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2007 2 July :: 12.49 am
just a quick though.....
IF hillary clinton is elected president, i probably won't have the money to move to canada, nor will they let me in. So I will buy a flag pole and fly the rebel flag every day she is president.
/thought
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2007 1 July :: 11.04 pm
progress.
you know, lately i feel like i've been making progress in life.
i look at some of my friends, not naming any names at all, but i look at some of them and they don't have jobs arn't going to school, they just exist.
i've been taking my ritalin again, i can concentrate on doing tasks i compleatly hate doing like homework. It also gives me ambition, last wednesday i took some before i went to my class, i got to math and realised that i didn't check my schedule and that my math class is on mondays and thursdays so i went home and cleaned my car. by clean, i mean the interior is spotless the only thing in it right now are my keys, 4 AAA batterys, my radio, my headphones, and my CD's. in the trunk i have a gas can and a few tools. I vaccumed, scrubbed the carpets, powerwashed the floor mats washed the dash and even claned the stuff out of the glove box.
as far as life goes right now, I feel GREAT, i feel like i'm on top of the wold and nothing can bring me down.
I look back on where I was last year; I was in a job that I dreaded getting up for each day, A relationship that I compleately regretted and wished I would have gone a compleatly different way back then.
8 Months ago; I was beginning college, very very excited about it. I got there and my relationship ended 6 days after I started it seemed like a blessing because I didn't have to deal with the nagging and whining when I came home on the weekends, Progress starts.
6 Months ago; Febuary, the distance of college was taking its toll on me, I wanted to be home with my friends, my uncle passed away, I wasn't doing to hot, Ohio wasn't to friendly with me. I had thoughts of scuicide, Lizzy and Andy we're going to come and pick me up one night but I told them not to.
5 Months ago; I quit college and have been depressed since.
Currently; I am going to G.R.C.C. to get some general credits taken care of, I'm back on medication and doing really well in school. There is a new female interest in my life, someone that I've known for a really long time and I know wouldn't ever do me wrong.
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and finally an update on the stuff thats happened today.
Justin McWilliams shows up around noonish, my Dad, Justin, and I hop our asses up on the roof and finish it. Kayleigh Calls me and her and Chase come over, was good hanging out with them, Later We went to the mud runs in Sand Lake. Kayleigh left when we got there, Chase, Justin and I saw a bunch of people there that we knew, I had fun. Then we came home and watched some movies, I took chase home before dinner and tried to fix their computer, I don't know if I was successful or not but I tried.
Steak for dinner, Helped my Dad carry some stuff up from the basement to the dumster, wen't and fueled up the Tempo, stopped by Howies and hung out with Jennie for awhile, I miss her as my boss.
Came home, Finished my homework and now here I am, Writing a Woohu entry that is taking me 21 minutes.
Good Night.
thanks for reading.
- The BeaVe
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2007 30 June :: 11.03 pm
put some stuff on the back burner tonight, was going to go to nates, but we got done roofing and i'm whooped, was supposed to go to mirandas but again whooped, mitch wanted me to come hang out with them guys, but whopped.
skipped running last night because i was sore from the other night.
skipped it tonight because i'm way to tired to do anything.
confused a little bit about stuff but thats normal.
looking forward to going and watching the mud runs in sand lake tomorrow around 2 roof should be finished.
if my cam is here by wednesday it will be put into the motor and the truck put together.
mounds trip on the 21st hoping i don't break anything.
i'm getting better with money, i'm stashing $50 from every check away. the rest goes to car parts or paying bills. or getting me to and from college.
i got my hair cut, i have side burnns tan lines from where they used to be, i think i look better now.
kate is on her way home, i hope she brought me some of poland back.
anywho, off to sleep. i'm whooped good night.
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2007 30 June :: 2.19 pm
spent like $150 today, havn't seen anything from it yet.
ordered a cam from summit, then i ordered a TRD shirt from toyota.
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2007 29 June :: 11.38 pm
its friday night, i'm all alone.
:(
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2007 28 June :: 9.48 pm
well, i just left MA 104 an hour and a half early. i got bored so i was like "hey, what are we doing next week" and the teacher told me we have a test i was like "okay"
and i went home.
i like college. but MA 104 is easy as shit, it bores the fuck out of me. everyone is dumb in that class.
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2007 27 June :: 10.00 pm
just got back from another run, i ran farther before slowing down this time, definatally out of shape, but getting better.
my female intrest came over today and we hung out again, good times. i got my hair cut, and she cut my sideburns off and i have a sideburn tan line now haha.
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2007 26 June :: 10.31 pm
today was going great, class got out early, i got everything together for the truck, i called this girl i like, she didn't answer but she called me back. shit was going GREAT until i put the cam into the motor and i stripped the middle cam cap bolt hole, i dont know if i can helicoil it and it will be fine or if the head is junk, if the head is junk i'm going to be pissed because i just bought it.
after i got home from work, i ate some dinner and went for a run. the run helped me get my thoughts together and calm down. i think i might do it regularly now.
oh well,
BeaVe
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2007 25 June :: 6.53 pm
i'm done for good with this lexapro generic knockoff...
i'll deal with depression my own way, pills don't work for me.
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2007 25 June :: 7.22 am
what do you do when anti-depressents make you worse?
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2007 23 June :: 11.40 pm
tonight was fun.
today i went and got the head for my motor, met this kid from GL4X4 and he had an AWESOME truck. way way cooler than mine, but yeah.
then i went and hung out with a friend of mine and helped her with some work, had a great time. and i'm just overall happy right now.
good night.
-Justin
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2007 22 June :: 9.38 pm
forecast for the weekend looks great,
so far, tonight i bought a set of wheels and tires for my truck, the tires are 33x12.5R15 on 15x12 slotted mag aluminium wheels. i wanted these wheels for my cutlass sooo bad, my uncle found them at a yard sale for $125 he talked 'em down to $75 :D haha
tomorrow box and i are going to ypsilanti(sp?) well, newboston its over by there to get a head for my motor. afterwards i get to help build a fence, then after that who knows. hopefully something cool. :D
sunday is probably going to be spend working on the truck, MAYBE MAYBE monday it will run, not likely but there is a slim slim chance
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2007 20 June :: 5.20 pm
i see alot of animals at work i like keeping track of stuff i see.
so here is a list:
a whole buncha seagulls
almost a whole buncha turkey vultures
4 turkeys
1 gopher, i almost cought it
quite a few frogs/toads
1 woodchuck, its fate was a 12 gauge shotgun, 3 shots to the gun then throw into the road
1 water snake, i've never seen one before i was ventureing into this area where there was a pond and i kinda guessed that there was going to be snakes around, i look in the pond and this water snake is just swimming around, it was fast as shit too.
tomorrow i've got a doctors appointment at 2:30ish, i'm going to be in GR if anyone wants me to hang out, gimmie a ring or something
hopefully i'll get back on ritalin for my ADD and some anti-depressants.
if i do, i'll be a compleatly different person then i beilve.
also, i'm done partying for awhile, i know i never partied to much before, but it just isn't for me i guess. anywho, i'm off to the pool to sip margaritas and enjoy this beautiful day. HAR HAR HAR~~~!!!~~!!111eleven1111!!!!one
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2007 19 June :: 10.51 pm
dissapointment
oh well, shit happens.
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2007 18 June :: 7.21 pm
Tonight was just made 10 times better and nothing barely happened.
but i feel alot better.
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