem like Christmas to me, dunno why, I think its cuze Phoenix just started getting a bit colder a few weeks ago, so maybe thats the problem! THE TEMPERATURE! Oh well. I don't have much to say at the moment but here are some quizzes I am taking cuze I'm bored. =)



Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage &
Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances
are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,
and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a
little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!


What kind of porno would you star in?
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seductive



Your Bedroom Personality Is Aggressive!


You are in control. Period.



What this means:



You decide when, how often, and how to have sex.

Your partner gets little to no say...

Your sex style tends toward sadistic, even if you don't inflict pain.



What your lovers love about you:



You are an ideal mistress or master.

Your lover has the luxury of experiencing pleasure

While relaxing and letting go.



What your lovers can't stand about you:



You are at times overly demanding and bossy

If your lover isn't in the mood, (s)he won't dare tell you

And sexual input? Forget it... you won't even listen.



What's *Your* Bedroom Personality?

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:: 2003 14 December :: 7.01 pm
:: Mood: blah

I feel like shit...this girl at my church, well her dad just died last night...her name is Raina. Its so sad cuze her father was a really good person who was always laughing and helping people out around the church and any moron could tell he loved his son and daughter and his wife...but he died last night in a motorcycle accident. I hope her and her family will be alright..........still working on my math paper it has to be at least 25 pages in length, fucking teacher, all he wnated us to do was copy out of the fuckin book so instead of doing other thins that must be done he makes us do this shit and right when finals are coming...wonderful. This week is gonna be a good one though, cuze its very short and this week is the last before winter break! YIPPY SKIPPY! =D I had some other stuff I wanted to say but I cant remeber now...well people I am gonna work on my paper now, I cant stall any longer *sigh* buh bye

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:: 2003 13 December :: 7.57 pm
:: Mood: sick

I am still fuckin sick...go figure...anyways I am bored here are some quizes i have taken, if your as bored as I am I suggest take some quizes...

Goth
You are a REAL GOTH. Congradulaions :) Let Darkness
Be Your Guided Light. (You must be
artistic...some how all goths are. drawing,
painting, musician. stuff like that)


Are you a TRUE goth?
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HASH(0x87d7758)
schizotypal


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Stereotype Are You?
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:: 2003 11 December :: 6.23 pm
:: Mood: resting and thinking
:: Music: piano music by Sally Harman

I didn't go to school today again...I've been really tired, so tomorrow I am going to stay home from school again because I am not ready for finals since I have been sick. Yesterday Steph informed me shes going to the hospital for her cutting as soon as they have a bed open for her. I hope it helps at least a little, I love her very much and it hurts to see her in pain everyday...hopefully they will be able to get her on the right track with medication and stuff...if this doesn't help I am going to be scared. Its not fair...some of the kindest people that I know have had some of the hardest lives...they didn't deserve any of it, but I guess its their experiences that have made them such strong and wonderful people. I think to myself sometimes "damn I have such a sucky life" but then I look at my friends and their lives and I see how much pain they have to indoor, whether they have drug addicts for parents or if they get beaten, or if they just don't have parents at all...it makes me think twice about my life and how I should never take ANYTHING for granted. I hope that the people who have to live everyday in pain will be able to truely be happy one day...

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