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2005 16 May :: 7.50 pm
today i have realized something... people complain alot. and you know what i am at the top of that list. why do i complain about everything??? i want to know. and now i am complaining about complaining. ok i think i need to grow up alot, hell i am going to be 18 in july and i am still acting like a child. i take responcibility but there is something missing. i dont know what yet but i will find it out.
in other news... me and the t man are doing very well, his open house is June 4th for anyone who cares, if u need directions let me know and i will get them to you! god i love that boy- he is wonderful. i know, its hard to imagine someone with such a shell like him is wonderful but he is!!!!!!!!
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2005 11 May :: 10.22 am
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Greenday
Irritation, and a little nervousness
ok first i would like to make the statement.... ya'll elected a wonderful guy for class pres. he's gonna get stuff done, maybe in a different way, but cshs needed a change. all that girly bs was exactly that bs....
on to new things....
these friggin invite things are making me insane. i need a photo editer program for my comp. but i lost my disc for all that...so if anyone has a good program for that let me know. i want to put his face on here but all the pics i have are truly not ones he would want on there. he has all these ideas of how he wants them, but its all confusing. no one listens to my advice on making it simple. i guess simple is boring and soooo out of style. so forget that.
the band awards was fun. i think some awards should have been differently distributed, but thats just my opinion. tryouts for field commander are next week and i am so nervous. i dont know who he is thinking of, i hope its me. i really really want to lead this band into victory. there are so many things that need to change, and even though i dont really like Jamie, i think her and me can do wonderful things with the band. i may seem immature, but i love the band. its so important, and i want it to be great!!!!!!!!!!!
yes i am a band geek. and i am damn proud of it!!!!1
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2005 10 May :: 10.38 am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Adema
GOD I HATE BEING A GIRL
the band dessert is night... wohoo i get lettered,,, again. this is rather exciting. tj gets to bless my house with his precence....if thats what you want to call it. the computer illiterate needs help with is stuff for graduation so i have offered my services. im making brownies for tonight! they will be the best ever!
on to more... well smart stuff....
i am now begining to understand how the miller family actually works. last night i made the finding that i did not get along with anyone. i cant spend more then five minutes with anyone in my family. we are all a bunch of stuck up people. we always think we are right. then i realize that when they move to indiana i dont want to move with them... of course i want to go to indiana, but i dont want to be with them i want to be on my own. hopefully i can find a job, and the whole college thing. but i really get it now. we all hate each other. its a simple fact. we act like little children when we fight. like yesturday to make each other mad we all turned up to the max whatever it was we were watching or listening too. i was trying to do my homework and it made it hard with various loud noises and yelling in the background.
oh i found out i am really good at giving advice! i guess anyways!
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2005 9 May :: 10.11 am
:: Mood: confused
the weekend of...well fun
so this weekend was a blast. its so wonderful to spend an entire weekend with him! i know its a little corny and what not, but what can i say i love him! thats all...
hmmm. im not so sick anymore and it makes me happy... i hate being sick... my geneous manager schedualed me to work on sun... god it makes me mad i have fricken band concert. it was right there on the schedual that i gave her. stupid stupid stupid.
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2005 5 May :: 10.07 am
well today marks... absolutely nothing. i have been searching online for this stupid picure for roughly 20 mins and i have yet to find the perfect picture for my flag on my paper. arg is all i can think. i am sicker then a dawg! and i cant really breathe. tomorrow us senoir skip day and even thoughi am not a senior, i will be gone. off to hang out with the t man. i guess me n heather and the boys are schedualed to hang out on the weekend of the 27th. heathers paying for it so its all good.
i hate being sick, i keep coughing in junk. i have to work tonight too and working with a cold is not what i like to call fun...
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2005 2 May :: 10.40 am
Prom sucked major hinney- i have to work wed-fri this week. yay. i guess tomorrow is fine arts night and i get to play! yay. i have realized something in light of the whole dani thing. i know what it is like to be busy with other stuff. but band will always come first. it has to. its the only thing that makes me happy. im going to be a band teacher so therefore it must be first. i may not be the best, i may not spend tons of money on lessons, but i love it! i went to BOA as a freshman, and realized the music was going to be in my life forever!i dont care what gets in my, nothing will keep me from it....
as for dani, she says " you see when your a senior" well as i see it now, she's just too weak to handle the pressure. life doesnt just stop so you can take a breather... grow up and become an adult!!
thats whats wrong with everyone. they dont want responsibility, they just want everything handed to them...ERR
I WILL BE 18 IN 2 MONTHS!!!!!!!!
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2005 28 April :: 10.16 am
arg- so i told dani off like i have wanted to since the whole pep band incident... god i feel so good. prom is tomorrow and i am way excited. yay prom- the frost this morning was somewhat depressing. we are in the middle of spring and its freakin cold! i wish god would make up his mind.
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2005 25 April :: 10.10 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: ACDC
Dance around and be happy
so the bill is an official member of team kfc/a&w. that brian kid that was following me around got fired so i no longer have to deal with him. hopefully, he does tend to just show up places...places im at, like school, or the parking lot after work.
i will soon be finding out if i won anything for my story about censorship... im excited... OK i didnt win jack, but hey its ok, right.
prom has all of my attention right now. i am so very excited, but at the same time i am afraid, but then i think i will be with tj- and that makes it all better! its supposed to be cold all week and it really sucks. but oh well. all my winter-wear will be finding its way out of my closet
fine arts night is next week and mea nd katy have to come up with a thrid clarinet or put another duet together since shae cant play due to his asthema. and he dont want to go to prom since he cant drive! ERR ALL KINDS OF CRAP BE HAPPENING
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2005 21 April :: 10.16 am
:: Mood: drained
Your gonna die
u urge you all to go and read my poems i just added a new one its called ALL ALONE i think... go to www.poetrypoem.com/bloodbathbabe
this is where is all is!
besides that there is nothing to do. i dont have to go to class tomorrow due to the fact i will be in lansing and then tj is comeing over and he gets to see the new car! yeah and the toyota is mine officially.. so in the next couple weeks get ready to see me in a new pimped ride! lol.
i have to work tonight and i really dont wanna but good news! bill will be joining the kfc team!
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5 20 April :: 10.10 am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Caravan -band song
as a matter of fact
work last night was not what i would call fun. but its work and i guess it is not supposed fun. this whole car thing is making me very angry and im bout to just go off! my mom told me the car was being purchased for my use, then she gets me the car (which i have to pay for) and tells me that its not for me but for the family and that i will be able to use whatever car is available when i need it. im not going to pay for a car that i wount use!
anyways besides that i get to go to the little kids school today and help the seventh grade band. its fun cause they boost my self-esteem. truly. call me wierd but i love being able to go over there and see how much help they need, and the fact that i can help them makes me feel important.
TJ: i promise i wont ever do it again- im a bad kid i know- but i wont ever ever do it again!-Love ya!
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2005 19 April :: 10.39 am
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: commercial
Little boy blue!!!!
So he didnt totaly freak out like i thought he would... which is good...
i got the the car my it's hot... i tell you if that car was a man ohh *giggles
anyways i think i wil lbe getting the toyota- it doesnt look that hard to figure out. truly.
went to the mall it was great! then dinner with the t man- we whoped butt at this game thing. then we got suddenly stupid- but yeah we're smart together. see this means its all perfect! right.
Michelle is my hero!
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2005 18 April :: 10.22 am
:: Mood: gloomy
teehee
Love Me
Love me good,
and love me strong,
love me now,
don't love me wrong.
Love me forever,
don't ask why.
Love me for always,
don't say goodbye.
Love me here,
love me now,
I know love,
I'll show you how.
Love me right,
love me free
I know how love's
supposed to be.
Love my life,
love my soul.
Hold me close,
don't let go.
Love me now,
like I love you,
with no betrayals,
or unpaid dues.
Whatever you do,
I'm asking you please,
the way I love you,
just love me.
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2005 18 April :: 10.08 am
I didn't mean it!
a note to Tj
~all i can say is im sorry.~
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2005 16 April :: 9.08 pm
today was rather ummm boring, i went to the soccer Tourni and it was friggin just a waste of time. the t man is over here and talking cars with my bro. god i hate him (bro). anyways my parents are making me just wanna pack up and leave. my new car is a stick and well they dont think i will be able drive a stick. its like they have no faith in me, so i will be getting my moms taurus... yay old lady mobile. they never have faith in me. AM I JUST THAT STUPID OR SOMETHING... god they make me angry
oh well shit happens and there aint a whole lot i can do about it right now- well for another 2 1/2 months then FREEDOM well kinda.... im outie love yall
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2005 15 April :: 10.37 am
:: Music: fuzzy logic--errrrrrr-jake is make us listen to it
What my day has been...
we played for the little kids today, and even though i hate children it was loads of fun. next friday i am helping out with my moms preschool carnival and so is tj. i think. he said he would and he'll be helping me with the popcorn.mmmm popcorn. now im hungry. lunch is in like an hour so i must wait.
this counsoler story is kickin my butt...
~time for reflection~
i noticed, and this is just my view, that as of lately people have become careless. it may have been happening for a long time but i have just noticed. people fail classes and dont think twice about it. they thinkg everything will be handed to them and a silver platter. no one wants to work for anyting. we have become lazy and i cant stand it anymore. people take life as it is and accept it. they dont want to fight for anything. problems dont get solved. WHY HAVE WE CHANGED SO MUCH!!!!
~~reflection over~~
now its back to the real world for me ---i love ya tj!
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